Zara

i bring an “excluded since childhood” vibe to the function

i think the moon would like you

why? did she say something to you? tell me word for word

she said you are trying your best and she’s proud of you no matter what.

you will feel so alive again.. like so incredibly alive. i dont know when that will be but it will be. u are gonna feel so alive that ur cheeks hurt from smiling oh man oh man i promise that day is coming. you do have a future, you do have good things coming, and you’ll survive everything that’s thrown at you until you reach that day

kind of weird how parts of your soul are left in various locations without any warning… like yes i’m always at the top of that hill, sitting at the bus stop, in the cool light of the Japanese restaurant, standing at the pier etc etc

i would like to go on a little walk with someone, hand in hand, to the seaside and acquire warm beverages together. if it isn’t too much trouble.

please do not ask me what my plans for the future are, im quite literally still not convinced that i am even a real person

the real danger of spending too much time with friends is you stumble out of ten days of happiness and good food like oh my god THAT was real life. my job means NOTHING

i believe you can always get back to yourself. you can always soften into being again. no matter how long you might be stuck in a pattern of unhappiness, of being jaded, of feeling guarded from the world in some way. there is always a path back. give yourself a chance to find it.