YuzuDiaryyy

I've grown a mouth so sharp and cruel

It's all that I can give to you, my dear

And when you come in quick to steal a kiss

My teeth will only cut your lips, my dear

And I know that you mean so well

But I am not a vessel for your good intent

I will only break your pretty things

I will only wring you dry of everything

And if you're fine with that

currently reading: homesick or another world by Ottessa Moshfegh (still bc i forgot about it)

last song: Criminal, Fiona Apple

last movie: nosferatu

last series: bojack horseman

sweet/savory/salty: sweet

tea or coffee: tea

working on: nothing really

Currently reading: Sorcery and Religion in Ancient Scandinavia by Varg Vikernes

Last song: Extinction Algorithm in Procession by Unfathomable Ruination

Last movie: The downfall

Last series: mlp

Sweet

Coffee

Working on myself and on my mental health

Currently reading: The knife of never letting go; No longer human

Last song: Take me - G-dragon; I deserve to bleed - 2025 remastered (cannot remember which one was last)

Last movie: Night on the galactic railroad

Last series: One piece

Sweet/Savory/Salty: Sweet (but not too much)

Tea or coffee: tea, I cannot drink coffee 🥺

Working on: surviving 🫠 studies, mental health, emotional issues...

My family has always been so obsessed with food and have always been so annoying with that, they have ALWAYS annoyed me with how little or how much or what I eat, like LEAVE ME TF ALONE!!! I've never been able to eat much (I don't think I eat little, but I just can't stuff as much food in my stomach as what seems to be a "normal" amount). They are literally so obsessed with food that it began to seem disgusting to me, I don't care that much about food, if it's good then good, but I don't really care, when I was little I was a picky eater (and they didn't stop being REALLY annoying with that until I turned 15 even if I started to eat anything on my plate when I was like 10, to which I think it's pretty normal for a 9yo to be kind of a picky eater), but rn I really don't care about the taste of food, even if it tastes disgusting, if the taste is unbereable I'll just swallow it down with water and that's it. I'm also very short and I was a very skinny girl, even if I was very active and seated whatever I wanted and the food on my house is NOT a light one, I was just like that and I didn't ever feel sick or anything (and trust me, I grew up used to very hard physical activity). But every adult around me seemed to have a problem with how I looked. I was always skinny shamed and some even called me 4n0rexlc at 11, they used to get angry with me for eating "too little" even if I ate until feeling sick trying to please them, they always criticized and made fun of me for being built "like a stick" and sht. Specially at like 12-14 I tried really hard to gain weight, I used to eat until feeling sick and then ate more, I tried exercising more and all that just to please them, even if I didn't feel really bad about my body, but then they had the audacity to call me fat??????????? FUCK YALL

At the moment that I stopped eating by force and just what I felt like eating, enjoyed exercising and felt really good about my body, the first thing they say when they see me is that??????

I decided that I would just do whatever the fuck I want and look how I want to look, and everyone has some issue with what I eat, what a surprise...

They made me feel disgusted by food, I'm really disgusted by their obsession with food, every time they want to do something it has something to do with food, and they are such food lovers. Logically, I think there isn't anything inherently wrong with that, but I just grew so disgusted by it, and they are always so fucking annoying. No, I don't like eating that much, I don't like eating until feeling like throwing up, I don't like eating for the sake of it, I don't like spending a whole day just eating, I don't like eating

I'm just so fucking done with this, now my crush is also a big foodie, and it's okay, but It sometimes reminds me of my family, it's really cute when he gets on with something that he likes, but it just reminds me so much of them...

What a fucking surprise that I developed an 3d... And you know what? Idgaf, I'll eat or not eat what I fucking want because I want and I can and it's none of anyone else's business. I accidentally talked too much and he knows about my 3d and sometimes (almost always that there's a situation with food potentially involved) gets really pushy with making me eat, he also loves to cook and, I'm happy with eating what he cooks, but ik that sometimes he does it just to make me eat something and then it annoys me again

It's kind of funny how as a sapphic woman, all women just seem gorgeous to me in all forms and sizes, short, tall, fat, skinny, chubby, petite, curvy, "flat" (as I was called lots of times), you're all beautiful, gorgeous, cute, pretty, perfect and amazing 💕✨

My family has always been so obsessed with food and have always been so annoying with that, they have ALWAYS annoyed me with how little or how much or what I eat, like LEAVE ME TF ALONE!!! I've never been able to eat much (I don't think I eat little, but I just can't stuff as much food in my stomach as what seems to be a "normal" amount). They are literally so obsessed with food that it began to seem disgusting to me, I don't care that much about food, if it's good then good, but I don't really care, when I was little I was a picky eater (and they didn't stop being REALLY annoying with that until I turned 15 even if I started to eat anything on my plate when I was like 10, to which I think it's pretty normal for a 9yo to be kind of a picky eater), but rn I really don't care about the taste of food, even if it tastes disgusting, if the taste is unbereable I'll just swallow it down with water and that's it. I'm also very short and I was a very skinny girl, even if I was very active and seated whatever I wanted and the food on my house is NOT a light one, I was just like that and I didn't ever feel sick or anything (and trust me, I grew up used to very hard physical activity). But every adult around me seemed to have a problem with how I looked. I was always skinny shamed and some even called me 4n0rexlc at 11, they used to get angry with me for eating "too little" even if I ate until feeling sick trying to please them, they always criticized and made fun of me for being built "like a stick" and sht. Specially at like 12-14 I tried really hard to gain weight, I used to eat until feeling sick and then ate more, I tried exercising more and all that just to please them, even if I didn't feel really bad about my body, but then they had the audacity to call me fat??????????? FUCK YALL

At the moment that I stopped eating by force and just what I felt like eating, enjoyed exercising and felt really good about my body, the first thing they say when they see me is that??????

I decided that I would just do whatever the fuck I want and look how I want to look, and everyone has some issue with what I eat, what a surprise...

They made me feel disgusted by food, I'm really disgusted by their obsession with food, every time they want to do something it has something to do with food, and they are such food lovers. Logically, I think there isn't anything inherently wrong with that, but I just grew so disgusted by it, and they are always so fucking annoying. No, I don't like eating that much, I don't like eating until feeling like throwing up, I don't like eating for the sake of it, I don't like spending a whole day just eating, I don't like eating

I'm just so fucking done with this, now my crush is also a big foodie, and it's okay, but It sometimes reminds me of my family, it's really cute when he gets on with something that he likes, but it just reminds me so much of them...

What a fucking surprise that I developed an 3d... And you know what? Idgaf, I'll eat or not eat what I fucking want because I want and I can and it's none of anyone else's business. I accidentally talked too much and he knows about my 3d and sometimes (almost always that there's a situation with food potentially involved) gets really pushy with making me eat, he also loves to cook and, I'm happy with eating what he cooks, but ik that sometimes he does it just to make me eat something and then it annoys me again

Shut it I literally hate you...

"Let's cut together!" "Wanna fast together??" "Let's pull all night like a sleepover!"