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There are dozens of messages like this and I can't answer them all, but a brief update and check in with this one feels nice. Some of this you might have caught on IG stories but I'll just do a little yapping here too.

I'm sad, obviously, but I can tell that I had made peace with the eventuality of it all after the transfusions earlier this year. By all rights, Haru probably should have died. His HCT was at 4 back then, and basically any time anemic cats get into the 20s they act like they're literally on death's doorstep...so for Haru to have fought back so hard and recovered so well was a miracle in itself.

When I saw what was coming outta him this time, I knew it was different, and quickly made peace with it after a bit of denial.

His good days these past few months coincided with my good days. I've been terribly anxious about his health, to the point of staying home, avoiding events, etc. and I'm sure it contributed to a lot of my work anxiety as well since my studio is away from home now.

Knowing that he's not in pain and in constant risk of being one bad day away from it all crashing down is a relief. I hate, hate, hate that it happened so soon. I thought we had years. I thought the chemo was going to help. I thought he'd live to see me get better. And that's the part that will stick with me.

But at the same time, there is peace. He didn't suffer. He almost certainly would have if we kept fighting. He was tired, but so happy to be in my arms. As much as I wanted him to be surrounded by our family, for Mochi and the others to get their goodbyes as well, I think we were lucky to be able to let him go peacefully.

It's a terrible decision to have to make, but it was one that I fully committed to last time around as well, and thankfully it never came to it. So that initial hurdle was cleared months ago, and I think has spared me the kind of devastation that I was feeling back then versus now.

My primary concern now is just making sure I stay home a bit instead of just burying myself in work or soothing my self with little adventures, because I don't want to add to the stress on the cats. They've definitely clocked that Haru is away, there were some pictures I shared where everyone gathered in my bedroom around Haru when he was sick. I think they knew at that point, because getting everyone to sit idle in one corner and be awake all at once is something that NEVER happens lol

They would have smelled him before we left, and the ick in the litterbox, and the droplets on the floor. It's sad (and gross) but part of the reality of it all. So they know. And they've taken care of me just as much as each other. Mochi is the one who'll feel it the most. He basically raised Haru like his own little baby, and they'd groom each other each night (and then fight about it) and sleep next to each other. We are lucky that Flea and Mochi share a similar bond...he just...mounts her occasionally. LOL

So I'm okay. I've been to the studio to troubleshoot some internet issues we were having. After hours I discovered that I simply needed to unplug the ethernet cable because it was breaking the wifi. Then I had to find a wifi dongle for my other PC there, and the super cool expensive one to ensure I had decent speed DIDN'T WORK so after additional hours of troubleshoot, I switched brands and it immediately worked. Because of course it did.

Been cleaning up and organizing at home as well. More of the same really, it feels like I'm in a constant cycle of chores I can't focus on long enough to knock out quick enough before more pile up.

I've thought up a very cute way to memorialize Haru once he gets back to me, and will share when it's all done. I miss him terribly, but am thankful for all of his love and the incredible memories we made. My cats are real special, and I'm honored to take care of them. I wish you all could see what the day to day life is like with them, because it hardly even seems real. They're so distinct and silly and fun.

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are you even listening?

Is this...a meme I'm unfamiliar with? I'm an older gentleman, you know. I don't get a lot of these references because I'm isolated and watch videos of home restorations with my breakfast. 😂

The ink at the tip of Finneas' quill was long dry. Idle blotches and drips scattered around the top of the parchment of a would-be letter he attempted to pen an hour ago. Recent months were filled with discoveries beyond his wildest dreams, yet in these desperate moments the troubled mage couldn't find the words.

Silence was a rare gift in the tower these days. The absence of the whirring drone of aetheric portals to the Beyond made him uneasy. Down the crisscrossing stairs and corridors of the magical tower Finneas called home, Faust was sound asleep for the first time in days.

Discovering that the threads of reality were not as tightly woven as once believed by all who came before them was proving to be a challenge in ways he could never have expected.

He believed they'd found precious, delicate truth.

His darker half believed they'd found power. Horrifying, tremendous power.

What little candlelight remained was scarcely enough to keep the darkness at bay. This unwritten letter was meant for the other truth he'd discovered in the Beyond. The fact that without their beloved Weaver this beautiful tapestry of magic and mischief the trio created together was doomed to fray and unravel in ways that would have dire consequences.

*tap tap tap*

Stargarden truthers...are you out there..........

First verse Faust, second verse Finneas. Do with that what you will.

Frustratingly we don't have a ton of answers and literally on Monday we had bloodwork done and he was looking great. So in the course of 5 days things went wrong and it was only apparent today.

It feels like we might be coming up on being out of options, unfortunately. Right now I'm just trying to buy him time to hopefully get some answers and find some kind of solution, but if the bleed is this bad and we're already at the point of trying our best options for long term care, I worry we might just be running out of options.

And that sucks. I've just wanted to try my best to get him all the help I could and try to make sure he was comfortable and happy. And he has been. I just don't know how we'll overcome this.

I was just starting to feel like I was ln the other side of all these struggles but we're not quite there yet.

It's okay! I'm relieved that was the case, you'd be surprised how small fandoms can have people being weird like that so I try to stay hypervigilant and weed out any stuff like that if it looks some type of way.

Anyway, among other things, something I think you'd enjoy about it is the writer's approach to storytelling. He did a bit of a qna episode where he talked about leaving contemporary music because he wanted to make something that made people feel things, and for him that was typical modern storytelling, like E.T., but also he realized that once you understood that basic formula you could fill it with all kinds of weird variables and people would engage with stuff outside their norms. I remember you talked in a live stream about why you loved storytelling, and although the reasons aren't identical I can see the same passion in both your works, so there's a chance you will too! Or not.

Happy July!

One of my less desirable character traits is that I am prone to being a jealous, bitter fuck. Which means if any sort of media treads too closely to my own vision and lane or passion I have to actively suppress the angst of me not actively creating my own thing and pushing myself to reach my potential as a creative.

So this unfortunately sounds like it would be too close to home. 😂

Did you know that Love Language theory was created by a Southern Baptist pastor and marriage counselor? And that it was actually a big piece of the weird ass shit I went through with my brief marriage to my high school not so sweetheart after we graduated? That last bit is a little piece of trivia you probably wouldn't have known. 😂

So, the easy answer is that these fictional characters are all meant to be adaptable to individual listeners and locking them into any one archetype actually runs the risk of breaking the fantasy and limits what sort of content I could make for them in their more fluffy boyfriend experience content.

I just saw moth Seth artwork.

Can you imagine how utterly fucked it would be for someone to come to me in the hopes that I would piss on that concept so soon after it was posted? That feels kinda icky if ya ask me.

I think all sorts of those ideas are great. We've seen puppy Seth, moth Seth, and I'm sure others I haven't considered.

But thinking I'd engage with the concept in a "is this good, or is there a better one" type of way is not really my vibe and I'm side eyeing the whole thing because it feels like it could be someone trying to be petty. Or just painfully unaware of how shit like that can look in a fandom space.

The answer is probably the Director's Cut for BitterSweet chapter 1, but i got about 75% through with it and lost everything I had recorded...and did it again.

Still thinks it's the most fun I've had. But the psychic damage I took from having to start over fresh was significant.

I think it was an experience where I was uniquely confident about the material, the expanded interactions between Seth and Alphonse were just too damn good. I felt like I was really hitting that shit.

Even now nearly a decade into this, I still feel uneasy when I'm not super locked in. Recent recordings have required several early takes to try and get me into the zone. Lots of times I just have to accept that I'm aiming for something that isn't there and gotta keep it moving.

But there are times where things feel incredibly right. I hope i have more of that soon.

I think celebrating character birthdays is a wonderful thing for fans.

I have to be reminded of my closest friends and family's birthdays multiple times in the weeks leading up to the date. I cannot treat my characters birthdays as yet another deadline or task to prepare for. 😂

But I think it's awesome that people are celebrating! I just don't think bait reminders like this are going to get anything you want out of me, and are actually a source of stress, not joy. Wish it was different but I ain't built like that unfortunately!

I'll be trying to reblog fanart and stuff to celebrate but that's all I've got for now.