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I think this has finally cured me from depression and anxiety.

Now I can continue work on gameplay and graphics related stuff.

And I hate the fact that this shit paralyzes me so I can’t work on my game. When I’m anxious and depressed I feel like my game isn’t worth working on and I feel zero excitement about it. It’s ridiculous how often my mood changes.

The next thing I want to learn is sculpting and I guess I should buy a tablet for that. And guess what: Blender does sculpting amazingly well too!!!

Next step is to create my own character sprites for the player entity and few first mob entitys. Using Blender of course! The Python 3 API in Blender is very powerful, makes it easy to export 3D models as isometric tilesets or spritesheets with a click of a button!

I guess it’s a good thing, but sometimes I feel like I’d just want to rest and take it easy, sit on the sofa or something, but I just can’t, because being like that just increases my anxiety and anxiety is the exact thing I want to minimize in my own being. Constantly creating something is stressful, even though I like it and I like the feeling of achieving things.

Tomorrow I’ll go swimming again, at least the pool hall is warm and cozy and lit up and bright.

Now I have to do the same for sprites, but this time I have to render each sprite model from 8 angles + different animation frames! I think it’ll be quite easy too, since the blender python API is so nice.

As you can see, diagonal paths that should be blocked require some more work. I guess I have to double the resolution of the path traversal grid to catch those.

The graphics in the video are all placeholders and are not mine. Next step is to create my own graphics and the tooling/workflow for creating such graphics.

This is absolutely amazing! I was simply burnt out because of my previous job and it took over 2 months to recover this much from it all!

I’ve been procrastinating the last 2 months quite actively and now that I’ve spent few evenings developing my game idea further I feel absolutely amazing! It’s being passive what affects my mental health status negatively, I understand that much now. From now on, I’ll try to work on my game at least a little bit every evening from monday to friday! Last evening it felt so good when I got the Entity animation system working and I I clicked a monster and my player entity walked up to it and swinged at it with a an attack (with a sword) animation!! I divided generic entity animations to 4 groups (idle, walk, melee, magic) for now and called it an evening!

One chocolate cake base incoming!

Today I feel like my depression is gone. It’s amazing. No more chronic tiredness, no more depression. I don’t believe it lasts for long, but I’m gonna enjoy this while it lasts!