your true sanctuary

I build things for a living, so I treat every new platform as a teardown. What's the architecture, where are the seams, when does the mask slip. With SweetDream the teardown kept stalling because I couldn't find the seam. The chat stayed natural across long stretches, the personality I authored held firm, and the small details I'd added kept resurfacing on their own.

What got me reflective was the range of presence on offer. Text that actually remembers, voice messages with real texture, phone calls that sound human, and with certain characters, video calls and live cam sessions too. Each layer of an AI companion you can shape yourself, from face to fears to the way she laughs. And all of it stays private, which for me is non-negotiable.

❛❛ Introduction Post

Welcome! you may of used to know me as nine or the front porch dog, but we're sorta rebranding this to be more of a coining type blog with occasional personal repost.

You may call me narc, I use it/xe strictly, and masc terms. Do not use they/them or any other prns/terms.

We are a CDD system, b/npd and other various disorders. We are also a very npd affected system. Interact with EXTREME caution, care and at your own risk.

90% of hateful asks will be deleted unless you're just, blatantly wrong. Request will be open 24/7 unless stated otherwise. ( still feel free to send an ask while they're closed I will go down the order once they reopen. )

below is our discord server that we've made. It's more of a decor server that includes that saturated version of different pride flags, mental health flags, etc.

❛❛ Regarding Requests

Request can consist of, but not limited to;

· coining requests

· alt flag requests

· system terms/role coining/flags

· berrytree templates/color themes

this will probably also change, don't be afraid to ask.

❛❛ DNI & Other Info

Our DNI includes ;

basic dni , endos willow tulps radqueer polyminds , dx abusers / abuse defenders , if you think that people w disorders cannot be abusers , if you believe pwNPD are all narcissistic , anti self-diagnosed , trump supporters , if you think the files were fake/if you defend the files , problematic creators supporters , if you treat fictives like their sources , if you try to force people to source seperate because their source is "problematic" , if you disrespect/break boundaries , if you shit on people for wanting discord pings/reply pings off (yes, it is that serious btw!) , if you use cultured names despite not being in that culture , if you shit on other people's culture and how they deal/handle/work with things , if you're anti – furry , therian or anything in that group , anti – recovery or dismissive of recovery ( including alterhumans ) , if you shit on people for trying to live their best life/get through the days , ALL paraphilias ( including if you're neu about them ) , any type of AI use , if you shit on people who used to use AI ( this includes things such as character AI )

Or overall if you're a shitty human being.

We are very big on calling people out for breaking our boundaries. Endos / Willos / Tulps it is not safe for you to interact with this blog. Follow your own dni.

I do not consent to being on any type of block-lists.

you people make we want to be pro harassment sometimes

I love how endos will sit here and bitch and complain that they're being "oppressed" because antis are supposedly taking their space and then turn around and break peoples DNIs..... like are we serious?? like obviously you have the ability to read because you;

1. made the ask

2. can read that my dni says DNI ( do NOT interact, as in get the fuck off my blog) endos

yet you guys wonder why nobody has the slightest respect on this planet earth for you............. ok

adding onto that anti harassment means I'm not going out of my way to break DNIs and shit on people trying to live their life, my blog is a CDD friendly blog, if you claim so much to not have a CDD then again fuck off my blog.

also this blog looks BRAND new, did you really make a whole ass new blog just to say some shit???

so Tumblr got rid of ALL of my asks so if you sent a request or anything PLEASE resend it so I can see it

one I do remember is asking clarification on my dni which was; “dni if you thing pwNPD are all narcissists” , what I generally mean by this is if you are stuck in the mind set that everyone with npd are these scary, evil, not deserving of love people whom are out to get everyone else, you can get tf off of my blog. The word narcissistic has always carried a God awful meaning and anyone labeled with it gets treated like shit and villainized beyond recognition to the point people forget that they're still people at the end of the day.

I am VERY anti harassment as a whole, despite not being comfortable or seeing eye to eye with a lot of stances and even having some in my dni THESE ARE STILL REAL PEOPLE WITH REAL FEELINGS AT THE END OF THE DAY and I will always stand by that.

new layout new me slash half joking

tags r not gonna change

❛❛ MALEVOLENT

an alter who tries to cause harm in anyway (expect sexual) to the body, other sysmates or to people in general on purpose. This alter could also be a persecutor but not always. Was originally making this for personal use but decided to share it.

comments such as; hate, or "this can't happen" will be deleted, not arguing with you people.

Education time because I'm irritated and we can't act like grown adults!!!

If you're white or any other race that isn't BLACK then you have no right to be telling people that they can't say their own word. I see so many white people try to "control" the word nigga, and get "offended" when it's said around them.

Maybe it's because I don't care for other people enough but you have no right to have an opinion on the N-Word if you aren't apart of that race.

“ But it was used against black people, why would others call each other it? ”

Think of the word bitch, when you call someone a bitch obviously they're going to be pissed off because well, you called them a bitch. When you call someone a bitch in that tone and in that way anyone would be offended.

Now look at it when you're joking around with your friends, calling them “bitches”, “assholes”, and all of these other words, you're joking, you're saying it in a joking/playful manner, theres no offense taken, right? That's because you RECLAIMED the meaning of that word in that time.

Now take that logic and put it in the word nigga, or ANY slur for that matter. When I call another black person (or any of my friends who are comfortable with said slur) I am using a reclaimed version of that slur, I am not calling another black person "nigga" in a offensive, derogatory way. When two black people call each other nigga it's more so in a playful manner, we are taking the original term of that and RECLAIMING the original meaning of the word.

It's the reason people call each other "faggots" when messing around with their friends. They are RECLAIMING the meaning of that word.

I see way too many people shaming on poc and black people for using their own words in their own group of friends/community. Obviously theres a VERY big difference if your friend isn't comfortable with the word which then you and your friend should communicate about that, but if you are a random person on the internet sticking your nose into communities where you don't belong and then getting "offended" about the things going on then you don't have the right to complain. Another thing I'd like to add is NOT EVERYONE ON THE INTERNET IS WHITE!! This is another thing i see way too much. No, there isn't a way to "act" white, no, a certain THEME doesn't make you "act" white. There's NOTHING that will make you "act" like a race.

QUIT TRYING TO PUT A CONTROL ON PEOPLE OF COLOR

So I FINALLY got accepted for the system wiki. (more info about this here LINK)

I was trying to think of a way for people to. not troll on the wiki (because endos LOVE to break DNI's so I don't see why they wouldnt come after this too.) I was gonna have a separate group admins could put your account in when you create an account for coiners only;

basically, I was going to have an application you could fill out on the discord (yes, I'm making a discord server for this for support), once your application is accepted you'd be put into a group with permissions to edit/make pages. This way endos / trollers couldn't mess with the wiki in anyway shape or form.

I'd also like to hear your guys ideas on this as well since it wouldn't be just me using it, I'm open to any and all ideas for the site

While I did get accepted for the site in not going to share it until I get everything set up!

so I genuinely thought I had posted this days ago?? but I guess I didn't?? (I vividly remember posting this but i guess not)

Does anyone know if theres anything similar to TransID but they're not TransID? if that makes any sense in the slightest?? like the concept of a TransID but it's not harmful / weird asf

when you get the very sudden masculine urge to block bitches because for some reason you're online yet you have the brain of an 80y/o grandma that can't read her fucking text despite the notification coming up in your face