I had typed one of these out a long time ago but I accidentally deleted it.

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I'm MJ, I'm 40ish

I've had this account since 2012.

Here is some TMI. My day job is exhausting and underpaid in healthcare. I'm neurodivergent, this is the autism website afterall, so I feel comfortable sometimes being honest about my struggles with cptsd, OCD and maybe AuHD. The comorbidity is strong so...sometimes I'm a bag of cats.

I'm a queer woman who prefers queer because being, bi and ace spec is too much to explain. I write fic over on my other blog @djarinmuse .

I am so so sorry this whole thing is giving Good Day Mr. Kubrick.

I'm also an artist, I've dabbled in all the arts, but I mostly paint now, you can find that under the #myart tag. My personal rants tag is #mjspeaks

I came back to Tumblr after a hiatus around 2020. I have met some awesome people through the Pedro Pascal fandom over the years. I try to cultivate a safe and responsible fandom experience by not being cruel or nasty (saying bat shit unhinged things) to the real person, especially on public forums, maintain healthy boundaries between what is fantasy and what is delusional. So 'real people fiction' is a huge no go in my book. It seems innocent to some, but it crosses a line for me.

Also, this trend of Tarot or card reading for celebs to try and gain insight about their personal life is weird to me, i see it as stalking without having to stalk? It's pathological to be doing this all the time, whether tarot is 'real' or not, it's gonna make delusions worse. I'm not going to harass anyone about it but don't expect a follow.

I have a disgust for stan culture and paparazzi. I take stalking culture really serious and don't condone that kind of shit. Because I've been so open that's gotten me into trouble in the past and I've had a stalker. So I know how fucked up it is to be on the receiving end of feeling like suddenly you're not safe in places you thought you were or with people you thought you could trust. So if you find yourself crossing that parasocial boundary, to try and make it more real or be perceived by this guy you love and think you know, stop, go talk to someone.

I've spent enough time in the Pedro Pascal fandom to see there are entire circles of people that gather information and literally hunt him down. It's not cute and it's dangerous because some people are dangerous, this is what I meant when I said be responsible. Celebs have every right to turn down a request for a photo and have every right to just walk from point a to point b in their spare time without being photographed and bothered. They don't owe us details on their love life or a label, they don't belong to us, they aren't your savior and they aren't your will to live.

Anyway.

My inbox is always open but I keep weird hours, don't take it personal if I don't get back right away.