I dont wanna go home yet

no joke just the week before syscovery i was in a really bad way and just taking it one week at a time, i could tell i was doing bad because i was coming into work everyday telling myself "its okay if i have to endure this 😄 because ill be killing myself soon!" And being energized by those words. Its not even something i was actually planning at that point, but my mind was taking that as some kind of release. I felt empty all of the time and like i had to wrestle with my own mind every day which was also unknowable to me and impossible to pin down, i had no idea what to do because nothing i found really described the experience accurately. Around that same time buttons started looking into more coping mechanisims and ended up reading about plurality which is a thought they visited before but never seriously entertained, before doing a real "trial-run" of conciously letting switches happen and observing them and recording how we felt each time. Almost immediately a bunch of stuff clicked into place and we realized weve been working around eachother for longer than we ever thought.

Them: i love a guy who giggles and wiggles his fingers or squeals in surprise when he sees something yummy then groans and grunts when he takes a big bite