unusual tragic and alive ☮

thanks! i’m actually still in a weird low mood following last night. like, in terms of emotional architecture i’m doing much better, in general, but it’s been a rainy day in my brain, for no easily definable reason. thanks for the lil boost 💞

when does the wind blow? when does a flower smell sweetest? some things you cannot know.

in part yes, of course. another part has been that my long term partner and i have found new paths together that feel really good too, something fulfilling and committed and stable and fun. some of it is also a little bit trebuchet ms guy – we haven’t met up yet though that is the plan in a few weeks, and i’m not really expecting anything specifically, especially physical, but there’s a lot of emotional oomph to that for me; being able to lose contact with someone for fifteen years, and still be able to hold softness for them and have the willingness to learn who they are again now, even if it might be short lived or contained, i think has done a lot good for me. the heart just has a lot to flex with right now that it hasn’t for a while. the thrill of something new and promising, the repair of something precious, the nostalgia for something once thought long gone along with the reminder that a lot of endings actually aren’t the end, it’s just the next chapter. does a lovergirl heart good.