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INSTAGRAM - 01.01.2020

ymt95 i wish to begin by saying sorry. our fans have been hurt more than once this year and i wished i didn't cause you more hurt than you all already have. this was in no way an easy decision. i often wondered "why me?", "why do people like me?". it was hard to understand, but at the same time, i was grateful for all the people who took interest in me. all i ever wanted to do was to pay you all back for the love and interest you have given me. but this has lead me to wonder how could i? because no matter how sincerely i felt towards the fans, i never felt completely sincere performing with convex. my personal style is fairly different from what convex does. and maybe it's selfish of me, but i felt like continuing without full honesty would make me unhappy in the end. so i brought up this issue to the company. i wish to thank them for their open-mindness and care since even before debut. while other companies try to make people what they aren't, sphere has always respected our individuality. it wasn't an easy decision, but we realized the best course of action was to part ways. we have decided to part ways in good terms. i will always support sphere and convex. i feel sorry for leaving you all like this, but know that i care about you all, i'll support you always and wish you success. as for me, i'll be setting up my own agency and will continue my activities in korea and overseas. my sister, bekah, will also join me. i will continue doing music and modelling and hope to challenge acting at some point. 

thank you for this year and i wish to meet you soon as a better me.

( ✉ 멋있지형 ) ✉ : hyungnim ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ ✉ : thank you!!! ✉ : 💖 💖 i miss you too, i feel like its been forever ✉ : but you’re busy being cool and famous ✉ : these days im busking more, i haven’t given up dance ✉ : i’m still working to get into sphere!! 💪💪 ✉ : then we can see each other more ~ ✉ : i look forward to seeing you again

                                           && @rkhyun

they've found a few spots, a few safe havens where they could indulge in their guilty pleasure, far from curious eyes. but this time, yien isn't smoking. he usually smokes his stress out. and he's not stressed anymore. what he has set in motion cannot be undone now. and surprisingly, it just lifts a weight off his shoulder rather than feel like a burden. he's been quite secretive about it and so has the company. he doubts anyone noticed anything different. he skipped the halloween party, yet that's not surprising coming from the cold/chic member of convex. he had excuses too with his studies. he’s soon to graduate and has had to put in even more work on that front. in a way, it's a blessing that the company treats the rap unit like it barely exists; that gives him more time for other things.

yien rarely is the first one to start a new topic of conversation. but as much as hyun and him bicker, he feels like his secret can be trusted with him. and he doesn’t want the members to learn suddenly through an official announcement of the company; he owes them that much.

INSTAGRAM - 09.04.2019

ymt95 it been a while... have you all been well? even if it’s a short greeting, i hope you all enjoy ‘adore u’. 

it’s been a year since our debut. there has been hardships and there will be more. but i’m grateful that we’ve had you all by our side through it all. we truly ‘adore u’. 

ok, this is so dramatic for no reason lol. but hi strangers. i haven’t posted on dash in forever.  i will make this short and sweet. bad news is that i will be dropping all my threads. i have never done that previously (in, lord... almost 5 years in rk in a couple of days), but this is necessary.

( ✉ – to yien ) one doesn’t change so easily, you know! ( ✉ – to yien ) thank you. i really appreciate you putting up with this :P ( ✉ – to yien ) oh no! that doesn’t sound good … i’m sorry i haven’t really been following much … feel like i’m just locked in the dungeon all the time

@rkpjy

he doesn’t go to extremes for birthdays, except maybe his girlfriend’s. but jinyoung remains a caring friend and brother and would be really disappointed in himself if he forget a birthday or let anyone down. so he makes sure that all of his closer friends feel special. they’re the ones he would go above and beyond for, always. yien is one of those special friends. jinyoung doesn’t have a lot. he prefers a smaller, trustworthy circle to a bigger one where everyone just want a piece of you for their own benefit.

he had no idea what to give yien this year. funnily enough, picking a gift was easier on a tighter budget because the choices were so limited to begin with. he knew he couldn’t indulge in anything too fancy or expensive. so he kept it simple and thoughtful, which yien always seemed to appreciate. he didn’t want it to change after winning this big amount of money either. so far jinyoung has covered some debts, bought new clothes and a car. he’s never actually owned one before and it feels so liberating when he’s not stuck in traffic.

he pulls up at the meeting up agreed on with the idol, waiting for him right outside his car. it’s not a very expensive car, but it’s definitely better than anything he could have ever afforded had jaewon and him not won that money. and maybe he feels a sense of pride when he finally sees his friend. “hey, happy birthday again,” jinyoung greets with a smile. it’s not his birthday anymore but they’re still celebrating it, right? “you can put your stuff in the trunk.” he looks over to where the car is parked.

his birthday always coincided with classes starting again. while it isn't the beginning of the year in korea, it still is the comeback after 2 months long of vacation. maybe if the summer had been more eventful, yien would've found getting harder getting back into this rountine, but the summer had been everything but eventful. not even a comeback preparation. at least, he's had time to recharge and work on a project of his own. but all this is behind now, and it's back to the grind. 

[ text ] free tacos with terms and conditions applied [ text ] no drinks, sorry bruh you gotta get that on your own XD [ text ] uni? damn, adulting is tough [ text ] i’m free! or i’d keep my weekends free. for ya :”) [ text ] when do you have time though

( ✉ :: ymt ) it’s fine you can flatter my ego again on my birthday and i’ll pretend i don’t remember  ㅋㅋㅋ ( ✉ :: ymt ) alright, just tell me what time you finish and i’ll be there. ( ✉ :: ymt ) and if you tell me i’m too much one more time i’m never telling you happy birthday again  ㅋㅋㅋ

( ✉ :: tuan #3 ) what can i say, i crave the clout ( ✉ :: tuan #3 ) ok chill i never asked for that love confession!!!!!! ( ✉ :: tuan #3 ) just kidding, it’s…. well, thanks. it means a lot and makes never seeing you a little more bearable.  ( ✉ :: tuan #3 ) OK i’ll text you the details soon but get ready to surf! sorta… not as fun as the real thing but until we can take a vacation that’ll have to do. ( ✉ :: tuan #3 ) is convex coming back soon! bc whenever u come on music bank i’ll be waiting :))))))))

( ✉ – to yien ) you always did know me too well :P ( ✉ – to yien ) let a girl brag a little, hm? ( ✉ – to yien ) oh really? well relaxing is good. a break is always well-deserved as an idol.