everyday is a new chance to change

This tumblr is where I vent since 2012. When the world seems to not understand me and renders me speechless. It is my online diary and I pour my heart out in it. I found tumblr long before I owned this blog, but I was too afraid and hyped at the same time first. My favorite time here on tumblr was definitely the 2014 era with all the cool grunge blogs. I really miss those times (or better said: those aesthetics. My depression was very bad at this time but I got my shit together - still don't know how, lol) I am currently struggling with very bad social anxiety which intensifies and more several mental illnesses. I often stay home but my goal is to get my shit together again so I can have a more normal life with friends, a "normal" busy day and family (or however these people should be called). I am happy to be here and if I die one day, you still have a little part of my soul out there. Here. Still too afraid to say all the things I want, because I do not want to hurt anybody. Tumblr is my hobby and the only one thing which never changed in my life. My blog is my pride, because I always come back to our little family-like community. ♥ I just want to feel understood and appreciated...