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Bf and i got about exactly half way through fight club (he's seen it before, i haven't) and i think the main tyler either is also the other tyler or wants to make sweet love to him

Ngl it alwaysss bugs me a little when i see art of any character/person smoking and the filter of the cigarette is drawn on the burning end. Like it's so so easy not to mess that up babe, even if you're not a smoker yourself

i feel like i love and resent my hair so much at the same time. it's the feature i most often get compliments for, it's genuinely beautiful and nice in my opinion and i love having it so long and curly especially. but at the same time it gets softly criticized so often. from people telling me it looks better with a softer wave or actually straight, to the negative reactions i've gotten in the past when i had cut my hair short. as a small child, like from birth up until about 7 or 8 years old, my parents used to get me a boy-ish haircut and growing up my own best friend used to make fun of it every time it came up in conversation. i've been feeling this pressure related to my hair for the longest time, to the point where i put it on a pedestal somewhat and i often even avoid activities that would mess up the way my hair looks even in the slightest. god i hate feeling governed by my own hair

straight up unfollowed a youtuber i've been watching for years bc he's gotten so insufferable and annoying omg. granted, for a while now i haven't kept up with his content much, i just watch a video of his every now and again (he makes commentary videos abt all sorts of online drama), but for the last year at least he's been pushing this carti vampy alt nonchalant look/persona and it's getting so annoying imo. a video of his gf's showed up on my fyp in which she's dancing to "girl like me" and he was in the background, on his phone, very intentionally not engaging with his gf or showing any sort of emotion or reaction for the aesthetic of the video and it pissed me tf off. no one's gonna think this guy's cool as hell for being an emotionless statue in the background of this video and if anything he looks so stupid like?? what's the point in acting mysterious and nonchalant all the time, what does one gain from that bullshit??

I can't wait to be done with this fuck ass degree so i can focus on what really matters (my crafts & hobbies)