xivfc.

Rebranding the blog Biting the bullet on this one; it was a hard move for me to make. You knew me as tinyshippingtrash, then 14baristonoir, and now, hopefully, xivfc. I like changing up appearances/aesthetics, but I know getting a following together goes against that concept. I’d like to take the time to do that now though, both to set myself up in the future and bring about the courage to post in the present. (Side note: I’ve been away due to my game design course; that’s generally why I haven’t been posting! I’ve been participating in events such as artfight though, I’ll probably make a backlog for it soon.)

Splitting my art content This is also a worrying move to me personally, but I think I’d definitely feel better uploading my doodles, sketches of my oc’s and just misc art on another blog, and keep one for fan content separate. This means less confusing artwork on your dashboard when it appears, but that also means more artwork from me in general. I definitely have been drawing more original content than fanart in general, and I can totally set up a backlog for it. 

Fanart will be posted on this blog! That’s less hassle for you guys, I believe. However, I’m not too sure what sort of fanart I’ll be posting until I get to drawing it; I’ll see if I can compose a list of fandoms I’m interested in in the future, but feel free to stick around in the meantime (or not! I won’t blame you, promise)!

On original artwork They’re moving to xivoc! I’m still getting things set up, so not everything at it works yet, I believe. I also have a twitter set up for it, but arguably I’m uncomfortable with using twitter in general, so we’ll see how things play out.

What’s with the activity? So y’all’ve probably noticed, but I haven’t been posting much. I think ever since the trip to the USA, my motivation to be consistent has just crashed and crumbled. 

I think it’s a result of having to follow accordingly to someone else’s schedules and activities? In the past, I’ve always had to conform to schools’ schedules. When I went overseas, I had to conform to my family’s activities, and as of recent, taking the game design course, I have to (once again) conform to my school’s schedule. I’m almost certain of it, and I’m rather distraught about it, because when I was consistent, it was because I was given enough time, energy and space to handle my projects. Having to follow an external schedule is suffocating on so many levels for me, I don’t have time to do anything else but follow the schedule. alternatively you can say it was the antidepressants and id like you to know i validate your opinion because they were absolutely wonderful for me to get to doing things

So here’re my plans for the future. I’m not very good at sticking to plans, because life shifts and I’m terrible at predicting what’ll happen in the future, but here’s a general guideline of what I hope will happen:

Finish school + Internship for about 6 months, will probably be done in 2020,

Buffer period where I try to figure out what I’ll do? I know family expect me to go places and hang out/do thing. I hope this will last a year, but it’s tough to say, perhaps 3 months?

Move in with a few friends; this means flying overseas again, but it may be/should be more permanent this time. Maybe end of 2020 to start of 2021.

Work on art/games, now that I would’ve gotten my diploma.

Of course, that’s a pretty vague timeline, but when speaking to you guys I want to be as honest as possible, and that’s the future I can see at the moment. Additionally, you will notice that it means I won’t be reliably consistent until literally 3 years later, and that’s a big factor of my dread at the moment! I’ll try my best to put up art occasionally, but that also means the blog isn’t going to grow reliably, and I can only hope that things turn out for the best.

That’s it from me for now though; I’m moving ahead with the changes stated above as soon as possible, so please don’t freak out with the sudden changes! This post will be reblogged 3 times today to try and make sure I get everyone from all time zones. If you made it this far, I sincerely cannot thank you enough just for reading, and further thank you’s if you decide to stick around! Either way, I hope all of you have a nice day!