Xikoatl

Hello! I am Xiko (pronounced Shiko), I am queer and autistic (hence why I'm here on Tumblr) and I love talking about my hyperfixiations!!! Honestly I'm just gonna post my headcanons here and maybe if I feel comfy enough I'll start writing fanfics too [SFW only].

My boundaries, DNI list, and some more stuff about me.

Masterlist.

I think that's all for now, thank you!

Bye!

So uhhhh, university is shit, I ended up crushing on a very confusing guy which my "long-time friend since elementary school" mysteriously asked him out on multiple study dates after I told her I was interested in him, plus I feel like over-all shit bc my period's coming up so uhhhhhhhhhhhh ye :) I am Not Okay™

I still have some drafts saved so I'll try to post some tomorrow just for the inconvenience. I'm so sorry for disappearing like that. Lots of love!

Maybe I don't like wearing dresses or having people compliment my curves, maybe I don't like my chest or being flirted with by guys. Maybe I don't like having long hair or a high-pitched voice.

Maybe I cry myself to sleep whenever the only friends that know accidentally keep misgendering me and I don't realize it immediately because I feel like I'm not "trans" enough if I don't notice I'm being misgendered.

Maybe I keep lurking the "ftm" and "trans masc" tags on social media so I can feel some of that enjoyment other trans mascs feel too.

And the worse thing is, maybe I'm not a man either. I'm not comfortable with any label, sometimes I'm femenine, sometimes I'm masculine. I don't like identifying as a woman, a man, nor an enby person.

Maybe I'm just me.

And you know what? That's fine.

I'm me and I shouldn't be sorry for being me.

Just like how the ocean doesn't apologize for drowning with its waves and being gorgeous at the same time. Just like how the sun doesn't apologize for starting fires but also giving plants food and helping them grow. Just like how I shouldn't apologize for wanting people to treat me with respect for the simple reason of me being me.

I'm not hurting anyone, I'm not forcing anyone to be like me. I just want to be me, I want to be happy, I want to be safe.

And maybe, just maybe, one day I'll shamelessly be myself.

So, update abt what's been happening in my life: