written!

and I cut up this jacket as well (it was a work anniversary gift)

rip DMX

Mondays are heavy. A sublime chaos that’s not quite chaotic enough, so it feels steady. In certain ways. When will I see you again? I can’t even count the days. The way I’d like to please you, can’t even count the ways. It’s just the way I see you. I never see you. As a result, I cannot demonstrate. This is round 3. An eye for an eye. My eyes scan your body, you look my way, then our eyes finally meet. Haven’t seen you in a few days, or has it been a week? I hope I see you soon. My wants have turned into needs. I need my time to become something you desperately seek.

Laying next to u as I write this. Your hands holding my waist as I type this. This is not love, yet; but I like this. Keeping this PG cause u might hear this later. But I don’t want to fail to mention how u fit inside of me like a key. Like I was molded for u and so were u, for me. I wanna write your name in the back of a book like I’m 16 & still a kid. U asked me if we could try again and Im glad that we did.

Table for two?

even when you’re away, we find ways to feel connected. the stillness in connection. im finding passion with u. my hearts protected. my phone just vibrated. let me check it. u must know im thinking of u, cause there’s your message.

date night

u don’t know it, but u bring me a sense of security. security in that we don’t know what this is yet. this is easy in a way it’s never been, yes. on a scale of anxious to calm id give it a 10, bet. you’re soft spoken, u let me interpret things the way i need to. I used to be clingy, but with u id never need to. what u say is what u mean, its like you’re see through. and u don’t say much. I don’t have to stay up, hoping, cause u don’t ever make me wait up. u don’t use words to fill space. and we don’t argue, so we never have to make up. u don’t know it yet, but you’ve offered me something different. before I used to think I was clingy, now I know I was tripping.

7pm in Boston.