Why Am I Here

OHMYGLOB. Who else saw the Quinn teaser post? Please, oH my god, I have no one else to talk to about this except like 2 people. Shawn Hatosy is 100% going to be reading a Quinn story, and it looks like the actual teaser is set to release on the 21st. Guys I am going to start FREAKING OUT AGAIN OMGOMGOMG.

so I was sitting here, writing, while listening to the Josh Groban revival of Sweeney Todd and I got to thinking... Titus Danforth gives a little bit of Sweeney Todd.

Now, of course, the differences are clear. Sweeney had a distinct and (relatively) justifiable reason for his descent into madness and, well, Titus is just fucking psycho. But I think of the way they treat people, the way they think everyone else is below them, think the world is filled with vermin, and use others to reach their own ends. Please say you're starting to see the vision?

Just give it a chance, trust me. Especially when I was listening to Epiphany, when Sweeney just misses the chance to kill Judge Turpin. That palpable anger, the rage settling in the bones.

Look, LOOK-

First things first- objectively the movie was as good if not better than the first.

Second- THE FEELINGS I HAVE FOR THIS MAN. I KNOW IT ISNT ALLOWED, BUT I TOOK SO MANY PICTURES AND VIDEOS. He was so fucking evil and I am in love. I have been wickedly Shawn Hatosy pilled, so this... made it worse 😂

All I have to say is if, God forbid, he was single one day in the future. He is my hall pass. He is my standard. Uhhh, anyway- *uhmm*

I'm on season 5 of Marvelous Mrs. Maisel, and Gordon Ford is an awful man. Just terrible, doesn't respect women at all.

But I desperately need there to be fanfiction of him. Gordon/Midge, Gordon/Reader, ir doesn't matter to me. I need people to write terrible awful and wonderful fics on Ao3. I think I'm losing my mind. You're telling me that perverted weirdos can write the most heinous combination of words I've ever seen, but I'm wrong for wanting some Gordon Ford fics? 😭

The music. The cinematography. The character development. The pop culture references. Enjoyable to any and all ages.

And hey, if you agree. Consider following @arimariefilms on insta and/or YouTube. So far I only have a short film up, but within the next month I will be uploading video essays, and this will be one of them.

Other topics include:

Video games as a cinematic outlet

Why do we like horror movies?

Claymation is an underrated format

Low budget 👍 vs. Low budget 👎

And many. Many. More

You don't expect it, then it happens. Your heart breaks, your breath is stolen; their heart will never beat, they'll never breathe again. You mourn and the world is suddenly too bright, too loud, too emotional- it's all too much.

Then you feel yourself starting to heal. You cry less, you hurt less. It doesn't mean that them or their death means less; it just means you're ready to start living beyond the wall of grief. You think you'll be fine but then all of a sudden-

TW: Su!cide and depression. If anyone you know is struggling with su!cidal ideation or deep depression, make sure you know the number of a hotline and have access to the proper care.

It starts in a regular office, a woman coming in to start her shift at work. She chats with a coworker for a couple minutes, the one she's taking over the shift for. He talks about he had a rough night, more visitors than usual. Audience still doesn't know what they do.

Woman sits down at her desk, just getting settled when there's a knock at the door. She opens it and there is someone, and they are crying, hard. The woman states that she just got in, but that they can have a seat. As the woman asks for the nature of the visit, the other person states "Looking for a way out".

The woman is shocked. "Well, I'm sorry, my office just opened and I can't accept requests at this time, so you can come back-"

"No. I've been here before, but I've never been sat down. I'm sick of waiting. I'm tired of being tired. I'm looking for a way out."

The woman, having a very hard time with this, close to tears, pulls out some papers. "This, what you're asking for... there's no coming back from it. You do know that?"

The conversation goes back and forth, but eventually the woman stands and gives the person on the other side of the table a hug. Then she steps back and places her hands on their temple and says, quietly, sadly "you are relieved of your duties. You may go honorably."

You will never convince me that a sexually intimate relationship is more powerful than what Will and Hannibal have. Even Bedelia (who, may I remind you, ACTUALLY DID THE DO WITH HANNIBAL) said that her relationship with him was not as intimate as his with Will. Like... and people still want to deny it.

You will never ever convince me that physical intimacy trumps their form of love. It is delicate, and it is built off of mutual respect. If I ever have and maintain that with someone (maintain being the key word), I could die happily, having never accomplished my deepest dreams. I have told my dad for a long time, I do not need someone to share a bed with me. What I want is someone who is willing to be there, who I can turn to in times of strife, and who feels safe turning to me. God life is complicated.

Is it sad that my idol for love is two mentally unstable men, one of whom is a cannibal? Eh, who gives a damn. Is it equally as bad to say that it also lies with a demon and angel, and two pirates? Depends on what side of the dlfandoms you rest.

There is no changing my mind. Burlesque is too polished for the gritty emotions it tries to pull off (it doesn't, not really) whereas Coyote Ugly really makes you want to feel something. Also the love interest is SIGNIFICANTLY more adorable and amazing in Coyote Ugly, like, by a long shot. Plus, not even Christina Aguilera's vocals can stop you from forgetting crucial details of the film.