Carpe Diem

I have lost faith in humans and for doing so, I have lost faith in myself. 

What you see is what you get.

What you hear is never true and promises kept, rarely. 

I say things at the wrong time, do dumb shit that makes me regret and people think I'm weird.

Wriet because WRIter poET

Sleepless

Why are you doing this to me?  I am tortured, so very tortured by the thoughts of you running in my head, wild and free. You have damaged me beyond repair, can't you see?

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Appalled

Of all the things you be, why, tell me, why this? For me to not be with you is an experience of lifetime I'll miss I loved you so much to want to feel your lips on mine, kiss. I guess I will never know, I will never know such bliss.

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Agony I can wait but to never be with you, I will never cope. You are the only barrier that divides me from being with you We could have had a life you and I, get married, elope. Now that I know what you are, dashed are all my hopes.

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Pretenses

Can't you tell by the way I smile that it's all just so unreal? You have, not the slightest clue to how it is I truly feel. But you are what you are so with this I must painfully deal. Of all the things you could take from me, why was it my heart you had to steal?

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Crazy

I would have done anything to be in your arms, have you and love you like no other. I never dreamed that you would leave me here, dying in the inside for another Oh, how I pine away, wanting you, needing you. Why are you leaving me here to suffer? I want her dead and gone from my sight. Compared to me, is she a better lover?

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Letting go

You seem so happy with her and your face lights up when she is near I now understand what place she has in your heart, one so loved, so dear. I now know what it is I must do, it is all too clear I will walk away and knowing that you are happy, I will not shed a tear.

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Finding another.

I want your lust not your love.  Love is for suckers and dipshits alike and virgins that don't know what a good fuck is like.

Give me a pussy, give me a dick. I know, I'm not normal just plain sick

Haven't you heard? Bi is the new straight Don't hate on me, I guess it was just my fate.

To become what disappointed mom and dad To hell with them for hating, they're just homophobic fags.

Mom, I'm sorry I like girls and wanna fuck them If you don't like me this way, I'm here for you to hate and condemn.

Dad, I'm sorry your little princess turned out to be bi I am who I am so if you hate me, you can rot in hell and die.

I'm not sorry for what I am, truth be told. I'm gonna stay like this till I get old.

Happy Birthday, Brian May! 

I'd jump out of a birthday cake, wearing a bunny suit and surprise you but I'm all the way here.

Rock on, you perfect bastard.

Now, forever and always. 

Me: I feel mature. I'm 18. Hell yeah, I'm 18!

  My actual self, deep inside: LOL fuck you, you still blow bubbles, eat candy, press all the buttons on the elevator when you're in it, play with toys, think boys are aliens and try to pass as a kid in the PG-13 movies.  Me: OK

I want to keep you in my pocket and feed you fresh fruits and love you.