グロテスク

“In truth, you like the pain. You like it because you believe you deserve it, and the fact that you’re putting yourself through pain means you are doing what you, by all rights, ought to do. You’re doing something right. Your ability to withstand pain is your claim to fame. It is ascetic, holy. It is self-control. It is masochism and masochism is pleasurable to many, but we don’t like to think about that. We don’t like to think that a person could have a twisted auto erotic life going on, be both a top and a bottom, and experience both at once: the pleasure of beating the hell out of a body shackled at the wrists and the pleasure of being the body and knowing we deserve each blow.”

Oh you wanted to have sex? Poor thing.