This is everything I didn't say

“on days i feel lonely i remember all the people i let go of because i knew what was best for me. and i feel a little less alone knowing that if no one else has my back, at least i do.”

“I am trying to make every moment count, without throwing myself all over the place, without tearing myself apart. I am trying to make sense of the chaos inside of me, without breaking myself, without killing myself at the end of the day.”

““I guess this is it, huh?” He held me tighter into him and I suddenly knew the answer. We were over, and there wasn’t anything he or I could do about it. All I could do was memorize the touch of his body and warmth of his breath before it was all gone. That was always the thing you started to miss first, the comfort of being around the other person. So we laid there as long as we could, both knowing that we’d always miss the other.”

“I had to realize that maybe it had nothing to do with me. And maybe it had nothing to do with him either. I mean sure- maybe he could have loved me a little harder, or maybe I could have not overreacted as often as I did. But just because we didn’t work out didn’t mean he wasn’t a good person. He was an incredible person, and our time was beautiful while it lasted.”

“I wonder when I’m 70 what I’ll think of the boy who broke my heart at 17”

“Really. It’s okay/ I’m happy if you are,” she says, finally meeting his eyes for the first time in what feels like forever. 

“I can only pull petals off of flowers for so long before I know my answer”

I remember that night, when your tears couldn’t stop flowing. You just couldn’t understand why she couldn’t see you the way you wanted or how to catch her attention as more than a friend.

“And for just that moment, I thought you felt it too.”

“You were so focused on what she was doing to you, you missed that you were doing the same thing to me”

““I can’t keep watching you run back to her, when I know I’m just going to be the one picking up the pieces.””

“Never underestimate the power of friends who can make you laugh when you don’t even feel like smiling”