wormwood

human behavior interests me and tbh there are certain people whose behavior intrigued me the most, these people usually have huge red flags in the personality disorder department.

sometimes I take things too far in order to understand the psychological behavior of others.

But, regardless, I understand, and not only do I accept but I’ve learn to love and value these flaws in people.

They are the rawest form of character. They are genuine to their nature. That is why their truth terrifies most people who discover it. Their truth is sealed and locked within a vessel called a body and internally it boils and blisters beneath their skin. They live their lives battling the person they are with the person society tells them they should be. They become tormented trying to keep all that boils and blisters within them.

Monsters begin to form within their chest. Demons begin to live within their soul. The mind is a sanctuary for a madman.

Imagine if they met someone willing to transfer their pain through the spirit of confiding

But how strange would it be for someone you hardly know, to ask to share your burdens, your truths, just so you can live with less indifference, less pain

Many don’t believe confidants like this exist

But they do

I know you’ve realized you hurt me. But you can’t go around telling other people about your guilt or your mistake or how it wasn’t your fault, how your innocence is vital to the circumstance.

You can’t keep blaming her, pointing fingers and calling names.

You’re a man of masculinity, with broad shoulders and arms, limber, strong. Not until then did I realize how you tower over me. I felt so small since.

You’re afraid of my scorn. Afraid you’re fingers will burn if you touch me. That my words will strike you down like missile fire. That my anger will melt your wings and you’ll fall into the depths of self loathing.

But whenever something funny happens I wish I could tell you. When I need help, you’re the first person I seek. I mean, don’t you remember the times when we would joke

“What would you do without me, Anne Marie”

“Oh what would I do without you, Jesse”

I wish for you to build the courage. I need you.