Crushin’ It
Fat Amy is my spirit animal. No for real. Any time I have to upload an avatar to a site (that is not professional and job-finding related) I use this photo:
Or this one:
Why? It makes me laugh. I love her character and these pictures make me smile every time I see them, so I use them.
I am going through a rough time right now. I am not sure what the various stages of transition are but I ::feel:: like they go something like this: acceptance, elation, drunkenness, uncontrollable sobbing, excitement, hopefulness, delusions of grandeur, disappointment, more drunkenness, sinus pressure headache from more uncontrollable sobbing, enlightenment, and then possibly becoming one with the Force? They may not necessarily go in that order and there are times you’re are stuck in an unending loop. I am also not sure what the final stage is because I am not there yet. Look for a followup post.
I was recently in Ohio, taking a break from my break. No wait, hear me out. It was also my mom’s birthday. I had spent my first month in Miami becoming increasingly desperate in my job search for no reason other than I don’t know what to do with myself right now. I redid my resume to target business-y things I have been doing. I applied to a bunch of HR and Project Manager jobs. I looked up what certifications I could take to make me seem like I know what I am doing. I looked into programming and networking to see if there was anything for me there. Every time I did one of these things a piece of me died inside a little bit. It wasn’t until I went to an interview at LA Fitness that something started to click.
The interview at LA Fitness was for a position that is largely a scam. While they said it was for a personal trainer assistant manager, it was really a job selling memberships for personal training. If you know me at all, you know I am a TERRIBLE sales person. I have a hard time selling my own skills and abilities even though I know for a fact my coaching services are worth it. There was no way I was going to be able to sell over-priced personal training packages to people to work with personal trainers I didn’t know. But that is not the point.
The point is the only part of the interview that got me excited was talking about helping people perform better. Talking about coaching people, helping people, and getting them to be the best they can be. Afterwards, while I reflecting on the interview and trying to figure out where the nearest Chipotle was because, duh, something tiny clicked in my brain.
I am looking for the wrong things.
So in order to stop the cycle, to visit my family (because I have time to take longer trips right now), and to eat mass quantities of chips and salsa from Rancho Fiesta, my favorite restaurant in the entire world, I went home. I hung out with my family. I ate all the chips and salsa. I let my three year old niece brush my hair. And I thought about where to start looking for the right things. Things that involve helping people, improving performance, and not coaching CrossFit. I currently have 12% of a plan. I am also no longer in full-on panic mode (I may be again soon but let me enjoy this time!). Basically, I am crushing it.
















