So, like, what is it with people saying one thing but then doing the complete opposite?? I know its not because of my personality or how people perceive me. why cant other people just be straight up. i only want them to be straight up because it would help me get over things a lot quicker. Is it just a thing within my age group? i dont think so...??? What's with telling someone one thing and then doing the complete opposite RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM; even though they said one thing to be nice but their actions were not so nice. pick a side. now you just look like a douche bag, an asshole, a complete idiot. and now im embarrassed and have to tells my friends what happened. luckily they have my back and validate my feeling (which are valid) and let me vent. reaching out to friends who know your worth and actually want to talk to you surprisingly helps. Going back to the old ways of laying in a strangers bed is no longer the solution that i have finally solidified in my brain. (Thank god for a developed frontal lobe.) i am grateful for the certain situations i have repeatedly put myself through because i would be lost in the sauce right now and probably put my mental health in code black. here is to practicing good copping skills! discipline is your best friend till the end. The universe likes to remind me. maybe thats what all this is about at the end of the day. making sure i can keep it together. Cheers! Xxx