women of color recovery

But I might. Me and my roommate have an eviction notice. She’s bedridden, and I’m bedridden about half the time. We are trying desperately. When I’m not bedridden, I’m trying to gather enough money to move… if we end up on the streets, we’ll die.

But I am getting evicted. My cell phone is getting turned off at midnight.

My parents are threatening to either not come get my daughter for the holiday or come get her and not bring her back “to be homeless with you”

This is fucking dramatic shit I’m dealing with.

I have found a couple places but will have to save up money *at least 1 more paycheck* to be able to move in. 395 is the lowest I’ve found *395 deposit+395rent+app fees+turn on utilities*

So I am looking and last week I did 4 days 840AM-1145PM so that should help me get some momentum with extra hours at work.

My extremely conservative Muslim parents are keeping me under strict lockdown (I’m not allowed to leave the house aside from attending class, they have a printout of my uni schedule, they drop me off/pick me up immediately, I’m not allowed a copy of the housekeys, they’re forcing me to quit both of my jobs, I’m not allowed to wear makeup in public ‘because it makes me look beautiful’, they’re withholding my citizenship/birth certificate/passport/other documents from me…. their demands/orders go on). 

They are also forcing me into an arranged marriage once I finish my undegrad. I’m 21 years old and from the Toronto area and am legally able to leave but because I’m still enrolled in university for another semester, I’m too afraid to leave now in fear that they’ll be able to find me when I leave (I have family that attend the same university as me.) The day that I leave, I don’t want them to be able to have any way of finding me. 

I have plans to live with my partner when I leave in April but any donations to help support us would be so appreciated. Neither of us are in the greatest financial situations. I want to legally change my identity so that they won’t be able to track me down and I need money for that; I also don’t know if I can work until I can have my identity legally changed - there’s a lot about this situation that I have no clue out about and would appreciate any sort of support. I also have a history of mental illness (depression/anxiety/borderline personality disorder) and my mental stability has been deteriorating as a result of my current state. 

A link to my paypal is here: paypal.me/zararaz | alternatively, [email protected]

WE got kicked out again after my mom yelled at the hotel manager about money so we’re in a totally new place but still in need of money for food and birth certificate reorder. There’s no room at the shelters, my mom is disabled and there’s no money for car insurance. Plus the temperatures are going down to 40 at night and it’s flooding in parts of town.

The only bright spot is the fact that we have an opening coming up in a week or so, but we need to wait around 2 - 3 weeks in a small motel if my mom doesn’t yell at the manager, if we have enough money for rent, and gets us kicked out again.

None of us will get enough money until December 5th, so please help us out.

Sarah lives in New Jersey and has been missing since the evening of December 2nd 2016 from Neptune City, NJ Area. Her car was found on the Belmar Bridge. She often visits Toronto. If you see her or hear from her, please call the Neptune City Police at 732-775-1615

Other details that might help: I don’t know what she was wearing at the time but she sometimes puts her hair in a tight bun and often wears a leather jacket/beanie

Here is a bigger picture:

It’s okay if you experience trauma and you need to take a while to sort through it. You are allowed to choose to unpack something when you have the energy and emotional stability to actually wade through it. You don’t have to process everything as soon as it happens, you can put it away until you have the spoons for it and it doesn’t mean you’re repressing it. You’re allowed to acknowledge something has happened and you’re not in a good place to sort it out in your head.

https://www.gofundme.com/support-liz-a-poor-queer

^The link is above 

My friend Liz was unjustly fired from her work for pointing out white male privilege and is now really struggling to gather money for rent and her university fees (total goal is $1400). 

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Andy filed for sole custody shortly after moving Bella to Colorado.  He refuses to get Bella in to counseling with a qualified person, denying her identity despite her being insistent on who she is.  He’s cut off her hair, is making her talk to Christian counselors who tell her the same thing her dad does, that it’s shameful to be who she is, and that she has to do what god says. Bella is insistent with me that she will never be anyone other than Bella.  

My attorney has told me that the only way I will be able to get Bella back, and keep her safe, is if we get a Guardian Ad Litem to monitor her there, and show that her dad is not making any effort to support her identity.  This costs more money than I will ever be able to save.  Cost for Guardian Ad Litem can be up to $20,000.  If I don’t raise this money, I will lose my child forever to a man who purely hates me and wants her only to make me miserable.  I love my daughter more than anything and it’s killing me to be away from her.  Please help bring Bella home to me! #hernameisBella” 

Long story short: My partner and I are both out of work due to us both having chronic illnesses. A recent car accident has left my partner dealing with a concussion and severe whiplash. She can barely get around by herself. Our only car was totalled in the accident, so we have no transportation. My car insurance is not covering anything despite the accident not being our fault. The bigoted officer on the scene ticketed me anyway, and I have a court date in August. The overwhelming evidence I have collected should clear me of wrongdoing, but that does not help our financial situation.

We are now thousands of dollars in debt, because of the hospital bills, medications, ambulance ride, and various household bills that are past due. Originally, I started a gofundme to help with this, but I was advised by our lawyer to take it down. 

If anyone is able to donate anything my paypal is [email protected].

We are also selling paintings here, here, here, and here to raise money.

I am doing my best to take care of our family and household chores, running our business from home, getting odd jobs, selling my work and belongings, and keeping this blog updated. Tara got a part-time retail job as well, but her doctor has not cleared her to work, so she is likely going to lose it. 

We are trying to keep our heads up, but we are really drowning in all of this right now.

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Shoutout to folks in recovery who have to constantly listen to friends, family, classmates, & coworkers constantly talk about food, exercise & weight loss in ways that are super triggering

Basically I’m being kicked out of an extremely abusive living situation along with my partner and our 2 year old daughter. Neither of us get along with our families (his is kicking us out right now) so we don’t really have anyone to support us through this. My little sister and her roommate are thankfully letting us stay with them for 2 weeks but due to the landlord we can only stay until July 1st.

I have no idea where I or my family will be living after that and I’m so fucking scared.

I’m hoping that we can rent an airbnb for July in order to give us time to regroup and save up for an apartment. Because I live in Chicago, airbnb’s are going for $75-$90/ night for a private room and $100-$125/night for an apartment (way cheaper than hotels here). Obviously renting an apartment would be preferable because of my child, but I am absolutely not picky and will go with whatever we can afford to keep us safe.

I would really appreciate if y'all could drop a few dollars in my PayPal and help us get this airbnb so that I can at least have some time to plot my next moves.

My PayPal is here .

He’s had an overdose on St Patrick’s day but was ok. I didn’t expect this to happen to my family. And he wasn’t self medicating either, he was just partying like teens do, and took the wrong drugs (xanax and opiates) and this happened.

I work at a stripper in SF. April was a hard month because of tax season, and during May I missed two weeks of work. One week was because I had stopped taking my mood stabilizers for a few months (I have cyclothymia, a mild form of bipolar) and so I had a week where I had too bad panic attacks and crying sessions to work (I had a two hour panic attack at work even). then the next week I lost my Norcos, which I need to function, let alone work, and had to wait a few days to get into my doctor to get them filled again (thank god he believed/trusted me). I just spent all of my savings on paying the rest of June rent, which went from $1961 to $2008.

Since I’m disabled I don’t have another form of income. My family doesn’t have extra money laying around either. My nephew had an unused college fund in his name but all of that money is going towards the funeral and his hospital bills (he was on life support for a day and a half), so there isn’t any left to help me out.

I missed two shifts of work because I was too upset to go in. Going into work after a death is always hard, but when the only money you make is by being happy and cheerful, it’s even harder. I’m not paid hourly, I actually pay to work, so I can leave without making any money.

The ticket to Chicago to go to the funeral is about $500. I’ll also have to miss work for a few days and I am struggling to make money at work now.

I’ll also be boarding my dog which will cost about $100 a day as it’s the only one I feel comfortable leaving her in and I can’t travel with Sophie as my mom already has her dog at my sister’s and we don’t want to stress her out with one more. 

I haven’t fully grieved yet but I’m worried about when I will. I’m trying to keep taking my mood stabilizers because in 2014 when my great grandma died, it didn’t hit me for a few months, and I wasn’t able to work as I was crying for 5-8 hours a day as it made me hit a depressive episode, which I’m worried is going to happen here.

I wish I could offer some service to offer people to donate, but I don’t write or do tarot or anything like that. I can help out if you need any help with stripping questions, but that’s about it.

Anything would be appreciated and I hate to even ask because I know there’s a lot of other worthy causes but anything helps and if my blog has helped you I’d really appreciate it