Part Of The Hive, Part Of The Swarm

I want to preface with the fact that I know this is not grieving in the way that his family is grieving and that I will never understand what they are going through but still damn this shit is awful.

I have supported one direction since the band formed. I was only like 8 or 9 when i started listening to them so to hear that liam passed is in some ways a loss of a part of my childhood if that makes sense. Like I just always thought they were going to be around and I never thought we would see a day like this for easily 50 years. I also always had a weird feeling that one of them was going to go young. which i understand is morbid but the 27 club doesn’t feel coincidental to me i guess?

anyways. today i’m grieving but really it’s 9 year old me who learned that country was the only genre of music

10 year old me who hid their 1D magazine under their bed

11 year old me who got to see This Is Us in theatre

12 year old me who was very vocal about their love for harry styles

13 year old me who thought zayn leaving would be the worst thing to ever happen to the band

14 year old me who was so sure that 1D would get back together before the year was up

this is a sad time for many people. i hope his family can find comfort in knowing that so many people loved and supported him