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I could have sworn that you were the right guy.

Holy fuck, how I was wrong.

You were spreading all those lies.

How time flies.

It’s nothing serious.

Remember you told her that? 

Guess word gets around.

First month, I was so sad. Second month, a little mad. 

I was so glad you left.

Guess I grew up a bit. 

I forgot what I saw in you.

Wish that I could press undo.

Funny, what happens with time.

I heard all the lies.

I thought you were better than that.

Nightmares come, and nightmares go. 

Every time that I wake up I’m always scared to show my face.

The world seems so unsafe.

I’ll stay in my room just in case.

I always dream so fucking slow.

I’ll wake up so late at night, sweating hard, feeling so cold.

I just want them to go away.

I can hardly sleep as it is.

They come to screw my head.

I am never on time.

I’m wrong.

Don’t raise your voice to me. 

I don’t care. 

I’ll probably cry.

I feel bad about feeling bad.

Why can’t you just be nice? 

I guess that’s too much to ask.

The older I get, the more I care about what people say.

I thought it wasn’t supposed to be that way.

I hate everything that you love.

You’re just the hook caught on my sleeve.

I’m afraid it’s my time to leave.

We both know I oughta go.

I want to be the one you drunk text first.

I wanna be your drunk text romance.

Bike home drunk with me on speaker! Just kidding, don’t do that.

Don’t you know anything?

Bike home and go to sleep, cos that’d be cool and safe.

Text me in the morning, though. Or whatever.

I am afraid of looking up and not seeing the sky.

I’m afraid of the word ‘boy’ in every conversation.

I’m afraid that my hero will always kill me in the end.

My friends, oh God, my friends - I’m fucking scared of losing them.

I know that I’ll never be your tough guy.

I know I can’t handle anything without losing my mind.

Shut me up.

Pin me to the floor.

Tell me everything’s alright.

Promise me I need nothing more.

     "It was some years ago when I was just a little kid, I came out to the world, found life in ruins, I couldn't breathe. And in the night I looked at the stars asking why my eyes were crying, but the rain was heavy washing all my dreams and my hopes away.” -- Aira the Clown Girl, Melentini.