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Anyways Tetia is my favourite character and little guy scares me to no end </3

I was a firm Eoleo defender until that "I just have to find a way to make it mine page" and now he's on my watch list. I don't think he's inherently "bad" but he certainly is a product of Deanreldy's parenting 😭

As always, a fair warning for a long winded ramble about my personal headcanons!

SPOILER WARNINGS FOR ANYONE WHOS NOT READ UP TO CHAPTER 88!!!

TW: mentions of vomit/vomiting and obsessive behavior.

Tetia doesn't meet Eoleo again until a few years later. Her sixteenth birthday has just passed and its the first time since the Silver Eve incident that she sets foot in Ezrest.

The other girls are with her, assigned there without Qifrey or Olly as a way to test their growth as witches. After all, its very important they learn to handle jobs on their own.

Naturally all of the girls are a little tense. Coco can't stomach going near the spot where Dagda died and she lost Custas and Tartah. Richeh is...quiet, more than usual, jumping at random sounds and constantly checking over her shoulder, while Agott keeps up a brave front, throwing herself into work without rest, just trying to get done and out of Ezrest as fast as possible.

Tetia tries to stay cheerful, ignoring the way her stomach drops at the sight of the castle, how her hands shake when people ask if they were part of the group that saved the kingdom, if she thought something like that might happen again-

It takes about three days before shes able to relax a little. Everything is fine, Ezrest has been at peace since that dreadful day, and there was nothing to worry about-

The thought of Eoleo is never far from the forefront of her thoughts. A chance encounter with a Prince...it sounded like her ideal dream but the idea of running into him again makes her feel ill.

The balance between witches and humans had been altered drastically the last few years. Most witches tried to continue as if nothing had changed, but the unsaid part was loud and clear.

Witches were powerful, godlike, they could change the course of time and save the dying, and the King himself bowed down to them.

The pact was barely holding together, humans were growing more demanding, expecting more and more and more, taking and pushing and needing, growing outraged when refused because they *knew* that witches could fix their problems, they simply were refusing.

Eoleo had grown as well, just as charming and persuasive as his father. Cunning, silver tongue, and gentle hands.

He spoke of Tetia often. The pretty little witch who he'd met for only a brief time. The girl who showed him the same kindness she showed all others, treating him as an equal, walking side by side, witch and royalty.

There was often talk about who he wished to go out and find her, how the next time they met he would be sure she didn't get away. Dean only laughed, and Zayamaiya remarked how his father had been the same way. Persistence ran in the family after all.

So when word reaches him that a young witch with pink hair and a darling smile reaches him, he's bolted out the castle before any of the guards can stop him.

Truly, his father's son.

Tetia is helping at a local shop, reparing clothing while Richeh fixed broken contraptions. A nice quiet day, with no emergencies pressing down on them. Just simple, mindless work.

She answers the door with a smile, expecting another civilian with an arm full of items to be repaired, and is instead met with an out of breath Prince Eoleo.

Hes grown tall, towering over her now, his hair is longer, voice deeper and eyes just as sharp.

"Little witch, oh how I've waited to see you again-"

She slams the door closed in his face, leaving Richeh staring open mouthed and deeply confused.

"Tetia...who was that?"

"Where's Agott?" If anyone can scare him off, its going to be her.

"Out with Coco."

Of course, god forbid those two didn't go everywhere together for just one day-

Another polite knock at the door, and Tetia knows she can't ignore him forever.

"I'm sorry Sir, but I have work to attend to-"

He's got one hand on the door, pushing his way in before she can finish.

"Please, I've waited so long to see you again-"

Richeh mumbles something about a stalker, and Tetia catches the glimpse of a flame out of the corner of her eye.

"Richeh, no!" She stands between the two, pointing wildly at Richeh, "Do not set him on fire!"

Completely unausmed with a fireball balanced on her palm (Olruggio insisted they all learn some fire magic for self defense against "pests and perverts" once they'd started venturing out on their own) Richeh just stares.

"He's the Prince!"

"And?" She deadpans, aiming a little above Tetia's shoulder.

"NO! Bad! Put it out!" Eoleo is still standing there, smiling and looking completely unaffected.

"His face irritates me." Richeh grumbles, but she does extinguish the fireball before returning to her work.

"You have to leave!" She begs.

"But...I thought we were friends?" He pulls the most pathetic kicked puppy expression, and Tetia wants to pull out jer hair. She shoves him into another room,

"Ten minutes but you have to leave before Agott gets back-"

Once again, he's all smiles.

"I wanted to thank you, properly." He extends a hand, a small velvet box in his hand and Tetia is close to hysterics because there is no way he's about to do what she thinks he's going to do-

He opens it to show a small, glittering pin. Expensive stones line the outside of the flower shape, two small emeralds cut into the shape of leaves on the side.

Tetia nearly collapsed in relief.

"I can't except that-"

"Please, it's a small token of my thanks. I wasn't able to give it to you that night-"

"I haven't done anything worthy of such a gift." That little pin surely cost more than she would make in her entire life.

"You were my first friend," he holds the box out a little more, "You are...my only friend."

She knows she shouldn't take it, it would entwine them more than they already were, and she couldn't have that-

Agotts voice sounds from the other room, and panic sets in.

Tetia yanks the pin from the box, clasping it tightly in her hand and shoves Eoleo out the back door.

"Please, come to the castle anytime, I want to see you again-"

"Fine, fine, yes, I will, just go, *please*!"

Once again the door is slammed in his face and she tucks the pin away into her pocket.

Agott chews her out over dinner for how irresponsible she was. How could she have let him in? Why did she never tell them about meeting the Prince?? What was she thinking accepting a gift from him???

Tetia doesn't have the energy to respond. She's tired, so very tired. Dinner doesn't settle in her stomach, and shes vomiting all night. Coco is worried, but she insists she'll be fine in the morning, its just stress, sleep will fix everything-

Except Coco can barely wake her the next morning. Tetia is curled up on the floor of the bathroom, violently shaking. Agott is out the door, fetching a doctor while Richeh and Coco try to drag her back into bed.

She's barely able to speak, only able to say "it hurts" before fading in and out of consciousness. Throwing up bile, crying weakly.

The doctor isn't sure what's going on. He can't think of anything that would set in so fast and violently, without a fever no less.

Another doctor comes, and then another, but none of them can explain what's happening and nothing they offer helps alleviate the symptoms.

Finally, one of them says to take her to the castle. If anyone can help her, it would be the King after all, and he would never turn away a witch.

None of them want to go there, but Tetia is fading quickly, and Coco puts foot down. They have to take her, she's not loosing Tetia too.

The King says nothing, getting to work the second he sees the state Tetia is. They're locked away in a room while he works, nurses and attendants coming and going, bringing things the girls don't recognize and talking about medicine they don't understand.

Eoleo pops up, coming as soon as he hears whats happened, and Agott knows something isn't right.

She can feel it in her bones, he's done something, but she can't figure out what. The Prince doesn't know magic, and if he did he's far less likely to know any forbidden magic that could cause something like this-

Deanreldy comes back after a few hours, assuring them Tetia would be ok. He can't explain everything to them, because that would include explaining things that Witches arent allowed to know. Agott doesn't believe this, but she can't risk pressing it further.

He says she's very weak, and will need around the clock care for several days. She would need to stay at the castle, under his watch until she was stable. Once she was able to eat and drink without vomiting, he'd feel safe to let her leave.

Agott refuses, Tetia won't be staying there. It would cause too much drama, stir too many questions.

Dean says that's fine, he can't force them to stay, but to understand if they take her, there was a very high risk she wouldn't survive without the medicine only he could give her.

Again, Agott is stuck. She can't call him out because her knowledge doesn't extend that far and she hates it.

Eoleo offers for them all to stay.

If they want to share a room with her, they can. Would it bring them peace if they could stay right beside of her?

Coco agrees to stay, while Richeh and Agott return to finish their work at the shop and send word to Qifrey and Olruggio of what's happened.

It isn't until theyve left and Coco is sleeping on a cot beside of Tetia that Deanreldy drags his son off.

Warns him that he wasn't careful enough.

That high of a dosage could have killed her, he wasn't far enough along in his studies to mix something like that safely- if he'd gotten it on his skin he could have died as well-

If he needed help, he should have just asked.

Eoleo apologizes for stealing, apologizes for the trouble he caused, begs him not to tell his Mother, and Dean just sighs.

"You must be careful with the things you want in life. I won't clean up your mess again, understand?"

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He was a cook at the restaurant/bar I was a bartender at, and almost punched a costumer once because he overheard him talking about how women belong in the kitchen. Told me he thought women should stay out of kitchens, that cooking is a man's job and when I asked him what he thinks women should be doing, he went quiet for a moment, then proceeded to explain to me the following

"I trust a bitch to run a kitchen as much as she can run a country, they should do shit like plumbing. Or electricity. Something you can just learn to do and don't need to lead, you know?"

We had an openly gay coworker who looked like it (crop tops, dyed hair, make-up) and he was often harassed by the waiters from the football bar next door. The gay dude had the same name as the Guy, who insisted that we would specify the he isn't gay, so they just became "Name" and "Not Gay Name". He was fine with that.

Boss gave us one meal from the menu a day as a job bonus, and we had this very shy seventeen year old working with us who was already nervous around men, but Our Guy was a 6'3 dude who only stopped yelling and cursing when he was not speaking at all. If he was the one cooking that day, he'd peek out of the kitchen an hour before he'd start closing it up, and would shout at you if you haven't ordered your meal yet because he hated cooking once he already cleaned. The waitress was scared shitless of him, and so whenever he would yell at her to "fucking order already", she'd panic and just pick something.

She didn't eat much but the first time she tried to throw out almost the whole plate, he got so personally insulted that he berated her for not picking something she'd like, and demanded to know what he did wrong. He got really upset about apparently not being able to cook something that this kid would like and I'm pretty sure he started putting in extra effort to make sure she would eat it this time? It lead to him quite literally standing over her like a hawk when she ate to "see her reaction" and demand an immediate review to see what he can improve.

My friend thought he was really funny before I explained to them that I'm pretty sure he thought he was being mean (but hey he it wasn't misgendering so yay)

I like how his issue isn't with the "that shit ain't in nature" thing he mentioned, but the idea that being nonbinary is some form of self-deprivation and that they deserve a gender like everyone else.

Still thinking too hard about the 6.6 Archon Quest and Anomalous Tree Marrows, so here’s an unhinged essay on the breathtaking tragedy of Pantalone and Dottore.

TLDR version

Pantalone insists that Dottore is Zandik because any alternative would be viscerally intolerable. He has to believe that some part of Zandik still persists within Dottore or else he has spent the better part of three centuries with his partner’s murderer

35 is the most selfish version of Dottore because he is Zandik immediately after he met Feofan, the manifestation of the moment he experiences what it means to be known, seen, and valued for his worldviews. In other words, he is Zandik once he knows what it’s like to have something to lose

Their final scene in front of Irminsul is an acknowledgement that they are out of time—literally and symbolically. Dottore will die and Pantalone will eventually follow, yes. But they are also out of each other’s time, each longing for different versions of the other

(No, I’m not okay, but let’s do this)

Omega being a segment of the original Dottore makes him feel more disconected from being a human. He says that he is Dottore. Not Zandik. Seperating himself from the original.

But clearly he still sees himself as Zandik. For example we see he signs using that name. He even admits he is Zandik at times. He sees himself as Zandik but he walks around fully admitting it. For him Zandik represents being human. He struggles with his humanity and identity just in a different way then the other Dottore's did.

But in the end when Dottore is dying Pantalone asks him what he would like to be called. Pantalone will use whatever name he wishes. Dottore gives Pantalone the choice and Dottore says goodbye using Pantalone's real name. He sees Pantalone as human so of course he uses his name and Pantalone as someone who sees Dottore as human uses his real name in response.

They see each other for who they truly are and they wanted to show that to each other. Thats why Pantalone gives him the choice.

And when Dottore is talking to Nahida he finally admits what none of the other Dottore's could and sturggled with. That he is human.