theres these clips from a youtube documentary abt abusers being recommended to me on ig and tiktok and I watched a bit of the beginning but im finding it odd. idk maybe I should finish it but its lowkey too triggering sometimes to hear interviews w abusive men who describe beating their wives or killing them etc like oh . and the tone is a bit odd from the creator of the doc. like talking abt how these abusive men need to realize theyre also victims (of whatever inner shit theyre dealing with...ig?) i think was one sentiment that struck me. idk overall my impression was kind of weirded out and I disagree w that kind of rhetoric around abuse. like abusers are not victims idk. or like the way they frame it like, abusive men dont realize theyre victims too instead of . harming women is bad. IDK

got the cutest black tube top and a semi backless black dress from princess polly at goodwill. I lovee backless tops i wish I owned more. I think they're really flattering. the tube top is nice and I like that its not cropped its quite long and it fits ok but if I jump or like crouch it was slipping a bit and im scared of that. Ik I own fashion tape but I cant find it lol . id be scared to wear it out and have my boobs come out in public lmfaoooo

no bc my ex hitting me there was sooooo much manipulation lol. cuz it wasnt like he would strike me or hit me unwarranted ig when we're arguing idk how to explain it. obv thats bad too and im sure even abusers who will be beating their partners find a way to manipulate that situation too but my ex would mainly just physically intimidate and control me and a lot of grabbing and restraining was the most common way for him to physically control me. sometimes pushing shoving like one tier worse. and then hes kicked me and hit me like a few times but thats after prolonged years of grabbing me and pushing which would lead to a power struggle/physically fighting him and then him accusing me of aggression and being crazy and fighting him back nd stuff. to the point where he was framing me as physically abusive and violent lol. So that's how that went I guess