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^ book written by nezo sometime during prog 2. it was somewhere random on a lectern. wyll broke it and thought about letting it despawn before putting it back because he thought it would be bad to destroy history. he also said he was saving it because he knows mugm gets sentimental sometimes and might want it

he had some Choice Words about the things overall. his overall sentiment was that he was kind of digusted by the self-pity. he thinks nezo is profoundly weak. said weakness was the reason he joined bhood and weakness was the reason he betrayed

timestamp like 3hr 50m ish

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strength newgens piss me off so I’m analyzing Befriending Minecraft’s Weakest Player because I love it I lovee bmwp and the way it shapes nezo’s future 🙁🙁

(which is unlisted and the only way it shows up in bliss smp chapt 3 playlist) 

You can see how guilty nezo is immediately off the bat but in his words “It doesn’t matter I couldn’t back out now” He himself is not forced to do this, brotherhood isn’t telling him to it is just a necessity as a person under pristine. Especially for a person who undervalues themselves, of COURSE they would go for the easiest option is someone who doesn’t want involved in anything. (Something nezo will eventually turn into in the future)

This is the classic “power over someone else will make me feel better about myself!!!” Was Nezo’s Bread and Butter dude. he strivess to have some kind of impact on someone worse than him like elemental like Jozz. 

He goes back nezo because a brotherhood member basically eggs him on to do it (works everytime, brotherhood could tell him to jump off a bridge and he would) in this fight jozz knows hes basically screwed and puts his hands off his keyboard and essentially letting nezo break his gem. // How Do We Make This About Silvasaur

Nezo had NO idea his gem was one away from breaking. He laughs off his guilt but it’s pretty obvious dude, would he still have done it knowing jozz’s gem would break? Probably yes I mean there’s no repercussions to it.

He goes onto say how it isn’t a good look (fork found in kitchen nezo cares about his reputation more than anything) …

“I couldn’t care more, if anything I was proud of what I just did” Makes him have a good look with brotherhood because it reinforces that he would do anything, even breaking a poor defenseless dude to help them with their goal! Mr jump off a Bridge for Brotherhood how I miss you

One of my favorite parts is coming up where nezo partially admits how cruel he is to weaker players qoute: “Because the truth is, Jozz isn’t the only weak player I’ve attacked. In the past I’ve jeopardized players for no reason, although not in my own hands. I was always behind it in some way.” 

IMISS PROG 2 I MISS PROG 2 I MISS PROG2 / any ways this just confirms what I’ve been saying about the Bread and Butter, and then realizing he’ll never get full from it cause it NEVER FUCKING DOES GOD DAMN IT. 

He decides he wants to be seen as a hero to the lower tiers, bring up his rep (FORK FOUND IN KITCHEN NUMBER 2)

critter duo INCOMING. Brotherhood basically assigned nezo to pheeabee, They create sanctuary :(  this to Nezo, is a justification for his mistakes, still with the goal of making himself feel better, having a good rep. This time just in a more helpful way, with more positive influence!!! pheeabee!!! 

Phee does most of the speaking cause shes clearly more invested in this, Nezo is trying :/. i miss the sit plugin. They meet with up with Jozz, 

nezo HOPES that Jozz will forgive him that he’ll join with open arms and He can finally have a good perception with the weaker players… andddd then jozz brings up the gembreak, clearly still grudged by it too. Nezo hits the dog in sunset cause phee is. Disappointed at his past. 

Justification demon comes in and the quote “The thing is, im not the bad guy anymo Or Atleast- I’m trying to help the people that have been wronged by me” Phee is saying wowww Nezo, jozz is suspicious. This Is Nezoshoki Hell. Guilty, guilty, guilty :/ 

Phee still having some hope jumps in and trys to fix this situation This qoute and scene kills me because of foreshadow. Phee: “Nezo has a very long history of um, maybe not making the best moves towards others. And um, yknow I think I think what Nezo needs is a fresh start (HELLO HELLOHELLO. FRESH START LIKE LIKE GIVJG HIS SHULKERS AWAY. LIKE IMSO NORMAL) And then the message. /msg pheeabee I really am a terrible person bro  YOUU AREE GUILTYYYY :/ :/:/

Nezo is basically silent for the rest, Phee is carrying him so hard iwl 😭it’s ok 

And if Phee wasn’t here Jozz would’ve said “fuck you, hate you Nezoshoki. Leave me alone”

This meeting, even though it went really well. Nezo basically got called out and then shut up

The only actual amending that he does with ACTIONS is giving his energy up to Jozz when nobody was willing enough to do it. In his words, again “it was what I owed him” fuck my Chungus Nezoshoki life dude I feel ://// Stage thousand of trying to feeling redemption doesn’t work. cause nothing works for this guy.

THE last chance is wanting to “See if all this was worth in the end” if he can ever repair his past, or if he gives up and sticks to being the dark particle companion . Um. 

AND THEN what kills me is that he flashbacks to the terrible person scene. Like ok. Like ok. “There’s so much mistrust, so much gembreaking and it only ends with the people who deserve the least getting screwed over” This Isn’t Funny. thats not cool. Thats Not Ok.

this nezo talk actually haunts my every waking moment bro