Widow Tarot

GROUP ONE

Current Energy: The Lovers, The World, 8 of Cups rx,6 of Pentacles rx, I Won't Cry For You, Colorless Angel, Joy Harjo(Bravery) rx, Agatha Christie(Trickery) rx.

There's this energy of emotional co-dependency; you're very much drawn to each other and hooked on each other's energy. If you guys stopped talking, it would feel like the end of the world. It's very much an obsession or something akin to that, intense and all-consuming. I think you know it's not healthy, and eventually it will hurt as hell, but for now, you can't even imagine letting go of that person. You're inseparable, or at least one of you can't function without the other. If it's not physical intimacy, it's texting or calling, but for most of you, there are lots of cuddles involved. I don't think there are any mental games involved; there's a lot of fear and treading lightly. I do think you are in denial of the future because you know if it ends, it's gonna hurt like a motherfucker, but you keep going, just to have your person, even if it's for a little bit. It's almost as if you expect the ending and start preparing for it.

Their Feelings/Thoughts: Wheel of Fortune, 10 of Pentacles rx, The World, The Emperor rx, Revenge, Is This Me?, Alejandra Pizarnik (Solitude), Bride rx.

They feel very content and happy with how things are at the moment, but are prepared for the fallout or even expect it. They've seen it all before; it's not the first casual connection they've gotten into. I don't think they are ready for any sort of commitment, or at least they don't think they're capable of it. It's not even about them not wanting commitment, but them just feeling like they're too broken for any sort of serious relationship. They know they're a coward, maybe a relationship from the past destroyed the possibility of anything serious for them. They don't want to be alone; they need companionship, and yet they're afraid of commitment. They don't like this version of themselves because they know they can love long-term. One day, they believe they will overcome this fear, but for now, they're still learning.

Potential Future Of This Connection: The Hanged Man rx, Knight of Wands, Justice, The Moon, Colorless Angel, I Won't Cry For You, Snail, Anais Nin (The Subconscious).

Everything depends on you and what you are willing to do. Are you ready to give it time and wait, not stressing about it or pressuring your person? Are you ready to go with the flow and match your person's energy? Can you be chill and still in contact, even if you know they aren't ready for any sort of commitment? Can you withstand seeing them with other people and still be there (not in a romantic way but in a friendship way)? It can take a long time, but they will come around if you stay. Even if you break contact, they will come around, but it's going to be your call if you want to enter a relationship. You don't need to pretend you're emotionless and that you don't care; you won't scare them away. But you need to see where your boundaries are and what exactly you can tolerate.

SONGS:

Glimpse of Us by Joji (Why then, if she's so perfect, do I still wish that it was you?; Perfect don't mean that it's working, so what can I do?; Maybe one day, you'll feel lonely; And in his eyes, you'll get a glimpse; Maybe you'll start slipping slowly and find me again)

Chihiro by Billie Eilish (To take my love away; When I come back around, will I know what to say?; Said I need to be alone now, I'm takin' a break; How come, when I returned, you were gone away?)

Falling Down by Lil Peep, XXXTENTACION (Sunlight on your skin when I'm not around; Shit don't feel the same when you're out of town; Darlin', your love is like walking a bed of nails; And I just can't keep on fighting)

See You Again by Tyler The Creator, Kali Uchis (Cupid hit me with precision; I wonder if you look both ways when you cross my mind; Can I get a kiss?; And can you make it last forever?)

GROUP TWO

Current Energy: 8 of Wands rx, 4 of Cups, Knight of Swords, Queen of Cups, Bride in a Cage, Black Flower Fragrance, Alejandra Pizarnik (Solitude), Eye rx.

I feel like it's either no contact at the moment or you both just need some time alone to process your feelings and what you want from each other. I see some drama happened, words were said, as well as accusations, big and angry feelings that burned down everything around you. Now there's regret because what can you do now? I don't know how long you haven't seen or talked to each other, but I don't think it's a long time, a week at worst. The important thing at the moment is to take a deep breath and calm down so the words won't flow on their own to destroy everything again. It's okay to take some time apart, just give each other a heads up. I see fury and blowing up as someone's toxic pattern or coping mechanism, and they might feel beat up about it or even embarrassed. It's okay, though, as long as you're working on it and communicating that to the other person.

Their Feelings/Thoughts: 4 of Cups, 2 of Swords rx, 7 of Wands, 9 of Cups, Sacrifice, Bride in a Cage, Toad, Emily Bronte (Fantasy) rx.

They are unsure of what to do at the moment. Honestly, I feel like you were the one to blow up, and they are the people pleaser, so now, they feel immense guilt, and they're ready to sacrifice their dignity and apologize (even though it might not have been their fault). They're at a crossroads because one part of them (the healed one) knows they didn't do anything catastrophically, but another part tells them they're worthless and should save whatever is left of the connection. They're indecisive, going back and forth. They were happy with you and how things were going, so this drama/fight hit them pretty hard.

Potential Future Of This Connection: 2 of Wands rx, The Emperor rx, Page of Wands rx, 4 of Wands rx, Is This Me?, Revenge, Naked Before The Stars, Eye rx, Forugh Farrokhzard (Rebellion).

I think you guys should split up and move on. There's so much bitterness and conflict, including a lack of trust and anger. At some point, you will only hate fuck or hurt each other on purpose, just to get the upper hand. Playing mental games, manipulation, and arguing. I see that this dynamic could go on for a long time before you decide to end it. There is comfort here because even if you fight, you do it together. The feelings didn't fade; they just turned into the worst type of intense emotions, and even if you destroy each other little by little, you're still by each other's side. This dynamic won't even teach you anything useful; it's just gonna fill the emotional emptiness inside of you. You won't see eye to eye on anything, and every little thing will be a cause for conflict.

SONGS:

Gimme Love by Joji (Those pictures so clear, the fade in my mind; You leavin' me here with ashes and fire; When I'm far too gone, can you show me love?)

I Didn't Change My Number by Billie Eilish (Don't take it out on me; I'm out of sympathy for you; Maybe you should leave; Before I get too mean;  I didn't change my number; I only changed who I believe in; You were easy on the eyes)

Ugly by XXXTENTACION (I seem out of it; The dream I had about her in my head; It seems I won't forget; Am I insecure? I'm not really sure)

JUGGERNAUT by Tyler The Creator, Lil Uzi Vert, Pharrell Williams (Say the money comin' in, yeah, that's true; The more money I get, I don't wan' sex you; Can't think about the last time that I text you)

GROUP THREE

Current Energy: 3 of Swords rx, Ace of Cups, 10 of Swords rx, Devil rx, The Child I Was Meant To Be, Black Flower Fragrance, Wall, Apple rx.

You are healing each other. There might be factors blocking commitment, but if you're afraid your person is talking to others behind your back, you're wrong. They're loyal to you even if you aren't together. Every minute you spend together, you heal wounds you didn't inflict. It's quite a beautiful and pure connection. I do see some of the people here have baggage, and so this might be one of the obstacles. You guys have your walls up, and they are slowly coming down. You are afraid that this connection will destroy you just like those before, but you can be at peace. You are learning acceptance and trust.

Their Feelings/Thoughts: Page of Swords, The Star, 5 of Swords rx, Ace of Swords, Black Flower Fragrance, Perchance To Dream, Spider, Sandra Cisneros (Body).

They are very hopeful and want this connection to work out. They enjoy spending time with you and talking, even just sitting there in silence is one of their favourite things. They're trying to leave their past behind them, untangle themselves from its influence, and start anew. They fantasize about the future with you (cards don't mention if it's platonic or romantic). You give them hope, make them think everything will be okay eventually. I think they're trying to verbalize their feelings and what exactly they feel about this connection, but the words are stuck in their throat. If you have sexual experience with this person, I hear that the sex is very healing as well.

Potential Future Of This Connection: 5 of Pentacles, King of Wands rx, 2 of Pentacles rx, 10 of Wands, Anger And Chains, Is This Me?, Lantern, Book rx.

This connection is meant to heal you both, but remember that it's built on pain and suffering. Something brought you together because you needed each other, but you're not meant to stay in each other's lives in the long run. If you remained together, it would just remind you of the past and all you went through, causing you to go back into the spiral of sadness once again. This person seems like a light at the end of a tunnel, and they are somewhat of a guide now, but you will see with time that your time together is limited and will run its course eventually. One of you can also grow out of this connection and want to move on, but the other person cannot follow.

SONGS:

Ew by Joji (Teach me to love just to let me go; I can't believe that I'm not enough; What does love mean when the end is rolling in?; Oh, let it go, let it stay, can we love one another?)

Lunch by Billie Eilish (Baby, I think you were made for me; Somebody write down the recipe; Been tryin' hard not to overeat; You're just so sweet)

love yourself (interlude) by XXXTENTACION (love yourself; Take no chances, fuck that ni**a)

Trashwang by Tyler The Creator, Na-Kel Smith, Jasper Dolphin, Lucas, L-Boy, Taco, Left Brain, Lee Spielman - this song is meant to hype you up, not really relevant to the reading (These clothes they free though; Straight from the back of the Supreme store; Don't let the skateboards fool you; Know ni**as that pull triggers)

GROUP FOUR

Current Energy: 3 of Pentacles, 5 of Swords rx, The Fool, King of Cups, Triumph Of Lies, Forgetting Oneself, Sylvia Plath(The Dark), Emily Bronte(Fantasy) rx, Snail.

It might be a new connection that you're already very emotionally invested in. It's a type of connection that's very slow-moving; however, there is a purpose. You need time being in a situationship with this person because the fantasy has to wear off, leaving space for reality. It won't progress fast, especially if you got hooked on this person pretty early and suddenly. I do think you guys will see each other's worst sides, you will confide in each other about your traumas, but it takes time (especially since someone is pretty much avoiding telling the truth out of fear/has problems with vulnerability). Also, there's no actual progress in a relationship because you have to detach a little; otherwise, you're risking being devoured. Have some distance and perspective.

Their Feelings/Thoughts: Ace of Cups, 3 of Swords rx, 2 of Pentacles, Devil rx, Black Flower Fragrance, The Child I Was Meant To Be, Maria Sabina (Healing), Doll rx.

They are grateful for your presence. You're healing something you didn't cause, and they appreciate you greatly. Their heart is currently blocked, but you're giving them a brief respite. They're trying to regain their footing in life and have some balance. You might think sometimes that you're doomed to be hurt by them, but they truly do everything they can to not hurt you. They could see a romantic future with you, but for now, it's far away. They also don't want to heal and discard you; even if you will separate one day, they will have nothing but love for you. They can also think of themselves as a broken doll; broken beyond repair, unfit for any relationship. You're their safe space, or at least beginning to be.

Potential Future Of This Connection: Emperor rx, The World, 4 of Pentacles rx, Hermit, Colorless Angel, Addicted, Creature's Paw, Alejandra Pizarnik(Solitude) rx.

There is so much potential here. You can give each other so much happiness if both of you are willing to do the work. They will be powerless when it comes to you, loyal to a fault, and devoted. They can be possessive, though; I keep hearing one person wants to be alone and the other doesn't want to be apart, so either you or they can become clingy. One person can become very co-dependent emotionally. This connection can quickly become obsessive if not managed properly, so look out for that (unless you're into that). I don't see any toxicity or abuse, though.

SONGS:

Yeah Right by Joji (Yeah, I bet you won't cry; Yeah, I bet you won't try; But you know I don't mind; Yeah, you bet she know that we ain't; Never gonna be together, I see)

ocean eyes by Billie Eilish (You really know how to make me cry; When you gimme those ocean eyes; Careful creature made friends with time; He left her lonely with a diamond mind)

Infinity by XXXTENTACION, Joey Bada$$ (I'm as real as they come, they feel it, get numb; You think you got a little buzz, so now you can't get stung; I keep a razor blade tucked on me, under my tongue)

Her by Tyler The Creator (We talk every night, she cry to me about her guy; And if we text, I get pissed when I get no reply; I know that she's the key to love; 'Cause it's like she is inviting me to her world full of privacy; I'm getting gassed up, I think she's liking me)

GROUP FIVE

Current Energy: Ace of Cups, The Hermit, 5 of Cups rx, Death, Wings, Boar rx, Anne Carson(The Intellect) rx, Black Flower Fragrance, Colorless Angel.

So this either is a very fresh connection, you've never felt like this before/never encountered such a connection before, or both. This is a very transformative energy, but I see that you don't spend much time together. I keep hearing "freedom," so you shouldn't be forcing anything out of it; just go with the flow and enjoy it. You don't have to fight anyone or anything. I keep losing words I want to write, so despite both of you or one person being intelligent, overthinking doesn't help the emotional state. There is a focus on reflecting on the past or just sitting with your emotions alone and processing them.

Their Feelings/Thoughts: 6 of Swords, Page of Swords, Knight of Cups rx, Devil rx, Sylvia Plath(The Dark), Emily Bronte(Fantasy) rx, Doll rx, Hiding Your True Self, Blinded To Pain.

I keep wanting to cry while doing this group.

I do see them wanting to reach out to you and talk; they want to make that move towards you, but something is blocking them. I feel like they're emotionally confused or they don't feel worthy/brave enough to put themselves in such a vulnerable position. They don't want to start something that will ultimately lead to both of your demises. They don't want the fantasy to devour and blind them. They don't want to get played. They have their walls up pretty high. They might have been hurt badly in the past, and they expect you to do the same to them.

Potential Future Of This Connection: 4 of Pentacles, 7 of Cups, 7 of Pentacles rx, Ace of Swords, Praying Mantis, Wildflowers rx, Today For Tomorrow, Peaceful Among Thorns.

First of all, y'all need communication. Don't leave things unsaid or up to interpretation. I think both of you have a tendency to pay attention to the wrong things and get stuck in your head about them for a long ass time. You overthink to the point of not even having a conversation about something, but already having a conclusion about what the other person thinks. You have to plant a seed of cooperation and teamwork first, so you can actually resolve any problems/doubts that arise. Don't let Billie Eilish's song "Wildflower" be about you! Be present in the moment with each other and try to make the present work; don't pay so much attention to the future! Don't get stuck in the fantasy/"what if" world.

SONGS:

Plastic Taste by Joji (I can't do this face-to-face; But I'll admit that I'm afraid; Let these moments go to waste; Excuse me for my plastic taste)

8 by Billie Eilish (Wait a minute, let me finish; I know you don't care; But can you listen?; I came committed, guess I overdid it; Wore my heart out on a chain; You said, "Don't treat me badly"; But you said it so sadly)

Butthole Girl by XXXTENTACION, Tank Head, Robb Banks, Craig Xen (I can guarantee that this ain't what you want; She just wanna suck on my energy; But the bitch gotta do it under oath)

interlude by Tyler The Creator (Imma do a slow song but its really cool; Cause I get all artsy and shit)

GROUP SIX

Current Energy: 3 of Wands, Ace of Cups, 8 of Wands, Hanged Man rx, Skull, Anais Nin(The Subconscious) rx, Addicted, Fragmentation.

Do you feel like it's one-sided? This situationship might have progressed too fast, and now you find yourself thinking about what to do next, but at the same time, you feel bitter. It's like you want to be patient and wait for the other person's move, but you cannot just sit and watch this connection slip through your fingers. You might feel like you're giving parts of yourself to that person, but you get nothing in return. Is it worth waiting for? You've waited so much, and you have this emotional attachment to this person; it's killing you not to be in control of your own feelings. There's inner conflict here; your intuition tells you one thing, but you block it out.

Their Feelings/Thoughts: Page of Swords rx, 4 of Wands, High Priestess, 6 of Swords rx, Tree rx, Spider rx, Queen Of My World, Atonement.

They're confused, trying to navigate their feelings but coming up short. They're happy with how things are, though. They don't communicate as well as they should. They think you belong in their life, but aren't sure in what capacity/role yet. They have their own inner stuff to figure out, still trying to heal or find out who they are. They don't want to get entangled in your web. They don't want to take root in what will not stay or be good for them. They're waiting for the other shoe to drop. They like touching you. Their walls are high up. They might seem confident, but deep inside is a deeply hurt person.

Potential Future Of This Connection: Hanged Man rx, Justice rx, 5 of Cups rx, 7 of Wands rx, Glove, Praying Mantis, Triumph Of Lies, The Child I Was Meant To Be.

Whatever will happen, it's not gonna be fair. Someone will not deserve it. Yes, the waiting is over, but maybe waiting was better than whatever the resolution will be. It will allow someone to stop looking at what they lost, but focus on what they have in their life. The fight is over. Someone will give up. Someone will lie, even if it wasn't their purpose. Your prayers were answered, just not in the way you hoped. It was supposed to be different, and you expected a different resolution, but there is nothing here to stay for.

SONGS:

No Fun by Joji (Fuck my friends, they're gone; They all left one by one; Don't check no mail, no phone; And I tell them I'm not home; And I know it's my fault but I don't care; And I keep to myself; Who are you to pretend?)

bellyache by Billie Eilish (Maybe it's in the gutter; Where I left my lover; What an expensive fake; My V is for Vendetta; Thought that I'd feel better; But now I got a bellyache)

It's all fading to black by XXXTENTACION, blink-182 (Now I'm just a ghost in my own life; So make the most of this goodbye; Do you still dream about me late at night; You know it's killin' me to let go; I see your face, but it's someone I don't know; Everything was perfect just an hour ago)

WOLF by Tyler The Creator (I know, fuck you, I hate you so fucking much; I know you think I'm crazy; Whatever the fuck your name is; We don't fuck with you or anybody else here, alright?; You stay the fuck out of our way and we'll stay out of yours)

GROUP ONE

Cards: 3 of Cups, Judgement, 9 of Swords, 10 of Cups, Boat (Progression, Moving On, Closure Issues), The Runner rx (fear of intimacy, listening to ego), Not Today rx (not dealing, hurt, avoiding a conversation/person, boundaries).

There are too many people around to see how they behave around you. No matter if you're asking about a crush or a potential friend, they care a lot about what other people think, at least in your immediate surroundings (work/school). They don't want to be judged or have their actions misunderstood by others, including you, but it also connects to other people. They're happy with how things are, or at least they're... at peace with how things are. It's not like the connection between you guys is bad, it's just... like it's being kept at a distance. If you delve deeper, the connection might break and sour the work/school environment, so they are also trying to avoid that. However, I do feel like they're working on fixing/changing that part of themselves. I can't promise anything will be different; it really depends on the person you're asking about. They're very much trapped in their own mind and perceptions. There is a significant blockage in the heart/throat chakra.

SONGS:

Door by Mitski (There is a door to me; I've never seen it; Sometimes I get closer to it; But I've never found it; A hopeless violence; I named it love)

my future by Billie Eilish (Can't you hear me?; I'm not comin' home; Do you understand?; I've changed my plans; But I know better; Than to drive you home; 'Cause you'd invite me in; And I'd be yours again)

Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas by Phoebe Bridgers (Someday soon we all will be together; If the fates allow; Until then, we'll have to muddle through somehow)

Unfinished by Noah Cyrus (Now I've got you on my mind; And I'm wonderin' tonight; If we could've been more; But we were left unfinished; I flew back to the life I knew; Left you asleep there in the hotel room; I told myself that it was for the best)

TAKE THIS HOME by DE'WAYNE, Good Charlotte (Take this crown away from me; I hold myself with no esteem; There's no joy in victory; All my heart feels is defeat)

first day of my life by gnash, Goody Grace (And so I thought I'd let you know; That these things take forever; I especially am slow; But I realize that I need you; And I wondered if I could come home)

GROUP TWO

Cards: The Tower, The Chariot rx, High Priestess rx, 10 of Pentacles, The Phoenix (new phase, rekindle, growth), Love Call rx (message of love), The Runner rx (fear of intimacy, listening to ego).

At the moment, I think they are going through something in their life or some major chaotic change is coming for them, hence The Tower. Honestly, it seems like they're in their own world. I think the hot and cold is not even on purpose; they don't even see it, and if they do, they don't think it's a big deal or that it affects you. You're not at the center of their focus atm, and maybe you're also a painful reminder of something as well (very specific for a selected few). They think very highly of you, though. If you want them to approach you and explain their behavior, then you're gonna be gravely disappointed. They don't think they're doing something wrong or anything to hurt you, so why would they feel the need to explain themselves? But they are changing, that's for sure.

SONGS:

There's Nothing Left For You by Mitski (There's nothin' left for you; Nothin' in this room; Try and go outside Nothin' waits for you; You had it once before; Not anymore; So go on to that sweetheart's door; And find a new you)

LUNCH by Billie Eilish (I could eat that girl for lunch; Yeah, she dances on my tongue; Tastes like she might be the one; And I could never get enough; I could buy her so much stuff; It's a craving, not a crush)

Christmas Song by Phoebe Bridgers (The desire for annihilation; Is as common as it is unkind; And it's hard to recognize the situation; When you're desperately trying to have a good time; You don't have to be alone to be lonesome; It's so easy to forget; The sadness comes crashing like a brick through the window)

Ready To Go by Noah Cyrus (I've lost all the words; Feels like my heart's been tied up; I wait 'til it hurts; I never can choose; I stay, we'll burn; 'Til you leave first)

Bleed Magic by I DONT KNOW BUT THEY FOUND ME (Don't want to scare you off'; Don't want to know your name; You'll never know a single thing about me; Until it's far too late)

SICK by gnash, CXLOE (Why you being so nice to me; I don't like the niceties; I wish I could make you see what I really need; I want you to make me sick; Love me out my mind)

GROUP THREE

Cards: Queen of Cups, Wheel of Fortune rx, The World, 9 of Cups, The Grim Reaper (relationship is over, no second chances, grow and transform), Clock rx (need time, takes time, cycles), The Butterfly rx (relationship evolving, growth)

It's weird. It's like they enjoy spending time with you, but at the same time, they know they have to cut it to a minimum because you either aren't good for them or they're trying to... leave? It's like smiling at you when you talk, having those fun convos about various topics, and laughing together, but then the reality hits them, and they withdraw. They think of you fondly, though, but it's like they can't let themselves be swept into whatever this is with you, so when the moment passes, they distance themselves again. But then, they have a good day again, they're positive again, and they're starting the same thing with you. It's like they want to stay, but they can't. You either aren't good for them or you can't be good for them (someone else is already good for them). I assume you're asking when this person went cold again - this period will last a longer time for sure, but they have so much fondness for you at the same time.

SONGS:

Class of 2013 by Mitski (Mom, I'm tired; Can I sleep in your house tonight?; Mom, is it alright; If I stay for a year or two?)

Happier Than Ever by Billie Eilish (When I'm away from you, I'm happier than ever; Wish I could explain it better; I wish it wasn't true; Don't say it isn't fair; You clearly weren't aware that you made me miserable)

Georgia by Phoebe Bridgers (Georgia, I love your son; And when he gets older, he might be the one; And he never lies or picks up his phone; And sometimes in the pouring rain; He'll fall in the mud and get back up again)

Again by Noah Cyrus, XXXTENTACION (You just made the worst mistake; And you'll regret it, darling; 'Cause once you give and then you take; You'll only end up wanting; You don't know what you got 'til it's gone, my dear; So tell me that you love me again)

WHAT LOVE? by I DONT KNOW HOW THEY FOUND ME (What love would get this vicious?; That's right, but never mind; This blood sometimes, holiness brings you; I think you've got a hold of me; But don't let go and I'll never set you free; You only come around when I got somebody new; You only sacrifice the things I never ask you to)

pajamas by gnash (Let's be immature and ignorant; 'Cause I don't feel like being sad; I wonder if the last generation was better; I wonder if the next one's going to hell; Am I the solution, am I the problem?; Let's stay in our pajamas; Let's not leave the house; It's been real bad lately; But I feel pretty good right now)

GROUP FOUR

Cards: 4 of Pentacles rx, Knight of Swords, 4 of Cups rx, The Chariot rx, Heartbroken rx (deeply hurt, sad, feeling lost, breakup), Twin Flames (zen, balance, union, complementing each other), Healthy Choices rx (self-love, making good choices, being happier).

They know they're attached to you. It's an unhealthy mechanism they have, or maybe attaching themselves to you doesn't seem healthy. They're trying to distance themselves from you while not completely cutting you off because they can't. It's not that you are the problem here, but in their eyes, this type of dependency will ruin them, so they're trying to control it somehow. They want you in their life; they just need to digest the situation and make a plan. They're pretty stagnant right now, unable to find a way to move with this connection or change their codependency. For now, they're improvising.

SONGS:

Old Friend by Mitski (We nearly drowned for such a silly thing; Someone who loves me now better than you; I haven't told anyone, just like we promised; Have you?)

Lo Vas A Olvidar by Billie Eilish, ROSALIA (Tell me if you still miss me; Tell me if you still won't forgive me; Tell me if we still have something in common; Love can't be measured steadily; One day I'm a Goddess and the next day I can break)

Garden Song by Phoebe Bridgers (And when I grow up, I'm gonna look up; From my phone and see my life; I don't know how, but I'm taller; It must be something in the water; Everything's growing in our garden; You don't have to know that it's haunted)

Snow in LA by Noah Cyrus, PJ Harding (It's Christmas in California; Where the redwoods been burning for days; While the gold embers glow; The church bells are ringing on Sunset; But the preachers got nothing to say; If it turns out we all; Just weren't worth dying for)

Leave Me Alone by I DON'T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME (You took the money; But the money couldn't buy a friend; Go fly a kite until you're tangled in the hanging tree; Aristocrat, tip your hat and break your mother's heart; And when the sun comes up; You'll find a brand new god)

I Wanna Feel Good by gnash, Chris James (I swear I try, I do the best that I can; To keep together when I know that I can't now; I've had it up to here with self-doubt and these second thoughts; I'm tired of pretending to be someone that I'm not)

O Little Town of Betlehem by Lily Williams (How still we see thee lie; Above thy deep and dreamless sleep; While mortals sleep, the angels keep; Their watch of wondering love)

GROUP FIVE

Cards: Wheel of Fortune, Knight of Wands, Ace of Pentacles, 7 of Pentacles rx, Ace of Swords, Lightning (sudden change, surprise, epiphany), Passion (insane chemistry, having fun), Coffin (Endings bring new beginnings, growth, liberation), Ascending rx (transcending obstacles, expansion, new phase).

Short answer: because they're happy. It seems like everything is going alright at the moment, so they don't need you anymore. It's selfish and very opportunistic, but at the same time, they haven't decided yet what to do with this connection. Do you need this connection? Is it a connection worthy of your attention and effort? It seems like you're the only one keeping it alive. I don't want to say that they're a shallow person, but it seems like they're very opportunistic, using good people and then leaving them behind. You had good foundations for this connection to grow, but they don't really care about growing something with you.

SONGS:

Thursday Girl by Mitski (Somebody please tell me no; It shows me what I am; I’m not happy or sad, just up or down; And always bad)

my future by Billie Eilish (Can’t you hear me?; I’m not comin’ home; Do you understand?; But I know better than to drive you home; 'Cause you’d invite me in; And I’d be yours again;  I’m in love with my future; And you don’t know her)

Walking On a String by Phoebe Bridgers, Matt Berninger (The things you said are hanging in the middle of my mind tonight; I knew that I was dead before you touched my lonesome skin; You’re never running out of ways to warm your way back in)

Oh What a Dream We Had by Michal David, Richard Marx, Billion Streams For Charity, Braison Cyrus, Lauri Yloumlnen, Marcelito Pomoy, Kimbra, Billy Ray Cyrus, Noah Cyrus (We held each other closer and dreamed the worst was over; a never-ending prayer to let every life be sweet; no heartache anywhere; a time for us to heal)

Mad IQs by I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME (Come inside; Twist the knife; Like it’s something to do; Don’t you lose all your control; 'Cause you can’t get into heaven; If you haven’t got a soul; If you’re sick or you’re obscene; You can bend or you can break; But they’ll replace you with machines)

feelings fade by gnash, RKCB (Don’t know if I’ll be fine without you; I hope I’ll be alright without you; Everything’s ending eventually; Best friends can become your enemies; Feelings fade when people change; I stayed the same; You played your games)

GROUP SIX

Cards: 3 of Pentacles, Wheel of Fortune, King of Cups rx, Ace of Pentacles, The Phoenix (new phase, rekindle, change), Separation rx (sadness, missing you, unsure of future), Wedding Rings rx (union, wedding, eternal love).

You're still an important part of their life, but they want to move on to different stuff. They're not abandoning you, but they need to live their life too; you can't be there with them all the time. I don't know if there's any codependency or if you're really attached to this person, but I'm here to assure you that you're not being abandoned. I also think they start to feel trapped around you, like they're drowning. Give them some space. Let yourself enjoy your own presence or meet other people.

SONGS:

Cop Car by Mitski (We thought we had all night; There was no need to rush; That's when those cops came pulling up; I was too busy watching you going wild child; To be worried about going to jail; And you were so innocent, but you were stealing my heart; I fell in love in the back of a cop car)

when the party's over by Billie Eilish (Don't you know I'm no good for you?; I've learned to lose you, can't afford to; Tore my shirt to stop you bleedin'; But nothin' ever stops you leavin')

Killer by Phoebe Bridgers (Sometimes I think I'm a killer; I scared you in your house; I even scared myself by talking; Can the killer in me tame the fire in you?; Oh, is there nothing left to do for us?)

For Once In My Life by Noah Cyrus (I can go where life leads me; Somewhere I know I'll be strong; For once in my life; I won't let sorrow hurt me; This is mine, you can't take it; As long as I know I have love, I can make it)

Need You Here by I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME (There is no other place in this world that I'd rather be; If I can't be at home then I'll send my apologies; Can't you stay right here forever pretty please?; Where do you go when you're not home?)

leave by gnash (It's all my fault if it makes things better; Blame it all on the change in the weather; I'm not saying I know how to save this; I'm just saying we've been here before; I lost my patience, made an ultimatum; Wrote it down and gave it on a piece of paper)

GROUP ONE

Cards: 5 of Cups, The Emperor, The Magician, The High Priestess, Well rx, Chicken, Audre Lorde (Justice), Octavia E.Butler (The Future), Lightning (Sudden Change, Shocking News, Epiphany), I Like You rx (Romance is Blooming, Fun Flirting), Wedding Rings rx (Union, Soul Connection, Married), The Snake rx (Competition, Enemy, The Other Woman), Cassette (Outdated Thinking, Replaying Events Over in Your Head).

Yes, there is sexual interest here. It's giving the vibes of the "enemies to lovers" trope, or at least enemies/rivals with benefits. There's a strong energy of creation, but lots of obstacles and tension. I keep hearing the words "insatiable" and "temptation". Big personalities chose this pile (but it also refers to your person; they also have a big personality). It's like both of you are trying to resist, using your logic instead of giving in. It's not my place to tell you what to do; you know your situation the best, but it seems like the sexual tension is keeping you away from the good things. Maybe it's time to give in? Either you or they have big stamina and could go on during sex for a long ass time. They'd love to see your face when you come, staring deep into your eyes and memorizing every detail. The sex would be on the rougher side, but still very passionate and consensual. I keep hearing "resentment," so you do have some type of history between you guys and can't let it go, not completely at least. I do feel like there has been some type of misunderstanding, but if not that, the cards are telling you to talk things out, even if it would lead to an argument. Also hate sex/make-up sex. Both of you are very dominant, and both have strong personalities and lots of strong emotions, so sex would be one way to vent all that anger and frustration. I keep hearing "I hate you" repeated during sex, but it doesn't carry any real meaning. I think the intimacy might awaken unwanted feelings, so watch out for that. I keep seeing enemies with benefits, but there is no actual animosity between you, not a vicious one at least. You literally have no other competition to look out for.

SONGS:

I Follow Rivers by Lykke Li, The Magician (Oh, I beg you, can I follow?; Oh, I ask you, why not always?; Be the ocean, where I unravel; I follow you, deep sea, baby; I follow you, dark doom, honey)

Soaked by Shy Smith (I know I've been leavin' y'all hangin' dry; It's time to switch it up; I wanna get soaked; There's somethin' 'bout me that drives you crazy; I know it's the way I move my body; I don't think you truly know me)

Unfaithful by Quinta (Tell me all you wanted me to do; Everything goes back to you; Tell all the voices in my head; That I can't go back in time; And I've already fucked it up)

Pillowtalk by Zayn (I'm seeing the pain, seeing the pleasure; Nobody but you, 'body but me; In the place that feels the tears; The place to lose your fears; Yeah, reckless behavior; It's our paradise and it's our war zone)

Dirty by Tank (Don't think they understand the; Type of shit you into, you know; I'll violate all the meat on your bones; You bust it open, I'm lovin' the show; Angel for them, but for me you're a hoe)

Please by Omido, Ex Habit (You want me to come but baby you won’t let me stay; Your friends do not know, so you call me only when it’s late; You say that you’rе lost but baby I won’t let you down; We won’t tell anyone how you scream when they're not around)

GROUP TWO

Cards: Hanged Man, The Fool rx, Queen of Cups, 4 of Cups rx, Date (Plan a date, Meeting Someone New), Self-Indulgence rx (Focus on Self, Shadow Work, Self-Worth), Heartbroken rx (Deeply Hurt, Feeling Lost, Separation, Mourning), The Phoenix rx (New Phase, Renew, Growth, Changed Mind), Doll, Anais Nin rx (The Subconscious), Virginia Wolf rx (Vision), Janet Frame (Belonging).

I would lean towards "no," however, the energy is quite stuck and repressed on purpose. Whoever you are asking about is not really keen on confronting what's really going on, and they prefer to keep things how they currently are. They would rather let stuff unfold on their own, trusting the process. They're in limbo at the moment. They don't want to be reckless and make a bad decision, whatever that means (it's different for all of you, depending on the situation, so you should know what I'm talking about). They're not really a risk-takers; they're more of a type of person who goes along with whatever is safest. They like safety, and I do think they're missing out on a lot of things because of the dependence on comfort and safety they currently possess. Even if they have any sexual interest in you, it would be just a normal curiosity, a fleeting moment, but quickly discarded. Hard to say if it's because they're not that interested or if they're doing it out of self-preservation. They're currently in a good place in life, so I don't think they would lose it all for something that's not sure at all. They're not the ones to sleep around, so commitment would have to come first here. I don't see them changing their mind about you any time soon. If anything, I see them changing their mind because of someone new coming into their life. Also, I keep hearing they're trying not to be selfish.

SONGS:

Fill the Void by The Weeknd, Lily-Rose Depp, Ramsey (I don't wanna decide things for myself, on my own; Seems I've got a choice to make; Be my voice and I choose you to fill the void; I'm in love with both at the same time)

You? by Two Feet (Don't tell me your problems; I don't want to solve them; I don't really care; Tear me to pieces; Why is the time so slow?; Tell me you need it; Tell me to take it home; All that I'm thinking; Wondering where we'll go)

Who Is She? by I Monster (A misty memory; A haunting face; Is she a lost embrace?; I call her name; Across an endless plain; She'll answer me; Where ever she may be)

Bad Girls Do It Well by Ex Habit (All of those games I didn't think I would play; Your attempts to break up fighting fire with more flame; Praying you take me back, knowing you won't; My nightmares turned true and the closure is due; If I could just take it back, know I would; Love is a cruel game, wish you knew; They say bad girls do it well, oh you don't; Baby just break my heart again cause I'm no good; Did damage to you, this time follow through)

Angeline by Chase Atlantic (Just find someone to take my place; He might appreciate your sense of humor; I don't know what to do with that girl; Man, I swear I'm through with that girl; Angeline, you're drinking way too much codeine; And you can't fall asleep here)

Hotel by Montel Fish (When I met you in that hotel room; I could tell that you were so bad news; I keep goin' back to this hotel room; I just don't know what the hell to just tell you; But I love messin' with ya, messin' with you)

GROUP THREE

Cards: The Chariot, Page of Pentacles rx, 2 of Cups, 6 of Wands, Healthy Choices (Making Healthy Choices, Being Happier), Axe rx (Break Up, Separation, Stop the Pattern, Silent Treatment), Cupid's Arrow rx (Have Faith, Love is Coming, Invitation), Passion (Having Fun, Chemistry), Doll rx, Moon rx, Eel rx, Volcano rx.

This group's energy is quite innocent, but the answer is "yes". However, your person might have religious guilt or was just brought up in an environment where any type of lust was considered bad and shameful. They're trying to be decent towards you, banishing any sexual thought that pops into their head about you. Are they a virgin? They're heavily repressed when it comes to any type of sexual stuff/lust/kinks, so bear in mind you might have to lead the way in the future. I couldn't even tell you their sexual fantasies because they are literally a blank page; they didn't think that far about their likes and dislikes in bed. I think they'd love romantic sex, gentle and full of adoration for their partner (and vice versa). I believe they are more on the submissive side (service top, submissive bottom). They care more about pleasing their partner rather than themselves. They won't make a first move. If you want sexual intimacy from them, you have to make it clear and lead the way. They will go along with whatever you want (be careful not to overstep any boundaries, though). I do feel like they're not very kinky, though, I hear vanilla. Might prefer to do it in the dark rather than in broad daylight or with light. If you want them to objectify you or degrade you, they won't do that (for all my JJK fans, it reminds me a lot of Yuuta Okkotsu's vibe). Refuse to abuse you in any way in bed. Again, they're the romantic soft types.

(The songs below however tell another story. Few scenarios here:

This reading could describe you more than them, and the songs are actually what they are saying, which, in this case, is unhealthy; they get off on the fact that they have the power over you. Just check the lyrics on the internet.

They portray themselves as gentle in the reading, but their energy is much darker, which means they're great at manipulation.

The reading is about them, but the songs are how they view you.)

SONGS:

West Coast by Lana Del Rey (Down on the West Coast they got a sayin'; "If you're not drinkin' then you're not playin'"; But you've got the music in you; Down on the West Coast, I get this feeling like; It all could happen, that's why I'm leaving; You for the moment)

When You Loved Me Least by Michl (I've grown tired of being ignored; I'm not painting any fence for someone else; Don't follow me; Cause I loved you most when you loved me least; Dead broke but I refuse to beg)

Mind Games by Sickick (There's another side that you don't know, you don't know; I can't wait to get you all alone; Once I'm in there ain't no letting go; Watch me turn your mind into my home; I can lie to you and tell you you can get me out your head; But I'm lovin' all the pain I'm causing you too much instead)

Clutch by Col3trane, Kiana Lede (Don't push me away when you wanna be close to me; Think of all the times that you didn't wanna notice me; I work 'til the beat shamrock; Come home and feel lucky; I know I can be a nuisance; But I don't make excuses; Oh, and I'll do anything for your trust; Always we fuck, but make love over lust; But I know that it's love with you)

Do It For Me by Rosenfeld (Take off your clothes; Give me your trust; Look me in the eyes and confess your lust; Say my name; I promise I'll love you if you do it; So do it for me)

Shut Up And Listen by Nicholas Bonnin, Angelicca (Shut up and listen; Look at my eyes; Don't ever lie; I need you to tell me the truth; You gotta be clear; Tell me the details; I gotta know; When you tie me, do it slow, forget the time; Move position, take me south, ease your mind)

GROUP FOUR

Cards: 7 of Cups, The World, Knight of Pentacles horizontal, Ace of Pentacles rx, Addiction (Obsession, Controlling, Restraint, Co-Dependent), Separation (Sadness, Unsure of Future, Yearning, Missing You), Palm Tree rx (Stability, Security, Growth, Endurance), Sunglasses rx (Looking, Stalking, Watching, Gaslighting), Wolf rx, Cat rx, Glove horizontal, Joy Harjo (Bravery).

This person feels sexual attraction towards you. What's more important here, though, is that they feel very strongly about you; they are obsessed even. I'm not sure if you've just met them or maybe you've known them for a long time; it can be both (depends on who's reading this). At this point in time, they only see you; you're their world. They're very delusional about what you feel for them or what the future entails. If you're here only for a good time, better not give them false hope. I think they're very prone to obsess over people or quickly falling in love, they can have mood swings too (rationality fighting with emotions). They don't learn from their past. I don't think they're dangerous, though, just intense and quickly losing their logical side. They will do whatever you want them to, but they're very clear about wanting to keep you all to themselves. Protective, possessive, can be controlling at times, and is easily jealous. However, if you tell them your boundaries clearly, they will respect them. They won't force you into anything. I just heard that they aren't fond of animals. I'm not sure if they're good at commitment, though, but I think they will try if you give them a chance. They hate to be away from you. Can be quite clingy. In bed, possessive, tends to leave marks in visible places (but also not visible places like inside the thighs). Want you to focus on them, say their name, and only think about them. Want you to get addicted to the pleasure they give you so you won't want anyone else. I keep hearing intense.

SONGS:

Again by Noah Cyrus, XXXTENTACION (You just made the worst mistake; And you'll regret it, darling; 'Cause once you give and then you take; You'll only end up wanting; Saying, "I wanna be your lover; I don't wanna be your friend"; You don't know what you got 'til it's gone, my dear)

Trust Issues by Drake (You know what I'm sipping, I'll teach you how to mix it; But you're the only one cause I don't trust these bitches; Tell me, how the fuck we supposed to stay friends; When you got a bunch of feelings that you don't show?)

Mind Games by Sickick (There's another side that you don't know, you don't know; I can't wait to get you all alone; Once I'm in there ain't no letting go; Watch me turn your mind into my home; I can lie to you and tell you you can get me out your head; But I'm lovin' all the pain I'm causing you too much instead)

On My Own by Darci (Maybe you're my weakness; Or just part of the season; So maybe I just need this; Or maybe I just feel you for no reason; You just take your time; Tell me I'm alright; Take me through your mind)

Party Favours by Tinashe (They don't go as hard as I do; I brought some to the party for you; I'll mix it up and serve it for you; Party favors for you)

Can't Imagine by Always Never (I forgot just how dramatic you always got; But you hit the spot; Sometimes, I can't hold my tongue; And I'm just saying how I feel)

GROUP FIVE

Cards: 4 of Pentacles, 10 of Swords rx, 10 of Wands, The Lovers, House, Janet Frame (Belonging), Zora Neale Hurston (Story), White Dress rx, Palm Tree (Stability, Growth, Endurance), Heartbroken rx (Sad, Separation, Breakup, Feeling Lost), The Golden Mirror rx (Narcissist, Self-Absorbed, One-Sided Relationship), The Dragonfly rx (Finding Out, CHange, Thing Coming to Light).

The short answer is yes, but there are obstacles. You are a blessing to their sore eyes, but you're also a burden that makes them want to change the path they're currently on. They're looking your way when you're looking away, the admiration/interest is from the background, always and never proudly displayed. If they're hot and cold, this is why. Try to keep a cool head, avoid making rash decisions/steps toward you, and keep stuff on the low so no one finds out, including you. The Lovers card is tricky; it's like they recognize the spark between you, but they're keeping a safe distance, not wanting to jeopardize whatever is going on in their life (they can have a committed partner, religious/family/career reasons). At the same time, you are something stable in their life. Whatever that means. Your feelings/interests are not one-sided; you can also mirror each other. They feel a sense of belonging to you. But their thoughts are for sure not pure, can't exactly say what are their sexual thoughts. I'm gonna have a reading soon about sexual fantasies, so you might want to check that out later. I also heard "your story is not over yet," so if things feel slow, let them be. Let stuff unfold. It might take some time, though.

SONGS:

Pressure by Rosenfeld (I'll stand there, and I'll watch as we fade; Playing with porcelain, I guess I'm the one to blame; We're caught up in that game, and I; Can't help but call your name; Guide me in the night; Tell me what is right; Lead me down the path)

Options by Hippie Sabotage (My idle hands lead to evil thoughts; That's what I was told; don't you understand that I've been goin' 'round this road?; Don't you understand that I've lost time and I can't lose more?; I got angels on my shoulders with the devil in my head; I don't know where I'm goin', but I know where I been)

Down Low by Hondo Harrleson (He needs you, yet you're telling me that; everything is good; just go along girl and see things your way; and keep it on the down low; nobody has to know; secret lovers is what you wanna be)

The Machine by Reed Wonder, Aurora Olivas (I made something that'll love me; Even when I'm wrong; I made something that'll love me even with my faults; Feels like you were meant to take all my love; Something about you I can't get enough)

Under The Influence by Chris Brown (You don't know what you did; Your body language speaks to me; I can make it hurricane on it; Hunnid bands, make it rain on it; Tie it up, put a chain on it; Make you tattoo my name on it; Make you cry like a baby)

Why Don't You by Thorgan (Bodies are losing control; Bending the mind and the soul; Craving for you, I want more; Show me the taste of your love; 'Cause you fucking drive me crazy)

GROUP SIX

Cards: 3 of Swords, 7 of Pentacles, Temperance, The Emperor rx, Coffin (Endings, New Beginnings, Liberation), Seduction (Attraction, Flirting, Dating, Temptation), The Snake rx (Enemy, Competition, Malicious), Photograph rx (Nostalgia, Missing You, Looking At Photos), The Phoenix rx (New Phase, Rekindle, Growth, Change), Lion, Teacup, Peacock, Mirabai (Devotion), Anna Akhmatova rx (Endurance).

This person definitely wants to fuck you. If you're looking for commitment, though, back the fuck away. Your heart is gonna get broken. They're very good in bed, but not someone you could depend on in any other way than sexually. They will make you see heaven in bed. They're very dominant and like to dirty talk a lot (mocking you, degrading talk). They have a way with words, they like to talk a lot, and they know they can get away with lots of things because they're a smooth talker. They're very confident, with a huge ego, because they know they are attractive and that people want them. They don't do threesomes or any kind of group thing because they like to give their partner 100% of their attention. They might come quickly, but they never leave their partner hanging (also, they can go multiple rounds, just quick coming is all). This person can teach you a lot of sex tricks and what pleasure really feels like. They were involved with married people who had affairs with them, so again, they're not loyal or wanting to commit to anyone. I don't think it will ever change; they're here to have fun. They care about their partner, though, with full respect. If you require aftercare, they will give it, albeit reluctantly, cause they don't do feelings and mushy stuff like this.

SONGS:

abuse me by Ex Habit (Your cruel games give me something I need; Baby, I'm afraid I love you; Leave my heart in pain like you do; 'Cause my life is so grey without you; Ask for my heart; Then break it into pieces)

Had Some Drinks by Two Feet (I had some drinks and said some things to you; If I said too much, I know you're mine to lose; I think too much, I'm outta touch, it's true; Don't give a fuck, yeah actually I do)

I Was Never There by The Weeknd, Gesaffelstein (What makes a grown man wanna cry?; What makes him wanna take his life?; His happiness is never real; And mindless sex is how he feels; You'd rather something toxic; So I'll poison myself again)

The Ride by Omido, Kae (Tell me baby; Are we more than strangers after five?; Don't they say it's dangerous to lie?; Tell me why did you break my pride?; Go enjoy your fucking ride for me)

100 Ways by Austin Hull (I know I’m not the guy that you can take home to your mom; But honestly I’m only looking for a little fun; Please don’t get way too attached; You know damn well we ain’t a match; Goddamn you looking so fine; I’m in my feels and you in your heels; And you got me losing my mind; You got me wasting my time; But girl you’re catching my eye)

off the deep end by zandros, BRIDGE (Fuck it, I’m already deep and I’m ready to go; Pushing my mind is a dangerous place to show; Is it too far gone to see you again?; I can’t tell, you’re off the deep end; So much lust, she might hate me for it; I just want to take risk)

GROUP ONE

Cards: Ace of Wands, Knight of Wands rx, Wheel of Fortune rx, I Like You, Girl Talk rx, Pond, Archangel Metatron.

I like you. I know it's straightforward, but I cannot say it in any other way that's more meaningful or more direct. It might not sound meaningful, but it is to me (I hope it is to you, too). I feel there is a spiritual connection between us, and it seems no matter what, we keep coming back to each other. Our connection is like a pond; it can be insignificant to others, but to us, it holds so much life and secrets, and it can easily be destroyed if not cultivated. We are so hot and cold; we like each other, and then we hate each other over something trivial (we both don't know what exactly annoyed us). I want to move towards you, but things are holding me back. There's so much I want to do and say, but I'm standing still. I know we will truly come together someday. No one knows about it because I don't share those feelings with friends. It seems too private and sacred.

SONGS:

Eric by Mitski (Take off my clothes and watch me move; You can come closer, I'll let you hurt me; But how long, how long can we play this way?; I'm tired, I'm tired of not loving you)

Blue Velvet by Lana Del Rey (Ours a love I held tightly; Feeling the rapture grow; Like a flame burning brightly; But when she left; Gone was the glow)

Nothing's Gonna Hurt You, Baby by Cigarettes After Sex (Whispered something in your ear; It was a perverted thing to say; But I said it anyway; Made you smile and look away; Nothing's gonna hurt you, baby; As long as you're with me, you'll be just fine)

GROUP TWO

Cards: 9 of Pentacles, 2 of Pentacles, 7 of Cups, Noose rx, Mushrooms, The Snake, Hammer rx, Seraphim Seraphisa rx.

You will forever be in my heart and mind, but we can never be together in the way we want. There are way too many blockages, and I do think we are not fit to be in a relationship. I am in a committed relationship (or you are), and I do not wish to leave her, for I love her. Maybe I am a coward, but I am a practical and cautious one. I will not take reckless actions just to wake up one day and regret it. I think what we have is a fantasy, pleasant make-believe, daydreaming. However, I don't want you gone because you're an important person to me. I wish you happiness, but I can't follow you.

SONGS:

Lonesome Love by Mitski (I call you, to see you again; So I can win, and this can finally end)

Blue Banisters by Lana Del Rey (She said, "You can't be a muse and be happy, too; You can't blacken the pages with Russian poetry and be happy"; And that scared me; 'Cause I met a man who said he'd come back every May; Just to help me if I'd paint; Now when weather turns to May; All my sisters come to paint)

Flash by Cigarettes After Sex (I'm a flash; You were blinded by the love I had; I'm a flash; The light could only get in through the cracks)

GROUP THREE

Cards: The Hierophant rx, 8 of Wands, The Devil, 10 of Swords rx, Wildflowers, Mirror, Keys on a Ring, Archangel Raphael.

You are the temptation, the chaos in my life, the wildflowers that can still be growing but can also be already taken by someone else while I wasn't looking. You're untouchable, unable to be caught, translucent. One minute you're here only to leave seconds later, just to come back and stay for a long time. You're unpredictable, a sin worth sinning for. But I hate to be alone, and you make me sad. I love to see you, but I hate myself when you leave. I don't know if you have any feelings for me; is it something serious, or is it just casual and convenient? I can't do this anymore. I'm trapped, and I feel miserable. I wish I could tell you to stay away, to abandon me, to never come back. It would be easier for me to move on then, but I am a fool for you. I wish I were strong enough to talk things through, but I'd rather have some of you than none of you. Then again, being with you hurts me, so what should I do?

SONGS:

Should've Been Me by Mitski (Relive all the ways you still want me; I haven't given you what you need; You wanted me but couldn't reach me; I'm sorry it should've been me)

Blue Jeans by Lana Del Rey (I will love you till the end of time; I would wait a million years; Promise you'll remember that you're mine; Baby, can you see through the tears?; You went out every night; And, baby, that's alright; But when you walked out that door; A piece of me died)

Ambien Slide by Cigarettes After Sex (Take my love with some pretend; You said you couldn't help it; Had everything that you wanted; When my love was something yours; But now you're feeling helpless)

GROUP FOUR

Cards: Death, Page of Pentacles rx, The Chariot rx, Archangel Sammael, Eileen Chang rx, Boat rx, Engagement Ring rx.

I don't want to try to fix this thing between us anymore; it's a fool's errand. We tried, and it didn't work. It's time to move on to something else because we are just wasting our time, and I'm exhausted. Let me go. Let me leave peacefully. I don't want to fight, but I'm frustrated. I think we tried to escape the inevitable, but at the end of the road, we cannot pretend any longer. Relieve me of this burden and don't resent me.

SONGS:

Working For The Knife by Mitski (I always thought the choice was mine; And I was right, but I just chose wrong)

Bel Air by Lana Del Rey (Gargoyles standing at the front of your gate; Trying to tell me to wait; But I can't wait to see you; So I run, like I'm mad, to heaven's door; I don't wanna be bad; I won't cheat you no more)

Tejano Blue by Cigarettes After Sex (We wanted to fuck with real love; Wanted it sweet, so pure and warm; And when you say you want it all, I know you want it all; Baby, take it all from me; I always will make it feel like you were the last one; So get in the waves like it was the first time)

GROUP FIVE

Cards: The Star rx, 7 of Pentacles, 10 of Swords rx, Glove rx, The Phoenix, Paradise rx, Archangel Haniel.

I wish we could start anew, without any bitter history between us that holds us back and clouds our judgment. We cannot fully be together while all these thoughts are troubling us, making us suspicious of each other and insecure. I know we both lost hope for this connection, yet we are still going and proceeding with it in any way we can. We don't want this to be over, but we need to find a solution. I want you in my life, and I'm willing to put work into it. Are you? Someone needs to make the first step, though, and it's the most difficult thing to do. We cannot stay still for much longer, though. We communicate telepathically, but we also have to communicate in real life.

SONGS:

First Love/Late Spring by Mitski (Please hurry leave me; I can't breathe; Please don't say you love me; One word from you and I would; Jump off of this ledge I'm on; Tell me "don't" so I can crawl back in)

Video Games by Lana Del Rey (It's you, it's you, it's all for you; Everything I do; I tell you all the time; Heaven is a place on earth with you; Tell me all the things you wanna do; It's better than I ever even knew; They say that the world was built for two; Only worth living if somebody is loving you)

Goodbye Mr Blue by Father John Misty (But maybe if he'd gone sooner; Could've brought us back together last June; When the last time was our last time; If only then I knew; The last time was our last time; Would've told you that the last time comes too soon)

GROUP SIX

Cards: Page of Swords rx, 9 of Cups rx, 4 of Swords, Sappho, Archangel Chamuel, Cupid's Arrow rx, Separation rx.

Do you love me? You say you do, but why does your love cause so much pain? Why am I in agony instead of being elated and happy? Is this how you show your love? I feel neglected and manipulated. I feel ignored and mocked. Am I your partner or your pet? Do you even care what I want? Do you care what I have to say? You treat me as a child, as if I cannot think or decide for myself. Do you think I'm stupid? Do you think so lowly of me? When you're not here, I don't miss you, and my mind is at ease. I lost all hope for anything to change. It hurts even more because I love you, but your love is weird and dysfunctional. I feel trapped. I even stopped speaking my mind because it was met with ridicule and anger.

SONGS:

Wife by Mitski (For if I am not yours, what am I?; I daydream I'd give one a name of my own; For even I am on loan; For even mine is unknown; So let me go towards the morning star; With hope it won't disappear)

Carmen by Lana Del Rey (Baby's all dressed up, with nowhere to go; That's the little story of the girl you know; Relyin' on the kindness of strangers; Darlin', darlin', doesn't have a problem; Lyin' to herself, 'cause her liquor's top shelf; It's alarmin', honestly, how charmin' she can be; Foolin' everyone, tellin' 'em she's havin' fun)

Hot by Cigarettes After Sex (Is it all in my head? 'Cause I keep getting scared; That I'll always be lost forever; But I don't give a shit if I'm too delicate; When you hold me, it's always better)

GROUP ONE

Cards: 9 of Wands rx, Page of Swords, The Devil, 8 of Cups, 7 of Pentacles, Knight of Pentacles rx.

First of all, if you're expecting any type of action/initiative from their side, you will be greatly disappointed. I have two messages for two very different crowds.

If you have a long history with this person (and I mean HISTORY with lots of stuff that happened, maybe some bitterness and regrets, but also happiness), then this person is very conflicted about you and what to do. At the same time, they want to let go of this connection, free themselves and their mind, and start somewhere else, far away from you, but they also want to start again with you; do everything differently, clean slate. The question is "Is this possible?". They're at a stalemate, lots of thoughts running through their minds. It is a great burden to them.

If you don't know this person well, then I don't think they think about you all that much. They like talking to you (if you talk at all) or at least enjoy times when you're expressing yourself. They're very tired, and some chaos in their personal lives makes them blind to potential romantic partners (it could be that they are going through something in their current relationship). Lowkey, they just wanna be left alone. They're neutral about you.

GROUP TWO (+18)

Cards: Queen of Cups, 4 of Pentacles, Ace of Wands, King of Swords, The Hanged Man rx, Page of Swords.

They are very much attracted to you sexually and wanna fuck. They see you as this emotionally mature and put together (in this case, we got the feminine energy). They quite literally wanna wrap themselves around you (or make you stay with them, even for a little bit, hearing breakfast after sex or aftercare). We also got the masculine energy coming here with words (aka dirty talk, lots of foreplay and teasing, breath play). I also hear they wanna tie you up and make your world go upside down, I hear "make you feel so good you become dumb". They are the dominant, and they know they have to prove their worth if you're going to consider them in any way or form.

GROUP THREE

Cards: Queen of Wands rx, Page of Pentacles rx, Knight of Swords, Knight of Cups, Queen of Pentacles rx, Page of Swords.

Move on, my homie. There's no attraction or desire to even keep you as a friend. It seems you don't learn from how they treat you or what they say to you (because I do feel like they told you repeatedly in different ways to back off, but you disregarded their attempts). They were somewhat brutal in some ways in how they let you know they were not interested. They're also currently involved with multiple women, living that free love life. They don't feel the need to be in any sort of commitment, and even if they were looking for something long-term, you're not the one on their mind.

GROUP FOUR

Cards: 3 of Pentacles rx, Death rx, The Hermit rx, 6 of Cups, The Emperor rx, The sun.

Once again, there are messages for two different crowds.

You either know each other from your childhood or had brief connections in the past with each other, but you never quite talked. There were always obstacles, and you couldn't even make it last long enough to have a normal conversation, let alone a fling. You might have recently reunited. There's not much to say here about their feelings since it's very new, and well, they're hopeful at least. It's very blurry, but we have basically only major arcana, so this is going to be interesting (I think it's worth a try).

You guys have a rocky history. Lots of downs, but the ups were worth the drama. However, you do seem to repeat lots of patterns, coming back to the same lake that you've drowned in. I do see that they still have hope for this connection (and I think you do too, since you're asking), but either you're going to change the dynamic between you, or you're gonna be stuck in the endless loop of bad decisions and pain. Honestly, this connection seems like it can be a happy one (I think, but well, most of the cards are reversed, so I'm not quite sure), but you need lots, and I mean LOTS of work here.

GROUP FIVE

Cards: 9 of Swords rx, 2 of Cups rx, Page of Swords rx, The Tower, Knight of Wands rx, 4 of Wands.

Did you have a fight? Lowkey, I see there's no reconciliation here. They feel regret and somewhat sad, but I see that whatever the two of you had ended and will not be coming back for a long time (or forever, the energy is fluid, so I don't want to assume). They wish they could make peace with you and go back to how it was, but they can't. I think they don't even want to talk to you or explain, so why the regrets if they gave up already? So, despite the desire to make peace, they don't intend any action toward it; they're just distancing themselves.

GROUP SIX

Cards: The Devil, 4 of Wands, Judgement, Queen of Cups, The Tower, 9 of Swords rx.

You are the temptation for them. I think they recently had a big break about you (hence The Tower), and honestly, they can't handle it. They don't know what to do, and lowkey they are happy (like yay I have a crush!) but it's also terrifying. They see you as mature and put-together, not really sure if you're into them or if they deserve you (out of their league). They try to get out of this mindset, tho, just give them time.

GROUP ONE

Cards: Release Your Ex Reversed (the time has come to clear your energy), Express Your Love Reversed (go ahead and make the romantic gesture), Keep An Open Mind (your soul mate may differ from your usual type and expectations), Love Reversed, Blank Card, Sweetheart Reversed, Wedding Rings (Union, Wedding, Married, Soul Connection, Eternal Love, Everlasting Promise), Butterfly Reversed (Relationship Evolving to the Next Phase, Healing The Inner Child, Growth), Chaser Reversed (Chaser in Co-Dependent Relationship, Fear of Abandonment Issue).

I see that your person is currently either in a committed relationship or is about to get into a relationship with another person (or even a marriage situation) and is very unlikely to leave their current connection with their partner. I don't see them being interested in you in a romantic way (I'm not even sure if they have ever romantically thought about you). They are currently in love with their partner, and that is not going to change for a long time. However, with the Blank Card and Keep an Open Mind Card, there is potential for the two of you to be together, but not right now. It's better if you move on and don't expect much here.

GROUP TWO

Cards: Wedding (this situation involves marriage), Retreat (it's time to disconnect from the world), Let Go Of Control Issues (allow this situation to unfold naturally), Sunglasses Reversed (Watching, Looking, Stalking, Gaslighting, Perception, Focusing Out), Heart With A Key Reversed (Welcoming Love, Meeting The One, Open Your Heart, Getting Together), Hand Of Cards in Horizontal Position (Take a Chance, Risk, Being Strategic, Options, Not Showing Hand), Ecclesiastic Reversed, Widower Reversed, Message.

This person is interested in you, that's for sure. They want to spend time with you and you only, no other people around. They're pretty stressed out about this situation; it's like their Heart and Throat Chakras are blocked. For now, they have decided not to take any hasty actions toward you. They're waiting for the right time, and they also want to see how your connection will unfold without romance involved. They do want to message you or contact you in any way they could, but once again, they're restraining themselves. Maybe they're still healing a little from their previous relationship/situationship. They don't check out your social media, and they avoid talking about you with others - they don't want to get too excited and take a risk. Their heart is still closed off, and they're learning how to move on from past traumas.

GROUP THREE

Cards: Religious Factors Reversed (your love life is influenced by your religious upbringing and spiritual path), Heart-To-Heart Conversations Reversed (honestly discuss your feelings with each other), Make The Effort Reversed (great love is worth taking the steps you're guided to take), Soulmates (Soul Connection, Partnership, Agreement, Soul Contract), Self-Indulgence (Focus on Self, Self-Worth, Time to Heal, Shadow Work), Sunglasses Reversed (Stalking, Watching, Looking), Lover, Fortune, Fidelity Reversed.

This person is interested in you sexually. They are not someone who likes committed relationships or being exclusive with people. They like to have their needs fulfilled, but there's nothing beyond that. You guys could be great Friends With Benefits, but other than that, I don't see them changing their minds any time soon (or even at all). You guys do have a connection (Soulmate Card), but not in a romantic sense. If you want to, you can tell this person that you want to be more than friends, but be prepared for disappointment. It's not worth it to give your time to this person if you expect a relationship out of it.

GROUP FOUR

Cards: Stay Optimistic About Your Love Life Reversed (positive thinking and faith will bring you romance), Express Your Love Reversed (go ahead and make the romantic gesture), Reconciliation (someone from your past is returning to your life), Death, Marriage Reversed, Jealousy Reversed, Love (Affection, Attraction, Unconditional Love), Coffin Reversed (Endings, Growth, New Beginnings, Change, Liberation), Butterfly Reversed (Relationship Evolving to the Next Phase, Healing The Inner Child, Growth).

If you are asking about your former lover/your ex/your past situationship/past friendship, then yes, they are coming back into your life. If not, then this reading is still for you. Not everything has ended between you guys, but the reason for coming back to you is not a romantic offer, but closure. You might be having some fun in the beginning, going on dates, having sex, and spending time together, but this connection will end. I'm not even seeing anything about staying friends or staying in touch - this is the last time you can say whatever you want to say.

GROUP FIVE

Cards: Enemy, Love, Loss, Snake (Competition, Enemy, Look Over Your Shoulder, The Other Woman, Malicious), Photograph (Missing You, Nostalgia, Make New Memories), Separation Reversed (Missing You, Sadness, Unsure of Future), Passion hidden under Separation Card (Insane Chemistry, Having Fun, Like Each Other Equally), Let Go Of Control Issues Reversed (allow this situation to unfold naturally), Forgiving And Learning Reversed (as you release and heal the past, you experience more love in your present moments), This Could Be The One Reversed (you've already met the romantic partner you seek).

Oh boy, this is a complicated one, and I'd have to draw more cards to get a clearer picture, but this is a mini-reading, so I'll try to give you guys any information I can pick up from the cards I have currently. I feel like you've been friends with this person for a long time (or you just know each other for a long time), so it's fair to say you have some strong fundamentals that you can build a relationship on. There is some strong chemistry there, and they actually enjoy your company. Yes, they are interested in you, but someone else appears to be your competitor. I strongly sense feminine energy that is cunning, strong, and manipulative. Your person can't decide which one of you will be a better option to date - they don't want to lose you, so continuing your friendship is the safest bet. Your competitor also doesn't make things easier for you since they keep persuading and pressuring your person to choose them. This also could be their current lover/girlfriend, in which your person isn't much interested.

GROUP SIX

Cards: Ecclesiastic, Baby Reversed, Letter Reversed, The Swords And Rose (Clarity, Truth, Revelation, Solidarity, Honor, Protection), Healing Heart (Healing From Heartbreak, Freedom From Toxic Relationship/Addiction), Love Reversed (Unconditional Love, Self-Love, Attraction, Affection), Stay Optimistic About Your Love Life (positive thinking and faith will bring you romance), You Deserve Love (you are loveable), Religious Factors Reversed (your love life is influenced by your religious upbringing and spiritual path).

Very clear message: "You deserve love. It might not be me who will give you love, but please don't think you are unlovable. Someone will love you, but it might not be me." They care about you deeply, just not in the way you want them to. They know you like (or love) them, but they can't give you the same affection. You are dear to them, and they care about your feelings; that's why they don't want to lead you on. They wish you found happiness and love you so clearly deserve; they will support you in any way they can. They will fight people who hurt you, and they will always have your back. They want to stay in your life. You have to move on from them. Don't expect a sudden confession or a change in their feelings - it won't happen. You're not meant to be.

(Song for you: The Night We Met - Lord Huron and Last Chance (Alt Version) - CHPTRS)

GROUP SEVEN

Cards: Journey, Money, Desire Reversed, The Swords And Rose (Clarity, Truth, Revelation, Solidarity, Honor, Protection), The Phoenix (New Phase, Rekindle, Growth, Changed Mind), Palm Tree (Stability, Security, Permanence, Endurance), Honeymoon (enjoy the bliss of holiday time together), Playfulness (to recapture romance, allow your inner youthful spirit of fun to shine), Reconciliation Reversed (someone from your past is returning to your life).

They feel safe with you, it's like you're home for them, and their inner child can be at peace. Okay, I literally want to cry during this reading, my heart is so full of love and pain at the same time, so I guess this is the same thing your person feels for you. I don't know what's going on, but it's very loud, so I'll say it: Enjoy the time with this person while you still can. Even if you're tired, go meet up. I feel like they will disappear from your life, and they know it; that's why there's so much pain, and I want to cry. I feel like they're going somewhere, or maybe they're getting married? They are entering something or going somewhere that will make it impossible to be with you, and they don't have any power over it. Maybe they have a kid on the way, or there is an arranged marriage? I have no idea. Enjoy your time together while it lasts.

GROUP EIGHT

Cards: Sweetheart, Hope Reversed, Malady Reversed, Paradise (Happiness, Expansion, Oneness, Enjoying Each Other), Date (Meeting Someone New, Set A Date, Dating), Photograph Reversed (Missing You, Nostalgia, Make New Memories), Romantic Feelings (your feelings are real and worth exploring), Give Your Relationship A Chance (work on your partnership), Religious Factors Reversed (your love life is influenced by your religious upbringing and spiritual path).

Are you already invested in each other? It seems like you either have a thing or are about to go on a date. Either way, they're quite happy with how things are turning out with you. They do have a romantic interest in you, and they're willing to work on themselves if it means getting together with you. There's slight negativity here - as if they're expecting you to just dump them all of a sudden or realize you don't like them anymore. Maybe they've been hurt before, and they're ready for the worst possible scenario - please affirm that you like them because sometimes they doubt that you do.

(Song: Heather by Conan Gray)

GROUP NINE

Cards: Money, Loss Reversed, Desire Reversed, Passion (allow your heart and soul to sing with joy), Past-Life Relationship Reversed (you have known each other before), True Love Reversed (this is the romance of a lifetime), Boat (Progressions, Receiving What You Need, Closure Issues), Cassette (Outdated Thinking, Over In Your Head, Replaying Events), Seduction Reversed (Attraction, Flirting, Temptation, Third-Party).

You are a temptation to them - something that is forbidden, yet they crave it. It's an animalistic urge to have you all to themselves - they don't like the person they are around you. They're either in a relationship or after a breakup. You might have had sexual intercourse, but unfortunately, sex is all that exists between you. I see the want to possess you (in every meaning of the word), and the feeling is ugly. They are aware of how selfish they are with you. You also might be seducing them on purpose and trying to show them you want to have a relationship with them, but, again, they become toxic around you.