inaya.

PILE 1

the circumstances.  (hermit rx, knight of wands, two of cups, ace of wands rx, knight of cups)

Aha, my impulsive pile. You couldn't wait, could you? Apparently, neither could they. It happens in a party, in the car on your way to some place, maybe in the bathroom while people are next doors, somewhere chaotic like that. There is a lack of complete privacy, and a general lack of orderliness. It might get a little physically awkward due to that, but it will get completely lost in the heat of the act. Like hair getting stuck in shirt buttons, or maybe pants not coming off properly, maybe you keep an article of clothing somewhere and it keeps falling off, something like that.

However the emotional aspect of it will be very deep and romantic. It will be that way from the very start even though the sex itself feels like a very reckless act of passion. The emotions will be ideal, in a way, something like a dream. Perhaps you could have always craved such an expression of romance, something filled with risk and passion, but full of love nonetheless. It will feel like that. You'll feel like a prince / princess being spoiled with love XD

the act itself. (three of cups rx, fool rx, two of wands rx, six of swords rx, page of cups, three of wands)

Lmao, clumsiness and goofiness through and through. The impulsivity bleeds in everywhere, the act isn't entirely coordinated, like I mentioned before. Someone's elbow hanging at the wrong angle, someone slipping, tiny, clumsy things that are only cured with familiarity with each other's body. There will definitely be a feeling of 'we missed a few steps in the middle' because you jump straight into the act out of pure desire XD But it will be a later thought, like you'll think so when you sit down and quietly reflect on the moment. It will be something you laugh about in the future XD Emotionally, it will feel like something just healed inside you and is now rejuvenating parts of your soul you didn't even know were still alive. Like I said, a fairytale, a dream come true, a pure, innocent love that gives you butterflies and then embraces you wholly. The slight awkwardness won't even matter because there will be so much love, an overflow of it. Your heart will be entirely theirs in that moment and afterwards, and they will pour all their love into it. You'll both feel something very innocent but lasting, not a teen crush, but still of a very curious, gentle yet bubbly quality. It will feel healing to you. 

Your first time with them would eventually result in some form of long term planning, or perhaps thinking about 'where do we take this next?'. Positive vibes, things will move forward smoothly in your relationship with them afterwards. Neither of you will care about the awkwardness at all, the love in your hearts will not let any thoughts form on that matter.

PILE 2

the circumstances. (two of pentacles rx, nine of pentacles, ace of wands, ten of wands rx, queen of wands rx)

Well, weekend plans are out the window with this one! You and your person will want to be escaping the daily grind, getting away from stress when it happens. There's a feeling of wanting a getaway, how weekends feel, how movie nights feel after an entire week's work. You both throw your burdens away and come together to simply relax. The place is exceedingly beautiful as well! It's built for relaxation and for putting the mind to rest. That, or the environment's clean enough that you don't have to think 'oh, I have yet to put the laundry away'. Both of you will stop overthinking and simply bask in the relaxation the moment provides. 

But then, something will happen that just sets both of your bodies on fire 😭 It's entirely unexpected, like you both just wanted to relax and the circumstances just threw a grenade at you and now y'all wanna fuck 😭 Both of you will forget that you were tired, or just wanted to watch a movie, or cook lunch together, or maybe just water the garden. Nope, it goes straight to poundtown 😭 The energy is genuinely very sexy, it's literally altering my tone lmfao XD I'm not usually this open with words and prioritize eloquence very much, but the energy's just demanding it! It feels like, 'forget everything else, I just want you to right now'. Well, good luck relaxing with this one!

the act itself. (six of pentacles, the tower, five of pentacles, six of cups rx, ace of wands rx, judgement)

The sex will be mindblowing here, to start with 🤭 The grenade example was actually very true for this one! The desire will genuinely hit like something that will explode inside of you both if you don't act on it asap, and you both will, oh yes. The transition from desiring each other to the act itself will feel like coming into the warm blanket of each other's arms after suffering through the biting cold of desire. It will literally feel like it restricts some part of your brain, it will feel so physically explosive. Your skin will feel like it's on fire, and they might even go a little too far in a bit of a daze 😭 Nothing worrisome! Like maybe they kiss you to the point of you getting a little dizzy, or perhaps overstimulate you accidentally. God, I can't, the energy here is so hot 😭🙏

Ah! You might even end up saying stuff in the moment that you might otherwise be too shy to say to them! XD You might tease them orally, or do something that you would get too shy to do otherwise, the lust will carry you that far away XD 

 In the moment itself, you might not have very heavy thoughts or feelings because the lust creates a sort of daze, but internally, it will feel like something inside you just loosened and gave away for good. You will be fully present in your body as you both indulge and engage in each other. Sex will feel like sex, period. Nobody's stuck in their head or remembering past experiences, it is very grounded, real and solid! Heavy earth energy for this one, maybe it will happen somewhere where you can really feel the bedding or fabric beneath you. Your senses will be occupied entirely by them, that's for sure XD

You might feel a literal 'before and after' moment after the sex happens XD The relationship will completely change flavours, but in a good way, of course. It will impact the impression you both have of each other, and you both will become very enamored with each other. 

PILE 3

the circumstances. (two of pentacles, page of swords rx (appeared twice), nine of pentacles rx, five of cups, four of wands, hermit rx, the hierophant) 

For some reason, your pile gave me very heavy 'moving in with each other' energy. I don't like getting too specific like this since these are general readings, but it did give me those vibes. Take it as it resonates.

Awwh, it's a very 'stubbed my toe twice in the same spot' kind of day for you before anything even starts. Tiny irritating things that build up over time, maybe clothes getting wet at the wrong spot, trying to hold three cups of coffee at once and spilling all three, slipping on the stairs, or maybe, stubbing your toe 😫 Nothing too big, but things pile up eventually. You'll feel like you're juggling a lot of things at once and it's beginning to irritate you. And your surroundings are no less messy, to provide context. It will feel like you're trying to organize a school of five year olds into a straight line type of chaos. Communication feels seriously delayed or blocked. Like you tell someone to be careful with the ceramic and it slips out of their hands at that very moment. Or you tell someone to get something done but they end up misunderstanding and creating more work 😐 My best sympathies with you and your five year olds…

Anyway, right before the moment itself, the environment won't be perfect either. This is why I felt a very heavy energy or shifting homes. Like things aren't all in their places, work's still left, a few cartons still need to be put away, the mood's not sexy at all, but hey, at least we're together, yeah? And then the cups overflows and the moment happens. You both give in to each other as if seeking healing and peace but also reminding each other of the good things that will be coming once the tiny disasters are overcome. 

the act itself. (four of cups, eight of wands, king of pentacles rx, the devil, two of pentacles, ten of pentacles, six of swords)

Initially, you'll both be feeling a little 'ugh' which is very natural, considering the headaches you'll both be getting before hand. It's not immediate pouncing on each other but boy does it get there XD It's like you're both tired, a little apathetic, wanting to tune shit out, but then see the other person is upset and get closer with them. So in the start, the closeness is not very sexual, but the energy quickly gets there, almost surprisingly fast, actually. It's like 0-10 lol, and it only gets wilder from that point onwards. You'll both feel like you're too tired for politeness, so the act gets very physical and in the moment. You'll both do what you desire, without overthinking it. 

Emotionally, you'll both be on cloud nine XD Like I said, heavy moving in energy, looking forward to the nicer things coming and thus feeling pleased in the moment as well. You both can't stop thinking about how lovely it will be, how sweet things will become over time, how easy intimacy will become between you guys. You'll feel like you're juggling between your lust and your giddiness about the future. 

A very homely environment will envelop you both, and you'll both feel like you're in a daze for some time afterwards. The future will feel like a bright North star, except it's right in your hands instead of being a distant light somewhere unperceivable.

Hmm, your person might even get a little poetic with you to rizz you up and get you in the mood lmao XD

PILE 4

the circumstances. (the empress rx, death rx, seven of wands rx, eight of swords rx, page of swords, king of pentacles and judgement rx)

Hmm, you're resisting something in your life at this particular point, it seems. The resistance is so severe, in fact, that it even affects the energy of the surroundings. It might actually happen at your home, and due to certain struggles or the 'resistance' I mentioned, you haven't properly maintained your home so it's a bit messy. Things being out of place, some sensory discomfort, the energy feels off and stale. Among all the piles, your person came out a little strongly. I have been pulling cards for the energy of the couple, not for you and your person separately, but your person came a little strongly, anyway. It appears they want to pull you out of this struggle, to make you drop resistance and let go. They don't want to see you suffering, they want to be your support system, a safe landing where you can rest your overwhelmed self. But it's not just about rest, they want you to drop the struggle in the first place. I feel like you'll be avoiding your feelings for them, you'll be resisting your emotions. It won't be the case for everybody, but for some of you, yes, it might very well be. 

Anyway, they will succeed in making you let go. You will drop all these guards and just relax. You'll feel the fresh woundedness, but it won't drag you down too much. Still, the energy of being worn down by fights is there. That point is when some sort of a spark ignites, a sharp pang of curiosity. 'What about you?' or this or that, you'll suddenly feel curious about something and the energy changes sharply. That's when they receive you, your person, that is, indulging your curiousity to take you away from that period of resistance. You might still feel a little hesitant or distracted when things escalate a little, but it'll be minor and it will certainly not be because of your person. 

You'll mostly be pursuing physical intimacy with them to surrender to your feelings for them, for finally letting go. 'Letting go' is a huge theme here, they'll help you overcome a lot of things, it appears. Lmao, it also might happen that something interrupts you both right before the act and they have to go attend to it lol, nothing serious though. Your person has a very stable, reliable energy. They truly love you and want to provide safety and stability to you.

the act itself.  (two of pentacles rx, ace of swords rx, queen of cups rx, six of wands rx, nine of cups, four of swords rx, four of pentacles rx, justice, six of wands rx (again))

(Overthinking final boss, aren't you?)

Well, if it was your feelings that you had been holding back earlier, then the sex surely makes it a point to spill them all over the place 😭 Genuinely, all over the place is the only word for it. Nothing remains hidden to your person, not that it had been before, but it really solidifies here. Even you will feel it, like your cards are finally snatched away from your chest, you'll address and accept (internally) the fact that your person knows and sees your heart. 

Honestly, the energy is so heavy about the mental and emotional aspects that sexual messages aren't coming very explicitly. The sex won't happen because of lust, it will happen to introduce comfort actually. You might not be very present in your body with them, you might be more lost in the comfort they provide you. Throughout sex, they could hold you or embrace you a certain way and you might be more attached to that than the sex. Due to all that, your bodies could get a little out of sync, but nobody would be trying to correct that. Your person is just completely focused on you here, neither of you tries to lead or take it somewhere, 'what happens, happens' type thing. Neither of you try to look good. You seek comfort, and they provide it wholeheartedly to you. It's feeling like finally letting go, but also like that tightness of the coil right before it snaps, you know? The entire process is not completely smooth, but it ends in great emotional and mental release anyways.

Emotionally, you'll find true fulfillment and your stuck energy from earlier will finally start flowing more. You'll accept your thoughts or feelings, whatever they happen to be and stop being so passive about them. You'll stop trying to control your emotions and thoughts. It's as if a barbed wire was wrapped around your mind earlier and sex with your person cuts that away. 'Your person removes them' is what I wanted to say here, your person really wants to reach out to you anyhow. They feel like earth itself, calm and stable. They make space for you and help you resolve your feelings through sex. Not resolve, actually, more like accept. 

It will feel like it was meant to be afterwards XD especially to you. When you wake up later on, or maybe after showering or something, you'll feel physically and emotionally better. It will just feel right, like if it didn't happen, then nothing else would have helped, so this was meant to be, your person was meant to be.

You and your person will both be very down to earth throughout the experience, btw. There's no pretense here, no nonsense, nothing boastful. It's very thoughtful and fated.