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✿ dunk has always been such a good friend to you (inspired somewhat by this ask).
✿ 18+
✿ wc: 7.8k
✿ cw: fem!reader, no y/n, reader is not physically defined, friends to lovers, brief violence + blood description, protective!dunk, implied inexperienced!dunk, implied inexperienced!reader, SMUT, oral (f!receiving), pussy pronouns, unprotected piv, creampie, praise, pet names (sweet girl, etc), reader gets foldeddd, yearning and fluff and all that, dunk is in LOVE with you, strong language
a/n: the gif….. the shoulders….. the back….. THE BACK !!!
Golden afternoon sunshine glitters across the river’s surface, mottled between the gently swaying leaves of the willow above. The branches skim the water, a brush against canvas, as you lather honey wax soap between two wet hands. You hum quietly as you place the soap bar amongst the shingles before running your fingers over Dunk’s hair, threading bubbles through the lightly knotted strands.
The knight’s eyes are closed as he sits in the river’s shallows, water lapping around his bare hips. You kneel on the bank, his thick woolen cloak softening the press of stones beneath your legs as you extend your arms and scrub your fingers against his scalp.
“Hair like a horse’s,” you remark, taking a good fistful of his tawny brown hair and pulling it out, admiring the length of the soapy strands. “S’gotten long, hasn’t it?”
Dunk leans back into your touch, your other hand working at the nape of his neck. He keeps his eyes closed as he speaks. “You can cut it if you want.”
You laugh softly, twirling the thick lock around your finger. You give it a little tug, a small grunt leaving the back of his throat.
“No, I like it,” you mutter, before wiping the remaining suds across his freckled shoulders. You pat him firmly on the back, the slap of wet skin loud through the woodland around you. “Rinse, boy.”
Dunk does what he’s told and bends his large body forward. He dunks his head beneath the water, hands finding his hair to wash the soap away. Your eyes trace the curve of his spine, the muscles across his back and shoulders, but you make good work of ignoring the dip in his lower back and the curve of his arse. Instead, you watch a misty cloud of white float away downstream, before Dunk is pulling himself out of the water.
And you realise you didn’t get out of the way.
“Shit!” You exclaim, attempting to fall to the side, but to no avail. Dunk whips his head back, cold river water dashing across your face and chest as he shakes his head like a dog. You groan, slapping his shoulder as you get to your feet, other hand wiping down your face. “Every fucking time, Dunk.”
“Then you should expect it by now,” Dunk says, smiling up at you as you wring excess water from your sleeves. You shoot him a pointed look and he laughs. He wades out further into the river, turning and floating, watching you carefully. “Are you bathing too?”
You nod, already untying your dress. You shed your layers until you’re bare atop his cloak, bending to fold your clothes neatly atop the spun wool. It’s a juxtaposition to his own belongings, which are strewn haphazardly across the bank. Carefully, you toe the water and despite the pleasant spring air glowing warm around you, the water bites cold.
“It’s not bad,” Dunk tells you. He’s looking in your direction, but those sky-blue eyes of his are squarely on your face. Countless times you’ve been bare before him in manners like this, and countless times his eyes have never strayed from the lines of your face. He brings a hand out of the water, cupping some in his palm. “See?”
“Says the walking furnace himself,” you mumble as you take a deep breath, realising slowly wading in wasn’t going to do you any favours. So, you take a few large steps until you’re knee deep in the river, before diving straight in. Cold water rushes around you, and when you break the surface a few feet from Dunk, you gasp. “Ah! Dunk, you prick, it’s freezing!”
You splash him then, and he takes it with a wide grin split across his face. You splash him again, and he chuckles, reaching one strong arm out and taking hold of your wrist. Your other hand splashes too, water flying around you, and he grabs that wrist with his other hand. He holds you firmly, and before you know it, he’s dunking you under the water.
You’re under for barely a second, and he hoists you out, laughter echoing loudly through the clearing, glancing off the river’s surface like a skipping stone.
“I hate you,” you spit, but you don’t mean it.
You regain control of your arms—he lets you go, not that you have to fight him—and you grab the nape of his neck. He laughs while you shove him beneath the water, holding him there like you mean to drown him. The knight lets you, of course, considering he gives you a victorious four seconds before he easily rights himself and comes up for air. You let out a playful yelp, swimming away as he takes a swipe at you. You kick yourself off the stony bottom, paddling away, but he gets a hand on your ankle and yanks you back so firmly that a wake pushes out around you, sending the water lapping higher up the shingled bank.
“Dunk!” You shout as you thrash about the water. You look around the forest, dappled sunlight passing across your eyes in short, golden bursts. You smile as you shout, “My closest friend is drowning me! A knight is drowning me! Help!”
Dunk smiles, rolling his eyes. “Oh, hush. You deserve it.”
That night, beneath the ever-reaching cloak of darkness, you huddle by the fire, gnawing on a slightly stale roll of beef-stuffed bread. You had been reading your book—the only book you had, and which you had read eight times over yet—which now sits at your feet. There’s a slight chill in the air that licks at the flames in such a way they look to be dancing atop the gathered branches. Dunk approaches from tending to the horses, pulling his thick cloak from his shoulders. You look up, mouth full and cheeks protruding, as Dunk bends and wraps his cloak around your body.
“Y’do’ h’v t’do dat,” you say around your dinner, and he looks at you strangely as you chew.
“D’you just cast a spell on me?” He asks, shaking his head as he settles down beside you.
You slap his thigh, chewing and finally swallowing. You shrug your shoulders, gesturing to the heavy cloak now shrouding you. “You don’t have to do that,” you repeat, clearer now.
“Right, then I’ll take it back.” Dunk reaches a hand out, but you lean away.
“No, no, whatever, thank you,” you say quickly, enjoying the added layer and the heat as the nightly chill rustles the dead leaves on the ground around you. Dunk just huffs, amused, reclining back against the trunk of the willow. You look down at your half-eaten roll then, sighing through your nose before offering it to him. “You can have the rest.”
He shakes his head firmly. “No, you need to eat.”
“This is my second roll.”
“Exactly,” Dunk says, eyes flitting down your covered frame for just a second, flames reflecting in his eyes. He looks back at you. “You need to eat. I’d make you a third if we had any rolls left.”
You shake the bread roll in front of his face, a strip of salt beef hanging out the bitten end. “I’ve eaten. Have the rest.”
“No, you need to eat.”
“Dunk, I’ve eaten. I’m full.”
“No, you’re not.”
You roll your eyes. “Take the fucking bread.”
Dunk eyes the food sceptically for a moment, then looks back to you. “Are you sure?”
“Take the bread or I’ll throw it at your big head.”
Dunk takes it without another word, his sword-calloused fingers brushing yours. He takes a large bite, chewing contently as you lean back against the tree as well. Your shoulders knock together, and you feel the heat radiating off of him despite his thin tunic and fraying summer cloak he insists he mends himself—despite your sewing skills being considerably better than his (which, in itself, is not difficult considering his are… poor).
You take the corner of the cloak, your thumb immediately poking through a hole there. He watches you, eyes wide and glistening. There are crumbs around his lips.
“You need to let me mend this,” you tell him, wiggling your thumb for emphasis.
“I can do it.”
“I’ve mended every cloak you’ve had since we were children,” you say pointedly, tugging on the hole. It rips a little bigger, and he makes a face. You hide your smile. “My needlework is much better than yours.”
He huffs. “I mended my trousers just this morning.”
In the semi-darkness, your eyes find a patch of poorly stitched fabric beneath his right knee.
You laugh. “Yeah, I can tell.”
Dunk takes a rough bite of the bread roll, shaking his head as he chews. “Some friend you are.”
—✿—
Four days later, you and Dunk ride your horses along a well-trodden path. It rings around a dense thicket of woodland, and you listen to the way in which the trees jostle their leaves and branches together as the breeze blows through them. Birdsong filters out between the canopy too. You close your eyes, seated comfortably in your saddle as you ride Chestnut.
Ahead of you however, several hooded figures jump out onto the dirt road, brandishing jagged daggers. Dunk reacts before you, one strong arm shooting out to seize hold of Chestnut’s reins and pull you to an abrupt stop. Chestnut huffs in protest as Dunk manoeuvres himself and Thunder in front of you, the sturdy warhorse barely blinking as the three men advance.
“Pretty horse y’ve got,” one of the men says, gesturing to Thunder with the point of his dagger. The man’s eyes lift over to you a moment later, and he smiles a mouth full of silver as he gestures at you next. “Pretty wee lady y’ve got, too.”
Dunk’s face is set in stone, a steely flash in his eyes as he dismounts. All three men snap their eyes away from you to peer up at the hulking mass of a man standing before them. Dunk stands taller than Thunder’s withers, and he isn’t a small horse by any means.
One of the men falters on his sentence, concern flashing across his face, but the man who had first spoken takes a brave—or, you think, rather foolish—step forward, dagger outstretched. Dunk’s hand is balled tight on the pommel of his sword, which rests faithfully at his hip.
“Coin,” the man instructs simply. His eyes shoot up to you again, and you feel a worried chill creep up your spine. A sickly sort of nausea spindles through your diaphragm too. The man looks back at Dunk, dagger brandishing. “Or we can take the lady—”
Dunk rips his sword from its rope sheath and points it at the man. The other two take a few large steps back. Dunk grips the sword, the blade unwavering as he angles it directly at the man’s face.
“Speak one more word and you lose a hand,” Dunk grits out, the muscles in his jaw working. You watch, slightly helpless, from your saddle. Dunk nods towards the other two men, who still clutch their daggers in dirt-stained fingers. “Well? Anything to say?”
The first man scowls. “You—”
Dunk spins his wrist and shifts forward, blade of his sword coming down hard on the man’s hand. Blood splatters outwards in stripes of red silk, painting the earth like a bug squashed beneath a thumb. The man lets out a harrowing scream, his dagger hitting the reddened earth with a dull thud as he backs away, cradling his hand now. A large, deep gash splits across the side of his hand, cutting beneath the thumb knuckle in a bloody display of muscle and bone.
“Fucking hell!” One of the other men shouts, before proceeding to sprint back into the shadows of the forest alongside his friend, scarpering like a pair of rats. The injured man stumbles back, sending Dunk a look of pure fright, before vanishing into the woods, leaving a dotted trail of blood in his wake.
Dunk kicks the dagger away, watching it skitter off into the woodlands underbrush, before turning to you. He approaches slowly, placing a gentle hand on your calf.
“Are you alright?” He asks, wiping the tip of his sword through the dirt.
“Fine,” you tell him. Your eyes find his, which are brimming with worry, before you allow yours to rise to the forest line. You sigh. “You should’ve cut his hand off.”
Dunk sheaths his sword, frowning. “I was… I was trying to be intimidating. I didn’t—I mean, if he tried to get to you, I would’ve… I would’ve maybe, you know—”
You reach down and pet your friend gently on the top of his head. “Too noble for your own good, aren’t you?”
He shrugs, and he’s still holding your calf. “Thieves like that are mostly harmless. I didn’t…” He looks up at you then. “Should I have…?”
You shake your head. “You did great, Dunk. Very brave, and very strong.”
Dunk bows his head, bashful. He gives your calf one last firm pat before pulling himself up and into his own saddle. He offers you one last glance over his shoulder.
“Are you sure you’re okay?”
You nod, smiling softly. “I’m fine, Dunk.”
He nods too, turning. You sink your teeth into your bottom lip, still smiling as your eyes find his shoulders and back. You see the mass of muscle beneath the material that covers him, and you can’t help the weight of your smile and the warmth in your chest that quickly replaces your feeling of nausea.
—✿—
Two days after that, the springtime sun shines warmly against your back as you and Dunk traipse the sun-soaked cobbled streets of Oldtown. The towering knight loiters close behind you as you browse the market stalls, air swimming with flowery incense and freshly baked breads. Dunk lugs a few linen sacks of supplies in his arms, carrying them easily, as you give him yet another parchment-wrapped parcel of who knows what.
He lets you slip it into one of the sacks. “What is that?”
“Cake,” you say simply.
The frown that graces his face is light as he fights a smile. “You can’t keep buying cake. Our coin is scarce, and should be spent on things we need.”
You shoot him a pointed look over your shoulder, replying light-heartedly, “Well, it’s my coin and I need cake. Shut up.”
Dunk doesn’t argue, and instead follows you through the crowd. You linger ahead though as Dunk lags behind, hyper-aware of his large size taking up a considerable amount of the thoroughfare. He apologises under his breath as he accidentally bumps someone, and he tries to keep his arms tucked in as he holds onto all the produce you had insisted on purchasing.
When he finally catches up to you, after being cursed at by an elderly woman, you’re standing before a market stall with a wide grin split across your pretty face. Dunk watches you laugh softly at something the vendor says—the vendor, who happens to be a very attractive man around your age—before offering a response. And whatever you say makes the vendor smile even wider, a mouth full of flashing ivory.
Something solid churns deep in Dunk’s chest. It settles deep in the chambers of his heart.
He sidles up to you as casually as possible, body casting a long shadow across the stall. The vendor looks up, and Dunk almost feels guilty in the delight that greets him when the vendor’s smile vanishes.
You lift your head, smiling at your companion. “Dunk, what do you think?”
His eyes pull away from the vendor to where you’re showing him… another cake.
He huffs. “M’lady.”
It’s small, probably an easy fit in the palm of your hand, decorated with segments of blackberries and dusted with glittering sugar. His eyes flit from the little cake to your face, where you look at him with glossy eyes he swears he can see his reflection in—all pleading and begging and looking just the way you did when he met you all those years ago. Except now, you’re no longer surrounded by the grime of Flea Bottom. You’re here, together, in a tightly-packed market in Oldtown, clean and well-fed and smelling of honey and horse.
“One more,” you whisper. “This one looks good.”
“I’m certain you said that earlier,” Dunk mutters, but doesn’t argue.
He nods at the vendor, who hurries to offer you a square of parchment to wrap the little cake in. You beam, and Dunk feels something glowing from his chest, warm against the bone of his sternum. He hands the vendor the right coin before the two of you move off, heading back through the market, footsteps audible against the cobbled ground.
“Thank you,” you say suddenly, shifting to the side to lean your cheek against his arm. The muscle of his bicep is pillowy and warm against your face, and you peer up at him as you take a gentle hold of his wrist as he hefts the loot of the trip. “Thank you, Dunk.”
He smiles down at you, a few strands of hair framing his face. “Y’welcome.”
—✿—
Evening falls in a curtain of pale oranges and yellows as you lounge across the mattress. The inn room around you is lit up in those colours, sunlight streaming in through the small window that overlooks one of Oldtown’s many winding alleys. You lie comfortably in your chemise, candles burning near the iron-framed bed, deflated pillows piled behind you. Paper rustling is all that fills the room as you read, the book resting in your lap.
The room’s door opens and Dunk ducks in. You greet him.
He stands over the bed and holds something out to you. “Here.”
You place your book aside, taking in his slightly flushed appearance. “What…?”
The knight holds a book out towards you, leather-bound and clean of wear and tear. Your mouth parts into a small gasp as you gently take the book, admiring it and hefting its weight in your hands.
“Dunk,” you mutter, looking up at him. “Where did you get this?”
“Don’t worry about that,” he says quietly. He sits on the edge of the bed, mattress dipping beneath his weight. “You’ve read your book a hundred times over by now, so I thought a new one’d suit you well.”
You brush your fingers down the neatly bound spine. “Dunk…”
Tossing it aside, you all but throw yourself at him, wrapping your arms around his neck and squeezing him to you. He laughs at your enthusiasm, arms wrapping around your middle, cheeks heating as you murmur thanks into his shoulder. You pull back after a moment, but his hands rest on your hips and your fingers remain interlinked behind the column of his neck.
“You’re too good to me, y’know that?” You mutter, cocking your head and appraising the pink tint across his lightly freckled cheeks.
It flushes to his ears. “You deserve it. That and more, t’be fair.”
You chuckle at that, your fingers finding the hair at the nape of his neck. You thread them slowly, scratching against his scalp, and the sound that leaves his throat is nothing less than a purr as his eyes close and he leans his head back into the contact. The grip he has on your hips tightens. You’re so close you can feel the heat radiating from him.
“Like what?” You query, your other hand resting high on his shoulder, toying with the seam of his tunic.
Dunk opens his eyes. “Huh?”
“You said I deserve that and more,” you tell him. “Like what? What else do I deserve?”
He groans quietly, warring with himself as his eyes, lids half-lowered and sluggish in their movements, trace the features of your face.
“So much more,” he whispers. The hold on your hips draws firmer and you feel a giddy sort of heat take over you, settling in your stomach and between your thighs. Dunk continues, corner of his mouth curling up into a shadow of a grimace. “More than I can give you.”
You pout at his words, fingers in his hair taking the strands firmly between knuckles and tugging. He sucks in a breath, and you hold him as you speak.
“Don’t act the fool,” you say. “You give me everything I want, Dunk.”
He frowns.
“You do,” you challenge, hand not in his hair coming to cup his cheek now. His skin is warm and slightly dewy to the touch, testament of a man having spent the last hour searching the warm, narrow streets of Oldtown for a book. A book for you. You swipe your thumb along his cheekbone. “Now tell me: what else do I deserve?”
Dunk opens his mouth, then closes it. His eyes sweep down your face again, lingering on the shape of your lips, then the lines of your nose. They reach your eyes and he releases a pained sound—a sound punched from his gut, dragged across a whimper so intimate that it settles your heartbeat between your thighs.
“You deserve everything,” he whispers finally, tongue finding the corner of his mouth. Touching, a nervous movement, before his lips close and he’s trapping a grunt between his teeth as you scratch at the back of his neck. He closes his eyes, speaking like your touch might put him to sleep. “Everything I can give you.”
The hand you have on his face shifts to his jaw and you work the muscle and bone beneath the pads of your fingers. “And what can you give me?”
Dunk groans, head lolling to the side, resting against your forearm while you continue to rub at the nape of his neck, hair between your fingers. You let go of his jaw and swipe your hand across his forehead, pushing loose strands away so you can get a good look at his face. He’s redder now, his blush coloured darker in the shadows of the room. His freckles blur together beneath the flickering candlelight too, and you allow yourself to feather the tips of your fingers across the ones high on his cheekbones. You map them like the stars as he rubs his head against your forearm like a cat.
“Anything you want,” Dunk whispers finally, and it’s broken around a whine. Heat prickles at the back of your neck, blood pumping hot in your core as your body reacts to his audible need. Beneath the thin material of your chemise, you’re on fire. Dunk finally opens his eyes, observing you when the silence stretches for just a moment too long. He says your name, soft, tender, before he speaks. “Please.”
You smile, tucking a few thin locks of his hair behind his ear. You lean in, lips ghosting across the warm skin of his cheek. “I want you.”
A rumbling groan is ripped from his throat as he shifts his head to the side, chasing your words before they can disappear into the candlelit air. His mouth slots to yours so easily as you turn your head too, and another deep sound leaves his mouth as your lips work together. You grip his hair tightly, angling his head back so you can draw him in even closer.
Your name falls from his mouth, followed by a whisper of “my sweet girl,” before your tongues draw together. One of his hands finds the back of your neck, clutching firmly, fingers flexing as if you would draw away from him. You whimper in response, tugging at his hair.
“C’mon,” he mutters against your mouth as his hands find your hips again. He shifts you backwards, hefting you like a sack of grain until your head hits the stack of pillows. You smile into the kiss, pulling his hair into a closed fist at the back of his head. He groans, teeth catching on your bottom lip as he pulls away. “Tell me what you want. I’ll give it to you.”
You sit up slightly, forcing him to back up. Tugging your chemise off, the amber-lit warmth of the room greets your bare tits, and you toss the garment aside as Dunk gapes at you, eyes firmly on your chest.
“Dunk,” you chuckle, taking in his shocked—pleased—expression. “You’ve seen me bare before.”
“Not like this,” he utters, voice dark. He leans in then, and you suck in a gasp as he presses his face between the valley of your breasts. His hands find the small of your back, hugging you to him, and the skin of his face is burning red-hot against your chest. His mouth opens and he groans loudly, holding you tightly. “Oh gods.”
You seize his head and pull him back to you. You kiss him hard this time—it’s not gentle, and it’s not tender. It’s teeth and tongue and spit and fuelled by everything pent up inside you. A glass bottle uncorked, liquid need overflowing as you lick the salt from his tongue. His clothing comes next: blindly, you work his tunic over his arms and shoulders, pulling away from him so he could throw it across the room. He’s on you like a leaping hound, pinning you back against the pillows while your hands find the ties of his trousers.
There’s a molasses-thick desire seeping into your belly as you untie his trousers. It consumes you, hot and sticky, and you can’t help but moan into his mouth as your fingers brush across the tent in the material of his trousers. He groans in return, the sound breathless and almost embarrassed, as you shuck his trousers down and start tugging at his breeches.
He pulls back. “Sweet girl, hold on—”
You pause, panting, fingers on the knot at the band of his breeches. “Are you okay?”
“M’so good,” Dunk whispers, kissing you one last time on the lips. It’s chaste, almost polite, something akin to an apology before he leans back. A pout is halfway formed across your lips, nipples hardening at the loss of warmth against your front, before you feel his hands run down your back to the bunched fabric of your smallclothes. His eyes find yours as he slowly, slowly begins guiding them down. “Is this okay?”
You nod, admiring the shadowed lines of his face in the candlelight. A small dip in his brow draws his face into a mask of disbelief as he gently draws your smallclothes down your hips, over the curve of your arse, and then down your thighs. You lift yourself to aid him, eyes on the way his tongue finds the corner of his mouth again, his pupils blown wide. Soon, your thin linen undergarments are discarded and you lie completely bare before him.
“Here she is…” Dunk whispers, and it’s so quiet you’re certain it wasn’t meant for you.
His large hands find the plush of your thighs, kneading the flesh there as he parts them. His movements are unhurried as he brings them wider, and wider still, until the slick heat of your core glistens wet in the flickering candlelight. The sound that leaves him is pained, stretched thin across a moan as his fingers ghost down the sensitive skin of your inner thighs. He traces circles as he looks.
Your heart clatters against your ribcage like a marble in a jar and you swear you’re losing your breath. A hand you barely register as yours reaches out, feeling along the line of hair above his breeches. The muscle is cloaked in a layer of fat that you dig your fingers into, and you taste that molasses-thick desire between your teeth as his name rolls over your tongue.
“Put your mouth on me,” you say when you draw his attention away from your core. Your fingers dip, tracing the line of hair, brushing over the tent in his breeches. There’s a jerk of mass beneath the fabric. It sends your heartbeat straight between your legs.
The small dent in his brow deepens as he shudders out a breath, eyes on yours. “I’ve never…”
“S’alright,” you tell him, other hand finding his face. You pat his cheek tenderly. “We’ll learn—we’ll learn together, okay?”
His lips part, but he nods. A few strands of hair fall across his eyes as he settles further onto the bed, mattress and bedframe groaning. You can feel the callouses on the top of his palms against you, and his hands twist from your inner thighs to the backs of them. You yelp when he suddenly pushes your thighs up, thumb and fingers on either side of your knee’s undersides. He bends them up until they rest against the softness of your belly.
The angle is exposing, and there is a fleeting moment of fear that passes through your mind. It is squashed immediately when a boarish grunt leaves Dunk’s throat as he bends forward, squeezing your legs to anchor himself, before his breath is ghosting across you.
You writhe, gasping out, “Dunk, Dunk, please—”
His eyes appear black in the dim light as he peers up at you, hair damp on his forehead already. He watches you carefully as he blows out a breath—the sensation against your slick folds slicing your sentence mid-air. You moan softly and Dunk repeats the action, tepid air a finger-like stroke against the blazing warmth of your cunt. You manage to wriggle an arm between the fold of your legs, your fingers threading through his hair again.
He takes the encouragement: still looking up at you, Dunk gently presses his mouth to your core. It’s a kiss, a press of lips against velvet warmth, before they part. His tongue follows, a tentative split between your folds as his head shifts. His nose bumps your clit, and when a short “ha-ah” slips over the point of your tongue, he chases—tongue finding, searching, until you call a stretched-out whine of his name when he finally gets it.
“Dunk, yes, fuck,” you ramble, fisting his hair when he flattens his tongue. Something electric fizzles down your spine, shoulders to hips, as he works with a pressure just slightly too little, but somehow it works. It works because it’s him, and it works because you cant your hips and gently urge his head forward. And because he’s a good knight, your good knight, he listens, his lips drawing around your clit in a wet suction that punches a moan from you. “Du–uh–nk, oh gods.”
A thick grumble vibrates against you, his eyelids fluttering. His mouth shifts, tongue splitting back down your folds as you pant. He continues to watch you, eyes glassy. You nod, imploring, when the point of his tongue finds your hole, and you tighten your grip on his hair when he presses in. Like everything else about him, his tongue is thick—a thick press inside you that pulls you apart. It draws a pressure into the base of your belly as he licks into you, the line of his nose pressing deep against your puffy clit.
You wriggle beneath him, trapped under the fold of your own thighs as he pins you to the mattress and takes what he wants—gives you what you need. And he gives it to you, ever the quick-learner, with his tongue pulling and pushing in broad strokes. In, out, curling inwards as his head shifts. He chases the gasps that fall from your mouth, the little whimpers you try and quell as his tongue flicks in. He hums, pleased at the way your body heats up beneath him, and he feels his cock jerk in his breeches when the vibrations of his hum travel straight through you. You keen, holding his head tighter against your core. He breathes deeply, smelling and tasting you, face slick and flushed.
Is this good? he wants to ask. Am I making you feel good? teeters painfully on his tongue, but he keeps them locked in. He doesn’t want to interrupt this. Not now, not ever. The sounds you make spur him on, ignite a spark deep in his chest. His closest friend. His. His sweet girl writhing and moaning for him.
Sickly sweet now, the molasses-thick need crystalises in your womb, and you feel something tugging. A deep-seated pressure that rocks your heartbeat through your core, blood pumping hot in your veins. There’s a tension in your thighs too, and they tremble in his hold as his tongue splits you apart. The sounds are wet, and Dunk is grunting, and you’re trying not to fall too deeply into it—but you can’t help it. All you can think of, all you can hear, all you can taste is Dunk, Dunk, Dunk, and that pressure inside you builds to its breaking point. Your fingers grip his hair tightly as you attempt to grind yourself against his face.
“Dunk,” you whine, calling for him as your body shakes. “Dunk, s’good—m’gonna—”
You burst apart when his tongue dips deep inside you and he groans into your heat. The pressure inside you fissures and your cunt clenches tightly around him, heartbeat spiking as you call for him over and over, strung across breathy whimpers that seem to rise into the ceiling. He licks you through it, face unyielding as you tremble under the weight of his palms.
After a long moment, pleasure spiking sharp in the pit of your stomach, you pull him away from you by his hair. The knight groans, eyes finally closing, his face slick with you, lips kiss-bruised and wet as he whispers your name. He squeezes your thighs too, before gently placing your legs back against the sheets.
“Did I… was that okay?” Dunk can finally ask, eyes roaming down your naked form. They fall from your face, to your chest and stomach, to where you drool out between your thighs. The sight makes him moan, one hand resting over his lap.
“So good,” you assure him, picking yourself off the pillows now. Dunk swallows, watching you as you close the gap and kiss him. He’s shocked, frozen for a split-second as you lick yourself from his lips. The loud moan you offer him quickly pulls him back to solid earth, and he opens his mouth to kiss you back. You mutter against his lips, “You did so well, Dunk.”
He preens beneath the praise, ears burning hot as your tongues meet. He huffs into the kiss, his own pleasure thick in his trousers, the taste and smell and heat of you swimming in his head. But you seem to know exactly how he’s feeling, and your hand finds the ties of his breeches once more. You pull them loose as your mouths move together.
You dip a hand in and wrap your fingers around his cock. Dunk breaks the kiss with a low groan, forehead resting against yours as you pull him from the linen of his breeches. He’s warm and solid in your hand, velvet skin across steel as he pumps hot in your hand. Both of you look down.
“Gods…” You whisper, giving him a little stroke. It’s not like you’ve never seen it before. But here, in the privacy of this little inn room, bathed in ichored candlelight, it’s so much different. Your fingers work lightly, feeling the subtle give of skin. There are soft, shallow ridges and a vein you can feel working up the back of his shaft, and he’s so warm and so real against you. You whisper again, “So pretty, Dunk.”
He offers you a whiny breath as your fingers press beneath the dip of his cockhead. It’s blushing a deep pink and pearling wet at the slit and he looks embarrassed. His cheeks are pink and he’s frowning like he can’t quite believe what’s happening. Your hand is so much smaller than his—the sight of it wrapped around his cock making it jerk.
“So big…” You think aloud as your fingers move gently.
Dunk breathes deeply, chest heaving. His hands are on your hips, gripping you firmly, smoothing stuttering circles with his thumbs.
You pull away from him. He looks at you, eyes nearly black.
“Want you,” you tell him simply, fingers wrapping around the base of him now. You give him a tight squeeze. “Need you.”
“Gods above,” Dunk gasps out, but he’s already nodding. A thick, viscous heat clings to his ribs, pulls at the strings of his heart as he lets you work your fingers around the thick of his cock. He dips and kisses your forehead—he can’t help it. “Okay, sweet girl, I’ll give it to you.”
You smile then, retracting your hand. He hisses at the lack of contact, watching you shuffle back until you’re lying amongst your throne of pillows. The prettiest thing he’s ever seen. His sweet girl, spreading her legs with a smile on her pretty face. All for him.
The thoughts make him dizzy as he quickly shucks his clothing down his legs, kicking it away. He kneels on the bed, bedframe creaking beneath the weight of his body, but he ignores it. He draws in close to you, large hands finding the backs of your thighs and folding you again. The sound it pushes from your chest—“ha–uh–fu–uck, Dunk,”—is breathy and sweet in the amber-lit air between you. It has his cock jerking where it sits heavy and leaking against the mass of his thigh as he settles before you.
It’s easy to fold you like this. He leans over you, abdomen contracting as he holds himself up enough not to crush you. Up enough, too, to take one hand and clutch the base of his cock, guiding it to your cunt. You whimper his name and the sound goes directly to his brain, fills his lungs like a puff of smoke. It’s heady and dizzying and he can’t help but moan as he drags the head of his cock up and down your slit.
“Dunk,” you whine, the pressure between your folds sparking something in your lower belly again. Your cunt flutters around nothing when he taps the head against your swollen clit, then slowly drags it back down to notch at your hole. You suck in a breath. “Please.”
He doesn’t say anything. But he’s listening. He clutches himself in a lightly trembling hand and carefully, almost too slowly, pushes in. Your pussy opens up for him, slick and warm, sucking in the head with a wet clutch that has him losing his breath. It’s tight and unlike nothing he’s ever experienced before.
You whimper, hands gripping the sheets beside you. “Dunk, please, keep going.”
He hadn’t realised he’d stopped.
“M’sorry,” he whispers, then shifts his hips. Such a good listener.
He leans in, cock splitting you apart. He’s thick and heavy, dragging against your walls in one solid movement. It’s intoxicating, and you whine, the sound rattling your teeth as it’s wrenched from the back of your throat. You’re so full, and he’s still moving.
Dunk mutters your name like a prayer as he feeds his cock into you, marvelling at the way you open for him. Deeper and deeper. He holds you firm, folding you into the mattress, pinned beneath his strong chest. The heat that envelops him, he’s certain, burns hotter than any flame in Westeros.
He stills after a moment. The head of his cock is wedged right up beneath the plug of your cervix, and there’s a slowly soothing ache somewhere in your pelvis. You can feel it, feel it festering like a bruise. Dunk’s cock gives a feeble jerk inside you, and you wince just slightly, so full, reaching so deep.
His face drops. Worried. “Are you—?”
“M’okay,” you whisper. The pain is slowly dissipating as your cunt flutters around him. You see him bite back a groan, pleasure fighting against concern. You smile at him softly. “So good, Dunk. You feel so good inside me.”
Dunk’s still frowning, but you can tell your words have hit him square across the face. He releases a shuddering breath, and his cock twitches inside you again.
“Please move,” you tell him, purposefully tightening the muscles of your core, sucking him in even tighter. His eyes flutter, and you finally get to hear that groan he had been wrangling with. It’s hoarse, flung through gravel. You huff loudly. “Please, Dunk.”
“Okay, okay,” Dunk utters, soothing.
Holding your thighs, he pulls out until just the head rests inside. He takes a deep breath, then pushes back in, and his composure shatters completely when you attempt to arch, moaning. He’s making you feel like this. He is. He hounds after that feeling, pulling his cock out again and repeating the movement until he settles into a pace he didn’t know he could keep.
“That’s it, just like that,” you ramble, tits bouncing against your chest as Dunk’s thrusts lean heavy. Your knees near your head, the pressure on your belly making him feel even deeper. The ache inside you has completely vanished, replaced now by that viscous heat you’ve come to love. “Dunk, fuck, so—so good.”
The bed creaks in protest as he drives you deeper and deeper into the mattress, his strokes becoming more confident. He’s a quick learner, you already know, and you can feel the pride leeching from him as he breaks you apart from the inside out. He’s basking in the little sounds that fall from you as the head of his cock nudges deep. Thick, stretching, rolling.
You’re so tight around him. Warm and slick and everything he’d dared to imagine late at night, bent against a tree with his cock in hand. And you take him so well, sucking him in as his hips roll, skin-slapping-skin. The iron headboard knocks against the wooden wall, but he pays it no mind, thoughts only of you, you, you. His girl. His perfect girl.
“Harder,” you moan, fisting the sheets.
Dunk listens.
He wrestles your legs onto his shoulders, angling himself even deeper now and thrusting deep. You yelp, then moan, at the angle and the fact he nails that perfect spot inside you on the third thrust. He hears it, hears the shift in your moans, feels the clench of your pussy, all hot and vice-like around him. And he follows it, tracing it like a line to treasure. Rolling hips, creaking bed, bear-like grunts.
“Like that?” He utters, but he knows. He’s folding you in half and he knows.
You can barely answer, pressure tight in your womb. His cock drags you closer to another release, bubbling hot as he pins you beneath the thick, muscled mass of his body. He’s a walking furnace, and you feel it closer now. Fire seeps from his skin. Sweat traps along your front, along your back, building beneath the joints of your knees as he fucks you.
“Y–yeah,” you manage to reply, but that’s all you have energy for. Your pleasure is stacking deep inside you and you’re losing your ability to form proper words.
Dunk grunts in response.
Hair hangs over his forehead, some tacked to his skin with sweat. The muscles in his arms work as he holds himself over you. He’s so thick, so strong. You manage to lift an arm to squeeze at his bicep, fingers indenting flesh. You want to bite it, but he has you trapped so firmly against the mattress that you’re sure you couldn’t move an inch if you tried.
Your pussy squeezes around him again as pressure builds. It’s familiar now, and you know where it comes from, and where it’s going to lead you, as it crawls down your spine and spans out across your womb.
You clutch Dunk’s arm with one hand, the other useless at your side, limbless and pleasure-lax. “Dunk.”
“Yeah?” He looks down at you, a light furrow in his brow. “You’ve got something for me?”
You nod. “M’so close.”
Dunk huffs, pace remaining. Firm and even, cock slamming into that perfect spot inside you. His hips roll, the mattress shifts, the bedframe groans and knocks heavy against the wall. Candles flicker around you, white wax dripping, rolling in pearls. His eyes are on you, blue smothered beneath black. He looks at you like you’re the only thing that matters.
That makes you moan. A feather-soft “Dunk,” followed by a louder, more desperate, “Oh, gods, Dunk—!” You shatter for a second time then, body giving in. Your cunt clutches tight around his cock, slick gushing as he fucks you through it, dribbling out and down the curve of your arse as he rocks in, in, in. His movements falter, just slightly, as you cry out for him, release pressing heavy on your belly as he folds you.
“M’here, m’here,” Dunk coos, bending to kiss you. Your legs press even deeper, and you whine into the kiss. Trembling, legs shaking, heart seeping deep into the marrow of your bones. Dunk pulls back, thrusts slowing by a fraction as his cock jerks. He moans like a wounded man, “Oh, sweet girl, I’m—I’m—”
It’s a sudden, solid heat in his pelvis. His cock jumps where it’s seated against the base of your cervix, and his balls draw tight where they rest against the curve of your arse. His hips stutter, thighs tensing, then he’s spilling. Inside you.
It feels thicker, hotter. It knocks through his diaphragm and he groans through it, jaw working as he shoves himself to the hilt inside you. He feels the way your pussy wraps to take him, sucks him in even deeper as he empties himself in white-hot stripes. The force in which it leaves him is dizzying, and his eyes drop closed, mouth parting.
And he can’t help himself.
“I love you,” he breathes out as he comes, spilling hot. It leaves him in shudders as he holds himself over you, trapping you, keeping you. He huffs, fending off a groan as he rolls his hips to a stop. “Gods above.”
Neither of you speak for a long moment after that. The mattress settles as you still. You pant, and so does Dunk, as pleasure fizzles like the bubbles of ale.
Dunk flushes even deeper when he shakes himself from his haze. He opens his eyes properly, peering down at you as if he’d caused you injury.
“M’sorry,” he says quickly, scanning your face. “My sweet girl, I’m—”
You shake your head, heartbeat calming. “S’okay—oh, Dunk, it’s okay.”
You lift a hand to cup his cheek. He leans into it, eyes closing.
“I love you,” you tell him through a whisper. There’s a quiet in the room that feels warm against your skin. You can hear music somewhere below you: the muffled plucking of strings, the clamour of singing voices. You stroke his cheekbone with your thumb. “More than anything.”
His reply is to bend and kiss you again. It’s soft and tender, but there’s a strength behind it that tastes of the knight you know.
“You’re too good to me,” Dunk mumbles against your lips, echoing your words from earlier. “My sweet girl. Too good for me.”
contents (nsfw): Ser Duncan The Tall x fem!mer!reader, inspired by HCA’s The Little Mermaid, switching POVs (indicated with dividers), medieval rom-com, love at first sight, mutual pining, yearning, caretaking, wound tending, awkwardness, angst that resolves, fluff, first kiss, lots of kissing actually, love confessions, body dysmorphia, body worship (feet and legs), cunnilingus, mild biting and marking, hair pulling, size difference, size kink, explicit consent, loss of virginity, pain during sex, riding, breast play, nipple play, coming inside, aftercare, protective!Dunk, virgin!Dunk, soft!Dunk, bittersweet ending.
<- part one
synopsis: A mermaid falls in love with a knight praying on her riverbank. A witch gives her legs and three days to make him love her back.
word count: 21,2K (I don't even know guys)
a/n: Banner is by me, dividers by @strangergraphics and @honeyluvsw! Thank you lovely humans for giving it a read before publishing (@lateknightbites, @hextoken and @siliceousooze)!
When you wake the sword rests exactly where it was put in the evening, as if its weight disregards night-time shuffling. You study it from your side of the bedroll, baffled by the patience of it. Perhaps it is only a symbol, one of those man-made rules given shape in iron. Perhaps Duncan would have struck you with it had you rolled too far in your sleep and crossed into whatever danger he believes lives on the other side. The thought has no sense to it. The sword does nothing to quell you. In the night he is warm through cotton and blanket, broad back turned to you. His hair is curled soft at the nape where sleep has dampened it. You fell into slumber looking at that small dark place beneath his skull. You wake to his side empty and sunken into the ground.
So he has kissed before. Says he enjoyed it, or supposes he has. You are thoroughly torn on the matter. On one hand, it is good that at least one of you might know what to do with hands and tongues and teeth. On the other, it ires you greatly that someone you have already marked as your man has rested his mouth on another—and more than one, you presume, from the way he speaks of it—and found pleasure there. You wonder if the women he kissed bore any likeness to you. If he would find it agreeable to kiss you. If all that blushing and hiding of his face comes from the abashment of wanting, or if he is plainly too polite to tell you to stop. If two remaining days are enough to charm him, or if the witch tricked you to get her fill of a soul.
Trying to rise finds you stiff all over. Sleep in water gives the body constant motion. It hones you into fluid, graceful softness, even in dreams. Sleep on land is a meaner thing. The ground holds you in one shape and punishes you for keeping it. Your wretched legs have forgotten everything they learned the day before and returned to being useless logs, long and dumb beneath you. The cut across your foot pulses with a dull little heart of its own.
You push yourself up on your arms. Try to bend one knee. Then the other. Nothing comes kindly. Your joints pull, thighs ache, feet sit at the end of you, inert and limp.
Duncan comes back from the stream with the waterskin filled and dark at the seams. The moment he sees you struggling, he hastens over, nearly sloshing water down his leg.
“Hallo, m’lady,” he says, breath touched with worry. He bends, and his hands hover a moment, large and useless in the air. You make the choice for him, seizing his forearms and grunting angrily as you haul yourself toward him.
“Are you in pain?” he asks.
“No, it is only—” You huff, because the lie is poor and the truth is stupid. “I have gone stiff in the night.”
His grip steadies. “Aye. It happens so to folk unused to sleeping on the ground.” He bows his head a little with plain and honest regret, as though the hardness of the earth were some failing of his hospitality. “Forgive me for not giving you better rest.”
“I enjoy the arrangement,” you say, and mean it more than he can know. “Just my legs seem to disagree.”
He helps you out of the bedroll and onto the grass. At once, your knees show their feeble loyalty. One gives, then the other threatens. Duncan catches each stumble before it can become a fall, swift and careful. His hands close round yours until you are held between him like something being taught to stand by force of kindness.
“Easy,” he says. His eyes are lowered to the ground between you, watching your feet as if they are creatures likely to calm under his gaze. “Hold to me.”
So you hold. He steps back. You step forward, or try. He faces you all the while, walking backwards with a patience that ought to shame the road. His palms stay firm around yours, drawing you neither too fast nor too far. “Put your weight here," he says. Corrects, "No, not so much," when you get that wrong too. "Heel first. Then let the rest follow. Aye, that’s better.”
“It feels worse,” you say.
“Aye, well. Better things often do,” Duncan replies, which sounds to you like another of those human miseries dressed up as wisdom.
After a few steps, his brow furrows. “Were you hurt, then? Is that why it comes so hard?”
You nod quickly, because it is easier than explaining the truth and close enough to keep from being a lie. You hope he will not prod at it, and he does not. He only adjusts his hold and lets you try again.
“I’d wager you are used to softer beds,” he says, likely meaning to ease whatever discomfort has grown between you.
You think of weed-beds and wet sand. Of tree roots stretching their long limbs down into the water, making cradles in the dark. Of sleeping where the current runs over your back and little fish nose curiously at your hair. None of it is soft in the way he means. All of it is gone from you.
“Not exactly,” you say.
Duncan looks at you for half a breath. Then, he mumbles, “Right.” He keeps safeguarding you across the grass, step after strenuous little step. After a while, he clears his throat. “So. Are you seeking to reunite with kin in Riverrun, or—?”
Your brows rise. For a moment you cannot tell what he is asking. Whether he has found some crack in you. Whether he is trying to pry loose the fib you have not quite told. Whether he only wishes to make talk because your hands are in his and silence has begun to notice.
Your folk come to mind with no gentleness at all. There is no coddling among them. No teaching of the young beyond what hunger teaches. You are spat into the world, and if the bodies that made you survive their coupling, they become only two more mouths in the same water. Two more foes over food, territory, warmth, the shadowed places where a creature might sleep without teeth finding her. “I am seeking a fuller life,” you say.
The sadness in your own voice surprises you.
Duncan’s hold changes. Softens at the edges. His thumbs brush over your sleeves, and one finds the bare skin at your wrist by accident. Instead of pulling away, he stays. For a heartbeat, he only stands with you held between his hands, looking down as though some answer might be written in the grass.
You are unaware that it indeed is. When your foot skids back a little, Duncan gasps quietly. “Oh, heavens,” he mutters. His whole frame dips, and he sets your palms on his shoulders so you do not stumble. You cling there, confused, while he lowers himself before you and looks at the grass.
“You’re bleeding,” he says, and there is a soft tsk in it. “M’lady, you’re bleeding still.”
“Oh?” You look down as if the foot belongs to someone else. “I thought—”
“Hold to me.” Then, he takes you by the ankle before you can ask why. Warm fingers, broad enough to meet round the bone. The touch startles more than the pain. He lifts your foot with such care that the rest of you must lean harder into his shoulders, then sets his palm flat to the sole. When he draws it back, red has smeared bright across the heel of it.
Duncan frowns up at you. “Why did you not tell me you were wounded?”
You stare at the blood on his skin. “I thought it would close.”
It should have. Your old body sealed itself quickly. Slashes, bites, the ragged marks left by shell or tooth—by morning they would be shut, tender at the seams perhaps, but no longer asking anything of you. Certainly not for a knight crouched in the grass with your ankle in his hand and alarm in his face. The witch has given you legs and human weakness with them. Flesh that opens and stays open. Flesh that must be begged back together.
“I thought it would just—”
“It needs tending,” Duncan says. His voice gentles, as if he has heard some of what you cannot say. “We’ll see to it. Aye?” He lets go of your ankle and rises with your hands still on his shoulders. “May I carry you?”
You nod and put your arms round his neck, ready for the old manner of being lifted. Instead, his hands come to your waist. The blush returns to him fierce and pink, but he endures it. He simply braces you there, lifts, and carries you back over the grass with your feet held clear of the ground.
His face is close. Too close for the shape of him to stay sensible. He looks you in the eye, searching for protest or hurt, but the looking itself becomes unbearable. You draw a larger breath into your lungs, and your chest expands against his. Duncan closes his eyes for a brief moment. His breath smells of crushed mint.
“There we are,” he mutters when he reaches the bedroll.
He sets you down as if the earth might bruise you further, then reaches for waterskin and turns to his sack. Begins pulling things from it: a strip of cloth and a little packet of something dried and green.
“I’ll clean it first,” he says. “Then bind it. It may smart.”
You give him your foot when he reaches for it. His thumb brushes your toes by accident, and the whole limb twitches under the tickle. There's a tiny squeal, and Duncan's face cracks into a smile that seems impossible to withhold. He looks dear with it.
He wets a clean cloth and wipes away the blood that has started seeping again under the pressure of walking. You watch him in silence. His head is bent, hair falling forward, mouth set in focus. “Thought it would close,” he murmurs once, almost to himself, and huffs through his nose as if the notion offends him.
When he presses harder, you hiss and jerk your leg. His grip holds firm enough that you only thrash a little. “Beg pardon,” he says. “Forgive me. I did not mean to hurt you. I’ll be gentler.”
You bite the inside of your lip. He is so lovely to you that it empties your head. There is no answer fit for it, so you close your eyes and let the touch happen. Cloth over sole. Fingers at ankle. Palm holding your calf when he forgets himself in the work. He handles pain as if it is something that can be negotiated with, made smaller by tender perseverance.
When he binds the foot, he sets your heel against his thigh to check the tightness. “Too hard?”
You shake your head.
He tears the remaining tongue of bandage with his teeth, then secures it with a bow. The bow only makes things worse in your heart. A man knowing how to tie one. That fact that his hands can hold sword and rein and still make this small, neat kindness at the end of your body.
“You’ll be glad,” he says, sitting back. “No shoe for this one.”
“How will I walk?”
“You won’t.” He gives the bandage one last look, then lifts his eyes to yours. “Let it seal. I’ll carry you to Chestnut and off her again, if you’ll let me.”
"I'll allow it," you tell him, and Duncan snorts through his nose.
“That is kind of you,” he says with his mouth pulled shyly at one corner.
He packs the camp with the care of someone used to owning very few things and losing none of them. Oilcloth rolled, wool shaken out, bowls wiped with grass, and fire killed under his boot until smoke gives up in sullen threads. He loads the horses, checks straps, checks them again, then comes back to you as if lifting a girl on and off beasts has become one more road-task his hands are meant to know.
When he sets you on Chestnut, your arms go round his neck and he bears it with the same amount of colour proximity always seems to paint him. “There ye are,” he says, and steps back once you are sat properly.
The day grows warmer than the one before. At first you think the heat is only the sun choosing to dislike you more openly. Then your new body begins casting out its own water. It gathers at your neck, under your arms, between your breasts, slicking you in a thin unpleasant film. Sweat, you remember. Humans leak themselves when the air grows heavy. Understandable why they are so fond of cloth. It gives the body somewhere to be ashamed.
Ahead, Duncan rides with his shoulders set beneath his shirt, and soon the linen darkens down the column of his spine. It clings there, marking the long line of him. His back is broad enough to resemble one of those softer beds he keeps apologising for failing to provide. You think it would be a better one than the ground, and likely kinder.
Chestnut begins blowing through her nose, impatient with the heat. Duncan turns in the saddle. “Aye,” he tells her. “We ought to cool off somewhere.” Then his eyes come to you, expectant now in a way that pleases you. “Any water near?”
You look around. Wait. Listen past the horse-breath and tack-creak and road dust. There. “A little further ahead,” you say, pointing. “There should be a stream.”
Duncan nods this time without that careful pity from yesterday. Soon enough the road bends and forks into a smaller path toward the trees you chose. Beneath the leaves, water susurrates over stone, plain as speech.
He stops in a green hollow where the stream runs slow and bright. First he helps you down from Chestnut, hands steady, then settles you in the shade on a soft bed of grass.
“Would you mind if I tend to the beasts first?” he asks.
It endears you that he calls them what you call them, and you nod with great solemnity. Duncan leads the horses into the water, murmuring to them as they drink.
You sit where he has placed you and watch him, only a little. He steps in barefoot, water up to his knees, breeches darkening where they drink the river. When he bends to wash his face the sound he makes is so relieved it nearly has shape. Then, his body shifts as if he might turn, so you lie back quickly and pretend great interest in the sun glittering through the crown of leaves overhead.
For a second, or maybe two, you are interested. Light breaks itself on leaf-edge and comes down green-gold and restless. But in the corner of your eye Duncan pulls the shirt over his head and tosses it onto the bank, inadvertently impoverishing your attention.
It shrinks to his back, shining with sweat and riverlight. Large shoulders become larger bare. The hard-working breadth of him slopes down into a waist that seems almost shy for belonging to such a man. Water skids from the back of his neck and runs between the moving shelves of muscle. His arms gleam where the hair on them catches sun, each strand lit briefly as mosquitoes are lit in evening air. Lower, the ridges at the base of his spine look softer than they ought to, plush little marks above the band of his breeches, a place made by the gods for the pressing of a mouth and then hidden from decent folk by linen.
Duncan forgets himself for one blessed moment. He lowers into the stream with a groan, then lies back where the water is deep enough to take some of his weight. His chest comes into view. No wonder it is so broad if it must hold the sort of heart he has.
His ribs expand slowly and crown the upper swell of his stomach. The whole front of him looks safe. Pliable. Opulent with flesh, with strength, with the dark scatter of hair that begins across him and gathers itself into a neater line below his navel, leading somewhere your thoughts visit, and you don't even care to leash them. The little cup of his belly looks tender enough for a cheek. For a kiss, perhaps. For asking forgiveness of whatever part of him you have offended by wanting so much.
You watch him through leaf-shadow and sun-break, hunger loosening warm in your mouth. It is the looks, yes. You are young enough and living enough for beauty to matter. But the beauty wounds because it is his. His shoulders that carried you. His hands that tied the bandage. His mouth that stammered around kindness. His generous body laid briefly open in the water, while the heart inside it has been nothing but careful with you.
Then you notice the dark brand of mortality spoiling what is dear and fair and supple. A wound at his side, ugly with bruise-bloom and old blood, the flesh round it gone a deep wine-dark colour that makes your teeth meet. That is what has made him wince and grunt whenever he has pretended effort is a stranger to him. Someone put that there. Someone opened your knight and left him to ride on with pain hidden under cloth and courtesy.
Whoever hurt your beloved becomes at once your beloathed.
You want to tend him. Cure him. Put your mouth to the slash and draw the pain from it. Lick it clean. Pack it with moss and bitter green things. Seal him with leaf and mud and charm and the old patience of riverbeds. Hide him somewhere cold and safe where no sword can find him and no lord can send him back out to be struck again. Then you remember that whatever powers lived in your old body have been taken from you with your gills and your tail. All that remains is knowledge. Root, herb, current, and small useful things land and water will still confess if you ask properly.
Heat climbs through you, anger and want together, so fierce the stream begins calling harder. To you, it is communal. Water is company, cleansing, and peace. A place where bodies are honest and the world knows how to hold them. You begin undressing before sense catches up, fingers already at the borrowed linen. Then Duncan’s red ears return to you. His stricken crouch over firewood. The way he begged you to spare him from some bare skin as if you had raised a blade.
Whether that was true misliking or liking too much, you still have no clear answer. Men have a great many words for lying softly.
So the shift stays on. This, you think, is decorum.
You rise with care and make your wobbly way to the bank, each step placed as though the earth may change its mind beneath you. Duncan lies with his ears under the stream, face turned to the sky, and does not stir. The first touch of water over your bandaged foot is bright enough to steal your breath. Cool. Familiar. Wrong only because your body receives it poorly now, through skin instead of gill, through ache instead of ease. Still, it welcomes you better than road and saddle ever did.
You step knee-deep. Then further. The stream dips there into a dark little hollow beneath the willow roots, and the water climbs your thighs, your hips, your waist. Your shift billows round you and then clings. Duncan floats an arm-length away, chest moving slow, the gash ugly at his side like an insult left unanswered.
“You are hurt,” you say.
He jerks so hard his head goes under. For one sharp instant his limbs thrash and water breaks. Then Duncan surges upright, coughing badly, droplets streaming from his hair into his eyes. Water reaches his waist. His mouth opens on a half-strangled oath.
“Seven bloody hells!” he bellows, making the horses lift their heads from drinking. Drags a hand down his face and finds you standing there in your soaked shift. The cloth has gone thin and faithful to every line beneath it. His gaze strikes you once, panics, and bolts upward to the trees. “M-m’lady,” he rasps, still coughing. “Gods. You near frightened the soul out of me.”
“Let me tend to you,” you say, reaching. Your fingers brush his ribs and—oh, gods. He flinches. Flinches as if you have burnt him, near stumbling back on the pebbles.
“N-no,” he stammers. “No, there’s—” Another step back. “There’s no need. I, uh—I’ll let you bathe. Forgive me, I—”
“Ser Duncan?” You only blink at him, stunned. He stays where he is, eyes down. “Ser Duncan, you mustn’t be so foolish," you say. "It is only tending.”
“Please,” he says, and the word comes out almost a whine.
You come closer despite it. Set your fingers to his side again, gentler this time, and find the flesh above the cut warmer than the rest of him. “You’re in pain.”
“It looks worse than it feels,” he says. “Hah—” His breath hitches when your thumb brushes the soft of his belly. “Please,” he says, lower now. “Don’t… don't touch me.”
The hurt of it lands before you can reason with it. Your hand retreats. Your jaw sets tight. “As you wish,” you say, and dip wholly underwater and let the current take you a little way from him.
Duncan starts the day perturbed and only grows more and more mortified during the course of it.
First, sleeping next to you proves shallow and restless, for you keep making soft sounds in the night and moving under the blanket. Your body seems to disregard the steel barrier entirely and every now and then one of your limbs brushes him. Fingers on the hem of his shift. Foot nudging his low on the bedroll. Duncan sleeps terribly.
Then he is shamed for the hurt on you, and rightly. He had been so fixed on keeping his eyes clean and his hands honourable, so addled by the bareness of you, that he had given your bad walking some name out of fear and pity and left the simplest answer underfoot.
A cut. A cruel slash across the sole. Even close, even with your hands in his, it takes the red smear on the grass to make him see it, and the sight puts a shudder of anger through him so sharp he nearly speaks too harshly. After that comes worse: your ankle warm in his hand, your heel on his thigh, the soft give of your calf under his palm while he cleans what he can. You trust him through it. Squeal when it stings, then bite yourself quiet and try to be brave for no reason he deserves. Your skin imperils him by seeming new-made, tender in a way ordinary skin is not, without the leathering of road or work or weather. Dunk binds the foot as gently as he knows how and keeps himself from lifting it to his mouth and kissing it better only because that would mean bringing your leg higher, opening you by accident or design, and he is certain as sunrise that he would not survive the sight.
He contemplates this predicament of knightly challenge while floating on his back, body idle where his mind is restless, and gets startled by your voice. Then haunted by the same fingers that brushed him in the night and the shape of you, plain and vulgar and hallowed all the same under the shift clinging to you. He mumbles his futile excuses, manages to offend you by trying to maintain his honour, and stumbles out of the stream burnt up to his ears and heavy between the legs. Gods have mercy on him, Duncan has a few more nights with you ahead of him and faith in himself near shredded to scraps.
For another hour or so, he is quiet as a dead man. Sets you onto Chestnut with his eyes barely open, and rides in suffocating silence. At camp his heart inevitably melts back to warmness, because you try to feed Sweetfoot an apple you have chewed yourself first, and for it the horse adores you so much that Duncan almost chars the bread he is trying to make less stone-like. You squat too close to the fire and near singe the hem, making him certain you are not road-wise at all, then gut a fish he has caught in tremendous efforts with such unnerving competence Dunk has to revise his whole sense of your shelteredness.
Once he loosens enough to laugh and make talk with you again, the questions return. Seven hells, they never end, and Duncan scowls at each and every one of them. Do 'married things' feel better once people are married? Is it always a man and a woman who do 'married things'? Do folk kiss only on the mouth? Where else can one kiss? At which point Dunk contemplates pouring boiling water from the pot over his palm just so he is spared.
You seem oblivious. Charmingly so, because every inquiry leaves your face adorned with child-like curiosity, and the things you speak of having nothing child-like about them makes you only that much purer and more disarming in his eyes.
“How do I know a man would like to kiss me?” you ask, blinking at him wide-eyed and hopeful.
He is thankful the bite he took has already gone down his throat before that one lands. Duncan considers it gravely, though not without a fresh wave of shame, because while he means to answer you truthfully and as best he can, he need not bare himself doing it.
“It depends on the man,” he says, vague as a coward, and is met with another blink. “He might, uh—” Duncan tries. “Some men would gape at you outright, mayhaps. Some would try to steal looks and turn away when you caught them at it. Some might go nervous round you. Blush some. Look at your mouth and then wish they hadn’t, because—” He exhales hard through his nose. “Gods. I don’t know. Forgive me, m’lady, I've no proper answer for that one.”
You sit across from him with your face set carefully, taking each word in as if it has been given for study. Only then does it dawn on Duncan that he may have given himself away after all.
At nightfall, he prepares the bedroll again and sets the sword down, doubting its use. What he named protection that first evening serves tonight as the restraint he needs so dearly, and there is something wholly unknightly in that.
As if for punishment, he wakes hot and clammy, half-rolled off the wool, his side aching badly. When he opens his eyes, you are perched on one elbow with your hand hovering over his forehead. “Ser Duncan,” you say. “You’re burning up. Let me clean your wound, or you’ll go stiff as a dead fish.”
His mouth is parched. He fights himself a moment, tries to move, and when he finds it painful beyond keeping his face straight, Duncan nods, wincing. “A-aye,” he rasps. “Aye, all right then.”
You get to work at once. Even through the blear in his eyes he sees that you limp less than yesterday. Slow, still, and careful with the foot he bound, but less at war with the earth. You move from the bedroll to the fringe of grass near the stream, bending over plants, touching leaves, bringing them to your nose. Some you take. Some you let fall again with a little dismissive flick of your fingers. Moss from the wet bank. Green things he cannot name. A strip of bark peeled from a low branch after you press your face close to it and seem to listen. You come back with all of it gathered in your skirt, along with clean water from the stream and the bandages pulled from his sack.
Then, you sit on your heels beside him and roll his shirt up. Duncan hisses. “Ah—”
“Ser Duncan, we should not travel today,” you say.
“I’m bound for… for Riverrun soon, ah—” His breath catches when you peel the linen from his side. The cloth gives with a mean little tug. “There is business there.”
“You’ll be more useful to them sound than fevered, Duncan.”
You say it while looking where he cannot see. He looks where he should not. The furrow between your brows, the fall of your hair, and your pretty mouth tightened in focus, and oh—your lips part round a twist of bark and bitter leaves, and thought leaves him in one shameful rush. You chew them all together with grave purpose.
Duncan watches, transfixed enough that the first spill of stream-cool water over his ribs catches him unprepared. His stomach jumps. You take the sound for pain and murmur something under your breath, sweet and wordless, as you pat the wound dry. He is grateful for the mistake. Grateful too that your eyes keep going to his face and the blanket lies over him from the waist down, because your hand is braced low on his stomach and his body has begun turning traitor in ways fever cannot excuse.
“Is this too much?” you ask.
He shakes his head for the lump in his throat makes speech a poor wager.
You pack the wound with moss and the green pulp you have made, careful as any septa laying cloth over the dead. Sphagnum, he knows dimly, from old hedge lessons and worse roads. The rest is beyond him. He must be looking at it strangely, because you pause with your fingers at his side.
“I vow to you, this is safe,” you say. “It is what my people know of healing. I would not harm you.”
“I… I know that,” Duncan says. The answer comes quickly, because it is true before he has time to dress it better. He covers the hand you have set on his stomach. Your skin is cooler than his, cool enough to make him ache toward it.
“I beg your pardon for my weakness, m’lady.”
“I’ll grant you no pardon for that, ser,” you say. “For it needs none.” Your mouth curves a little, thoughtful rather than cruel. “The foolishness, well. That one I might grant pardon for.”
Despite the pain, something near a laugh moves in his chest.
You reach for the clean bandage and begin to bind his waist. He has to raise himself for it. The doing hurts badly enough to sour his breath, but he does it all the same, one arm locked beneath him while you pass the cloth under his back and round again. Your hands move with surprising certainty. All the awkwardness with laces and shoes gone from you the moment flesh is the thing in need.
When it is done, you tie the bandage firm and check the edge with two fingers. “Too tight?”
“No.”
It is, a little. But he would sooner bite his tongue than make you fuss over him again.
You seem to know that somehow, or else you have learned his face too well already, because you loosen it by the smallest measure before he can protest. Then you lean in, set a wet cloth over his forehead, and smooth it once over his brow. The touch quiets him worse than sleep could.
“Rest, Ser Duncan,” you say. “Riverrun may wait a day.”
It is as though you have put a spell on the world, because Duncan’s eyes grow heavy and everything seems set on peeling the fever off him. The air cools during his sleep and billows with loud howling through the trees, making breath come easier into his lungs. By the time he wakes, the mean bite in his side has dulled to a steady ache, and the heat in him has lessened into something nearer the natural state of a body than the foul blaze of sickness.
For a moment he does nothing but lie there, listening. You are humming beside him. The sound is low and strange and threaded so gently through the wind that he almost thinks he has dreamt it. When he opens his eyes, he finds you curled near the fire in a small, careful shape, arms tucked round yourself as if trying to keep what warmth you have from fleeing. Your hair moves across your cheek. Your face has gone solemn in sleep or thought; he cannot tell which.
He clears his throat and pushes himself up. The movement hurts, but only in the way of a wound that means to remind him it exists, rather than one trying to split him open. “Are you cold, m’lady?” he asks.
You turn your head toward him. Duncan looks round before you can answer and sees at once that a great part of the day has been stolen from him. The shadows have shifted long across the ground. The light has taken on the thinned, slanting look of late afternoon.
“How long was I out?”
“A few hours,” you say. “Do you feel better?”
“Aye.” He presses one hand carefully near the bandage and finds it firm. “Aye, I do. You’ve got my thanks.” He makes himself stand, slower than he likes. “I’ll start the fire proper, so you can warm up.”
You only nod. That troubles him a little.
He works at the kindling with hands that feel almost his own again and urges the fire into steadier life. When it takes, he motions you closer to it. You come, but even with amber light painting your face and the flame catching in your eyes, you keep your arms around yourself. Duncan watches that a moment, then rises and goes to his things. He finds a spare shift that does not shame him too badly for smell, shakes it once, and brings it back to you.
You look up at him. “Do I need more layers for your comfort?” you ask, mild.
“N-no,” he blurts, and then wishes he had managed it better. “No. This is for you. To get warmer.”
You take it after a pause. “Thank you.” Then you pull it over your head.
It unmakes him some, seeing you in something that came from his back. The cloth sits loose on you, too large in the shoulder, the sleeves falling past your wrists, and for some reason that is worse than all your wet linen had been. Worse in a different way. Quieter. It puts a claim in his mind he has no right to make and no courage to name.
He passes you water. Food. What little there is. You take both, but without the bright delight of the nights before. The silence in you discontents him. It sits between the pair of you heavier than his sword does at nights.
You both wait through the sinking of the sun with no moon rising after it. The sky grows dark by degrees and stays that way, blind and deep.
Duncan’s mind, made foolish by fever and wanting, begins to search for crimes. Mayhaps he snored like a pig. Mayhaps he spoke in his sleep. Mayhaps some foulness of the body escaped him while he lay senseless, and you are too gentle or too strange to name it. Then worse thoughts come. Mayhaps you have remembered some home you do not wish to speak of. Mayhaps the road has frightened you. Mayhaps he has touched too much, or withheld too much, or made some fresh error in the long ledger of not knowing how to be with you.
At last he cannot stand it. “Is something wrong?” he asks. “Have I frightened you somehow?”
What he means is, Were you frightened for me? Did my sickness put fear in you? Did you sit here humming me back from fever while I slept like a lump and gave you no thanks worth the doing? He does not ask that, of course.
You look at him across the fire. “Is your fever gone?”
“Aye. I think so.”
Then, you reach out and set your hand to his forehead. Duncan decides to let you. After all his defending himself from your touch, the yielding feels almost humiliating. Your palm is cold. Cool enough that he leans a fraction into it. “It is a wonder, what you did,” he says. “Truly.”
You stay there a moment longer. Then slip, not away, but to the side of his face.
“Are you cold still?” he asks.
You nod.
There is something changed in you now. He cannot say what. You are quieter, but the quiet has gone sharp and watchful. Closed in a way your face has never much managed before. It leaves him with the queer sense that he has done wrong and is only waiting to learn the charge.
“We’ve another blanket,” he says. “You may have it.”
You shake your head. Your hand moves from his cheek to his neck. His breath forgets itself.
“Would you hold me?” you ask and the question leaves him with no ground beneath him.
He wants to. Gods, he wants to. Wants it with such simple force that for one foolish instant his arms open before honour can set a guard over them. To hold you and warm you and give back a little of what you gave him. To fit you against him and learn the shape of your weight with nothing between but cloth and breath. To stop being careful long enough to stop aching.
You come into him as if you had only been waiting for the smallest leave.
Your body moulds tight to his chest. One hand slides behind his neck and into the hair at his nape; the other settles carefully near his side, avoiding the wound with a tenderness that cuts him deeper than a careless touch would have. Your face turns against his throat. Scent comes up with the heat of you—river-cold still, and green, with a foreign worry underneath it that seems made to ruin him.
He sits rigid at first, then lowers his arms around you. He circles your back with great care, as though the wrong pressure might break whatever spell has allowed this. His palm moves once between your shoulders. Then again. A slow, broad pass, the way he soothed you by the bank, only now there is no panic in your breathing. Only the nearness of you. The trust of you. The soft press of your shirt against his chest.
He says nothing. He does not trust his voice. Instead, he closes his eyes.
“Ser Duncan?” you ask.
“Mm?”
“When people kiss—” you start, lancing him with relief so strangely he almost laughs outright. Another question. Another weird, killing little question, but a question all the same. Something with words on it. Something safer than the warm mouth of you near his throat and the hand at the back of his neck making a weak man of him.
“Where does the nose go?”
A huffed chuckle leaves him. He has never once thought on it, which seems impossible now that you have asked. His chin lowers by a little. The dark gives him no help at all. “Wherever it can go,” he answers.
You shift against him, and crane your head back to look at him. “Would you show me?” you ask. Duncan near stops breathing altogether.
If time were a pocket full of stones to be thrown into water, yours would be light now. Between startling him in the stream on the second day and the morning of the third, you are nearly out of pebbles, and nowhere near certainty that what sits so swollen in you has found its likeness in him.
You tend him because pain on Duncan seems an offence against the order of things. Your hands know more than the rest of your borrowed body does, because the old small wisdoms of healing remain when all your better gifts are gone.
Then he sleeps. If you had all the time in the world, it would be a blessed thing. To sit with him through the day and look your fill without having to steal it. To learn his face by light rather than glances: the slope of his nose, the soft fall of his mouth, the worried place between his brows that seems carved by use. But every hour that passes comes down with a weight in it. Doom pressing thumb by thumb upon the tender back of your neck. You have hardly thought of the other choice. You do not know yet if your heart has turned vicious. You do not know what would prove easier in the end: longing or death. You do not even know whom you love more—him, or yourself.
So you hum, for it comes from somewhere old in you. Habit before speech. A small line thrown back to the creature you were so eager to cast off the moment a knight knelt bloodied at your riverbank and broke your life in two by praying. The song is low and almost without shape, but Duncan’s face softens beneath it in unspeakable measure. Sleep takes the worry from him first. Then pain. Then the lines around his mouth ease as if the song has set careful fingers there and smoothed them flat.
When he wakes, your nerves stir again. You have spent hours with him, but he has not spent them with you. He returns from slumber healthier, clearer, less fever-taken, and a bitter thought slips through unbidden: you ought not to have helped so eagerly. A fevered man is easier. Easier to seduce. Easier to kill.
Both notions sadden you in equal measure. If you were willing to win a weak version of him, you may as well have lured him with song the first day and let the river take the rest. As for killing—well. You came hoping for something to begin. Not end.
You cannot decide whether the air has chosen to be ally or enemy. Yesterday, heat helped very little. Duncan took great offence at you bathing near him, though your shift had stayed on like a banner of hard-won virtue, and afterwards he rode ahead in his breeches still dripping, neck blazing red. You still have no clue whether the sun kissed him so passionately there or whether his own blood had run faster from mortification. If the latter, you might almost take comfort. It would mean skin alone does not imperil him, but the shape of what it is stretched over does too.
Now the day has turned cold. All the small ends of you stiffen with it: toes, fingers, nose, the delicate rims of ears you have only just begun to understand. When Duncan gives you his shift, it helps little and wounds much. You eat the food, and it is still good, but doom dulls even salt and fat. You sit by the fire, which burns hot and warms everything except the parts that matter.
The only improvement is his scent. It gathers in the cloth he gives you, in the space around him, in the place where days have drawn the truth of his body closer to the skin. Earth after rain, almost. Warm ground turned by a hand. The deep, honest rot of flesh worked hard and loved too little. It is inviting in the way banks are inviting after too long in flood-water. Safe. Pure in a manner nothing you have known as pure before, because it belongs to a creature who has had every chance to harm you and kept choosing not to.
It makes you want to try harder. So you ask to be held, plainly and bravely, because every subtler method has failed you.
And somehow, blessedly, that works. Duncan opens his arms as if forgetting himself for one breath, and you go into him before he remembers any reason to stop. He is warm. Broad and rigid at first, all restraint and alarm, then his arms lower around you with a care that makes your throat ache. One hand moves over your back. Slow. Heavy and kind. The other stays mindful of his wounded side, and you press yourself where you may without hurting him, cheek near his throat, hand at the back of his neck where his hair curls soft against your fingers.
His scent is stronger here. His breath too. His ribs lift against you once, held too long, and you feel the panic in him before he makes any sound of it.
Emboldened, foolish with nearness, you crane your head up to look at him. “Would you show me?” you ask.
At once, Duncan locks himself in his stringent state of lungs filled with fright. For one breath he only looks at you. Mouth parted, eyes dark and wide and wretched with wanting he seems determined to suffer through rather than obey. His hand moves from your back to your shoulder, then stills there, made smaller and shaking in some deep part of him.
“M’lady,” he says, and the title sounds scraped from him. “You do not know what you ask.”
“I ask for a kiss.”
“Aye,” he says, almost pained. “That is the trouble of it.”
Your fingers tighten in his hair. He swallows. You feel it against your wrist, that small motion of life going down through him, and it draws you closer without thought. Your mouth is near enough now that his breath moves over it. Warm. Uneven. Human.
“Please,” you say, because pride has begun to feel like a thing for creatures with more time.
Duncan shuts his eyes. When they open, there is something terrible in them. Kindness, of all things. “I mustn’t,” he says. “Not like this.” Then he peels you from him.
Gently. Carefully. As if your arms are brambles he means to free himself from without breaking a leaf. That gentleness finishes what the refusal began. His hands leave you with honour in every finger, and you hate the honour so sharply you feel it in your teeth.
“We should rest,” he says, voice low. “You’ve had a hard day. Both of us have.”
You sit back on your heels and look at him. “I will be right there,” you say.
Duncan nods once. He looks as though he wants to say more and knows better than to trust his mouth. Then he lets you go.
The dark receives you with no comfort. No moon has risen. The sky hangs black over the trees, and every small night-sound seems to have sharpened itself for your hearing. The fire cracks behind you. Water calls ahead. You walk toward it with your arms wrapped around yourself, feet wet already from the grass, the bandage gone cold and weighty against your sole.
Stream takes your ankles first. You stand there a while, letting it worry the hurt in your foot, and sing softly because there is nothing else in you large enough to hold the ache. The song comes out thin. Sadder than you mean it to. A thing for deep places and lost skins, for girls foolish enough to think love would explain itself before the third night came hunting.
He has no love for you. That is what the witch’s voice says inside the dark.
He is kind. He is tender. He looks at you as if looking pains him. He has warmed you, carried you, fed you, let you touch his fevered body. He has given you his shirt and his fire and his poor sleeping place. Everything in him leans toward you.
Still, he will not give the proof.
The contradiction scrapes through you until you could scream. He has chosen fear. Virtue. Whatever cold, shining thing men put between their bodies and the bodies that want them. He has chosen the sword.
Something knocks softly against your bad foot, so you look down.
The dagger lies in the shallows, dark blade nosing against the stone as if the river has carried it back in its mouth. Returned from the mud where you left it to rot.
You stare at it first, then bend and take it. The hilt fits your palm with malicious ease.
When you return, the camp is nearly spent. The fire has sunk to a red eye. Duncan sleeps on his back with his face turned toward the dark and the sword laid down between you, steel dull and matted in the thin light. It looks and feels, to you, like an insult.
You kneel beside him with the dagger in your fist and learn again how human bodies rid themselves of water. Your eyes cloud. Your throat swells shut around breath. Tears fall hot down your cheeks and onto his forearm, though he does not wake.
He is very large in sleep. Very warm. His side lies beneath the blanket, bandaged where your hands have worked mercy into him. You know where he is weakest. Where to put the blade. How to turn the hand so it goes under the rib and up. The thought of all that warmth spilling out of him sickens you so badly you nearly retch.
“Forgive me,” you choke, and turn the dagger toward yourself.
Your hand shakes. The blade catches clumsily in the cloth, then slips, and in your blind effort to right it you snag his forearm. Duncan's eyes open.
It must be raining, he thinks at first. Droplets hit his wrist, then his cheek. But when something stings his skin with its sharp tooth, Duncan is alert through knightly instinct, or the instinct that let him survive Flea Bottom as a lame boy, or it is merely the Warrior watching over him. Which one, he does not know.
He knows only enough to move fast when a blade is being turned near where he is weak. His body acts before his mind can give the order. He is battle-trained and large. To seize the perfidious wrist, to roll over a deceitful body and pin it, to bash the weapon from the hand that nursed him away from fever only to break faith with him now—it is all nothing. It is but a blink.
To look into your wet, frightened eyes is everything. Everything that destroys him.
Duncan wants to scream, yet what leaves him is a foolish little thing, near too small to live inside him without getting lost.
“Tell me why,” he breathes over you. The sorrow in it he despises. “Speak, girl!” he says, louder, trying not to sound so heartbroken.
Since now he is sinew and bone first and everything else later, he notices things in scraps. Wretchedly, your spread legs below him. Woefully, your fast-beating heart under his, distraught in the same measure. Lustfully, your mouth, for he is only a man who has yearned for a woman for three days that felt like three lifetimes. Then, dreadfully, the way the mouth cuts itself into a lopsided sickle and begins to wobble. He finds your eyes again, and they are overpouring.
“Why?” he cries. “I’ve nothing for you to rob me of, and I’ve tried to do right by you. To keep my promise, to keep you safe, to—”
His grip tightens as he drags through the miserable list of his own reasons, your wrists caught in both his hands. He feels the small bones under his fingers and catches himself in anger. Loosens. His face cannot decide what shape to take, anguish or ire, so it hangs between them in some ugly misery.
“Why would you betray me?” he whispers.
“It’s—” Your voice breaks before it begins. “It was not meant for you. The w-witch… the witch said a soul, she did not say whose—”
Duncan stares.
“She—she gave me three days,” you sob, words tumbling over themselves, half-choked and damp. “And it has been three days, and I—I would not— I would never, not you—”
Your chest hitches under him. You try to pull one hand free, fail, and only curl your fingers in the air as if reaching for words that keep slipping from you. “It was for me. I was going to—”
He understands naught of it. “Girl, what is this nonsense that you speak of?” he asks, desperate. “What witch? What soul?”
You blink at him through the tears. For a long moment you only gape, and the fear in your face goes strange, as if some part of you had expected him to know the tale already.
“You’ve no love for me,” you say, so quietly he almost misses it. Your fingers flex above the wrists. Duncan lets go.
The instant he does, you take his hands and set them at your throat. Your own close over his, pressing them there, begging with them. He feels how feeble that column is beneath his palms. The hard swallow of it. The frantic life inside. How easily his thumbs could end you. How surely it would end him too.
“You’ve no love for me,” you say, “and it means I cannot go back. I cannot go home, and I cannot take your life, so it has to be mine. Please, please—”
Duncan sees part of it plain, and another part not at all. Your palms squeeze round his, eyes leaking plea after plea. He is certain that if you could reach it, you would hand him the dagger and point its tip to your own neck. How this would ensure his sparing, he does not comprehend. What he recognises is the devotion of putting oneself at the edge of the blade if that means your beloved lives.
“M’lady—” he mouths, stunned by the discovery.
All of the teasing, all of the questions—none of it was malevolent. None of it was oblivious either, or meant to make him stray off his path, use him, seduce him for sport. It was you speaking I want you to him in a language he used to know and misplaced when he found folk scarcely so openly honest.
“Calm yourself. Calm yourself now,” he says, terrified at being the cause of your sorrow. “Oh, girl. Hush now, hush.” He removes his hands from your throat and brings them to your swollen cheeks. “Tell me plain,” he says. “Slowly. Don’t be afraid.”
Your sobbing eases. “I saw you on the bank lancing a man through and praying for him a minute later. You—” Your fingers come up to his cheeks, damp and trembling, and the touch strikes him so softly he can hardly bear it. “You bewitched me.”
Duncan sucks in a breath.
“So I went to a crone and struck a deal. To get legs. So you—” You swallow. “So you could love me.”
“Legs?” Duncan huffs. “Girl—”
His mind begins to move, slow and fearful, through every half-remembered tale old women or some Flea Bottom drunk or hedge septon ever muttered near a fire. Water-wives. River maids. Green-haired things who drowned men by kissing them. Old gods in stones and streams. Stories, he had thought. Ways for folk to dress up queer happenings so the world seemed less wide and hungry than it was.
Yet he thinks of you in the willow-shadow, floating as if the stream had been made to hold you. Of your strange wisdom with water and wound and herb. Of your dread of shoes. Your open face. Your body new to its own legs.
“Where’s your home?” he asks.
You look at him, and he holds his breath without meaning to. Then, you say, “The river.”
The way you looked hugged by water suddenly makes sense. “River-folk,” he mutters. “I was right, then. You’re no human girl.” Your face changes at that, guilt passing plain over it, and the sight only settles the truth harder in him.
“Gods,” he says, hushed. “You’re a river maid. Some old god’s daughter, mayhaps. Holy thing of the water.” It's all muttered half to himself, as if wagering with his own mind whether such a thing can be possible, but awe gets into him anyway. Awe and fear. Awe and the brutal knowledge that he has had a holy thing weeping under him with his hand at her throat.
Your eyes widen. Confused, mayhaps. Hopeful too, in some small wounded way. “What say you to me, knight?”
Duncan shifts. Sets himself firmer on one elbow, then bends one knee and hooks it carefully against your leg to keep you open beneath him. Closer now. More intimate than the pinning had been when his body only knew defence. His hands slide to the back of your head, thumbs settling where your jaw hinges, close beside your ears. He presses there gently.
“What did the witch tell you to do?” he asks.
Wariness moves over your face, but you answer. “She said to bring her a soul if you did not fall for me within three days.” Your eyes drop. “Otherwise I am cast out and trapped in this ugly body.”
The shape of it becomes clearer. Witch-craft with its fangs hidden until the mouth shuts. A sworn sword and a maid from the water. A bargain made to rot between them. How easy to mislead you. How easy to make failure look like virtue and restraint look like scorn.
His body understands some ruinous part of it before his mind is finished. The angle has him feeling you everywhere that matters: your breath hot over his face, the soft give of you under his weight, your fingers brushing shakily beneath his eyes and near his mouth as if you want to touch and are afraid. His groin fills out against sense, against decency, against every terrified plea he has made to the Seven in three days. Reprehensible, mayhaps. True all the same.
For desperate want of proof, he manages to ask, “And how were you to know if I had fallen or no?”
You move a little beneath him. It pains him terribly. “When you want between my legs,” you say. “That is why I needed them in the first place.”
Duncan laughs then. Breathless. Broken by it.
You frown. “What?”
“Wee thing,” he says. “Oh, Gods—” His eyes close.
“Duncan?”
He rubs at the base of your skull. “Hush, sweet thing. Only tell me if I wrong you.” Then he lowers his face slowly to yours.
“There ain’t nowhere for the nose to go,” he says.
First, he fits himself beneath you, clumsy with care. The tip of his nose fills the warm curve above your upper lip, where your mouth rises into that soft little bow. When he speaks, his mouth frames your lower lip so closely that the words seem to move against it. “It just goes here,” he murmurs.
Then he shifts higher, until your mouths face one another and his nose wedges beside yours, dipping into the slope where cheek begins. Nearer now. Close enough that, if your lips were not stunned and motionless beneath his, it would already be a kiss. “Or here.”
He presses in by the smallest measure. “Or flattens some,” he breathes, “when it’s more ardent.”
Duncan wants to kiss you ardently. He also wants to tell you this is not how love works, but he catches himself knowing naught of it. He's been charmed by women, by their voices and breasts and the napes of their necks, thought of them for days upon days, and inevitably, forgotten most of the maids for the sake of his pliant heart remaining whole. You, he's certain, he'd never forget. Despite his body being crude and primal around you, he thinks, innocently, that it is the heart that animates his blood to go where it goes. He presses down on you with ingenuity between the shoulders and lust between the hips, and the lust is pure too, for it comes from affection.
Your leg hitches higher on him and fingers find some valour in their groping. You take a clean hold of his face and trap him there, in the in-between kiss state, and look at him with the sort of plain youthful hope that keeps unearthing him.
"What are you saying?" you ask.
Duncan’s hands come up to answer first. Where you keep him, he cradles you back, careful thumbs, fingers spreading into your hair. There. There is the shape of it. Want met with want, fear met with shaking, your breath touching his and making no wound of it.
“I am saying,” he murmurs, moving the words against your mouth, “that the witch has been proven wrong already. You had my heart before you had legs steady under you.” Your eyes search his so closely he feels near flayed by the looking. “But if you need proof in the flesh,” he says, rougher, shame and hunger dragging at the same rope inside him, “I would be honoured to give it. Gods help me, I would. Only you should know I may be poor at it.” His breath hitches. “You would be my first.”
You consider him calmly. “I don’t need it,” you say, making his whole chest suck in on itself. Then, Duncan breathes again, when you add, “But I want it.”
Finally, the holding concludes. You kiss as if the thing has angered you by staying unknown so long. Your mouth opens wide and catches his lower lip between yours, soft first, then with teeth. Duncan makes a sound into you. He cannot tell whether the bite is artless or bold already, whether you have stumbled into hunger or known the road to it all along. This, at least, he can teach. When the cloth comes off, when bodies are bare and honest and frightening in the dark, both of you will be green as spring branches. But kissing—kissing he knows enough to begin.
So he shows you. Shows you how the nose can fit beneath yours, how it can slide along cheek and breathe there, hot and loud. Shows you how a mouth may press and soften and press again, how teeth need not wound to be felt, how the lips can ask twice before taking. Then his tongue finds the seam of you, and when you open, he slips inside.
He discovers that you must be finding that pleasurable because you moan softly and bend beneath him and fit yourself firmer to his cock, making him ache more. Your fingers climb to his hair and tug, and some helpless part of him near thanks you for it.
You learn fast, too—answer his tongue with yours, and they press each other and taste each other, and to Duncan you taste like blessed water and flesh made open. He kisses you deeper for it, ardent at last, enough that his nose flattens against your cheek, and the nonsense of it is so small and heartbreaking the clothes start itching him unbearably.
“I wanted you,” he whispers. “Gods, I wanted you.”
For a moment you stop kissing in favour of laughing sweetly, so he, in his ardour, pulls the shirt off his back, bearing himself to the night and your eyes. You stop laughing then and fix your pupils somewhere below his chin, and Duncan sees a glimpse of what he presumes lesser creatures see before you seize their throats and snap their spines. Lowering lids and lashes gone droopy over them, you breathe out, set your forefinger to the hollow of his throat, collect the dampness there, and bring it back to your mouth.
“And I wanted you,” you say.
Duncan leans in to kiss you some more. The dagger lies abandoned in the grass.
Your knight loves you. He is kissing you, and for a man who only supposes he likes it, he is incredibly fervent about it. Obedient too: he rises when you all but press your fingers to his bicep and lets you climb him a little. He sits on his heels and lowers his head for you to reach. His mouth tastes clean and cold of crushed mint. His hands on you are warm, warming up with every pass. They hold your neck first, then slide down your shoulders, pause briefly at your elbows, and continue lower. You are lost in it, learning how to do this thing called kissing and where the poking parts of the body go during, when desire emboldens him enough to stray beneath your skirt.
You catch his wrist unconsciously, mouth curbing. Before, his touch was medicinal. And rightfully so, since there was nothing else you'd rather have done to your legs than fix them. Heavy, graceless logs beneath you with one foot mangled, the mending of which, despite being mildly titillating for his gentleness, heralded no perfervid development and remained purely sanative. Now, there is intent in it. Now he's looking at your thighs, and regardless of him being a different kind of folk, a kind of folk who likely enjoys thighs, you wish, terribly, for your tail to be back in its rightful place. For the thing of poise and cordiality you could show him. For the thing that makes you beautiful in the water and in sunlight, smooth and shiny and worth seeing, instead of bruised knees and prodding ankles and dirty shins and the sole gone plump with its cut and blood dried round the cut's edges.
When your eyes meet he looks very concerned. His touch stalls. "Have I… have I wronged you?" Duncan asks. He lifts his hands a hairsbreadth off you and murmurs, "Do you want me to stop?"
"N-no, no," you tell him. "No, I don't, just—" Your eyes drop to where he's hovering. You cringe. "Just do not look at me so."
"How did I look?" His fingers curl, then retreat completely to rest on his knees. "Have I looked wrong?" Dunk asks.
"No, I just… don't like them."
Duncan sags a little. When you look up, he's blinking at you, baffled. His mouth moves while he's chewing his own tongue, and finally, he stammers, "Y-your legs?"
You nod. Sit back, pull the skirt over the knees for the lack of a better shield, and hug the whole bundle to hide it from being perceived. "They're ugly," you tell him.
At that, his face breaks open with fondness and ache. Duncan breathes around something that looks like exasperation, though gentler than any you have known. Plainly, he seems to not know what is meant to be said to a girl who tells him she hates a part of herself. So he says nothing at first. Only comes to you, slow on his knees, until he is close enough for the heat of him to reach through the miserable pile you have made of your limbs.
His hand finds your cheek. He turns you toward him by a little, thumb rubbing along your jaw as if coaxing the bone to unclench. “They brought you to me,” he mutters at your ear. The words go through you strangely.
“They bled and still carried you.” His fingers nose, tender and frightened, beneath the edge of your skirt, finding the place where your hip creases under cloth and the guard of your folded arm. He brushes there and goes no farther than you allow. “You’ve had them three days, and they’ve already learned the road so well.”
At that, something in you loosens. Your arms slacken by a measure. Enough for him to slide down to your knee, where the fabric bunches under his broad palm.
“I adore them,” Duncan says, simply enough to make mockery impossible. His eyes lift to yours, serious and shy both. “Would you let me show you?”
You are apprehensive still, but you look at him properly then, and his face is so genuine it gives you no clever place to hide. So trustworthy. So pure in its truth-telling. For a moment you think that perhaps love can be graceless. Perhaps here, with him, it may be youthful and ebullient and still be love. Perhaps the grace you were robbed of has no bearing on your worthiness of it. His hands are clumsy too, trembling and bashful, but eager in the way they touch you, forthright in their care. He seems to pay no mind to his own awkwardness. Only to you. To the careful unpeeling of you in a way that does not leave the parts beneath raw and aching.
“How?” you ask.
Duncan smiles as if something has just been answered for him. “Tell me no at any moment,” he says.
He goes to the lacing at your waistband and pulls at it slowly, eyes fixed on yours. Then his fingers hook between fabric and skin and he begins guiding the skirt down. You prop yourself on his shoulders and lift for him. The cloth passes your hips and drags down your thighs, and you close your eyes briefly so you do not have to see the hated shape of yourself being bared.
Chill kisses your ankles and calves, then deserts them once Duncan’s hands find you. He goes to sit farther away, facing you, and places your feet with their soles to his stomach. Your shift falls loose between your thighs and gathers there, covering you only to the middle of them. You lean back on your elbows and finally open your eyes.
He sits on his heels again, thighs flattened and filling his breeches until the side seams seem fit to complain, so abundant there his knees knock apart naturally. Between his legs he is curiously swollen. You want to touch there. To see him. To learn what it is that makes a man breathe faster and blush the way he does. He is pink up to the temples and sweating round there. Beneath your soles, his stomach ripples now and then. His fingers curl round either of your ankles, eyes fixed on the dorsums of your feet, thumbs brushing where your toes ladder into five thin, twig-like bones.
He unwraps the bandage gently. Checks you for wincing, and when he sees you only staring with your lids nearly disappearing into their sockets, the colour on him deepens.
Then, he lifts your foot to his face, and you learn where else people can be kissed.
He slots his mouth to the hollow where the cut had been. It is barely a brush of lips. A small thing. Soft enough that it should hardly matter. Yet he does it with such care that the warmth of it travels up your throat from the inside, humiliating and near hallowed. Duncan swallows as if bracing himself, then sets his tongue to the sealed line of it and licks across.
The wound has closed. Tender still, and puffed at the edges, but closed. It receives his affection with a strange little pulse that runs the whole length of you and lands low in your belly like kindling catching.
You go very still when he kisses it again. Then the arch, then the heel, then the place below your toes where the skin is softer than you expected it to be. His hand holds the whole weight of your leg as if it weighs nothing at all. You let it rest there, pliant and cradled, and he seems to like the trust of it. Seems to grow gentler and more intent for having it.
When his mouth reaches your toes, he hesitates. His eyes lift to yours. Deadly honest. Pinked still, mouth damp from you, breathing with the rough care of a man at the edge of his own courage.
Then he closes his lips around you, and the sound you make is pulled clean out of you.
He smiles. You feel the shape of it more than see it. The small wickedness of it startles you worse than the mouth does, because he has spent three days shy as a colt and now there is this on him too, some pleased knowledge that he has made you louder. His tongue moves over your toes in a slow pass. His lips draw, soft and firm together. The pressure is nothing like kissing. You cannot answer it except by breathing harder and letting your head tip back, by spreading your fingers on the wool and trying to understand why a useless little toe should have any road at all to where pleasure lives.
The angle opens you by a little, making you learn, once again, how human bodies lose moisture. This one is known to you and strange all the same. You have felt your slit weep at the sight of folk tumbling in the tall grass by your bank, but this is warmer. Thicker. It pearls at the centre of you and pulses there, as if bidding him to come closer.
Duncan releases your foot and turns to the other. “Should I stop?” he asks, voice low.
You shake your head.
He nods as if you have given him some important charge, then bends again. Kisses the second foot with equal devotion. Along the ankle, over the knob of bone, up the calf where his nose stirs the soft hair covering your skin. His breath follows after, hot in places the night had cooled. His lips travel slowly, learning you with more patience than skill, though the patience is its own skill, perhaps. You cannot decide. You only know that each place his mouth has been feels newly awake when he leaves it.
At your knee, he lowers himself. The breadth of his shoulders knocks your legs further apart without hurry and without force. As though both of you were made for this particular placement. He settles on his stomach between them, enormous and careful, and begins again above the knee. Mouth open now. Breath heavier. The kissing grows less neat. At the inner soft of your thigh his eyes cover themselves with the thick row of lashes, and for one moment he seems to forget the mild kind of gentleness in favour of a hungrier one. His jaw opens, then closes with teeth.
Your head lolls back with the force of the moan breaking out of you, and Duncan freezes.
The absence of him is immediate and cruel. You lift your head and find him staring up at you, stricken, his mouth still near the mark he made.
“Did I hurt you?”
“Do it again,” you breathe.
His face does a strange, blissed out thing. He nods, snakes one arm under your leg and sets his palm to your hip. Mouth returns to the same place. Teeth first, as asked. Then lips. Then a slow draw of suction that makes your spine change its mind about what shape it wants. His nose dents the skin beside the bite. Each puff of air from him lays heat there. You watch, fascinated and stunned, because this feels good and the witch never spoke of it. She spoke of being opened. Of men putting themselves where they wished to go. She spoke as though the act were a blade and a body only the place it entered.
She said nothing of this. Nothing of mouths on knees and thighs. Nothing of being marked with blunt, crooked fangs and of brands they leave being so pretty you wish for them to be permanent. Nothing of a large knight lying between your legs with zeal shaking through him and of pleasure arriving before proof.
Your hands move without your leave, rolling the shift up for the cloth to gather over your belly. The apex of your thighs is bared to the night. Duncan groans so loudly it startles you.
“Have I done wrong?” you ask.
He shakes his head at once, almost violently. His hand tightens at your hip, fingers pressing in. “N-no,” he says. “No, sweet thing. Gods, no. Only—”
His free hand comes up slowly. It stops at the curls there, hovers, then dips with two fingers as though he expects you to vanish if touched too boldly. “May I kiss you?” he asks. His voice has gone rough enough to catch. “Here?”
You look down and realise he is nervous. For some reason that steadies you. “Have you kissed there before?”
The colour deepens on him. “No.”
“Is that where folk kiss too?”
“Some,” Duncan says. He swallows. “If they are let.”
His fingers rest in you lightly, barely a touch at all, but your body answers with a soft wetness that reaches him anyway. You see when he feels it. The way his mouth parts. The way his brow draws tight, as if want has put its hand round the back of his neck.
He looks up at you. “Talk to me,” he says. “If I do wrong, tell me. If you want me stopped, tell me. If it is good—” His thumb moves, shy and uncertain, and you draw breath through your teeth. “Tell me that too.”
Then down he goes, and with it something in you drops so low it near shackles you to the ground. It is unimportant at first whether he lands aptly or not, for just the idea of being kissed like this, right there, has already begun to derange you. Another mouth-place, another gate and a room this body contains that can, and deserves to be treated with the same fervour he's given your lips. It makes you forget you own legs whatsoever.
It is but a blunder consecrated by pure intentions. He intends, purely, to show you how pieces of you that you've disregarded and treated as means to an end are also part of the beloved. A little over-eager when his mouth finds you too high and drifts as if listening with tongue instead of ears, but at least honest about his greenness. His nose presses into curls on your mound, and you watch him there, the low-hanging lashes, the blood-filled cheeks, and hair falling loose over his brow and this whole great body brought down to its knees by the smallest knot of nerves you possess. Something absurd lives within it, and something magnificent too, making you want to laugh, or seize him, or ask him if he understands he is doing something to you no one explained. Something outside the cruel little law you've been given, one that doesn't mention being searched by a mouth so loving the searching becomes more devastating than force.
Before he licks you, he hums. The sound buries itself in the flesh of his throat, and then his tongue follows, making the strangest disorder happen. Too much earnestness, broad and hard enough to make white light snap through you with benevolence, so you yelp and drag at his hair.
He stops. Lifts his face, and there he is with his mouth shining and eyes stricken, mumbling, "No?"
"Softer," you tell him, feeling weird for demanding around something that's been gifted.
Duncan only nods, swallowing. Grateful for the doctrine, he gets back to learning you with the same studiousness he's given to the walking lessons, all of it made dangerous by how badly he wishes to do it well.
You bend your knees to make the spread of his shoulders more agreeable, but it only makes you open wider like you're an awkward, frog-like thing with human joints. He takes the leave of it and slides his hands under your thighs as though this is too dear. Makes a cradle of his arms and lifts you into it, saving you from the labour of your own legs. The hated things go light. Your calves rest against his shoulders, heels find his back. The position splits you and steadies you both, and a hot, startled pride moves through you when his breath hitches at the sight.
“Here,” you say, gathering his hair into your fist. You guide him lower by little pressures. “Like you kissed my mouth.”
Obedient still, he tries again. Lets his breath soften you first. Then, a brush. A press and retreat of lips. Underneath it your body is trying to make sense of a feeling that has no mate in memory. It is a kiss, yes, but one that cannot be returned by the same road. You can only suffer the pleasure and be enlarged by it. The passivity maddens you. It makes a queen and a fool of you together. You lie there growing wetter, thinking, wildly, that this must be what land does to rivers when it forces them into beds and banks and makes them learn a new shape by pressure.
“There?” he asks against you. The word itself touches.
“There,” you say. "Please, again."
His tongue returns, gentler, and your mind begins to come apart in layers. First, the ordinary mind that knows cold air and sharp grass, then the clever one counting for proof, and the old water-mind too, with remembrance of lost fins and sealed gills and split tail. Beneath all of them lies this new thing, this land-flesh, this warm, weeping, treacherous little mouth of the body opening under another mouth.
Duncan hums once, and the vibration enters you. Your head falls back. The sky above has no moon, no witness, only a depth of blackness so complete it feels like the world has closed its eyes. You begin to grasp that he is teaching himself by the breaking of breath, the little disloyalties of your spine, and the way your thighs tremble when he loses the right place, and part when he comes near it. Warmth opens there. Thickens. Pearls for him and makes him groan as if the taste of you has struck some hidden bell in his chest. You give more and more of it until there is too much. Until it slicks and drips on your skin, and threatens to waste itself on wool, and Duncan, oh—
He slips his tongue inside. Ladles it cleverly to drink from you, and suddenly your body feels more yours. Alive and awake. "Oh—" you say, and he lifts his eyes without parting you. Tries to fit himself deeper, and in the trying his nose brushes the place that seems to have been waiting for him to discover it. You'd laugh at the sweet lesson of it. At the versatility of destinations bodies hold for noses, if only your muscles wouldn't tense like that, if only teeth weren't busy mauling your lower lip and your eyes weren't rolling back from the euphoria of this little accident.
And Duncan is no master of anything except attention, it would seem. He does it again, slower. Meaner, you'd think, if he were someone else. The arms under your thighs tighten while his tongue slips in with a firmer, deeper thrust. This time his nose finds you on purpose. Rubs you small and blunt, and all of you answers in a vicious little flood. Your hips buck into his face and he groans as though he has been granted something by it.
Again—more, bolder, stronger. Mouth open and breath loud, he makes the double sensation catch you so oddly you cannot tell whether you are being entered or kissed or spoken to. No matter the direction your body chooses, he loves it into splendour by the inch. A living thing throws itself against the inside of your skin, and when you look down you fingers make a mess of his hair and he's there, stubborn and panting, poor sweet creature driven half out of himself by the need to bring you fully past this threshold. You realise then, with a kind of rage, that this body has kept secrets from you.
The witch gave you legs and pain and a wound in the foot. She gave you shame, knees, ankles, the absurdity of toes. She gave you the fear of being split by love or killed by its absence. Yet here is a secret she either did not know or refused to tell: that the body can be opened without being invaded, that a man may go down rather than in, that wanting may have humility in it, that Duncan’s mouth can make a sanctuary of the very place she named as doom.
The thought breaks something, or something he does breaks it. "Yes," you breathe. "Oh, Duncan, yes—"
The pleasure keeps almost arriving. Almost, almost, until the almost becomes its own country and you are trapped there, flooded and furious, hearing yourself make sounds no trout, no eel, no seal-slick thing in the water ever taught you. Human sounds. Girl sounds. The foolish, broken music of having flesh that can beg without words.
He stops at no point, and somehow it works. Or perhaps works is too clean a word for it, for no grace is returned to you in triumph. The body simply takes command with the crude authority of something older than self, and you go with it because there is nowhere else to go. A bright, prickling tug gathers low in your groin, sharp as a hook caught in something living, and then it pulls. You choke on the first sound of it. Bend up so hard your belly creases and your mouth opens wide to the dark, all the while Duncan stays there, caught under you, grunting into the convulsion—pleased, most likely proud, very likely simply surprised that his mouth has become such a mighty tool. Your thighs try to close round his head and cannot, because he is too broad and too fixed and too willing to be crushed there. The bliss grows fangs, pointed and sharp, and when he keeps at it with the same obedience, you pull him off with actual force.
He comes away on the strength of your fist in his hair. For a moment you forget the feeling in yourself because of what has been done to him. He looks changed by it too. Made a man fully, if he had been hovering on the edge of it before, glassy-eyed and glossy-mouthed, lips plumped by labour. His lashes are damp. The skin of his cheeks has risen with blood so deeply it seems lit from underneath. Still large. Still tremendous. Shoulders filling the space between your knees, body hot and weighty against the earth. Yet he lets himself hang from your clenched fist as if he is a head severed clean and kept alive only by the mercy of your grip.
“Too much?” he rasps.
“Enough,” you say, though the word comes out wrecked and fond.
Duncan nods.
His hair slips from between your fingers, and he drops forward as if the cut strings of him have remembered gravity. Down onto your belly, where he turns his face into the soft, creased place below your ribs and lies there breathing hard with arms thrown around you. You listen to him dragging air in and out as if he has been the one carried to some violent height and dropped from it.
Then he asks, muffled, “Did I please you?”
The tenderness of it nearly undoes what the pleasure left standing. “Gods, yes,” you say.
He breathes again, deeper this time, and his cheek shifts against you. You feel the absurd bashfulness returning to him now that his mouth has finished its brave work. His hand moves on your thigh. “Do you still hate them?” he asks.
You look down. There is he, and there are your legs, still strange. Still graceless. Still jointed wrong for a creature born to move as one sleek muscle through water. But his hands have held them. His mouth has blessed them. His shoulders have borne their weight. Shame, you discover, cannot keep its shape where Duncan has put his devotion.
Your fingers slide back into his hair. “I don't think I can hate anything you’ve touched,” you say. His mouth quirks, boyish again.
Duncan thinks, dimly, that he has been allowed too much. He lies on the soft bed of your stomach with his cheeks full of your sweet sap and his scalp scratched by your fingernails, wondering when the gods mean to smite him for a fool like himself daring to touch a holy creature like you.
To think you forsook your home for him. To think you almost passed from the world because he was too much of an imbecile to swallow down the price, the inadequacy, the fear of being too much and too little and simply unworthy.
He looks at your thighs and loves them dearly. One bears the brand of his uneven teeth, a ring like the rings of boulders set into loose soil by men who believed in old gods. It is a place only for him. If anyone else strayed there and saw it, he would have to make them a head lighter.
That is the sort of thought he should turn away from, and quickly. Carnal things have been running him ragged for three days, and now his mind seems determined to drag him through every mire it can find. Nothing about where he is helps. Nothing below him helps. His cock had been hard before his mouth ever reached you, and only turned harder, meaner, more convinced of itself as you softened and opened and shook above him. The ground hides the worst of it well enough, but it pacifies poorly. Each small shift is deadly, especially for a man who has known mostly the mean kind of friction. Solid surfaces and his own hand now and then, when loneliness or some insistent memory of breasts, throats, legs—legs, precisely—made an animal of him in the dark.
And there he is back at the legs.
Yours, with what lies between them still fresh on him, warm and slick and living, a taste so strange and cleanly foul it seems to have made a new chamber in him. He relives the feel of you under his tongue. Of what your body did when he licked properly, when he hummed deep enough, and your fingers turned cruel in his hair. That pulling ought to have hurt more than it did, or shamed him into sense at least. Instead it had near humbled him completely. There seems, to his great peril, to be some direct and wicked road between the roots of his hair and his loins, for when you yanked him up from you with that fistful of him, Duncan had come so close to spending that his whole being narrowed to the crude effort of refusing it. He does not know if that is a thing in him entire, the general affinity for receiving some manhandling, or only another power you have over him. Girlhandling, perhaps, but performed by you.
All of it helps very little. The belly under his cheek and your scent smeared across his face and the hand in his hair, they all help naught. Duncan smacks his lips once, then stirs.
It takes a mean little grunt to rise. His side has drunk some cold from the earth, bandage stiffened where it wraps him, and when he pushes himself up onto his hands the wound pulls as though remembering it has been slighted by all this pleasure around it. Duncan sits back on his heels slowly. Has to set his knees wide as he does, for there is no seemly arrangement left in his breeches. His cock is stranded there, neglected, thick with complaint, as if some part of him expected reward for honest labour and cannot be made to understand that love is no tally of services. He looks at you instead. “Are you well?” he asks, voice rough.
You prop yourself on your elbows, knees knocking together after all that boldness, and nod. You look changed. A little hollowed, though sweetly, in the manner of a body given just enough nourishment to keep wanting and nowhere near enough to be sated by it. Your mouth is damp. Your eyes keep their dark, inward shine. “Yes,” you tell him.
Then, to his utter horror, you scramble up too. Your thighs twitch with the movement, and Duncan has to close one hand on his own knee to stop himself from reaching out and putting you back into decency. His gaze drops, shamelessly, shamefully, to where he has made you glossy. He drags his eyes higher in penance and finds no mercy there either, for you cross your arms, seize the hem of the shift, and pull it upward.
The cloth lifts first over the lower belly he has just lain upon, skin giving way to the shadow below your ribs. Then sternum, then the underside of your breasts, and his cock kicks so hard it seems to have taken a separate oath against him. Your face disappears behind linen for one blind second. All he sees is your torso stretched in the act of undressing, your breasts prickling against the cold, the lifted arms, the night making an open country of you. His mouth goes dry enough for prayer.
By the time the shift drops beside you, words have gone useless in him. Which leaves him wholly defenceless when you take his hands.
You guide them to your chest with solemn purpose, as if returning some misplaced thing to its rightful shrine. His palms meet warmth and weight. He sits petrified while your thighs part again, while you climb him with no more grace than you have had all along and no less power for the lack of it. You settle across him, bare, pressing your cunt to the length of him through wool, and Duncan has great trouble finding the road by which he arrived here. From a girl on the skirts of battle, a crying maid in his cloak to a water-spirit. A sacred thing. Now this same impossible creature sits naked on him, offering him her tits and seeking his mouth as if all of it follows plainly from the first mercy he ever thought to show you.
You kiss him slower this time. Deeper. With the new patience of someone who has discovered there are pleasures that improve by circling.
Duncan lets it happen for a beat because he is weak, because his hands are pleasantly full, because the weight of you has turned his thoughts into warm mud. You draw back by a little, tongue touching your own lip.
“You taste different,” you say.
“Mm.” It is a poor answer. It is the best one he has. Still, your brow furrows. “It’s yourself you taste,” he says then.
You blink at that, and grow delighted in a way so sudden and frank it frightens him. “Do you like it?”
“Mm,” he tries, or means to. Aye, of course. Aye, I like everything. His body answers instead with a hard, hungry throb under you and an involuntary squeeze of both hands round the fullness of your chest.
Your lashes lower. “You do like it.”
“M-m’lady,” Duncan strains.
You kiss him again before he can gather honour into a shield. He manages half a breath against you, then turns his head with some grim effort. “I—I—we needn’t,” he says. “We do not have to. I only wanted—”
You cradle his whole head in your arms and draw him in, mouth close to his ear. “I want to make you feel as you made me feel,” you whisper. “To see you in it too.”
That stills him. For three days he has been thinking in terms of rescue and ruin, sin and restraint, oath and breach. He has been trying to place his body somewhere outside the matter. But your heart is hammering and your hands are in his hair and your cunt is hot for him, and there is no bargain in the looking.
You want. He wants too. At last, even Dunk the Lunk can read a thing so plainly written.
He starts fumbling at the front of his breeches since this is likely what you want, then stops himself halfway through, red to the scalp, and checks anyway. “You wish to see?” he asks. Against his ear there is a breathy yes, so Duncan sets his mouth tight and pulls the waistband away from himself.
His cock comes out, barely half of it, with a weeping eye at the top and blood vessels girdling down the flesh like roots bulging out of the earth. He closes his eyes and seeks asylum in your neck, so the next thing that happens Duncan only feels.
A finger, curious and subtle, teases the meeting of nerves below the crown, then goes up towards the slit. Much like with his throat, you gather and take, and when his eyes open you've got that finger in your mouth and your tongue around it. You seem spellbound. Enchanted, if Duncan believed such thing could be felt about him. "Show me more," you tell him, and he only realises that what you mean is for him to stand and present himself when you slide off him and sit on the bedroll cross-legged. Shameless.
He's battling the opposite. Shame-full, he nods. Even manages to mutter a miserable, "Aye," and stands with one hand braced at his bandaged side, the other just holding the breeches up, uselessly so, for of all things his thighs need no shielding. He lets the linen drop and, with a sombre kind of horror, waits for judgement. Looks down only to not see your face, and that turns against him too.
Between the legs he sways heavy, standing up from himself with more confidence than his mind owns. He has disliked his size before because it made him clumsy, conspicuous and wrong for rooms, so he's made it useful in labour and steel. When he finally harbours the courage to find your eyes, you're wearing the most bizarre expression. All soft-edged and melting with wonder, you are looking as though excess is the blessing.
Your teeth reveal themselves in a sweet, beaming smile, and your hands come out to wrap round his wrists. You pull him back down, and he barely gets his knees under him before you are on him again, kissing, touching, arranging by instinct and no wisdom. So he has to become useful in a new kind of way.
Where friction lived there is now a slide of skin on skin, and Duncan nearly loses the whole of himself to the difference. Your belly moves against him, your breasts flatten to his chest and drag there. Between you, his cock is trapped upright in the soft of both your stomachs, rubbed by every wriggle you make by accident and purpose in turns, and every rub comes barbed. You are kissing him eagerly, messily, trying to find some road forward by moving, by grinding. He can feel how quickly this will become end. You will pant and twist and grow no nearer to what you asked for, while he spends himself like a green fool against your belly and leaves you with his shame cooling on you.
“Sweet thing, please—” he grits, catching your hips. “Slow. Let me be of use to you. I’m… I’m big, and—”
You still for him, though your breath keeps coming hard. Those aspectabund eyes fasten on his face, obvious enough to make hiding useless. “Will you hurt me?” you ask.
“No,” Duncan says, hurt by the very shape of the question. “No, never. I only mean—we go slow. Aye? Slow.”
Your face calms as if he has laid a hand over troubled water, and the trust of it harms him in some deep place. To have someone look at him and believe him so easily. To be taken as a safe thing by a creature who had teeth enough to open throats and the foolish courage to turn a dagger on herself rather than on him. He presses his forehead to yours and breathes there, rough through the nose. “Lift for me?” he asks. “Only a little.”
You brace your hands on his arms and rise. Duncan looks down to guide himself and is bludgeoned by what he finds there. Slick has slipped down your inner thigh in a shining track, catching the dark like some private river. He groans and closes a fist round the base of himself with more force than required and steadies there, feeling the whole of him jump in his hand.
“Do you want me?” he asks into your mouth, legible with the need to hear it. You nod, but that is not enough when his heart has become a greedy thing too. "Tell me," Duncan says. “Please, tell me.”
“Yes,” you say. Your mouth goes wandering over him. “Yes, I do. I want you in me.” Your hips sink once, eager but aimless. “Take me.”
A fierce, impossible belonging spreads through him. He aligns himself and slips twice for the jerking blood in him. You make a small impatient sound and he near smiles despite the terror. Then he gets it right enough for the first touch.
Only the head of him drags through you. A kiss of a different kind. His cock has known linen, callus, mean hurried pressure, and now this unbelievably soft, hot, living mouth of the body. He rubs through it, barely, and his hips lock with the effort of keeping still. Again, slower, collecting what both of you have made, spreading it over himself until the slide turns slick. The intimacy of it is nearly worse than being taken inside would be. This staying at the gate. This being allowed to touch the edge of you and feel you open by a fraction under him. This kiss below kissing, where neither mouth speaks and both bodies answer anyway.
Then it is you who grows greedy. Your weight comes down, and Duncan recognises the change before he can speak to it. He becomes held where he has only been sliding, then feels the first giving inch. Your face breaks into a wince, then a gasp, so he reaches round you hard enough to stop both of you where you are.
"Easy," he says. "Sweetheart, easy."
The tightness has him by the root. All the soft has turned gripping and small on him, shocking his spine so quickly he has to shut his eyes for a moment. Yours are wide and scared in front of him, and the pleasure becomes a rotten thing with guilt in it.
"Why does it hurt?" you ask, voice thin. "You said—"
"I know," Duncan says. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." He presses one hand flat between your shoulders and holds you while his cock throbs like a wound. "Shh. Breathe with me. Breathe—"
You stare at him, doubtful and pained, but try. He draws breath in through his nose, slow enough to make an example of it, then lets it out against your cheek. You follow poorly at first, catching on the inhale, shuddering on the release. He keeps you still with both arms, though the stillness near murders him.
There is some mercy in it too. The worst of the first push hangs there between your bodies, neither taking nor retreating, and Duncan’s mind runs through every filthy scrap of knowledge folk have ever thrown into the air near him. It should ease. It should get good. Use spit. Women like this or that. Noise from those who made knowing sound like conquest and left him with nothing useful but the fear of damaging you.
“We can stop,” he says. “We can stop here, m’lady. I’ll not—”
Before he can make a noble mess of rising you away from himself, your breath changes.
Only a little. The next exhale leaves lower in your chest. Your hips soften by a measure, and the flesh around him gives its small, unwilling quarrel with his size. You notice it too. He sees the fright shift in your eyes and your body listening under the hurt, finding some other report beneath it. You breathe again, this time because you want the breath, and your fingers come to his shoulders.
“There,” he says, relieved. “Good, gods. Just so.”
Your brow stays pinched, but your mouth parts around a sound that has less grievance in it. Duncan does not move. He only holds you, forehead set to yours, the whole of him turned toward patience. Another breath. Another. Under him, inside you, the grip changes by degrees. Less like refusal. More like a fist slowly learning how to open without letting go.
“Oh,” you say, very quietly. It makes him put his teeth together.
“Aye?” he asks, and hates how much hope gets into it.
You nod once. Small. Fierce.
So he keeps holding. He has never been so deep in anything. He is barely in you at all, and already there is that terrible gladness in his sack, akin to one that comes when his cock starts threatening a scrape too raw. He does his best to throttle it, for despite you saying you wish to see him, he's convinced he wishes to see you harder.
You sink on him, stubborn-faced and quiet. Duncan feels each small victory in his muscles, while his mind remains oblivious to the thaumaturgy allowing it. Your brow is set hard at first, then anger at the pain cuts across it because ache has got between you and the thing you want. After, comes the stern listening. You go still around him, eyes lowered, as if this new flesh has answered in some difficult tongue and you mean to learn it properly. He lets you use him as you need, though the need itself is killing work. More of him goes into you. Inch by inch, all of them so alive and close his own breath begins to come wrong.
“Gods,” you say, and then, with a sort of insulted wonder, “You are large.”
Duncan goes hot to the roots of his hair. “I know,” he says, because there is no use pretending otherwise. Worried, he asks, “Does it trouble you?”
You huff through your nose and consider him, sitting there skewered on the question and on him both. “No.” Your hand comes up to his neck, fingers digging briefly as you deepen another little way. “I like that you are an effort.”
A sound gets out of him, small and strangled. He sets one palm to your cheek because he needs somewhere decent to put it and because your face has become dearer to him than life.
“It feels full,” you say. His cock gives a hard throb. “I can feel you—" You take his hand and guide it low to your underbelly.
There he is. Invasive and indeed, large enough to make himself known from the outside. It is foully private. Wonderful. So much so that Duncan whines, “Seven save me,” and hides in your throat.
You are on him, completely, and he stays frozen, stunned stupid by it. Your voice finds him, hushed. "What do I do?"
He near laughs. An odd sense of camaraderie spreads in him because, gods, he knows naught. He never thought getting this far possible at all. "I—" He swallows. Looks at you. "I dunno." Then, helplessly honest, “Whatever feels right.”
Your mouth curves. He knows then that he is in peril.
Flesh squeezes around him fiercely, and as if it is not humbling enough you tease, “This?"
The groan comes out of him as though struck from the gut. “Hah—oh, Seven, this—this feels right, aye.” He pants, staring at you as if you have found a latch in him and pulled it open. “Do that again.”
You do, smaller this time, watching his face as you learn him. Dunk puts his hands to your ribs and awaits another ripple when he remembers he's needed here too. “What… what do I do?” he asks lamely.
The pain has gone from your eyes. For a moment you merely observe him, sat, and he's struck by your beauty in it. Oh gods, he's managed this. Brought you through unease into this quiet wanting. Somehow, by some mercy, he is the man under you.
Then, you tell him: “Whatever you want.”
And for once, Duncan finds some selfish wickedness in himself.
He bows his head to your chest. Breathes out quietly, "This?" and before you can answer, his mouth closes over your nipple.
“Oh—” you moan. Loud. Arch some too, seven fucks. Gods, you arch for him, spine bending as you offer more of your tits. Your arms go behind you, hands brace on his knees. He takes the weight gladly, the shift round his cock graciously, because when your hips roll by accident or discovery the movement carries all the way down and wrings him near inside-out.
Duncan groans into your breast and sets his tongue to work. You grind on him in short, close strokes, hardly lifting, making a mill of your hips and his cock. Whole of him sits inside rubbed alive, worked into small cruel space until his thoughts blunt at the edges. He keeps his mouth on you, because he wants it, and because it gives him a task. In a useful order of things he sucks, breathes, then sucks again. Your nipple hardens under his tongue and he takes it in deeper, hollows his cheeks into a jaw that starts aching sweetly. His hands ride up your back to where spine bends for him. Skin wrinkles there under his fingers and he holds that kink, trying to retain exactly the places where pleasure seems to fold you.
This, he thinks, dazedly, must be being fucked. Men call it fucking. Men call everything fucking when there is ale in them and a chance of dying soon. They talk as if women are tavern benches with cunts, as if the doing is a matter of putting a thing where it goes and rutting till pride spills out. He has heard enough to last a lifetime. Women taking a cock to the root without a sound, as though maids are all built like sheaths and men all swords worth taking. Some girl against a stable door. Some widow with her skirts up in a ditch. Some camp follower who took three men and begged the fourth. A thousand lies told by mouths with grease in the beards.
This bears no kin to those stories. You are whispering his name as if it is helping you take him, and it rolls lovely off your tongue. You are trying to make yourself come on him, and Duncan has his mouth full of your tit, working at it with fixed devotion of someone given one good thing to do and determined to do it well. That, to him, seems closer to the truth. This awkward holy labour. This sweating. This being used sweetly and trusted through it. This is lovemaking, right here, with wanting you vivid under his hands more than he wants his own ending.
Your rhythm finds itself crookedly. Then loses itself. Then finds another way. Duncan follows what he can. Pants though his nose. Groans when you bear down. Grows bold enough once to nip you with his teeth, and you seem to adore it down to your tightening cunt. So he does it again, softer, and your body grows snugger, wetter, meaner around his cock. When he licks over it, you exhale the strangest little oh.
“Gods,” he mutters into you. “Gods, girl.”
The change starts plain. It's less orderly. Your body has its mind elsewhere now, and that mind has no use for manners. The strokes go crooked, breath starts jumping. The hands on his knees dig in until he feels the half-moons of your nails and hopes they stay. Pain would be proof come morning. A mark of where he was when you needed somewhere to put your strength.
Then you push off his legs and catch his head between your arms.
Duncan leaves your breast with a wet sound and lifts as far as you allow. Your forearms yoke him close. His nose fits beside yours almost by habit now. Your eyes are dark and open and half-wild.
“Tell me,” you whisper. “Tell me you love me. Tell me you love me—”
“I love you,” Duncan bursts, with no search needed for the answer. “Gods, I love you. I love you. I love you—”
Your mouth trembles near his. “I love you,” you say. “You’re mine and I love you. I was right about you, oh gods, I was right—”
In all your mumbling, you ride him hard enough that he feels the signal in it. More. Deeper. More room, more of him given up to you. His hands go to your arse and grip there, sudden and rude enough to make his ears burn, but you give a sharp glad sound and bear down again. That decides him. He braces, lifts you with him a little, and unfolds his knees from under himself. The shift wrenches both of you. He falls back flat with a grunt, side burning, cock dragged deeper by your weight.
The sky opens above him, black and moonless. And you.
That is all there is for a breath. You astride him, hair loose, thighs going badly and beautifully, hands on his chest as if he is ground and beast and lover together. Duncan catches your hips, then lets them go because you seem to know more when he does less. You lean down to kiss him and your face breaks in the middle of it. He feels it seize you.
Your hands find his cheeks. Nose knocks beside him. Your muscles grip him so hard his vision blanches, and then you are coming with his name caught in your teeth and love spilling out in pieces. I love you Duncan, I love you, and he just grips your shoulders and holds on, holds on and on, because if he moves wrong he will lose everything at once. The luck of being the thing inside you when it happens is unbearable.
“My girl,” he gets out. “My girl, my—”
Then, he's ripped in half. It starts low and pulls everything with it: thighs, sack, belly, chest, throat. It frightens him how good it is. How deep it seems to go from him. He has spilled before with his face hot from shame and hand slick round himself, but this is nothing like those past miseries. He's being drawn out and kept. He fills you in hard pulses and lets his body believe it has come home, foolish as that is, dangerous as that is, true as anything he has ever known. Lucky, he thinks, with what little mind remains. Lucky, lucky, lucky. To be wanted. To be held there. To spend in a creature who loves him and says so.
He keeps saying, "My girl, gods, my girl," because there is nothing else in him.
You take each spill with a gasp, and then a smile begins to sprout on your face. You're smiling while he's being torn asunder.
After, the world grows smaller. Deafer, as if great hands have closed over its ears. Duncan hears himself muttering things into the little space between you, broken stammers and poor scraps of prayer and slur. Gods, and Seven, and yes, still, still, as if he is trying to tell you you have done well and make certain he has done well too. You sag on him. Your arms wedge themselves beneath his neck, baring his throat, and your mouth comes there. It is hardly a kiss. More the arrival of a mouth too tired and too fond to do more than rest.
He turns to the side with you wrapped round him. You squeal some, as though you have forgotten his strength, or forgotten that he has been pliant beneath you because you asked him to be.
Something enormous has been done to him. Duncan comes out the other side of it a full man, and thinks, dimly, that full men do not brag about this sort of thing.
Then he notices you are trembling differently. When his cock shifts inside you, bathed in himself, he feels the scrape of soreness against it. It sobers him at once.
“Easy,” he murmurs. “Let me—”
He holds you close and draws back with as much care as he has left. Your body resists round him, tight and displeased, then gives him up with a low, unhappy sound that makes his stomach pull. “Did I hurt you?” he asks.
He looks down and sees the oddest medley of the body’s humours. Milk tainted red, gone pink where it oozes out of you. His cock smeared along the length with blood and spent. It all sobers him tenderly.
“Let me see,” Duncan says, and dips between your legs as if there is something his hands may yet fix.
He knows it is virgin blood. Something old and primal flickers in him, a brief possessive pride at being the proof of your first, and then it dies under the weight of your hands finding his cheeks. You guide him back up to your face, and he goes.
On the way, he thinks how unjust it is that women must bleed so boys can grow into men.
Then he sees your worry. At first he's certain it is pain troubling you, but your eyes move from his face to his groin and back again. “Have I damaged you?” you ask, with honest dread.
It hits him then that you understand as little as he does. Mayhaps less. You have done some violent inland magic with a body you barely know and come away afraid you have broken him by it.
“No, m’lady,” he breathes. “I ain’t so easily damaged.” Then he winces, because his side pulls when his arms try to hold you, and he ruins his case entirely.
You laugh, damp and small, and begin to fuss over him. “Oh, my sweet,” you murmur, touching his face, his shoulder, the binding. “Oh, my love.”
Duncan fusses back, trying to look you over while you try to look him over, until it becomes a strange little quarrel of hands and fret, each of you meaning to tend the other first.
When it's over, when wet cloth has been found and put to swollen parts, when hair has been brushed off slick foreheads and knuckles have been kissed, Duncan pulls you to him, cages you in him, and breathes so deep it feels like a first honest breath of his life. "I love you," he says to your temple. "Thank you. Thank you, my love."
You say it back. I love you into his throat. I love you against his jaw, and then I love you put to his cheek and preserved there. He keeps kissing you until his mouth goes tired and then his eyes grow heavy and then Duncan falls asleep with his beloved safe next to his heart and blades thrown away to lie useless in the grass.
Cold moves down your skin correctly. Your lungs feel heavy and full and familiar. When you open your eyes, the vision comes warped and magnified, and at once you understand you're floating in water.
It is hard at first to assess anything. You remember him under you. You remember his mouth, his hands, his flesh, warm and abundant, splitting you and filling you until body has torn itself to pleasure and blood.
But when you look at yourself, there are no legs he's ventured between. You're made whole again, with your old grace returned which feels like theft, somehow. Your tail glimmers in morning sunlight. Hands, panicked, come to your sides to find skin sliced back into gills and the palms themselves are scaled and fingers connected with thin, translucent webbing.
She tricked you. She gave you a quest and a man and told you all about what would happen if you failed, and naught of what comes of success. Now, you've regained yourself right after making peace with feeble knees, so it feels more like a loss. When you break the surface another loss lies still where you've left him, large and sleeping and oblivious.
Duncan looks peaceful. He's on his side on the bedroll, breathing calmly and his arms are thrown around a space where a body is missing. It seems that some lessons of humanity remain, for tears push themselves violent and hot into your eyes. They add to the river, salt into sweet water, and you're crying audibly, sobbing and hiccuping, because it all comes down on you, unkind and sad and miserable. He's right there and you cannot touch him. He's right there and you cannot hold him, because once again you've been made to belong somewhere where he doesn't.
"Duncan!" you call. It comes less as a call for him than a wail after something already lost.
He wakes badly. Jerks in the bedroll, one hand to the empty place under his arm. He looks there first, sleep-stupid and stricken, at the flattened hollow where your body ought to be.
Only then does his head turn. You see the first thing his face does: smile.
That wounds worse than anything. He cannot see you properly yet. He is still thick with slumber, hair mussed and mouth soft, looking at you as if this is only another of your oddities. Bathing at dawn. Calling for him from water. Waiting for him to come.
He rises slowly, muttering something you cannot hear. Finds his breeches. Pulls them on with one hand braced to his side, half awake and half fond, and comes barefoot over the bank with grass stuck to his soles.
The waiting lacerates. You are submerged to the waist, though waist is no honest word for you now. Beneath the surface the tail hangs in one long weight, scales catching and throwing the sun in broken pieces. You keep as still as you can, as if stillness might delay his seeing. It does not, of course.
His steps slow. Then stop. The colour drains from his face.
“M’lady—” he says, and the word fails. A breath goes into him sharply. He comes down to crouch at the bank, staring as if the world has put a second world inside it while he slept. “What has happened?”
“She tricked me,” you say, and once you begin the words come in scraps. “Wicked thing, wicked old thing, may she choke on peat and fishbones, may her teeth fall out, may the bog take her house and all her foul eggs—she tricked me, Duncan, she tricked me—”
You curse until the anger frays and leaves fear showing through, all the while he is staring.
It dawns on you then. He must be frightened. Repulsed. Cheated. A night ago he had a girl with legs, a girl who could sit astride him and bleed and laugh and walk badly into his hands. Now there is this creature before him, river-made and scaled, and made of different cloth from him.
You break into sobbing. Hide your face in your hands. “Forgive me,” you say. “Forgive me, I did not know. I did not know— I would never have, if I—”
“Gods be good,” Duncan breathes. His voice makes you freeze.
You lower your hands by a little. His eyes are wet. His mouth is parted. There is no disgust in him that you can find, only shock, and awe so plain it seems almost childish.
“You’re the most beautiful thing I’ve seen,” he says.
A sob gets trapped in your throat. Mistrustful. “You said the same of the other body.”
“Aye,” he says.
“You needn’t make mercy of it.”
Realisation moves over his face. That you think this is the loss of him. That you think your shape has become a problem to solve or pardon. He softens entirely. “My sweet girl,” he says. “It is all true.”
Your tail twitches. His eyes go to it and you hate yourself for that too, for still wanting him to see and still wanting to hide from the seeing.
“Wilful girl,” he says under his breath. “Oh, sweetheart. Believe me. Please, believe me.”
Then, he steps into the water without bargaining or careful testing of whether the magic might stain him. Only comes, with his legs wide for balance, slipping once on the shallow stones, hissing when the cold gets him, and still coming. Water darkens his breeches and climbs his thighs. The bandage at his side drinks at once and is ruined, but he pays it no mind. His eyes stay fixed on you. Awed, devoted, and so full of purpose there is no spare room in his face for doubt.
His arms come for you. At first the holding is awkward. Your body is heavy in a different way now, long and slick with no knees to bend around him. His hand finds where your waist remains and the other comes to your cheek. He adjusts when you move toward him. Learns the weight of you without complaint, frowning only with the effort of keeping you close.
“It matters naught,” he tells you. “It matters not at all, my sweetheart.”
“How will we be?” you ask, disbelieving.
Duncan looks at you as if the question is large but the answer is simple. “I’m a hedge knight,” he says. “It is no great hardship to sleep under the stars. Rivers, then. Streams and lakes and ditches, if I must. I’ll find you.”
“Will you?”
“Aye,” he says. “Always.”
It strikes you that he offers no solution because he needs none. He does not speak of witches or bargains, of throttling the crone into giving the legs back, of fixing what has been returned to you. You cannot tell if he is so kind or simply stupid. Mayhaps both.
“I have no legs,” you insist.
Duncan laughs softly. “Aye, I see that.” You glare at him through tears, so his face comes close to yours. “You’ve a heart I adore, though,” he says. Softer, with the shyest wickedness tucked beneath it, “And you still have a mouth.”
He kisses you once. Small and careful. Then murmurs against you, “No matter the rest, this is where the nose goes. Always.”
And he shows you: his nose finds the side of yours. His mouth follows. The kiss is shy first, then surer when you clutch at him and kiss back. Around you, the river carries morning light over the lovers.
It is an old tale. A girl loves a boy, and a boy loves a girl. Big things, ancient things come between them, but youth pays no mind to the impossibility of worlds colliding. It regards naught the steel of propriety or the dull blades of daggers hungry for souls. With fear dressed as arrogance, youth traverses bridges invisible to the faithless, and so the mermaid falls for a hedge knight, and the hedge knight falls for her back.
summary: as your writings worsen in severity, you and your husband are summoned to kings landing and finally comfort the feeling that had been bottled from the beginning
note: hi yall!! again, thanks so much for all of your support and kind words for this series, it has meant a lot! i intend on making this the last part, but if you have an idea for a drabble or one shot with the same premise, id be happy to do it!
Dearest Gentle Reader,
It has long been observed that matrimony, while outwardly adorned in silk and sanctimony, may conceal within its gilded seams the most treacherous of tempests. Such a storm, it seems, has recently broken over one of our most respectable households. Though one dares not say respectable for much longer.
Whispers ripple through solaces and along candlelit corridors of a certain noble woman, Lady Marbrand, whose devotion to her husband was once praised as exemplary if not bordering upon severe. Alas, where devotion festers into possession, and admiration curdles into suspicion, one must wonder whether love itself has been replaced by something far more…perlious.
Her lord husband, whose eye, it said, wandered with a frequency unbecoming of his station, was known to cast glances not only at the ballroom‘s brightest jewels, but also at those whose sparkle was perhaps less…socially sanctioned. A dangerous pastime indeed, for a man wed to a lady whose pride could rival the tallest spire.
And now, dear reader, that same gentleman has met a most untimely and curious end. Some claim it was an unfortunate accident. An ill-prepard tonic, a sudden weakness of the heart. Yet others, with voices lowered and fans raised every so slightly higher, suggest a more deliberate design. For it is not curious that the devoted wife, so long overshadowed by her husband‘s indiscretions, should now stand sole mistresses of his fortune…and his silence?
One cannot help but admire, in the most cautious terms, the efficiency with which the scandal has been contained. No hysterics, no public mourning beyond what propriety demands. Only a widow draped in black, her composure as impeccable as ever, her gaze now steady and unchallenged.
Let this serve as a gentle caution to all wandering husbands and watchful wives alike: the heart, when wronged, may not merely break. It may also sharpen. And in certain households, it would seem, betrayal is not forgiven. Only concluded.
Yours most observantly,
-Lady Hollowmere
“By what conviction would a wife make a widow of herself? It‘s fucking nonesense is what it is.“
The fire cast warm glow across Maekar‘s features as he sat before the hearth, scandal pamphlet in hand. To your astonishment, several passages coax scoffs from the man. His reactions were enough to bring a smug grin to your lips. You sat opposite, your needle dancing through cloth with practiced precision.
It was that hitch of quiet after supper, before servants retired and candle wicks hissed, pitched by wet fingers. The last peaceful moment night would grant.
“We do not know Lady Marbrand, Maekar. Surely the lady had her reasons. There are burdens that speak to none but their bearer.“
The words drew a sharp scoff from him. Maekar could never abide it when you cloaked your thoughts in blossoms of poetry and tangled metaphors, no matter how wise the root beneath them may be. Perhaps the fault lies with the soldier he once was—or perhaps still remained. He preferred words that marched in a straight line toward their purpose.
“My wife defends husband slayers. Fantastic.“
Against your judgement, that drew a laugh from you. Maekar‘s humour was a sneaky force of nature, a subtlety many are not subjected to.
“Think of it as a hunting trip. Men find pleasure in inflicting harm on the defenseless. Or rather things they wish were defenseless. Like deer and rabbits. It is your greatest joy, to kill things you deem beneath you. We kill to eat, it is survival. Killing for sport is barbaric. I could kill you, but I haven‘t yet.“
“What the fuck is that supposed to mean?“
“That I do not deem you beneath me.“
At your words, a sudden crimson swept across his face. Whether it was the fire before him or the peril in your promise that kindled such warmth within him, he could not say.
In time, the waters between you grew calm, as a great sea settles in the wake of a tempest. What remained was something between tolerance and courtesy, a fragile peace neither of you seemed eager to disturb.
Yet affection has never been a poor prisoner.
It escaped in small betrayals. A lingering word spoken too softly, in the glance stolen as you passed one another through the corridors, in the fleeting brush of sleeves beneath the glow of candlelit suppers. Your nearness became a thing both harmless and unbearable. It drove him to distraction. For he desired nothing so fiercely as your company, your honeyed words, the warmth of your hand against his own. Yet all of it seemed to lie leagues beyond his reach, though you yearned for him no less than he yearned for you.
“What are you stitching?“ He asked gruffly, though it came from a place of curiosity. You hummed as you admired your own work before turning it, revealing intricate flowers in ornate designs.
“Carnations. For Daella.“ At those words, his heart yielded like wax before flame. Carnations, Dyanna’s favorite flower. The ones she’d tend to in the royal garden. You, who owed the dead woman nothing, had nonetheless chosen to keep her memory alive for the children she left behind.
“She will be grateful for them.“ He murmured, earning him a bashful smile that played at your lips. As your union ripened in years, you became keenly aware of your husband‘s difficulty giving you praise. Compliments were something he feigned indifference for, giving you flattery with stoicism. Yet subtle signs betrayed him. A muttered compliment here, a whispered admiration there, and color would steal unbidden across his face.
Most telling, however, were when those sweet words came from your lips. Then the iron fortress of his demeanor would flatter entirely, and no amount of practiced severity could conceal the pleased blush on his cheeks.
***
The council‘s voices still echoed within your skull like iron bells struck in a sept. Their words had left your head reeling and your temper thoroughly tested. While villages starved and bread grew scarce throughout the realm, the great lords of Westeros spoke only of new taxes and heavier burdens. Cloaking their greed in the language of governance. Every scheme, every decree, every measured word seemed crafted for one purpose. To line nobles purses with yet more coin.
Disgust curdled in your stomach.
You wandered your chambers as a caged beast, pacing worn paths across stone and carpet. Again and again your gaze fell upon the idle quill resting upon your desk. How simple would it be to wield it as a dagger of ink and expose the rot festering beneath the crown‘s gilded name.
Yet you resisted.
Your sandal sheet was born of secrets murmured behind closed doors, for stolen kisses, whispered betrayals, and the petty vanities of the aristocracy. It was not a weapon of reform. It was not a champion of the common folk.
But the longer you resisted, the louder the silence became.
At once, your struggle ended.
As though you were compelled by fate itself, you crossed the chamber in four rushed strides, took a quill in hand, and set its point to parchment. Whether it was scandal or truth, gossip or revelation, mattered little now
The ink would flow.
Dearest Gentle Reader,
One scarcely knows where to begin when discussing the present condition of His Most Lavish Majesty‘s court. While common folk barter turnips for candle stubs and pray the winter stores hold fast, House Targaryen hosts yet another fortnight of feasts, tourneys and other silk-draped revelries. One hears the Queen‘s newest gown required enough gold thread to ransom three captured lords. Though sadly none of that coin appears destined for the realm‘s crumbling roads, starving villages or plague-ridden alleys.
And what of the King‘s esteemed council? Ah yes, those noble guardians of the realm who somehow emerge every “crisis tax“ with heavier purses and fresher castles. Curious indeed how the kingdom grows poorer whilst the royal cousins grow plumper than geese.
Rumor whispers that Prince Aerys purchased his fourth castle mere days after securing grain contracts meant for northern provinces. Provinces which now, quite inconveniently, suffer bread shortages. Surely a tragic coincidence. As we all know, no man of court would ever line his pockets whilst children chew bark for supper.
As for the royal heirs, their talents remain unmatched. Particularly, in the disciplines of vanity, drinking, and seduction. Prince Daeron reportedly lost an entire shipment of silver to foreign merchants during a drunken dice match, though palace scribes insist the missing funds were “miscounted“. One imagines the numbers simply wandered away in embarrassment.
Most astonishing of all, is the monarchy's divine confidence that the people remain blind. Yet taverns speak. Markets whisper. Stable boys gossip better than septons. The realm may bow its head, but it has not lost its ears. Indeed, if corruption were a godly virtue, the Targaryens would already have statues erected in every square. I‘d happily give both my hands, for a chance to strike at least two dragons. Perhaps the sting of my palm will imbue them with some form of wisdom, for they appear to succeed in everything, but the art of ruling. A lack of wit makes for a trifling king. A lack of grace makes for a cruel ruler. And a head of blonde makes for both.
Until the next disgrace unfolds, which, given this court, shall likely be supper.
I remain, your most obedient servant,
Lady Hollowmere
***
That was the first time you had smelt the dim reek of distant flame. Ghostly plumes spilling across the hilltop, the thin coils of smoke in the far country. The bitter perfume of treason set aflame, as though false tongues themselves were burning upon the pyre. Though, the tongues of common folk carried no falsehood.
As the wind carried the ashen breath of burned pamphlets, you sat vigilantly in a seat of court, gazing upon the smoke climbing heavenward from the window. You were completely out of line. And now, every Hollowmere across the seven kingdoms had been met with flame, pardoning it from its duty, a vessel of callous truth.
The scrolls were as good as contreband, outlawed. The last, (and what may very well be the last Hollowmere) was spurred by a court gathering, as they discussed the increase of tax for the sake of their lands. Their heedless tongues stirred the corruption lodged deep within your ribs, the festering corner of your soul that had first driven you to the quill. You knew the scroll would sell, that it would find the clammy fists of honest workers and dutiful maids. They were your audience, after all. It‘d be a cruelty to deny them word of where their hard-earned-coin had gone.
You and Maekar had been summoned to King‘s Landing promptly, following the publication of the scroll. Now, you sit amongst the very people you debauch with your very own ink. You began to picture each of them as coin, a transactional token. Their discontentions and dalliances had earned you fame. What would your death earn them? Respite? Peace of mind?
“This foul heretic has earned herself a sword through her neck. At long last has she trespassed beyond all suffering. We have endured her corruption long enough. If we allow her to continue, we are complicit in the rot she spreads.“
Prince Aerys spoke severely, an unwavering voice piercing the tense silence of the room. Shoulders sat stiffly, jaws clenched themselves. You were no better, your eyes transfixed into your lap.
“Her blood alone may restore the virtue of our name. She must stand condemned, for only lawful judgement may our house reclaim its honor. We are mocked, upon this very throne. Hollowmere has turned our court into nothing but a gilded theater.“
Aerion added, simply happy to be included in discussing such matters. His words were mere echoes of the ones he had heard before.
“Forgive my boldness, yet I must ask, have any of you read the scrolls in full?“ Baelor‘s silvery voice interrupted. I‘ve skimmed one or two, you wanted to say.
“What is it Lady Hollowmere advises for each lord or lady mentioned in the writings? Discretion.“ The court shares vexated glances, unsure of his case. It was difficult to mask your happiness, a warmth swelling in your chest at his words. He had read it, and understood it.
“This may yet prove a bitter lesson wisely given. That a ruler must care for the lowly as well as the mighty, and carry our private affairs with subtler hands. It is a cruelty, what she has written and I denounce the writings entirely. But they are not fiction, regardless of how long we bicker. It would do us no good to kill the rogue.“
“If our words no longer reach her ears, she will weave falsehoods in their place. And should we persist in this silence, her audacity will swell. Passivity is not prudence, brother. It is to surrender by slower means.“
Your heart weakened at the sound of your husband's voice, so keen on the thought of slaughtering you. If only he knew he sleeps under the same sheets as Lady Hollowmere.
“This matter is adjourned." King Daeron‘s voice cut through the thick silence, allowing everyone to shuffle their way from the hall. You heaved a sigh as you stood, feeling the burden lay heavy on your shoulders.
***
Within the privacy of your guest chambers, you sought relief from the sweltering day. Jena, your step-sister lended you a gown certainly more suitable for the heat, yet it possessed none of the structure or modesty of your customary gowns. The thin cloth hung loosely upon your frame, tracing its silhouette in a manner that left little room for imagination. The neckline dipped lowly, revealing the sweat-slick valley of your breasts, your glistening collarbone, and your slightly burnt shoulders.
Just as you were finishing your needlework, your solitude was invaded. Maekar barged in your shared chambers, also looking slightly undone by the heat. His face held a lingering flush, unkept silver hair falling in his face as sweat beaded on his forehead. The sight was enough to leave you gawking, to spur your thoughts in a lewd direction.
Just as your stare returns to the cloth and needle in your lap, Maekar greedily steals a glance of you.
In his life, he‘s been nearly impaled by lances. Dodged stray arrows. Fought battles. Yet, he never felt so close to dying than that moment. The way you reclined yourself, draping your divine form across cushions. The way your styled hair exposed your slick neck. What he‘d give to bury his nose in the crook of it, to lick, kiss, bite and suck every inch of it that drew small gasps from you. Would you entangle your fingers in his hair at the feeling? Let his name fall from your lips? Would you plainly just beg for him? Or perhaps your eyelids would flutter? How would you sound beneath him clawing at his back with your legs around his waist?
“Maekar, dear? Are you well?“
Your gentle pry snapped him from his trance, only to realize he was simply staring at you without a word. Never in all his years had such mortification laid siege to his composure. You arched a brow, seeking some manner of explanation, yet found none forthcoming. Instead, before you stood a man struck dumb by his own eyes. Flushed, bewildered, and robbed of speech.
An honorable man, he was. Yet a man nonetheless.
And so, as men often do when they‘re cornered by their own hearts, he sought refuge in evasion. A hasty murmur escaped him. Some excuse too feeble to bear remembering, before he turned and made his leave with all the swiftness dignity would permit.
For he had been caught. And worse, understood.
Shame gnawed at him like a hound at a wounded stag. He felt like a fool. He felt utterly defenseless. And Seven knows how bitterly he loathes losing control of himself. He lingered beyond the chamber door, his spirit at war with itself. It had grown laborious to keep a seemly distance, to conduct himself as a true gentleman ought to. To remain faithful to the vow he had once spoken—that he would never love another. And yet his restraint frayed more swiftly than he cared to confess. To behold you so unguarded in his presence, so content in the midst of his company, stirred something within him that he scarcely dared to believe was real.
You should have been embarrassed for him. Perhaps you were. The display had been awkward enough to make him leave the room. Instead you sat and stared, struggling to untangle the meaning behind it all. All though, Maekar had always been a difficult person to untangle. He was made of contradictions. A man who could speak with absolute certainly one moment and leave you questioning everything the next. You‘d spent moons trying to understand him, moons chasing answers that slipped through your fingers like sand.
In the end, you learned to live without them. You would never fully comprehend your husband, and that simply was the truth of it. Yet you loved him anyway. Not despite his complexities, but because of them. Every scar, every harbored secret, every impossible piece. Some people could never be fully known. They carried kingdoms inside themselves, wild and vast and unmapped. Maekar was one of them.
***
Supper was announced earlier than expected, and before long you sat among the rest of your royal family with your children at your side and your husband, still somewhat discomposed from the prior events, occupying the seat across you. The hall rang with merriment as you enjoyed the abundant feast. But while others devoted their attention to the feast, Maekar seemed interested in only one thing.
You.
His gaze found you as surely as a compass finds north and remained there with stubborn devotion. It was not a glance, nor even a lingering look.
It was worship.
A starving man might have regarded a banquet table with less longing than he regarded you. Again and again you felt those lilac eyes upon you, warm and unrelenting. He drank in every detail as though afraid some part of you might vanish should he blink.
And perhaps most maddening of all was that he appeared wholly unashamed of it. Across a hall overflowing with food and splendor, Maekar feasted only upon you.
The feast concluded and together you sought the privacy of your chambers. Yet peace did not follow in your wake. A strange stillness hung between you, close and heavy as velvet drapes. Slowly you made ready for sleep, though neither heart seemed inclined toward rest. The air itself was swollen with things unsaid, with kisses yet ungiven and confessions yet unvoiced.
These were troubling days for you and your husband. Though your burden was far greater, fear walked ever at your shoulder, whispering of discovery and ruin. Yet, as your gaze settled upon him, one question lingered. By what enchantment had this perilous hour made him so ardent to his wanting?
“Did you hear what your father suggested? That Aemon be sent to the Citadel? As if we‘d ever permit such a thing. He is but a boy—well…I mean to say, he is not yet prepared to be so far from us. I do not think he would manage half so well without his family near at hand. Wouldn‘t you agree?“
Your inquiry was followed by a stiff silence, something you were certain you could cut with a knife. Frankly, you had enough. The stolen glances, the unspoken confessions, the aching want that haunted every silence that fell between you. It had become torment beyond bearing. You cared not if you must draw truth from him thread by thread, as a seamstress unravels knotted silk.
You were exhausted by the spectacle of feelings harbored in secret displayed only through longing eyes. The weight upon your shoulders was already great. You needed at least this one uncertainty banished and made clear.
Frustrated, you slam your hairbrush into the wood of the vanity, whipping around to face him.
“Out with it.“
“Out with what?“
“Whatever you‘re not telling me.“
“I will do so, when you tell me first.“
The palpable silence returned as you two blankly stared at one another. Whatever did he mean? Your mouth opened and closed anticipating sound, yet none came.
“W-whatever are you talking about?“ You manage.
“I don‘t know. I was expecting you to explain it to me.“
In his words, a flutter of panic took wing within your chest. Did he glimpse the storm hidden behind your calm? Or were his utterances just listless riddles? A darker thought seized your mind then. Had he found the writings? Had he known what you had labored so fiercely to conceal?
Rising from your seat, you strode across the room to where he sat. Your arms drew across your chest like a shield, and one brow arched in wary challenge as your gaze settled upon him.
“Is fear your answer, then? I asked a question, and it was asked before yours. Do not mistake evasion for cleverness, husband.“
“I don‘t know what you speak of, woman.“
“Please. Do not make a fool of either of us. The starring, the avoidance, the damned silence. I have endured all of it. Something is wrong. What is it? Speak.“
“Good night.“
With all the strength you can muster, you take hold of his arm in a certain grip. The act stops him in his tracks, as he slowly turned to face you. Never had you put your hands on him in that manner, with such force. Vexated disbelief was written in his eyes as he stared at you in awe, his arm still gripped firmly in your hand.
“You will not touch that bed before you tell me what burdens you. I cannot continue in this manner with you. I am tired of guessing at meanings hidden behind glances and silences. Tired of wondering which version of you I shall find when the sun rises. One day you are gentle. Next, you are distant beyond reach. You avoid me, yet your eyes never seem to leave me? What am I meant to make of that? I am your wife. By vow and law. Not some courtier expected to unravel riddles for sport. If there is anger in your heart, speak it. If there is sorrow, speak that as well. But please—just say something. For I cannot bear another day of this uncertainty.“
Against your better judgement, tears began to escape your eyes as you spoke, despite your attempt to bridle your spirit with the reins of reason. It gathered within you as dark waters behind a dam, until at length the timbers groaned and gave way, and your eyes were rendered weeping, sorrowful streams.
Something within him, long barricaded by pride and careful reason, gave way at your sight. He had caused you pain, unmeant and yet undeniable, and guilt settled upon him like a shroud. Shame gnawed at his bones, yet all his desire burned only for your solace. To gather you into his arms, to hold you until even the memory of what you had asked might fade into forgetfulness.
His arms raise slightly from his sides at the thought of holding you, but they quickly return as he watches you take a step back. Maekar‘s chest heaved with a sigh of utter defeat, feeling as though he was a pin cushion of lances. A helpless man, caught in his own charade. The one he could no longer cower behind. His eyes fluttered shut in a quiet tide of surrender. He‘d have to relent. He‘d have to be truthful.
“You wish me to speak? Very well. I shall speak.“
A bitter laugh escaped him, devoid of humour.
“You have enslaved me, wife.“
His gaze dropped for a moment before finding yours once more. The way they had so many times before.
“Do you know what manner of a man I was before you? Proud. Certain. Unmoved by the opinions of others. Yet in your presence I become a simpering fool. A witless, grinning fool who measures the worth of his day by a single smile from you.“
His jaw tightened.
“And I hate it. I hate you. I hate that you have reduced me to this. I hate that a glance from you can undo me more thoroughly than any enemy ever could. I hate that you know me so well, that there is scarcely a thought I possess that remains hidden from your sight.“
A hollow breath escaped him.
“There is no armor left when I stand before you. No walls. No title. No pride. And perhaps that terrifies me more than I care to admit. But I am weary of pretending otherwise.“
His voice softened.
“I need you.“
Not as a demand, nor command. A confession.
“I want you with every wretched part of me. I would gamble with my soul for you. I would invent gods for you. I would cast aside every oath and ambition I have ever held dear for the chance to keep you beside me.“
Maekar‘s expression twisted with something perilously close to despair.
“And the cruelest part is that every time you look at me, I think you already know.“
He shook his head.
“Seven help me, wife…I do not know where I end and you begin anymore.“
A pause.
“I only know that the thought of a world without you in it feels like a sentence I cannot survive.“
You permitted the silence no further reign, before another heartbeat passed your lips were on his. The confession lingered in the air like incense after prayer. The kiss was something you both sought greedily like air. A brutish dance of lips and tongue, intertwining with unadulterated want. It was as though two wandering souls, long separated by fate‘s cruel hand, had at last found their rightful harbor.
You both pulled away briefly, gasping for breath. Maekar examined you with a tender gaze, drinking in your state. His coarse hands cupping your blotchy red cheeks, the slick tears lingering in your eyes, lips swollen from his teeth. It drew a smile from him that you‘d miss if you blinked. A fleeting grin, ever so grateful the Gods gave him you. The Seven blessed him with a resiliently spirited second wife, a pitiful favor at the expense of his character. You were of a nature wholly unlike his first. Dyanna bore herself with patient grace. You were burdened with a restless vigour. By the God‘s own design, you seemed to breathe a second life into him. You bore a smile well forged. You moved as though dawn itself took mortal shape. Laughter dwelling lightly upon your lips, your smile was no fleeting thing, but a steady glow warm as hearthfire.
And he loved you for it.
“I love you, my wife.“
“I…“
The words dared to leave your tongue as you peered up at his dazed lovesick expression. You wished to repeat his words with every fiber of your heart. You wished to care for him and love him with a reverence he does not even show himself. You wished to remind him how he makes you feel. But the rotted guilt burrowed in your heart seemed to wither that desire.
“I am Lady Hollowmere.“
The quiet that followed was palpable. Maekar‘s breath faltered in his throat, his deep heaving breaths slowing. Your breathing hastened as you both stood, boring into one another‘s eyes. You were uncertain of what would come of your words? Were you to be killed in the morrow? Would Maekar even believe you? Did he know all along?
It took a crackle from the hearth for the silence to finally be broken.
“I will not let them touch you. I shall stand before them and confess the deed as mine alone. Let the burden fall on my shoulders, dear wife. For it was by my will that it was done. Is that right?“
“It was a means of your neglect, yes. Of that I make no denial. Yet never, not once, did I mean to wound you with my words. You must believe that. What I wrote of our marriage was not born of malice, but fear. A selfish shield I fashioned for myself, and one that brought you hurt anyway. I am deeply sorry for my lies, Maekar. Just promise me, this will remain between us. I swear upon my honor I shall not take quill to parchment again.“
Another silence followed as you watched the lines of his face deepen with emotion.
“I am furious. You have behaved like a woman stripped of all reason. Reckless. Half-deranged. But my fury changes nothing. You are my wife. The vows I swore to you were not fair-weather promises to be cast aside when you proved difficult to love. Let them threaten you if they dare. I shall meet them steel in hand, and I shall stand there until I am broken, burned and scattered to the winds. Do you hear me?“
“Yes.“
“And I will not let them take you from me,“
His palms found your cheeks in a grounding hold, feeling your tears dry beneath his skin.
“Until I have made you mine.“
His lips find yours like they are his salvation, more desperate and feverous. Maekar‘s touch felt like worship upon your skin, as though you may vanish within his grasp. He was savoring every inch of you, allowing himself to indulge fully in ravishing you.
You gasped into his mouth as he squeezed your ass tightly, earning a snide grin from him. Maekar‘s hands mapped your form with a reverence fit for a God in mortal shape. To him, you were a religion he‘d rather perish than not worship. Something he had kept at arms length for so long, it felt like delirium to have you in his hold.
Your fingers began to meddle with the laces of his breeches as his tongue cherished the column of your neck. He breathed deeply with his head buried in the crook, sucking the tender spots of your throat. The sensation drew your mouth agape and made your fingers weak as you tried to undress him. You managed to loosen it, causing him to spin you around and attack the laces of your gown.
The buttons were slippery in his eager fingers. You could hear him cursing under his breath at the damned things. Eventually, the gown slipped from your shoulders and pooled at your feet, leaving you in a corset and small clothes.
“Your maids have imprisoned you.” He spoke gruffly into your neck from behind you. The remark coaxed an amused scoff from you.
“Then free me, if you are so eager.”
At your words, a sharp ripping sound tore through the air, leaving your waist exposed to the chilled draft of the chamber. Freed you, he had. Ripped you of your confines, giving his mouth more of your skin to map.
“You’re a brute.”
”And you’re a dirty woman. Who taught you to write anyway? They should be ashamed.”
”Shut up.”
With a firm grip on your shoulders, he whips you back around to face him, conquering your lips with his own once more. He guided you towards the bed in fumbling, clumsy steps. Too wanton and desperate to entertain balance.
Your back was met with the fur and pelts draped across the mattress as he crawled atop you. The weight and feeling of him crowding your senses, so greedily loving you, made a warmth gather between your legs. You wished for nothing more than the feeling of being breathless beneath him, incapable of any words aside from pathetic moans.
Without another moment to waste, Makear flips you onto your stomach with a sliver of effort. It aroused you, how well he could handle you without much work.
He grasped your waist, hoisting you up into his lap, your face buried in the furs. The position left you compromised and vulnerable. And unmistakably wet where you wanted him most.
“Seems you need a reminder of what happens to disobedient girls.”
Your bare ass was met with a punishing SMACK, earning a surprised yelp from you, muffled by the furs. Despite your sound, your body betrayed you. Your hips wiggled in his lap, inviting more of the feeling.
“You like this, don’t you?”
Another loud smack echoed through the chamber, a needy whimper escaping your lips. The flesh of your ass stung beneath his palm, yet it intertwined itself with your desire. His touch brought both pleasure and pain in equal measure, and he knew it.
“Maekar, please. I’ll be such a good girl for you.”
”Relenting so soon? That’s not the girl I know.”
Two smacks followed his words, as you grow more slack in his hold. You whined at the feeling of being empty. You began to miss something you were not yet given.
“Tell me what you want, needy girl.”
”…Y-you, Maekar, please.”
”I’m right here.”
”Please, fuck me till I know nothing but your name. I want nothing more than to feel full of you. Just please, fuck me senseless, husband. I beg of you.”
“Who am I to deny you, hm?”
He’s on you quickly, maneuvering you on your back, pressing your legs to your chest. Maekar feasts upon the sight of your needy pussy, aching and drooling with want. His palms caress the back of your thighs as he settles between your legs. With a hitched breath, you watch him descend, placing a gentle kiss to your clit.
“Pretty thing.” He uttered as he nearly drooled at the sight of your arousal.
He rose then, letting a glob of spit fall from his lips onto your slit. The crude act drew a sharp gasp from you, shuddering at the feeling. He aligned himself with your cunt, bracing himself with a firm grip on your thighs. His thrust was slow and deliberate. A purposeful drive of his hips.
The feeling was a foreign sting accompanied by raw pleasure burrowing itself deep in your tummy. Your bottom lip snagged between your teeth, stifling a whine from you.
“Shh, shh, you’re taking me so well, sweet girl. I know, I know…”
You feel him buried fully inside you, granting you a warming fullness that envelops your senses. A sigh of bliss leaves you as you adjust to the feeling, accommodating his size. You pant through parted lips, eyes boring into his hungry gaze.
Maekar begins to move slowly, not withdrawing himself but simply jostling you with gentle thrusts while his cock is buried to your hilt. You writhe and whimper at the sensation, feeling him so deeply within you. His entirety had eclipsed you, smothering you in his presence. It's everything you’ve wanted for months.
“Tell me how it feels, my sweet wife.”
”Mmph…”
”With your words.”
”Harder.”
You pant breathlessly, earning an amused grin from your husband. Following your command he deepens his thrusts, watching as you show him more of the whites of your eyes. You already felt drunk on his cock despite him only just starting. Small markings appeared on his back as your nails dug into the hardened muscle of his shoulders and back, using his strength as an anchor in your pleasure.
Maekar huffs and groans above you, growing more unraveled with every jerk of his hips. The feeling of you around him was bewitching, better than he could have ever imagined. You took him so well, so eager for him. And though he wasn't familiar with the feeling of being wanted, he wanted nothing more in that moment than to prove how much he worshiped you.
“What did I do to deserve you, pretty thing?” He whispered against the shell of your ear, doing anything in his power to not spend too soon. He kept his head buried in the scent of your neck as he pounded you, fearful beholding you may undo him. Your fingers gripped and carded through his hair, pulling every so often to earn a strangled groan from him.
“My beautiful, mm-fuck, insatiable, clever wife.” His voice cracks as he nudges your sweet spot repeatedly, making it harder to hear himself over the lewd sounds of your pleasure. You wrapped your legs around his hips to draw him even closer, covetous of his touch.
“Did you mean what you said? In your writings? That you wish for me to give you a child?” His words were hardly managed as he neared the brink of his pleasure. Your fucked-out gaze meets his and you nod listlessly.
“I meant every word, husband. Fill me as you please, leave no room for doubt.” Your words draw a groan from him as your grasp on his silver hair grows tighter.
“Makear, mmmh, I’m close…please don’t stop…”
”Mmm, that’s it, make a mess on your husband’s cock. Be a good girl and cum for me, hm?”
Your grip returns to his back shoulders as you pant through the edge of bliss, teetering on your sweet release. His thrusts grow more uneven yet punishing as though he was also chasing his own release.
“Maekar…Maekar…Maek-“
As his name fell from your lips in the midst of your pleasure, the coil of warmth in your stomach broke. Surrendering to the blissful surge thrashing through you, you tremble and jerk beneath your husband who is not slowing in his pace. His groans grow louder as you cum the hardest you ever had. You feel yourself clamping down on his cock, also eager to reach release.
As your orgasm began to ease, Maekar came with a wounded groan in the shell of your ear. You felt his release paint your walls and fill the very hilt of your cunt. It was a second wave of pleasure you hadn’t anticipated. A warm, encompassing feeling of your husband reaching his own peak. As his orgasm came to a slow, his body went somewhat slack above you, nestling into your bare form.
You welcome it, soothingly scratching his scalp with one hand and lovingly stroking his back with the other. His breathing slowed as he laid, as did yours. The two of you were now a panting heap of flesh and sweat, so utterly devoted to one another. Regardless of how many feelings were denied, you were always meant to tangle this way. Vulnerable, yet safe. Frustrated, yet unmistakably in love.
“Did I hurt you?” He croaked from where he buried his head, close to your collarbone. You shook your head as you grinned at him, cooing softly at his flustered state. Tousled hair, crimson cheeks, craw marks adorning his war-hardened skin.
“Quite the opposite. actually.” You laughed to yourself at the expense of your own joke.
“Let me call for a maid to draw a bath.”
”No need. Let us rest here for a few moments. You’ve kept me waiting long enough.”
Now it was his turn to chuckle softly at your words. Making him laugh was only something you had managed to coax from him more than twice a week. You believe the Seven bestowed you with such a gift, after saddling you with such a severe man.
You bask in the aftermath of your pleasure as you lay, humming blissfully whilst caressing your husband. Everything felt right with the world. Your chest, much lighter. Your eyes, much happier.
“You promise you will tell no one my secret, Maekar?”
”I will take an oath, if it would give you comfort. Besides, I never said I advised you to stop.”
Your movements against his skin froze as you peered down at where he laid on your chest.
“Whatever do you mean?”
”I will take your secret to my pyre. No one will know my wife exceeds me in the pursuit of writing, for it would embarrass me far too greatly. And I do not have the right to stop you from something you have exceeded in. Perhaps just do not speak of anymore politics. Or anything about our marital bed. For both our sakes.”
“It may have been the wine from supper, but I believe you were trying to be funny just now.”
”Southern wine may have that effect, yes.”
The two of you laid in sweet accord, wrapped in the quiet comfort of one another, and the world seemed to held fast, as though time had forgotten its course. The love between you and your husband didn't come clad in gold and announcing itself alongside the vows of matrimony. Instead you felt it drift gently into your heart, like the rising tide of an unruly sea, while you sheltered within the haven of each other’s nearness.
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summary: as your secret writings grow in success, the proximity to your husband causes restraint to weaken- how will he handle a scandal entry about the failure of your marriage? how will he prove you it’s wrong? (wc: 6.2k)
warnings: detailed descriptions of sex, male masturbation, insane levels of yearning, fem reader, no first name mentioned, horny reader, secretly horny maekar
note: i highly recommend reading pt 1 first!! also im so glad a lot of you enjoyed part one, your feedback made me so happy!! hope u enjoy this part as well
Your trafficking of chatter had yet to slow, though your life improved in station and fortune. You felt no compulsion to spitefully scribble about lives who were better than yours, despite scandal.
The cruelty in your words were often rooted in envy. A heartless reminder to yourself that you were not alone in your misfortune. One hundred and twenty one days passed since whispers unmeant for your ears found yours. You kept your eyes from slumber nightly, so that you may drink them again.
Each Valyrian whisper a token of secret gentleness. The words began to vary in sweetness, some tender, some proprietorial. The broken confessions left you astonished each nightfall. Some words were too advanced for your understanding, though some phrases undid themselves like riddles in your mind.
Your familiarity with the language improved each passing night. As a silent favor of care, you began to siege the haven in which he hid from you. Replacing his ink, sharpening his letter opener, organizing parchment, polishing leather. He was under the impression servants had grown more meticulous, and that you did not know a word of Valyrian. And like most matters, he was wrong.
His feigned hatred became less convincing as days passed. You had a newfound respect for one another. Not affection, nor resentment. Just a general sense of toleration. You began to seek his company more frequently, to his dismay. Though his hushed proclamations betrayed him. Duties occupied your every moment when the sun hung high. As night fell, It grew your custom to sip wine together within your shared chambers. You both grow merrily drunk, as he pours forth his condemnation of fate and the tiresome humours of court.
“Fucking idiots.” He mumbled, shaking his head. The keep lay shrouded in stillness whilst the children took their rest. In that hush, your husband’s grievances found voice. He sat tensely in his most favored lounge chair, close enough to be given warmth from the crackling hearth.
You stood behind him, fingertips kneading the stiff, stressed muscles of his shoulders. The act was to your preference, given he would not see you rolling your eyes as he went on about his insipid troubles. To relieve him of strain was the only time he allowed such contact.
“You will find the scandal writer soon enough. I estimate she is of Northern blood.”
“Humour me, wife. Explain to me.”
“Well, her false name lacks any indication of where she may reside. If she was southern or perhaps somewhere in the middle, she‘d choose an exaggerated Northern name. But, if she is from the North, it‘d be best to use a name that could not be recognized anywhere in the Seven Kingdoms. To remain neutral, rather than using a southern name, which is her total opposite. It would lead us right to her. And Gods know northern maesters are proficient in the pursuit of language. I hear literacy is common amongst northern common women. Surely she has learned elaborate words from them. If she is even a she at all. Or if it is the work of more than one person. Besides, these writings are surely a means of boredom. What is there to do up North anyhow?”
Your writings became more treasonous than the last. The hunt for Hollowmere became an endeavor every member of the court had undertaken. Nobles do cherish a hunt. And their prized catch happens to sit amongst them, learning their every tactic.
It proved advantageous, altering the deployment of ravens depending on their strategies. The burden of your wrongs weighed heavy.
You had become a device of truth, a vessel of verity. If you cease your writings, you will be discovered, upon seeing how the relief has improved your mood. And just because the scrolls stop, does not mean the hunt will.
Each word you dare commit to parchment binds you tighter to a pit of sin, the chastisement swelling with every scroll, until you are confined within the narrow bounds of your own wrongdoing.
“It is possible. Merchants who sell the writings will be interrogated, bribed for word. The Wall will soon be crawling with traitors to the crown, I’m certain.” He shrugged as you continued your assault on the expanse of his shoulders. Your movements slowed, as you spiraled into a doubtful worry.
Your movements slowed, as you spiraled into a doubtful worry. You had not named yourself when exchanging ravens with common folk. Did your lack of words regarding The Anvil‘s Lady reveal itself? It would be long before you forgave yourself, for a means did manifest before you. The preservation of your identity was crucial. Your good name could afford insipid slander. As well as his.
***
Dearest Gentle Reader,
It is with most delicate restraint and undeniable fascination, that I turn my quill toward a matter that has, as of late, set many whisper fluttering through drawing rooms and banquet halls alike. For in a season otherwise rich with blossom and expectation, there exists one union curiously untouched by nature’s most anticipated blessing. Pray, cast your thoughts upon a certain royal coupling, whose vows were once apprehended with such heed that even the oldest amongst us declared it a match cursed by fortune itself.
Their keep is vast, titles secure. And yet…the cradle remains empty. The Anvil and his young bride seem to merely tolerate one another, which is most unsurprising, given the Prince’s coldness. This author must also take note of the Prince’s fulfillment of duty, having given the realm six children already. Nevertheless, dear reader, feigned affection for prying eyes sustains a marriage of consequence.
Duty, expectation and most crucially, issue, form the pillars upon which such alliances stand. Without them, even the grandest union may find itself…wanting. Moon blood continues to soil their sheets as the Princess is not yet with child. Or perhaps not laid with at all. Is the Prince incapable of performing his marital duty following his first wife’s abrupt demise? Or is there something undesirably plain regarding his current bride?
A barren womb or a troubled widow? And so the question remains, whispered behind cupped palms and carried upon the breath of scandal: is this merely a pause before joy, or the first crack in a most carefully constructed facade? As ever, I shall observe with the keenest interest.
Yours in curiosity and candor,
Lady Hollowmere
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“You said what to her?” Through the oaken barrier crept Baelor’s voice, and you, with an eager ear, laid yours upon the door’s cold face. You knew the words exchanged in the other room were not for yours ears. It was erroneous.
The procurement of your decorum was a brittle conviction, given it is what had beckoned your ear to the door. The brothers words were concise, sharp berates, that never seemed to grow louder than a murmur.
You have wrought a cage of your own choosing, and now you must dwell in it. Coin would grow scarce if your words did not grow harsher. Every word promised you to the fondness of rope and the pardoning from livelihood. It was a fearsome reality you have burdened upon yourself, plagued by the lives victimized by your debauchery. The ravens have nearly made a slave of you.
”I reminded her I had a wife. And she is not her.” The familiar hoarseness rang in your ear. His tone carried little trace of remorse. The words brought you back to where you stood in that study, astonished by the cruel jest your life revealed itself to be. Moments before your eyes found quill and parchment.
You empathized with that angry girl, longing for the impossible chance to tell her the joke that is your life is rather humorous, if you would just laugh. There was a deal you had dealt with every sinister evil in this realm, obligated to fulfill its wicked whims. You are shackled by your own quill.
The starved public no longer wished to read about jovial dalliances and petty disputes. It is blood they craved, words like lashings upon the backs of those who surpassed them in life. You had spat upon the cheek of every noble. Even your own.
You had gone as far as faking trouble reading, claiming words and letters move on parchment. The protection of your identity became something you’d endure humiliation for.
“And yet, we debate why she has not given herself to you. It is too obvious to examine, brother. You have shunned her from any chance of winning your favor. She is not Dyanna, but she is no trifle either. She is as good as any. To her, she is substandard in your eyes.”
True to his nature, Baelor rides in the defense of the weaker cause.
“Yes, well, it’s not as though I demanded her to take my side, did I?”
”It was expected of you, brother.”
”I never asked for another fucking wife.”
If you were any fragile lady, tears would have spilled from the rims of your eyes. It was nothing you hadn’t heard before. With time, you familiarized yourself with his detest for tenderness.
Vulnerability frightened him like no joust or bloodshed could. His cruel tongue was a means for a shield, a buffer to uphold his severity. Borne of southern heat and yet he was written by winter, kissed by cold gray bloom. You did not fear him, nor did you take his rigor to heart.
”I forbade a bedding ceremony, because I trusted you would do your duty. And you jeopardized her position in this court for your own selfish impulse.”
”And you’d rather I perform the act, and treat her with the same apathy? To burden her with a child she’d father with a stranger?”
”Behold the crown’s custom, brother. I loathe the notion no less than you.”
You wished to see their faces as they exchanged words. You pictured your husband’s lasting scowl, his jaw flexing in the midst of his ire. Baelor with his hands clasped behind his back, with a tilted head.
”So, this writer, she speaks the truth? You have not yet finalized the union?” Your eyes were denied the chamber’s sight, yet you were certain Maekar was nodding in somber resolve.
“She…the Princess does not hold me in such regard. I am partly at fault, but it shall not soon be undone. Our marriage is…abstruse.”
You withdrew your ear in surprise. It felt out of his nature to use such a flowery word to describe something so plain. You held little esteem for one another, but you were man and wife after all. Obligated to accompany one another.
But, to him, you were blithe to the reverent whispers, when you appeared to be deep in sleep. Your reciprocated passivity was necessary, so that you may continue hearing them.
“And I find your perception false. She sends for you much more frequently. Surely it is not because she loathes your company. By persistence and courtly grace, her heart may yet be persuaded.”
“Ha, I am not courting the woman. That is a ridiculous notion, given we are already married.”
”Are you?”
The cold plain of the chamber door offered you silence following Baelor’s words. A stiff, unyielding, forceful silence. Just as you thought to leave, that Maekar will storm out in a fit of rage, he speaks.
”If that scroll had not been so fucking untimely, I might’ve had a chance. But she will discern my efforts without fail, now that there is talk. I must be wiser with my contrivance.”
“Or, you can be honest, and simply pay heed to her feelings. I am not suggesting coercion. I am suggesting you tread at a pace with her best interest in mind. Affection is much less fickle and taxing than you think. Feigning your devotion will be no great task. You’ve endured far worse.” Verily, to fake such warmth was far from his main worry. What frightened him most was the honest stirrings of his soul. Something he had guarded like fine gold.
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Your knees were once again taken by a familiar anguish, once again met with a stone floor. Fortunately, you were able to take your leave before they left the study. In your newfound rite, you kept vigil by the hearth of your bedchamber, where letters are engulfed by fire’s embrace.
Parchment written with cold hands, burned the same way warm ones did. Ravens that came from every way of a compass, all were rendered into ash alike. The pages curl as though in whispered protest, ink darkening before it yields. Edges glow like dying suns, as the flame licks its way through the words. The song of gentle crackle sings, till it is reduced to a soft, sighing drift of ash. Oh, to be that curious blaze.
To be lit up from within, vein by vein. To be the sun. As the flames bloomed, you felt the warmth caressing your cheeks. Perhaps it is a brief taste of the burn you will endure in all seven hells.
Your gown blossomed in soft folds around your seated frame, whilst you gathered your knees unto your chest, as if to ward off some unseen chill. The parchment, alight and consuming, drew your eyes in a cruel fascination, as though they had bewitched your will. You pondered if your husband found it odd how servants never tended to our hearth. For it was fueled solely by the secret you hoarded feverously. The sting of ash in your eye and itch in your throat was a punishment of your own design.
“Are you cold?” His stern voice roused you from your addled trance, rescuing you from the abyss of your thoughts. They often went blank as you stared into the flame.
”I am well.” You replied, eyes still fixed on the hearth. It was plain to you his asking was in light of the prior discourse. The one you should not have heard.
“Is there anything you require?” A newfound gentleness found his voice, an unconvincing display of care.
“Only silence, my Lord. Which I’m certain will pose little interference with what you always require.” A hitch of silence breathes between you, along with the hisses and pops of the fire. With a long measured sigh, a weight sinks heavily into your every bone. You felt yourself succumb to the fatigue of stealth, so drained by the restlessness of my antics. It was a petty lament, the soreness in your fingers, the depletion of thought onto paper.
”And what do I always require?”
A fine dust from an early pyre, you wanted to say.
”My absence.”
Your eyes flick to your feet, beseeching your lips to remain shut. He had spent hours debating the topic with his brother just moments ago. You did not wish to test him. Without a word, he stood beside your seated form.
Before you could apologize for your austerity, he sat beside you, heavy lids gazing mindlessly into the hearth. He heaved a sigh similar to yours as you both came undone before our fire.
The distance between you was cumbersome, reminiscent of your wedding night. Yet it lacked the same rigidity. You yielded unto ease with him at your side, simply reveling in the warmth of your chambers. Not a word stirred in the air, not even a whisper.
As long moments passed, you tore your sights from the heap of char. A glance turned to a stare as you mapped his face. Though his eyes remained transfixed upon the flames, you watched as their glow danced across his blemished skin. The silvery gold hair of his jaw, the exhaustion in his stare. It was remarkably endearing, drinking the sight of him. A troubled, imperfect man. With a strange neglected beauty.
The glance began to border greed as your sights returned to the fire. There was a foreign haste in the drumming of your ribs. A heat in your cheeks unrelated to the fire before you. He had given you exactly what you required, silence, whilst proving what he didn’t. Your absence.
“The children have taken a liking to you.“ He spoke. It may have been the highest praise he‘s given you since…ever.
“It‘d be a pity if they didn‘t, considering I am tasked with looking after them.“
You ended your remark with a breathy laugh. It was then you and Maekar‘s eyes met, your gazes warmed by the hearth before you.
“Well, you‘re managing the nettlesome brood you‘ve been saddled with well.“ You hum in reply, amused by his urgency to flatter you. Had Baelor truly infiltrated his mind so thoroughly? Or was this the work of your writing?
“You know, when I play with the children in the garden, they insist on reciting to me their reenactment of the Blackfyre rebellion. It‘s silly and watered down, but…they always fight over who gets to play you. It‘s the highest honour they can think of. I know I have assumed the role of their mother rather swiftly, but they still need you. They love their father. But we must love and raise them together. I am not trying to replace what you grieve, husband. But the children need both of us, which means we must be civil. Like…“
You racked your brain for a similar dynamic that could describe yours in an understandable way. Or at least use imagery he‘d resonate with.
“Like a fletcher and bowyer. So that way we might be well-mannered to one another, but work proficiently."
“That sounds manageable. I will try to be more present.“
Time, the sly and silent thief, crept upon your tiresome bodies. You found yourself beneath the hush of your shared bed. As many nights before, you feigned your slumber, yet kept your ear keenly bent for secrets soft and lowly whispered. You awaited the harbored words with a vigilance, ready for them to ease you into rest.
“Ao jorrāelagon issa ñuha syt se qogror.” (loving you is my sweetest peril).
“Sōvegon, nyke ziry iksos gaomagon.” (hush, I’m trying to sleep). You murmured into the plush of your pillow.
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Nights passed in silent procession, and you were brought again to where you had first stood. Right back where you started. It seemed the Prince was not seeking an answer from you that night, embracing him from what he believed possible. He made himself scarce (again), refusing to see you following the events of that night.
The bed laid barren and chilled, yet you reserved his stead beside you, as though he might yet to come. The notion was foolish, his actions fickle. All your striving came to little worth. Your labours proved to be vain and fruitless.
Diligently pursued, yet rendered void. Was it amiss that you should mark his affection? What profit lay in his disdain of you, when even you knew the truth? To what end served his scorn? Your marriage was a trifling riddle, vexing, and unwilling to unravel. Fortunately, you had other concerns to occupy yourself with.
You sat before your desk, still in a state of nightly undress, making sense of the scattered ravens splayed across the wood. You begin gliding your letter opener through each scroll, noting the realm’s most promising scandals.
”Mad for the gambling halls, he is. Throws away gold and sense alike. It’s a ruinous path he walks, so I’ve heard.”
“He’s lost to vice and wagers. Spends what’s his and what ought not to be spent, heedless of all. A danger to himself and his own, M’Lady.”
”The man’s bewitched by hazard and dice. Squanders his purse and shames his blood. No wit or caution left in him. Aye, tossing away coin like chaff in the wind.”
Separate accounts of Lord Lannister’s whoring and spending came from every corner of Westeros. It seemed to be all they could muster, as Lord Lannister made himself the easiest target.
At the hush of the maid's steps, you scramble to conceal your writings in a hurried disquiet. With feigned ease, you welcomed them into your chambers, languidly drawing your hand through your unbound hair.
You watched as they dutifully prepared your garments, a concise rhythm like second nature. Nimble fingers loomed through your hair, heels of palms pressing fragrant oils to the skin below your ears. In a quaint vigil you sat, warm tea meeting your lips as you were obediently tended to.
”Your Grace, the Prince would have you receive these as a most humble gift.” The words nearly drew a laugh from deep within your chest. A gift? From my husband? Was she new at Summerhall? With reluctance, you reached for the box she offered you, intently studying the contents.
A fine pair of earrings, wrought in fine silver. Rubies adorned the garments, their crimson gleam catching the morning light like drops of fresh wine. They were exceptional.
“Right…how thoughtful.“ You murmur, your tone riddled with a mocking disbelief. It seemed unlikely a reclusive, ill-tempered, war hero would have such refined taste in jewels. As you gazed into the gems, your vexation only worsened. He refuses to sleep beside you, after answering him in Valyrian, refuses to meet your eyes, refuses to grasp your very existence. And you are gifted…earrings?
With an exasperated scoff, You attach them to your ears. Now it is your turn to refuse, and deny how well they compliment your complexion.
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The great hall where you broke your fast was host to a mischievous company indeed. Four restless, troubled boys, two rowdy young girls and a stepmother whose writings strayed close to treachery. Yet their quarrels, bright and unserious, wove themselves into air so often, what was once discord became a strange soothing refrain.
“Where is father?“ Aemon whined beside you, a book laid in his lap as he ate.
“He is rather occupied, unfortunately. So it is me who you are stuck with.“ You joke, ruffling his hair, earning youthful giggles from the boy. In light of your neglect, you had grown close with each of them. Even Aerion, to your bewilderment. The naive hope of having a child of your own felt as though it had slipped from your fingers. Though you were bound to their company by duty, your chance of motherhood felt somewhat redeemed.
“Why is my wine watered?“ Daeron‘s words are slurred as he inspects his goblet as though it had been laced with poison.
“Because it is merely dawn. The only time you should be drinking is when the moon rises. Not the sun.“ With a theatrical groan, he leans back in his seat, defeated. You stared across the table, eyes boring into the vacant seat before you. You could so much as trace his scowl in thin air.
Though he stood absent in body, his spirit lingered grievously. You pined to behold him seated opposite from you. You wished to be thought upon with fondness. The same kind he showed you when he thought you asleep.
“Mother?“
“Mm.“
“When do you suppose Lady Hollowmere will write of my search for a wife?“ The laughter that escapes you is instant and boisterous. Uncontrollable, in fact. Tears pricked at your eyes, breath escaping your lungs. You felt yourself begin to turn a flush crimson shade, resembling your gown. You ceased your laughter upon realizing you were alone in your amusement.
“Oh, Aerion, dear, I am deeply sorry. That was… ill-mannered of me..“ You wipe at the stray tears, composing myself for your step son‘s sake.
“What is so humorous? I am in earnest, mother. I intend to take one soon.“
“Seven above, finish your eggs first. Then you may seek any unlucky woman you please.“ Your jest is met with an eyeroll reminiscent of his father. An eyeroll you‘ve been subjected to far too many times.
“I‘m certain Lady Hollowmere has far more pressing concerns to write about, brother.“ Daella squeaks from her seat, playful malevolence in her tone. You had given little heed to the fact they had been reading the scrolls.
You began to weigh each word within your thoughts, seized by dread of what they might discern of those they were raised to respect. By what artifice could you deny them Lady Hollowmere?
“Those scandal writings are not for your eyes. None of yours. There is an entire library just paces away. You all have no tenable reason to be reading such filth.“ The words have a firm rigidity, a tense quiet blanketing the hall.
They mumble words of apology, glancing nervously at one another. The thought of them reading the scrolls provided you little comfort. But my, what exquisite taste they had. With a repressed sigh and plastered smile, you rise from your seat.
“Now, if you will excuse me, I will attend to your father and see how he fares.“
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The fear that once coiled in your stomach, unraveled itself, reborn as wrath of iron and will. With a fierce, steadfast ire, you sought his study, as though summoned by fate. There was an unrelenting thunder in your steps. A purpose sharp as steel. He held no claim to deny you. You considered mercy, had he not gifted you ruby earrings.
The gesture stung with insult. He judges you so shallow, it seems, that such trifles might appease you and banish you from his life. You were the hound he so dutifully trained. Ruby and silver were as good as stale bread, in comparison to his presence. How you wished to be content with heaps of jewels. How you wished to feel equally inclined to shun him, as he shunned you.
With a strangled anger, you allow yourself into his study, allowing the doors to shut in a muted click. His eyes refused to leave the parchment before him, as though he was preparing for war. A veiny, rigid hand carded through his silver hair, a fractious sneer on his lips.
“I did not send for you.“
“I don‘t recall you ever have.“
Your candid words linger in the air, the room accommodating a newfound heaviness. Between you lingered a grievous strain, eager for your bitter tongues. Like a drawn bow, quivering before fatal release.
“You know, entering this marriage, I reckoned I would often be the one to sulk like a scolded child. To my astonishment, the child is you. Alone, brooding in your solitude and held fast to every duty your father entrusts you with. Though they are never of any worth. Fourth son.“
You hadn‘t anticipated the remark to leave your lips with such spite. Ever saddled with his unamused frown, he lifts his head, sparing you a glance.
“Have I done something, woman? Are the earrings too heavy for your empty skull?“ His jaw clenches as his eyes narrow, spurring me further.
“Fuck your earrings. You may shower me with however many jewels you please, but none will keep me from this room. From you. Remember? Fletcher and bowyer?“
A vagueness plagues his eyes. Like a harbored, frustrated, remorse. A glance that shuns you. A glance like an apology.
“Will you compose yourself? How many times must I deny you? When will you understand I do not want you?“
“You did once, clearly. When I lay awake, faking sleep.“ His frustration was displaced by embarrassment, a crimson flush creeping up his collar. The silence swelled, dense and oppressive. It pressed harshly upon your lungs, depriving you of ease. Reluctantly, you approached his desk, honoring the sovereign ground he calls his own.
“Speak plainly then. We have been wed for nine months, yet I remain untouched. If you deem me repulsive, then give me peace of mind. I will not take it to heart.“
“You are repulsive. In character, that is.“ In his own troubled way, he had managed to compliment you. It was difficult to conceal your flush as your charged conversation was yet to meet an end.
“It is not my intent to berate you. I am sorry for my brutality. It is only that I have beaten myself to a pulp, to prove I am deserving of being your wife. Caring for children that are not mine, attending to this keep, going above what my station expects of me. I do not wish to stay hidden from you, behind those doors, because you will not allow it. And I do much more than care to admit, to prove that to you.“
It is at this point his quill is resting in a vile of ink, his parchment set aside.
“And what is it, you‘re proving to me now?“ His stare was piercing, a scrutinizing audience of your vulnerability.
“That if I must leave my home, my family, my customs, my life, it will not be for a man I do not know. I do not ask for much. Only that you return to our bed, help me off my mare after riding, speak to me every so often. And you cease embarrassing my position in this court. We shall inform the court our duties of marriage have been met, and I am not to carry forth a child.“
He replies with a solemn nod, his lips a firm line. You patiently stood before his seated form, awaiting words.
“Have you gone mad, woman? You think it is an accident, the distance I keep you? Seven above, if you only knew. There is nothing I mourn more bitterly than the man I have failed to be. I am sorry I am not the lord of your girlish dreams. I am sorry the road of your life curved so cruelly that it led you to my side and no one else’s. Pity me if it pleases you. I have pitied myself enough for us both. I know you heard me…those nights past. Those words were spoken by a frightened man hiding from truths he lacked the courage to face. But heed this, wife, every step I take away from you is taken for your sake. I would sooner bear loneliness than see you harmed by drawing too close to me.“
“I am not so easily frightened. Certainly not by emotionally stunted princes who think it best to never touch their wife.“
Your steps drew closer to him, causing him to stand, stepping away from his desk. Your chest was nearly flush with his as you peered up at him. You could see his restraint weakening like a rope ready to snap.
“Prove me wrong, husband. Touch me, if it pleases you. It would certainly please me.“ Your voice became a quivering whisper despite the lewdness of your words. He swallowed, his stare never daring to leave your eyes.
“Take me right here, on your desk. Put your mouth on me. Let me learn every part of you. Please.“ His breathing labored in his chest as he felt his breeches begin to tent. Gods, it took everything in him not to take you in his arms and claim in ways that would make a whore blush.
He envisioned pursuing every filthy fantasy, showering you with the brutal force of his devotion to you. The ravenous hunger of his affection.
But, he deemed the situation in his pants something he’d tend to when you took your leave, and when he could let your name fall from his pleading lips.
With his lips just a hair’s length from yours now, he turned, seating himself back into his chair. With a scoff you storm out his study, your hands aloft in utter disbelief. Maekar heaves a sigh when he hears the door shut.
His attention shifts to his rigid cock, throbbing in his breeches. He groans at the feeling, angered with himself. He wanted nothing more than to touch you, revel in the feeling of your soft skin. Or have you tend to him beneath his desk and he tried to keep focus. The thought drove his band straight down, freeing his cock to bob against his thigh.
He took it into his palm, so eager for the feeling to leave him. To be freed from the torment of keeping you out of his reach. He lets out a breathy groan as he begins to drag his hand up and down, head falling back against his chair. He pictured you riding him in his study, languidly rolling your hips, teasing him. Chasing your own high. Using him like a good husband.
He envisioned your tits swaying in his face, fighting to take a hardened peak into his mouth to suck.
“Fucking hells…”
He whines under his breath as his strokes hasten in fervor. The thought of taking you from behind pops into his mind. How your desperate mewls would sound against the pillows. How the gentle curve of your back would arch with each punishing thrust. How he would murmur in your ear to “take him like a good girl”, while giving a few slaps to the flesh of your ass.
Maekar’s mouth fell open as he breathed heavily, ugly. Loud, breathless pants pleading for you. To hold you within his arms, to kiss you where you liked, to caress you where you moaned.
“Fuck- mmm, yes-yes-yes”
Maekar listlessly begged as his fist moved faster. He was beginning to sweat in his seat, hoping no one in the corridor could hear his groans or sounds of wet skin.
Then as he felt himself teetering on the brink of his pleasure, his need for you overtook his senses.
“Uh huh-fuck-such a good girl…gods, let me fuck you, pretty thing. Could make you f-feel so fucking…”
His trailing words were replaced with wanton whimpers as he came into his palm. He shuddered, cursing under his breath as he pictured filling you up. Fulfilling his duty.
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Aemon rested heavily against you as you wandered the hushed corridors, striving in quiet earnest to not wake the slumbering child. It became all too clear your arms were unfit for motherhood, as they trembled beneath his motionless weight. You found him, face down amid his reading in the library, the hour unspeakably late.
You gathered the sleeping boy, returning him to his chambers, though rest would have had him remain. The trek doubled in length, as you navigated near darkness and Aemon‘s dead weight in your hold. You anticipated the remainder of your evening as you walked, envisioning the void bed and the haunting stillness of sound.
The nights you had spent in solitude seemed to feel unbearably silent, vacant of all livelihood. It was as though the air held its breath, weary of reminding you you are the only one to hear its drifting sighs. Despite his absence of body, you prepared his side of the bed each night, longing for the familiar dip in the mattress.
*CLUNK* Your palm flew to the back of Aemon‘s head as it collided with the stone walls, glancing around the corridor in search of potential witnesses. You mutter a hushed apology to the boy, grateful there were no servants to observe your clumsiness. After what felt like moons, you opened his chamber door, onehandedly lighting a candle so that the child would not be subjected to further head injuries.
You bestowed the boy upon his bed, seeing him well with rest. Yet with a gentle stirring he awoke, and knew himself restored unto his own chamber.
“Mother? Did you mark the place in my book?“ A yawn slips past his lips, tugging his covertures to his chin.
“I did, not to worry.“ You falsely assured him, taking the candle from his bedside. He seemed appeased by the falsehood, eager to return to his rest. You offer him a final smile, rising from the edge of his bed.
“Those earrings are most lovely.“ His tiresome words are slurred as his eyes flutter shut. You pinched the candle‘s wick, the room yielding unto darkness.
“Rest well, sweet boy. I will see you in the morrow.“ You withdraw yourself, the chamber door shutting quietly from behind you.
With weary, leaden steps, you made a slow return to your chambers. You hungered greatly for the gentle embrace of sleep. The tender grace of slumber's quiet hand. It is the only respite you are granted, so absorbed by pursuits and obligations. It was a quiet moment unfit for your solitude.
A blissful stillness not to be hoarded. No sooner had you entered your chamber than a strange vision did present itself, which you deemed a shadow of your own fatigue. Yet, it was true. There he lay beneath the gentle coverings of your bed. He laid in stillness, as if in tender vigil for your return.
“The hour is rather late.“ He remarked from his place in bed, knees bent slightly to support a book resting in his lap. The image was nearly verbatim of what you had seen in the library.
“I did not expect you. And I certainly didn’t expect you to await my return.“ You did not stray from your nightly pursuits despite his disrupting presence. As you withdrew pins and braids from your hair, the room fell into a familiar quiet. You remained in a thin chemise, hair spilling from your shoulders.
“If you must know, I was returning your son to his chambers. Seems he does not know when is appropriate to retire, just like his father.“ You taunted, lifting the covertures to slide into bed. Composed in comfort, you turned yourself to him. Amidst the dull candlelight, you study his face with a quiet reverence, regarding his visage as he reads. You committed every scar and line to memory, marking each feature with a careful eye.
“It is unseemly to gape.“ His gruff voice mumbles, eyes transfixed to the page of his book. Armed with a newfound resolve, you shut the volume upon his lap as though to draw him from its spell. Reluctantly, his exhausted stare finds yours.
“And it‘s unprincely to dottle.“ You grin at your own petty taunt, settling further beneath the covers. Regardless of how many juvenile mocks you may torment him with, he always seemed to observe your gratitude for his presence.
Your tired sight is met with a veil of black as he extinguishes the last candle, isolating you both to the resolution of nightfall. You hear him stir beneath the sheets, settling with a sharp exhale. You count the seconds in your thoughts, just as you had the prior nights he laid beside you.
“Sōvegon ēdruta, ñuha ābrazȳrys.” (sleep well, my wife)
summary: your strange, distant marriage leads you to pursue writing westeros’s most revered scandal sheet. while you and your new husband harbor true feelings, you must navigate a new life as a step mother and lady of summerhall
warnings: arranged marriage, smut, wedding night consummation (sorta?), vaginal fingering, loss of innocence, maekar spits on your *****, no aftercare, alcoholism (daeron), maekar is bad with feelings, mentions of death
WC: 6k
note: definitely will be a part two! also, some scandal entries are directly inspired from real lady whistedown entries so if they sound familiar, that’s why! enjoy and let me know if you’d want to be added to the tag list for this series :))
The chamber door shut with a gentle thud. And with the door’s heavy sigh, all sound was swallowed by stillness. The straggling wedding merriment, the mortal ruckus had vanished. No whisper dared stir, as though the air itself held its breath. It was a tension so dense you prayed the stone floors would engulf you. To shield you from the unbearably stiff quiet.
You stood a modest distance from one another, merely five paces. Though it was just far enough to feel ill at ease. It was a night that you had been adequately prepared for. The entirety of the day felt as though your every muscle had rehearsed it. Every deliberate movement, with the intent of procuring your perfect day.
To your youthful dismay, it was far from perfect. Upon the announcement of your betrothal, you were offered no sincere congratulations. No one you knew from home met your eyes and said, you are vastly fortunate, my Lady!
You were graciously given solemn stares and consoling words. Your position in court had the same number of takers as aspiring leech collectors. Dear friends had mourned your departure like you would soon slay yourself in the matter of moons.
You knew of your husband’s image. Gruff, stern and unspeakably blunt. He had certainly hardened with age, that was undebateable. Despite the gossip, (and nickname), you oversaw the image bestowed on the man, and approached the remainder of your days with cheerfulness. Your home regarded you as positively charming. Why would the Prince see you any different?
“My Prin-“
”You are quite young.”
Oh, he’s a genius! you thought. Young, you were. Though you were under the impression he had taken note of that by now. Despite your age, you were now his political equal. Though, your composure surpasses his immensely, you‘d never boast about such matters, should your humility allow it. But you knew it was just as clear to the rest of the court.
His comment left a sneer on his face as his eyes assessed your form, from a cumbersome distance. You were merely four years older than his eldest son. If circumstances were different, you may have felt his cloak upon your back.
”But no less sensible I can…assure…you…that…” You trail off as he turns his back to you, striding toward the farthest side of the bed. Your spine corrected itself, anticipating instruction. Consummate and be done with it, you tell yourself as he settles onto the bed.
A sharp exhale leaves you as you undo your garment, the silk beginning to slide from the curve of your shoulder. You kept your eyes fixed upon him as you began to undress. While you could not slow your labored breaths, you remained attentive to your task. Your duty.
The silk fell into a puddle at your feet, the flickering candlelight cast over your bare skin. The lingering chill within the chamber scattered goosebumps on your skin, causing you to tense up. Sheepishly you approached the bed, watching him sit up as you crawled onto the mattress.
Maekar remained completely dressed, a bitter contrast to your vulnerable state.
“Lie back.“ He spoke with a gruffness that made your thighs press together. It wasn‘t cruel, or spoken with any intention of making you uncomfortable. It was simply his most gentle way of directing you.
You obliged, feeling your bare body sink into the mattress. You crossed your arms over your chest in an attempt to shield yourself from him, which to your surprise, he made no effort to move your hands. With coarse hands, he parted the soft flesh of your thighs that were clenched together. You spread your legs for him in response to the gesture, feeling yourself grow more nervous beneath his piercing gaze. His hands found your thighs once more, soothing the skin of the inside. The closer he got to your pussy, the more you felt your breath stall in your throat.
“This will be over soon, girl. Tell me and I will stop.“
His tone remained stern, steadfast to his duty. Though his words held no falseness to them. Yes, the way he speaks is gruff, like gravel running down a hill. Yet it became progressively harder to ignore the warmth growing in your stomach with each stern word he uttered.
His fingers gently began to trace your folds, earning a stifled gasp from you. It was unlike something you‘ve ever felt, let alone someone else‘s fingers. His touch was exploratory, tentative, heeding your small reactions. As his finger ran up and down your pussy, it began to collect the wetness he drew from you. But, that wasn‘t enough.
You felt it, a warm wet glob spat straight onto your eager cunt. Maekar continued rubbing the wetness up and down your slit, till he was seemingly pleased with the feeling.
His finger began to explore higher, gently rubbing your clit into little circles. The foreign sensation drew breathless whines from you, as you bucked your hips into his touch. As Maekar‘s finger returned to your core, you whimpered at the lost contact of your clit.
Though, he soon replaced the sensation with a long, thick finger, sliding itself inside your tight pussy. It stung, especially when he breached that small film of skin that confirmed your maidenhood. Yet as he withdrew the digit and drove it back deep inside you, the pain began to melt into mindless pleasure.
The sensation surprised you as the warmth deep in your tummy pooled. Your bottom lip caught between your teeth and you felt yourself being jostled by the new pace he set. He wasn‘t withdrawing his finger anymore, only thrusting them deep to hit the spot inside you that made tears well in your eyes.
You gripped the curvatures beneath you as you writhed beneath his touch. Wanton pants and moans escaped your parted lips, careless of how they may be embarrassing you before your husband (or a stranger, rather). Your hips bucked and humped into his hand as his fingers thrust harder, with a newfound haste in his touch.
“Mmmphh, my Prince- you- it feels so good, husband.“
Your whine was accompanied by the wet sounds of your pussy echoing through the chamber. Maekar grunted as he felt you clenching around him.
“Hush, needy girl. Hold still for me.“ His voice had sounded as though it had deepened. Maekar‘s tone remained stern and demanding yet it met your ears like silk slipping through someone‘s fingers. Through the haze of your aching pleasure you could see him restraining himself with every bone in his body. His cheeks bore a red flush beneath his beard, his chest heaving at a pace one could only mistake for ravenous hunger.
You only began to squirm harder despite his command, feeling the building pleasure in your core threatening to snap. You felt it grow with every brutish thrust of his finger. Until the feeling was so overwhelming, you had no choice but to succumb to the feeling.
“Fuck- my Prince I-ah, it‘s too much.“ His response to your pleads was a stifled groan as you felt your walls flutter around his fingers. The sensation climbed and climbed till it broke, drawing your bows into a tight pinch, allowing desperate moans to tear through your throat. You shuddered as your orgasm thrashed through you, Maekar fingers fucking you through your high.
As you felt it weaken and your core clench around its own emptiness, you let out a content sigh as your breathing slowed. While you enjoyed your after glow, Maekar inspected the sheets beneath you, lifting your hips slightly to grant himself a full view.
Whatever was he searching for? you thought. When you raised your head, your eyes snagged on what he had seen, a faint reddish blotch beneath you. It was proof you had been breached. Though, not necessarily bedded.
You opened your mouth, ready to ask if he was ready to actually consummate the union. The question never seemed to escape you as the room was soon blanketed in the shroud of nightfall. Maekar pinched the flame on his bedside, settling into the bed for rest to take him.
It had confused you entirely. Pleasant, yes. Anything your maids or mother spoke of? No. And it certainly wasn‘t anything that would result in children. Was proof you had been prodded at enough? Were you not to fall pregnant with his babe? As every noble wife should?
You sat in the darkness, still naked, utterly vexed as to what you were to do. For now, you decided it was nothing that would be solved in that moment, so it was best you sought rest instead.
You shuffled into bed, a cold distance from where your husband laid, faced away from you. Visions of your home, your family and everything you held dear seemed to plague your thoughts every moment you tried closing your eyes. Though to be granted sleep, you yielded to the sorrowful memories, praying every night of your life was not to be so dreary.
***
As the days wanned and waxed into weeks, you made yourself scarce. Attending every possible duty and indulging in every frivolous hobby. Your new gowns weren’t exceptional either. What was once elegant and pastel was now dark and heavy. Though your marital bed remained drier than sand it had grown colder than the North. You felt no dip in the mattress as you slept, no steady breathing beside you. Your “husband” had made it abundantly clear he felt no obligation to become better acquainted. Or speak to you at all. Or look in your direction, for that matter. Moons had passed and yet your marriage was still not legitimately consummated. Rather than succumbing to woe, you undertook being the lady of Summerhall and a mother to six troublesome royals.
The endeavor proved grievous, affording you scarcely a moment for your own pursuits. Leisure had become a rarity. Choosing fabrics for the royal seamstress, learning the ancient family dialect, reading ravens, sending ravens, attending to the children. And now, the botanicals, it seems.
”Are you certain, your Grace?” The caretaker of the royal gardens seemed startled by your request. You both stood before the withered, overgrown flowerbed of carnations. You had grown fond of the royal garden, though it could hardly compete with the one you had grown up with. The carnations were appallingly unkept, a heap of rotting petals. They may have bloomed years ago, by the looks of it. His hesitation was mildly insulting. You were a nature enthusiast, when day was done. If wisdom be yours in any measure, it lies in the study of flowers.
”Quite. This garden is in desperate need of something…invigorating. Something to enhance its charm. Not keep hidden behind wilted flowers. In my estimation, tulips, orchids and peonies shall do the task most handsomely. Wouldn’t you agree?” You offer the man a smile as you envision your proposal. He nods sheepishly offering you a worried grimace in return. Strange.
***
“Wha- you are letting me win!” Aegon pointed at the chess board, the disputatious boy pleased with his observation. You both remained in the silent library as night unfurled its sovereign bloom. Three candles illuminated the board, burning low as your match refused to seek a winner. Your chin rested upon your folded hands, raising a brow in feigned surprise.
”Daring of you to accuse me of such a thing.” You hum, taking your turn, deliberately giving him the perfect opportunity to take the king. The night grew dark and you were proving to be as old as your husband. In dire need of sleep after a day of listless, insipid tasks.
“There!! You did it again!!” His shrilly boyish voice rang through the library drawing a laugh from you. He was too smart for his own good. Yet, not smart enough to conclude you wanted to retire. You put an exaggerated look of shock on your face and a hand to your chest, earning a giggle from your opponent.
”That is utter nonsense! I would never!” Now it is the both of you laughing with little grace, filling the empty silence of the room. The likelihood of raising a child of your own grew slimmer every passing day. Though you were perfectly content in moments like these.
“Father!” The boy chirps, as your heart plummets into your gut. Your eyes go wide as you hear his footsteps draw closer, a frustrated haste in his stride. His impending presence was palpable, even with your back turned.
“Aemon, you are up quite late. With company I see.” You turn to face the boy’s father, offering something foreign to him. A smile.
”Oh, I am at fault, my Prince. Aegon could not sleep so I insisted a game of chess may ease his mind. Though he did play rather skillfully. You would be impressed.” He heaves a sigh at the explanation, deeming it verbose in his mind surely. What part of you bonding with his son did he find pernicious? You had put much effort into the matter. Wine tasting with his eldest, frolicking with his youngest. As for Aerion, you had little luck winning his regard. The girls seemed to adore you, insisting their maids replicate your hairstyle on them every waking morrow.
“Retire to your chambers, Aegon. You may finish the game tomorrow.” The boy nodded, flashing you a smile as he withdrew himself. Your reciprocated grin was cut brief, upon realizing Maekar meant to speak with you. What could he possibly want after avoiding you like the plague?
”Does something trouble you, my Lord?” You kept your voice gentle as you straightened your skirts. Your patience knew no bounds, much like his brother. If he wished to be angry, unable to find the right words, then you would welcome the unbearable quiet.
“They were hers. The carnations.” Without further explanation, you knew the woman in which he referred to. The woman whose shoes have dwarfed you entirely.
“I am…terribly sorry, your Grace. It was never my intent to over step. The fault is mine.”
”Do not coddle me, woman.” His tone grew firm, the tone he used in political discourse. The tone he uses to evoke fear. It was purely calculated tactic. You were unafraid of your husband. And you certainly do not cower behind babbling apologies.
“I am not coddling you, your Grace. I am merely conveying my regret. Apologizing for my carelessness. I know there is no replacing what you’ve lost. Man and wife should be able to have such conversations, without fear or judgement.”
”I had a wife. And you are not her.” In a fleeting second, he turns, withdrawing himself. Like he had done since the day you wed, he marooned you in solitude. Cast you into a dark quiet where no solace dwells. A companion to none.
His gruff words impaled your now rotten sense of hope. He does not even wish to try to start anew. You are forced to care for the children she cannot, and rejected by your husband, wistful for his late bride. But I am right on time, you thought. You were meant to marry at this age, to be enamoured, to have children of your own. Yet you were confined to a marriage your husband was still mourning.
The feeling made you writhe in your own skin. You weren't a woman of hubris or pride. Yet it pained you to blend so seamlessly into the walls. So overlooked, unforgivably undermined. Another radiant noblewoman forced into red and black. You were proven to be too cheerful for this family. Too quick to smile. As though your own warmth had outcasted you.
You exhausted yourself, competing with a ghost. Rivalling ash. To hold you to her standard was unjust. It was dishonorable, to make you contend with the dead. If they meant to disregard your value, you shall disregard theirs, you decided. Beat their image to a pulp. Slay their false prestige. Why stop at the royal family? Why not uncover every misdeed and flaw noble families harbor like sin? Relay every detestful thought you shooed from your mind. Every snarky jest you had to stifle by biting your tongue.
There was truth to the bitter assessments. And Seven knows greed is unladylike. The amiable thing to do is share. Before you could defy the immoral tempt, your gaze flicks to the parchment and quill on a desk. How it begged it to be used. To be a device of callous truth. Who were you to deny it such glory?
Dearest Gentle Reader,
As the bells of septs toll and the candles burn in noble halls, there arrives amongst you a humble scribbler. One who keeps no banner, bears no crest, and yet observes more than many a lord. It is my kindest intention to set quill to parchment and faithfully recount the triumphs, follies, dalliances and indiscretions that flourish so abundantly in our realm.
One may wonder by what authority I undertake such task. The answer is relatively simple: none at all. Yet, while knights ride to tourneys and ladies exchange honeyed words behind their jeweled fans, someone must preserve truth of what truly passes between them.
And what a fortnight it has been.
Lord Arryn was observed departing a maid‘s chamber well after the moon had been hung at its highest. Though the Lord claims he had merely been discussing the matters of estate management, one suspects broomsticks were not the only items receiving close examination that evening.
Nor may this author neglect the unfortunate incident at Lord Tully‘s feast, wherein two noblemen nearly came to blows over an emerald necklace, a disrupted inheritance, and if—whispers speak true—the affections of the same maiden. The necklace survived the encounter. The gentleman‘s dignity did not.
Yet these matters are but the smallest drops in a very deep goblet.
For beneath every velvet cloak lurks a secret, behind every courtly smile a hidden ambition, and within every grand castle chamber a tale begging to be told.
Rest assured, dear reader, this author shall keenly discover them all.
Until then, guard your reputations carefully.
One never knows who may be listening.
Yours most observantly,
Lady Hollowmere
***
Lady Jena snickered to herself as she brought a Dornish red to her lips. It has been one month since you made a slave of all ravens. As the slander scrolls made their debut, noble houses became fussy, displeased and utterly captivated.
They were amusing each other with their own transgressions and wrongs. A scene of rare hilarity, as they laughed heartily at one another. All stirred by the governance of your own quill.
The fear you dangled above their noses simply because you wield the pen and them, the foolishness. The transaction of gossip for coin turned out to be a remarkable sum indeed. You used the proceeds to employ more ears across the realm, harvesting filthy dalliances and common yammer. Every scroll sold more than the last. It became the name on everyone’s tongue.
“Do the scrolls amuse you, my Lady?” You ask, your tone more smug than you would’ve liked. Jena and you were now sisters, (mostly). She was fascinating company to keep. Her words were thought provoking, or plainly provocative, depending on her cups.
“How could they not? She is the first gossip writer to address the subjects by name. I should like to meet her, before she is hanged.” Her remark earned a scoff from you. You glanced around the royal terrace in which you lounged.
Beneath the kindly gaze of the sun, your spirits were made warm as the hours passed. Humorous stories and womanly horrors spilled freely from your lips in the company of greenery. You minded your tongue, omitting any details about the security of your coupling and the ink stains on your fingers.
Perhaps with time she will come to know of these things. After exiling the image of being hung, you set your eyes proudly upon your royal garden. A flowerbed of assorted beauties beside a now blooming bed of carnations.
“You know how court can be. So exacting, so much…propriety. It is exhausting to pretend we don’t fraternize with stable boys ever so often, or speak ill of our own kin. I think it is a remarkable thing indeed, even if we must endure the laments of the offended nobles. They should be learning discretion, rather than blaming the scribbler.”
Jena nodded slowly at your words. You could not be so obvious with your flattery, nor could you openly detest the writings. You had to remain impartial yet amused. A line finer than a rib in famine.
“And how often is it you fraternize with stable boys, my Lady?” She asked through a light chuckle.
“Till it starts to border on overindulgence, I’d say.” You both begin to laugh. Perhaps the heat had begun to melt your manners.
“The noble houses have only two choices. Put an end to their shameful deeds, or find clever ways to hide them.” To that, the rims of your goblets meet with a gentle clink. You sat before the chess board, callow nobles playing the opponent. You could give them every chance to win and prove their self proclaimed graciousness. You could eliminate every pawn and examine every fault. They could dare to outsmart you or succumb to your rules. But the wisest will let Lady Hollowmere decide for them.
***
Dearest Gentle Reader,
I must send felicitations to Lord and Lady Mormont. Congratulations and stamina as they embark on the most exhilarating time in a young couple's life. I am, of course, talking of the honeymoon. Is there a more romantic notion? To retreat from society together finally leaving watchful eyes behind.
You crumple the parchment in your palm, smearing your skin with black ink. Seven above, pull yourself together, you think. Lady Hollowmere‘s misfortune shall find no root in your envy. You’d be incapable of forgiving yourself if your own troubles jeopardized your writings.
You’d be incapable of forgiving yourself if your own troubles jeopardized your writings. Morning, tender and unrisen, found you seated at your desk in stillness. It was the only hour you were afforded the time to write, even if it meant wrangling your mind awake. Swaddled in a linen chemise, quill shaking in your grasp, unkept hair falling from your shoulders. Your eyes are hazy from rest, though your ears worked exceptionally. In the midst of your frustration, you were forced to abide the dreadful symphony of his sleep. Behind you, your “husband’s” steady hushed snores found your ears like ocean tide. A galling, nettlesome, abrasive, exasperating ocean tide. With a huff, your quill is reunited with ink.
Dearest Gentle Reader,
The frenzy of competition. The thrilling delight of hazarding your all. I am referring not to the lure of King Landing‘s gambling halls, but to a gamble with far higher stakes. Matrimony. For once that particular wager is placed, it cannot easily be undone. A fact which, I am sure, is met with both regret and sheer relief.
*Zzzzzzzz*
You whip around in your seat, spitefully glaring at the bane of your success. There he laid, sleeping as though he did not carry the burden of a secret so critical. As the sounds persisted, you resisted the urge to not write word of him committing loathsome debauchery, despite it being treasonous. The stifled snorts burrowed themselves deep within your good graces, bones and joints beginning to itch.
“WILL YOU STOP THAT?? I AM TRYING TO WRITE OF LORD AND LADY MORMONT‘S SEXUAL DEVIANCE, YOU SORRY EXCUSE FOR A HUSBAND!! I WOULDN’T BE IN SUCH STATE IF YOU WOULD JUST ACKNOWLEDGE I EXIST!!”
Your voice was hardly above a whisper, just loud enough for him to stir. Another sigh escaped you as you tried returning to your work a third time. You rubbled slow circles into your temples, undoubtedly spreading the ink onto your face.
If you allude to your own unhappy coupling, the small council will discover you like hungry hounds. If you write fondly of the Targaryen’s, the people will lose trust in you. If you write ill of the Targaryen’s, your ruby necklace will soon be replaced with rope. Similar to how you must speak of the scrolls, you must remain impartial. You are not regarded for hate speech. You are regarded for honesty. So falsehoods, they shall have!
Dearest Gentle Reader,
The chase, the hunt, the thrill. It is a fact that all the world is searching for something. And our dear court is no exception. Some are searching for meaning, others for their better halves, while others are searching for tranquility, much like the honorable Prince Baelor and the lovely Princess Jena; who have decided to seek respite in Summerhall this month. And for one of the court’s most notorious bachelor, Prince Daeron Targaryen, who was last seen arriving fashionably late to the Lady Anvil‘s banquet. Even the most determined rakes must bow to that most powerful of forces, mothers. This author cannot help but wonder what he is searching for. More wine? Sensibility? But be cautious of searching too hard, dear reader, for you might not always like what you find. Ladies of court may have a new prize to seek, the heart of a certain eldest son. It seems this free-spirited reveling drunkard has been seen chasing the regards of Ladies, intent on leaving bachelor life behind. This author can only speculate. Could it be this rake has reformed?
***
With steadfast heart and urgent step, you made your way in haste through the castle’s depths. The latest Hollowmere was now put in the covetous hands of the public, having sent the scrolls six nights passed. Surely, there are at least twenty vessels and ships making their way to the keep at this very moment. Not a breath could be wasted, time was dearer than gold in a pauper’s purse.
You greeted passing servants, maids and guards with an unyielding grin as your plan unfurled. Without breaking haste, you open the chamber door, humming to yourself as you open the drawn curtains,
“Good morrow, Daeron!” You hum, drinking in the state of his chamber. It was a sty, to put it kindly. Broken, assorted, empty, full bottles littered as far as the eye can see. Everything was so askew, it almost looked purposeful. It was no condition a wife should have to reside in.
“Come now, up, up!” You give several light slaps to the plane of his cheek as he begins to resurrect himself. With strangled whines, his eyes flutter open, adjusting to the light of day.
”W-wha…is something the matter, mother? Why must you wake me?” His voice gravelly from sleep. You snatch the bottle from the crook of his elbow, setting it on his bedside.
”Well, the sun has been up for quite some time. But, no matter. Your father and I are overjoyed by your news! This is momentous, Daeron! We are somewhat displeased with hearing the word from the newest Hollowmere, but-“
“Wait- wait…wha-Hollowmere? Whatever do you mean?” He rubs the fatigue from his eyes as you watch panic envelop his sullen features. To conceal the amused smile on your lips, you turn your back to him, beginning to tidy his chambers the best you could manage.
“Oh, have you not read? She has written on your search for a wife! There are twenty ships, thirty caravans and fifteen carriages making their way to Summerhall as we speak, full of eligible young ladies. So many prospects you will get to choose from. The choice will be taxing, I’m sure. They are all so eager for your favour.”
His brows furrow, looking as though this was a nightmare he could not wake from. He put his palm so his perspiring forehead, trying desperately to come to his senses. You watch vexation, anger and worry cycle through his mind as he finds his bearings.
“I-I said no such thing. It is a lie, what she has written.” You grimace at his plea for mercy, seating yourself at the foot of his bed.
“Lady Hollowmere doesn’t write rumour, she writes truth. Her words are practically gospel. Perhaps your drunken stupor left you no memory of such a declaration. But this will be advantageous, Daeron. You are of age and need to take a wife. Find a lady to your liking before your father marries you to a stranger. You should have that privilege, to marry for love. And if none of them are to your liking, I will send them back as soon as you wish. But you must promise me you’ll try.”
His eyes soften, seeing through you like a veil. Daeron was your son now, despite the small number of years between you. You accepted that responsibility as you accepted his father’s cloak on your back.
If you could shun him from being promised to a woman he did not know, you‘d do everything in your power. Marriage is just as political as war and dispute. A profitable transaction of virtue and binding promise. An economic, fiscal, monetary exchange of vows. But if you could give Daeron a chance of finding a love match, you would be content knowing someone will live the future you could not.
“Thank you, mother. I will try, for you.” You nod, beaming at the drunkard who is willing to endure hundreds of blood thirsty ladies, for the sake of making his miserable step mother happy.
“I know your indulgence is an escape. I know you are frightened by what you see. But, there is a charming man beneath all these cups. Ladies will prefer him, rather than Daeron the Drunken.” You tutted, reaching for the port you set on his bedside.
As you confiscated the bottle, you made your way to the door, allowing him to prepare for the remainder of the day awaiting him. Considering it is almost lunch.
“I will send for a barber. And a bath. And someone to clean this… bachelor lodging.” You offer him a final fleeting smile before you withdraw yourself.
Outside his door, you silently celebrated with yourself. You had done the unthinkable. You had gotten Daeron the Drunken to entertain the prospect of marriage. With the intent of finding love. Perhaps you really were the prophet Lady Hollowmere was rumored to be.
***
With no small measure of dread, you beheld the hour where you must commence the third scheme, one you had long feared above the rest. You held your next course of action in deepest apprehension. You sat in your husband’s study, in solitude, a heavy stillness blanketing the room. It was beyond my comprehension how he managed to achieve anything in this study.
Agonizingly quiet, and tidied to a suffocating degree. The impeccable precision of the desk, shelves, trestle tables were all too neat to even touch. You knew your marriage would be annulled the moment you laid womanly fingers on any of his belongings. So you sat, hands fixed in your lap, glimpsing around the one room in Summerhall you had not yet seen.
Though you suppose he won't be back for some time. There is little harm in just observing, right? Perhaps you could even learn something about the man you call a husband. His most favored book? Favored hobby? His handwriting? The quill he uses? There was so much discovery so few paces away.
You abandon my restraint, rising from my seat. You gawk at every small trinket, every tome and every undusted surface. It was a captivating exhibition that had immersed you entirely. A glimpse into where he spends his hours, away from you.
“Ahem.” The feigned throat clearing from the door alerted you of his return. He did not seem pleased with your snooping, but he did not order you to leave. You suppose that is a good start.
“Your Grace, I-I was just…looking. It’s n-“
”I did not send for you.”
”I’m aware. I came by my own accord.”
He hums in reply, though his face conveys an emotion too complex to decipher. His existence was a sick riddle. One you would spend the rest of your days endeavoring to solve.
“Why?” His question came across as a demand, vexed as to why you meant to speak with your own husband.
“We have a certain eldest son’s future to discuss. I’m sure you’ve received word of Daeron’s search for a wife. I was meaning to inform you I’m hosting a ball, so that he may acquaint himself with eligible ladies.”
”My son does not swoon. He whores. He drinks. You will find no such luck in the matter.” You shrug at his candid words. He knew him better than you, sure. But that did not mean he could predict forthcoming events. Moody old bastard.
“As true as that may be, we do not know until we try. Someone may catch his eye. And I’m hopeful of it, so that we are not forced to marry him to a stranger. I mean…just look how content we are.” You chuckle to yourself, making light of my misery.
“We are plenty fucking content. Now go.” With a sigh of defeat, you begin your stride towards the door where he stands. You approach him with slow steps, the space between you growing smaller with each pace. With an arched brow he looked down upon you, assessing the mischief you wore on your face.
“I will host the gathering. You will be glad of it, my Lord. I swear it.” You extend your pinky finger to him, which only makes his brows pinch together in vexation. With sheepish hesitation, and apparent detest for such frivolous promise, he ensnares his pinky with your own. The action brought a pleased grin to your lips. It was the first time he had touched you since the wedding. Though your kiss was scarcely a kiss at all. Just a brief meeting of skin.
“Excellent. And do buy new ink, you are dipping your quill in mud.” He rolls his eyes as he opens the door to his study, ushering you out of it. With a brief and courtly smile, you withdrew yourself, waving daintily with your fingers.
***
The great hall gleamed like a reliquary of silver and red. Hundreds of beeswax candles burned in wrought-iron chandeliers overhead, their flames trembling against banners embroidered with red dragons. Long tables stretched the length of the chamber beneath black linen cloth, laden with roasted boar glazed in spiced honey. Silver goblets caught the firelight and scattered it like captive stars across the gathering.
Noble ladies shimmered in velvet and silk, jeweled sleeves brushing polished oak, while Lords laughed over brimming cups of wine dark garnets.
And beside you, your husband.
The title still felt strange upon your tongue. Husband. A man chosen by signatures and seals by alliances drawn upon parchment long before either of you had been consulted. Life between you remained stiff, despite your most charming nature. His defiance frustrated you, but it was nothing you allowed yourself to weep over.
Yet, that evening, something shifted. You felt it.
At first, you tentatively watched him out of pure curiosity. Voices swelled. Goblets clinked. The hall grew warm with merriment. And yet, amid all the splendor, you became strangely aware of the simple nearness of him. It was duty, yes. Though it felt more contained than that. Every brush of your sleeves, every time you clung to his arm tighter, startled him more than the fanfare of instruments.
You would often stand on your tip-toes to comment upon some amusing observation, often rooted in harmless cruelty. His acknowledgment of these remarks were low hums, only intended for your ears. Despite his efforts, you could sense his amusement in your jests.
Love, you once imagined, would arrive with thunderous certainty. A knight‘s triumph, a poet‘s declaration, a bolt from the clouds.
Instead, it came like snowfall upon an open field. Silent. Seeping. Gentle. Undetectable. Unnoticed by you until your world would transform.
The evening deepened and the candles began to burn lower. You found yourself hoping the feast would never end. Not for the revelry, nor the music nor the wine.
But because every time you glanced up at Maekar, you discovered another reason to remain.
The feast had been an overall success. Dazzling floral arrangements, a plethora of guests and a night entirely spent on the arm of your husband. You could sense the stiffness of his chest as you clung to him, greeting all who arrived. You were beaming, despite the circumstances. It felt real.
Being anchored to the man who vowed to love you, to protect you. Though he did not put much effort in either, it felt correct in a sense. Like jigsaw pieces finding one another. There were brief hitches of time where you‘d peer up at him, and watch his scowl relax into something more neutral. Not joy, or adoration, but tranquility. Your soothing presence ironed the wrinkles from his scowling face.
As for Daeron, he did not manage to meet a Lady worthy of his attention—to his standards, at least—and found himself swarmed with eager ladies all evening.
“Well, real attachment rarely forms over one feast. He‘ll find a lady to his liking as soon as he outgrows whores. And we will be patient, husband. We mustn't rush him into such matters. It‘s overwhelming for a boy his age.”
He gruffly hummed in acknowledgement. Not agreement, nor protest. Simply just, I can’t seem to disregard the noise coming from your mouth. You sat beneath the coverture of your bed, a silk white sleep shift affording you little warmth.
You reached over to extinguish the candles on your bedside, the wick hissing as your fingers pinched the flame. Your chambers were illuminated solely by the flickering light of the hearth. You restrained yourself from yammering, apprehensive you may drive him forth in dread.
It was most challenging to keep silent. For such a guarded, sullen man, you wished for nothing more than to berate him with your every whim. Your day, your progress on the harp, your sentiments on lemon tarts, your affinity for honeybees…
”What ever are you gawking at, woman?” His bitter tone impales the quiet, waking you from your daze. Unbeknownst to you, your eyes had not left his undressing form. His progress in the matter was small, still fully dressed, to a capacity. It was mildly surprising, given how long you had stared.
“Sorry, sorry. I shall give you privacy.” You rolled, turning your back to him. You suppose it is improper to see a man undress when you are not wholly wedded. Because you were not bedded, (not in the way that counts, anyway). With a sigh, you sink further into the mattress. The new position overwhelmed you with newfound ease, your weary frame a hair‘s length from sleep. You remained silent, your breaths deepening. It was enough to give the impression you were asleep. Especially to a man who could not see your face.
You feel the mattress dip beneath his weight as he climbs into bed. Your shared bed. The bed he had not slept in since your wedding night. You swallow your nerves, maintaining the farce of your own slumber. He groans, shuffling beneath the covertures.
You believe he had stilled, finally taken rest like you had. The following moments prove your estimation wrong, hearing him stir once more. The weight beside you grows closer, as he props himself on one elbow. In quiet vigil he drank you in. You gentle slope of your fluttering lids, the soft parting of your perfect lips.
To you, he was cold and hardened. It was his defense, a device of not letting you grow too fond or close. What in him was worth loving, he thought to himself. In his eyes, you were fair as the first blush of dawn upon the eastern hills. You moved with a grace that seemed borrowed from goddesses. Your countenance was as delicate yet striking as a rose newly awakened in a garden. Cheeks touched with the soft grace of youth. He was denying himself something he was addicted to, without even indulging in first.
He knew his feelings would surpass what he‘d allow, and felt it safer to let you live out your days away from him. But with wine on his breath and restraint growing thin, he couldn‘t help just gazing. When his stare grew in greed, he raised a finger, gently swiping a stray lock of hair from your face. His lips curled into a wounded smile, admiring you as you “slept“.
He was well aware your beauty was not your greatest adornment. If he was going to be forced to marry it would not be to a fool. You bore yourself with a noble kindness, a steadfast loyalty and a warmth that made hearth and hall alike feel blessed. You were his comfort and delight, but most of all his greatest peril. His most fearsome torment.
“Sōvegon ēdruta, ñuha ābrazȳrys.” (sleep well, my wife) You hear him croak as he settles into rest. It was a strangled sound, only meant for his ears. A hushed confession he harbored like secret. It wasn’t meant for you to hear, or understand. The words had stunned you as you laid, partially convinced you had dreamt it. Had he not seen the Valyrian text on your bedside?
Summary: you and your husband are having trouble producing an heir. luckily, daeron is given a remedy in the midst of his drunken stupor.
Warnings: mentions of infertility, brief mention of somnophilia, sex pollen, needy daeron, kinda sub!daeron, body worship, established relationship, drinking, heavy breeding kink undertones, no first name mentioned/ no use of y/n, daeron and reader are VERY in love
WC: 2.7k
Nearly a year had passed since your vows were spoken beside Daeron. Your union was one of rare harmony, for affection dwelled between you faithfully. You both found joy in one another‘s company, and understanding flowed as naturally as a gentle stream. No harsh words dared linger, and your hearts remained inclined toward one another.
Especially considering Daeron is no easy man to love. Despite his challenges you made them your own and restlessly helped him overcome his burdens. It was no easy feat, and there was still much to be done. There was a time he feared your children would be plagued by his visions, or he would forsee something unforgivable about the child.
The unlikely, complicated beauty of your marriage was well known to the realm. However, the royal cradle remained empty. The bed prepared for young dragons remained untouched, gathering silence where laughter ought to dwell.
Throughout town and country-side alike, tongues wagged with endless conjecture. Whether sickness had plagued you or Daeron, whether the Seven themselves had simply denied you the fruitful blessing or some other mystery pertaining to your husband‘s fondness of wine.
Yet all who beheld the two of you deemed your devotion true and steadfast.
Your love endured through idle speculation, yes, but that didn‘t stop Daeron from feeling like a poor excuse of a husband. You reassured him relentlessly, told him how the vision that besieges his thoughts does not make you love him any less. And he believes you, rightfully so.
At times wine would soften his spirit and draw forth tears he would sooner have hidden. All that he despised about within himself rose from the depths of his heart and stood plainly before him. Daeron sought to drown such thoughts beneath yet more wine and ale, but on one fateful night his sorrow left him stripped of all defenses.
“Easy, my Prince. Another glass and you‘ll drink yourself into the grave.“
The barkeep tutted Daeron as he draped himself over the counter, finding himself in another stupor. Demeaning thoughts taunted his mind as he sat, I‘m not the husband she deserves, and father would be happier with me in a tomb.
“Just one more, then I‘ll leave. Swear it.“
Daeron mutters through slurred words and half promises. Before he‘s given the chance to reach for his fresh new glass, he‘s met with another barkeep sliding it across the counter.
Barkeep was a bit of a strong statement. She was a frail older woman, age resting lightly upon her spirit. Though her body bore the marks of many winters. Deep lines framed her face, yet her keen eyes sparkled with knowledge gathered from herb, root and star.
Daeron could‘ve sworn his dreams were melting in with reality, unsure of where the other man left and when she had replaced him.
“No wine in your great castle, my Prince?“ The woman croaked, offering him a snide grin from where she stood, hunched.
“Or does the princess not like it when you indulge?“
Her grin deepens and she watches her bold words unfurl in his mind. Daeron would never be the sort of prince to inflict harm on an old woman for such words, especially not in his state.
“She doesn‘t mind. ‘Jus want to leave her to her own peace. I have given her little enough already. A rightful husband is to give a wife a family and future. I have given her neither.“
Daeron was slightly surprised at how fast the words left him, unmindfully tumbling from his wine-stained lips.
“You‘ve got it all backward, princeling. The question isn‘t whether you‘ve given her those things. The question is whether you‘ve shown her they still matter to you. Ain‘t much romance in a man sleeping on a tavern stool.“
He digests her words in his clouded, drunken mind. It all pieced together for him then, and he had newfound conquest to prove his devotion to you.
“Well? How do you reckon I can?“
The woman is already reaching for a small vile kept away from the neat rows of wine bottles. The vile clinks as it meet the rings on her fingers,
“This should do handsomely.“
─ ⊹ ⊱ ⊰ ⊹ ─
There were very few comforts that surpassed reclining in a royal bed, a book nestled in your lap, whilst candles burn low and a warm mug steams beside you. It was one of those nights to yourself as Daeron scavenged a local village for their wine. You knew he took comfort being outside the confines of the keep, so these nights never had a way of bothering you.
Truthfully, you could die happily right there. Freshly cleaned hair, floral oils still fresh on your bathed skin and a clean silk chemise wrapped around your body.
You held no disdain for the quiet, you cherished it. Such gentle moments were a rare blessing amid the endless demands of court. Few would ever dare speak it aloud, but the burden of a princess‘s station was heavier than most could fathom. Thus, the solitary hours felt nothing short of perfect,
That was, until you heard your bed chamber door groan as it opened.
“Daeron? Are you back, my love?“
You don't spare him a glance from your book as he shuffles into the room, his steps sounding heavier with each one he took. Even in great splendors of drunkenness, the cadence of his steps seemed highly unusual.
You hear him groan as he approaches the bed, kicking off his boots with a sluggish tug.
“Are you well?“
You behold him as you glance up from your book, searching his face. An angry red hue flushed in cheeks and ears as sweat began to bead at his forehead. His once lilac eyes were nearly black with how blown his pupils had become. His lips were parted just slightly, taking in desperate hitches of breath as he stared at you with half-lidded eyes.
“My sweet wife.“ He murmurs with a horse voice as he begins crawling toward you on the bed. His behavior was something you hadn‘t seen before. Surely the both of you enjoy a tiresome fuck when you are nearly taken with sleep and he is drunker than a sailor. But this was different.
This had vigor.
You had little time to set your book aside as he draped himself on top of you. As your mouth opened anticipating a question, you felt how hot his skin was. Scolding, really. He was a flushed, sweating, restless mess of a man disheveled by the need for his wife.
You bring the back of your palm to his forehead and cheek, nervously checking for fever. Daeron whines at the contact, nuzzling into your touch. With a vexation worn plainly on your face, you swipe the sweat-slicked hair from his face.
“Are you well, husband? You feel quite warm.“
Your nervous chuckle is caught in your throat as you feel his painfully hard cock nudge into your thigh.
“Daeron, explain to me what you have done.“
You sit up, crossing your arms across your chest awaiting explanation. Daeron symptoms only grow as he gawks at you, mindlessly pawing the covers for your touch.
“Please, sweet girl, my beautiful, sweet, wife, please just touch m-“
“I‘m not lifting a finger till you explain to me what‘s happened to you. Was it a brothel? Hm? Someone slip you something there?“
“Mm-mm, no, my love, I swear to you. I did not step foot into one of those.“
His slurled words offer you comfort, allowing you to slowly inch back down the bed to where he laid. Your nails begin to scratch the expanse of his back in comforting motion. Daeron let out a groan as you touched him, despite the act being purely innocent.
“Please, talk to me, Daeron. You‘re worrying me.“
“H-hurts…“
“What hurts, my love?“
He lets out a whine and begins to buck his hips into the mattress. The friction draws a broken groan from him as he continues to babble and listlessly beg.
“A witch- she…she gave me something.“
“You took something from a witch. Please be joking.“
“She said it‘d give us an heir.“
Despite his disordered, wanton state, your heart softened at his words, picturing him drinking a mysterious liquid for the sake of blessing you with a child. Your lips softened into a smile as he peered at you through glassy, desperate eyes.
“Well, how does it work then, what she gave you? Am I to wake already with child?"
You offer your hand to lovingly stroke his cheek, though Daeron takes hold of it, lathering it with sloppy kisses. Your palm, wrist, forearm were being devoured with open-mouth pecks.
“Mm, not until I‘m through with you. Not until you make me better.“
“And…how am I to do that, sweet boy?“
With the same grip on your wrist, he tugs you. In a blink of an eye, you‘re on top of him, straddling his engorged cock. Daeron looks up at you with eyes that worship, eyes that are peeling off your clothes before he could rip them off you. You stifle a chuckle at the sight.
Your hand slides down his stomach at an agonizing pace, leaving goosebumps in its wake.
Soon, your hand palms his rigid cock, earning you a strangled whine from deep in his throat. He bucks his hips into your touch, writhing with fervid pleasure.
“Please, my love, ‘nough teasing. I need you. Need you more than anything, please. I‘ll be good.“
“Mm, will you? You want to pound me into the mattress till I can‘t say anything but your name? You want this whole keep to know how good you fuck your wife? How good you make her feel? How wet you make her? And how wet she‘ll be when you cum and fill her up?“
Daeron moans at your lewd words, partially frustrated by you enjoying this the way you are. You roll your hips into his clothed cock, earning an open mouthed groan from him. With keen hands you fumble with the ties of his breeches, while he listlessly pleads for you to go faster.
As his cock springs free you inspect his hardness. The tip was a bruised, painful looking purple. While his reddened length twitched with each beat of his heart. His cock was already soaked with precum before you even laid a hand on it.
“Poor baby, so needy for me.“
You pepper his tip with sloppy kisses as he writhes beneath you, watching you intently with his lips parted. As you finish with your torment, you shift yourself onto your stomach, arching your spine. Your tits press into the mattress, still clothed by the chemise, as you feel Daeron bunch the fabric right above your ass.
He gives one firm smack to the flesh, watching it pinken from the act. You stifle a moan into the sheets as his hands draw you back toward his cock. Without warning, he thrusts, filling you completely in a moment‘s notice.
You let out a whorish moan into the covertures, feeling yourself already go dumb on his cock. He sets a fast, agonizing pace as he seeks relief from the pleasurable pain the potion had plagued him with. Your fists curl into the sheets in hopes of grounding you from his brutal thrusts.
Daeron pants above you, shallow heaving breaths accompanied by strangled moans. You feel his urgency in the way he slams into you, the way he is so desperately claiming you with each jerk of his hips. It‘s something almost primal, something so intoxicating about his need to mark you. To give you a child, to solidify the profound beautiful love you share into something you can raise.
As Daeron brutishly fucks you, he envisions your stomach round with child, breasts heavy and swollen with milk. Providing for your child, being a good mother. It‘s as though his purpose dawns on him. It only makes his need to prove his love to you stronger.
“Seven fucks- what have I done to deserve you, sweet wife? All mine, hm?“
“I…mphh yeah- I‘m yours, Daeron. I am all yours…“
The words are broken by rugged movements, but they reach you and Daeron‘s ears all the same. Muttered proclamations of devotion all clouded by the fevorous love-making, so enraptured with one another.
A sweet moan tore through your throat as his pace deepened, hitting the spot that made drool begin to pool in your mouth. You thoroughly enjoyed fucking your husband in the past, but this was entirely foreign. It was something blissfully won, a filthy coupling of two people who would do anything for each other.
You could smell the honeyed wine on his breath as he panted into your ear like an animal, so enveloped by the addicting feeling of being inside you. That delectable suck of your cunt around him, how it drools with the sweetest nectar enticing him further.
Your bed chamber attained a string of echoing plap-plap-plaps, as Daeron‘s bare hips drove into the plump of your ass with vigor. His lips suckled and kissed your neck and below your ear as you whined into the sheets. You were nearly as unraveled as he was.
“Mm-mhm, that‘s it, my love, that‘s a good girl. Feels so good doesn‘t it.“
“Yes-yes-yes, fuck, Daeron!“
At your pleasing cries his pace gains speed, drawing breathless wanton gasps from your throat. Daeron takes a fistfull of the hair at your nape, pulling it slightly in order to raise yourself from the mattress. You rose, forgetting what it was like to breathe.
“Y‘gonna cum for me, sweet girl? Gonna cum all over my cock while I fill you up?“
“Y-yes, fuck, please, Daeron,“
The loud moans escaping you and Daeron‘s lips was nothing short of pure impropriety. The smack of his hips against your ass, the ridges of his cock rubbing against your walls and the loving firm grip he had on your hair sent your orgasm thrashing through you. It came in blissful waves, leaving you a quivering, writhing, moaning mess in Daeron‘s hold. He soon follows, releasing hot thick ropes of cum deep inside your pussy.
The fatigue soon overtakes you, collapsing onto the bed stripped of all energy. Like orgasm, Daeron is soon to follow, tumbling beneath his own weight beside you. He scoops you up into his arms before you could utter a word. The disquiet world of your lives finds silence as he holds you against his heaving chest, coveting you like your all that matters to him. You nuzzle into his embrace, purring gently at the feeling of his hands running through your hair.
“So, feel any better?“ You murmur in a hushed voice, mindful of the peaceful quiet that fell upon both of you.
“Much, much, better, my love.“
“I‘m very glad to hear that.“
You hum, gently peppering kisses along his jaw as you drink in the sight of his normal face. His eyes flutter shut, content with the feeling of your body in his arms.
“And how do you feel, my beautiful wife?“
“Mm…good. Very good. A bit different.“
“Different how?“
“Just different from the other times. This one felt significant.“
You peered into his eyes.
“Like…something may come of it.“
A smile spreads across his lips as he watches yours grow, basking in the solace of newfound hope. Perhaps the witch had done you a favour after all, granting you something you and your husband wanted desperately.
“Wait.“
“Hm?“
“I have yet to kiss you.“
You laugh at his remark, recalling the events in your mind. He leaned over with a soft reverence, grasping your chin in his palm. Daeron‘s lips intertwine with your own, not in haste but in silent adoration. The touch was gentle, yet it carried the weight of vows you had spoken before Gods. Your lips lingered for a moment, neither claiming nor retreating. But meeting in a stillness that felt older than language.
Summary: After being on the road with your sworn protector and younger brother, Egg, you find yourself burdened by the events of a few nights prior, after a group of men from a tavern attempted to kidnap you
Warnings: Vague mentions of kidnapping, no mention of sexual assault, in depth depiction of trauma, nightmares, panic attacks, angst with LOTS of comfort, sfw
WC: 1.8k
Unbidden and most unwelcome, the memory of that dreaded eve lingered within your mind, circling your thoughts like a starved vulture. Whenever you sought peace, your mind recited the cruel remembrance hidden behind your eyes. Several weeks had fled into the past since the mischance befell you. Yet the recollection remains as fresh as newly spilled wine upon snow.
You would tell yourself many women have endured such tribulations, and that your burdens were not singular beneath the moon. Though the more your gaze rested upon the wound in your thoughts, the deeper it ached. And Seven knows no flesh is healed whilst one keeps watch upon the bleeding.
Though your mind bore heavy burdens, still one truth stood firm against the storm. Your sworn defender remained the only man worthy of your trust. Ser Duncan. A hulking, fumbling brute to outward eyes, forever tripping over his own words and apologizing for imagined offenses. He would sooner beg forgiveness for breathing loudly than raise his voice in anger at you.
Yet many a knave and cruel bandit had fled limping from his grasp, their courage shattered alongside their limbs. It troubled your understanding of how a man so mighty in violence could be so soft in spirit.
He had saved you, just some weeks ago from a few rogues who had caught a glimpse of the silver dragon adorning your finger. You fought tirelessly for your survival. Thrashing, clawing, screaming. Though it only exhausted you, turning into a futile attempt of escape.
Before they could haul you into their wagon, your sworn knight fought them till blood sputtered from their lips. You weren‘t certain what had scarred you more. The feeling of their hands, or the pulp-like beating they received.
In Dunk‘s words, what truly matters was that you, and your brother Egg were safe. Dunk carried the guilt of not saving you sooner like a wet cloak. He kept vigilant watch upon you with unwavering eyes, ever mindful of danger and how it lurks. Dunk would not subject you to further harm with him absent from your side.
You were grateful for such devotion, yes, for his protective nature had only deepened since that dark affair. Yet still the memory weighed heavily upon your thoughts. And no matter how often you convince yourself of your own safety, your heart remains unpersuaded.
Rain lashed the inn with savage fury , no different from the cursed night your suffering began. Upon the thin glass of the window the storm drummed and thundered without mercy.
At the sound, a tremor seized your form, as though your soul had been dragged unwillingly back into the memory of that harrowing moment. That terrible, dreadful moment which still haunted your waking thoughts.
You maintained a cumbersome distance from Dunk in the creaky inn bed. Egg slept next door, most likely already taken by sleep. Dunk laid rigid at the far side of the bed. You both were aware of the impropriety in the circumstance. A sworn hedge knight, and the princess he took an oath to protect.
Though, given the change in weather, you insisted Dunk would‘ve frozen sleeping on the floor, and invited him to join you in the comfort of a termite bitten bed frame and straw mattress.
“Goodnight to you, Ser. Sleep nicely.“
You offer a timid smile before rolling over, trying to nestle deeper into the scratchy covers.
“Don‘t shy to wake me, should you need me.“
He answers in a fond, gruff voice. One which he manages to balance exceptionally. His words bring a faint smile to your lips and you squeeze your eyes tight, eager to be met with sleep. You begged the Seven for a peaceful, deep slumber to distract you from who laid next to you.
Dunk slept like a soldier. One palm cradling the back of his head as he laid on his back. He was always easy to wake, so vigilant even in sleep.
Even in moments like these.
You woke to the feeling of coarse palms shaking your bare shoulders, coaxing you from sleep. You had been screaming, crying. The ache of your throat and the slick of your cheeks made that clear. Breathing came in shallow, jagged pants as Dunk searched your face. It was the middle of night, when the moon was hung highest. You grasped his hands, desperate for an anchor, something to ground you to reality.
Your mind remained outside that tavern, welcoming being kidnapped for all to see. Before you could stop it, raspy choked cries escaped deep from your chest. For the first time, through the blur of hot tears, Dunk seemed scared. Frightened, even. And that alone terrified you beyond measure.
His hands seemed hesitant upon your skin, unsure of how to comfort the woman he calls Princess. You watched as he fought angered words of vexation, gruff shouts from a tender place of worry. He opened his mouth yet no sound escaped, not even a stutter.
Dunk was no stranger to nightmares. Phantoms besieged his thoughts, his younger years stalking the halls of his memory. The harrowing vision of your attack lingered behind your eyes, the tremble of your bones refusing to ease.
A cold dread crept through your veins, thoughts scattered like startled crows. Each rapid thump of your heart struck you as the tolling of a funeral bell. Air grew thin and cruel. You gasped like a drowning man cast into a black fathomless sea, yet no breath brought me comfort.
Muffled inquiries of assurement sat muffled in your ears, incapable of hearing Dunk through the throb of blood. You could feel each drop being pumped in thick spills, as though it was preparing itself to never pump again. Your breathing soon turned into shallow quivering whimpers, fighting the jerk of tears in your throat. Amidst the blackened veil of nightfall, you stretched forth and laid your trembling body upon his chest.
Beneath your vise-like embrace, you feel him stiffen, hands lingering aloft as though he was uncertain where they ought to rest. You clung to him like an anchor cast into troubled waters, binding you steadfast to the moment. With much hesitation, one arm rests across your back, the other clutching your head as he holds it against him.
You can taste the worrisome quake in his words, panic stricken by your state. At his comfort you surrender to the whirlwind of emotion, letting raw, thick cries rack through you.
You cling to him tighter allowing your cries to unmindfully spill. The sound devastated Dunk. It tore something tender in his heart, the part of him that cherishes seeing you happy. The part of him that turns red pondering your laugh. It was all his fault, he told himself.
His calloused knuckles stroked your wayward hair, whispering comforting words into the crown of your head.
“I‘m so sorry…I- shhh, breathe, breathe.“
Your wails only grow louder against his chest, unable to shake the visions plaguing your mind. It was the rain. The same deluge that soaked through your gown as you were nearly taken from everything you love. Your hand cupped your ear in an attempt to shield yourself from the noise. And just like anything, Dunk noticed.
He gently pushed your hand aside, replacing it with his own. His palm managed to muffle the noise far better than your own, allowing you to succumb to a newfound ease.
“I know, I know. You‘re safe now,“ He brings you closer to your chest, dwarfing you as you lay against him. His whole torso had swallowed your form entirely, shielded from the world by his frame. Dunk had gathered you in his arms, bestowing gentle kisses upon the crown of your head. His hand stroked your quivering back tenderly, doing anything he could to provide you with ease.
Your desperate gasps began to slow, your tear-slicked cheeks beginning to dry. You felt your bearings return to you as you melted into Dunk‘s hold.
“You‘re alright, sweet girl, I‘m sorry. Gods, I‘m so sorry for everything, princess. But I‘m here now, aye? I‘m here…“
His soothing words are followed by more gentle “shhh‘s“, as he listlessly continues running his fingers through your hair. Once your cries had ceased mostly, you pulled away from his chest with a sniffle, raising your head to meet his eyes.
You peered at him through the veil of tears coating your eyes, where you witnessed his fright tempered by aching affection. Dunk summoned all the strength he had to bring you solace. Though every sob that tore from you undid him.
He shifted slightly, taking your flushed cheeks into his palms, in a comforting hold. Dunk raised your face closer to his with a wounded love-sick grimace on his face. As he brought your face closer, he closed the gap by placing slow, soft kisses on your tear-stained cheeks, your forehead and your nose. Your sorrowful pout remained as his warm lips brushed your skin, though your eyes fluttered shut at the feeling.
The act was profound in its tenderness, so full of devotion in each peck. Dunk’s heart was bent toward two sacred purposes. To keep you from harm’s way and cherish you beyond measure.
With one final kiss to your forehead, he brought your hand to the broad expanse of his chest, feeling the steady rise and fall beneath your palm. Dunk gazed at you in understanding, watching as you tried matching his calm breaths.
“There we go, much better. Such a brave girl.“
Your heart fluttered in your ribs at his praise, to a newfound calmness that eased the distress in your bones. You nodded at his murmured encouragements, features softening into a content exhaustion.
“Thank you.“
You hardly manage to croak with a strained voice, offering Dunk a weak smile. He brought your forehead to rest against his, his breaths still deep and prolonged in an attempt to soothe you.
“There‘s no need, princess. It is my greatest honour protecting you. I would rather see myself dead than do nothing to ease your pain. From the very pit o‘ my chest, I mean it. Every word.“
You nod weakly at his words nestling yourself back into his warm chest. With a heaved sigh you surrender to the feeling of his hold. A soft, stable anchor in an ocean of vast cold waters.
“Get some rest now, I‘m right here if you wake. Right here for you, sweet girl.“
Dunk whispered into the crown of your head. He knew you had exhausted yourself, fatigued by your own sobs. But his promise was not made in falsehood. He was always going to be there when you wake.
note: this was entirely self indulgent cus let’s face it we all wanna be comforted by Dunk !! i hope u guys enjoyed it and to those of you who struggle with PTSD like me, felt seen :))
i think he’d suggest it, partially from a place of insecurity. we damn well know maekar is emotionally stunted, severe and war hardened. in no way does this man deem himself desirable (especially not in the eyes of his young, gorgeous lady wife) and he’d think there’s no way you could enjoy yourself in your marital bed when having to look at him. mhm yup LOUD AND WRONG
and ofc, despite the root cause, it’d turn into something you really enjoy. the anticipation, of being completely vulnerable and at his mercy? wetter than narrow sea lemme tell u
bonus points if your wrists are bound, but the feeling of him drinking you in, deciding how hes gonna make you feel good is intoxicating.
he’d wrap his strong fingers around your neck, not applying force, but just keeping you grounded amidst your pleasure. or maybe the way his tongue would linger on your skin, making you wonder where he’ll lick you next.
you can feel his gruff, labored breathing in the crook of your neck. you can feel him, his presence. yet, you are clueless to how he plans to take you
BONUS:
after being with you for a while longer, he’d grow prouder in his skin. after your relentless reassurance ofc. you’d caress him, purring sweet nothings like, my big, strong, sexy husband
hed start to miss those glossy, pleading eyes of yours and want to try something different
a new pleasure of his would be gagging you with panties. (or smallclothes ig? idk)
the sight of you writhing in his lap while he spanks you, your whiny cries muffled by your panties, unravels him.
this is also very common practice when you both visit another keep or go on a hunting trip- to avoid waking every soul in the damn building
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Summary: Ser Arlan takes Dunk to a brothel for the first time, insisting it’s where he’ll truly find manhood. When he falls into readers service, she decides to teach him what it means to be good
Warnings: sub!dunk, inexperienced!dunk, use of sweet/good boy, dunk is in his 20’s!!, prostitution/brothel work (obviously), handjobs, oral (m!receiving), riding, begging, gentle!dom reader, fem reader, fem anatomy, typical GOT/medieval misogyny
WC: 4.5k
note: not proofread- also, sorry if this is an inaccurate depiction of a medieval brothel, idk I wasn’t there LMAO- Also, im sorry the spacing is so weird, it turned into a huge pain in the ass so I hope it’s not too weird, thx!!
“You‘ve the body of a man, but not the spine of one, aye? Bit of stubble doesn‘t make you grown.“ Ser Arlan barked into the night air, Duncan in tow. Despite his squire being the age of twenty and…something, Ser Arlan insisted he had yet to be a man. Pretty adamant on the matter, actually. Perhaps it was because he still looked upon the same hunger-ravaged lad Duncan had once been. Or maybe the youthful glimmer that lingered in his gaze.
Regardless, Duncan was at his wit‘s end. After being berated with phrases like, you‘ve a man‘s height and a child‘s wits or, you‘re green as spring wheat and twice as foolish, what Ser Arlan deemed manhood was a riddle so thorned, not even the wisest minds could make sense of it.
Beneath the weeping heavens, they journeyed side by side. One wandering, one bound with purpose. They marched beneath the moonless rain as one debated in the chamber of his thoughts, where the seven hells are we going? And the other debated if he‘d spend his coin on a ginger or a blonde.
“Well now, this is where the realm stops coddlin‘ ya. Where men are forged.“ Ser Arlan remarks the brothel before them as though it was a gilded throne, eager for him to warm it. As the matter became plain to Duncan, he found himself stricken with unease. His nerves twist, restless with dread. He had been riddled with quiet torment as his eyes widened at the shelter ahead. Never had Duncan wielded a honeyed tongue nor the gleaming riches that women tended to favor. Still, coin in this establishment could succeed where his words failed. If he had any coin…
“Ser we- I mean no disrespect but, I‘m uncertain we can afford such…service.“ Verily, Duncan was ignorant of how heavy the coin purse was. But, it‘d make a fine plea to wait outside with the horses.
“Nonsense, boy, I‘ll buy myself the lowliest of the lot. You can spend the rest on a decent lady. The grimy ones are sold cheapest, and I‘d not shame ye with ‘em.“
To Ser Arlan, that phrase was even more endearing than “I love you“.
A restless quiver stirred in Duncan‘s blood as he envisioned his own hand offering the coin. The notion sickened him, striking foully against the image he had long held of himself. It defied every principle, every virtue and every moral he had. Regardless of the coiling dread in his stomach, he was highly aware of the inevitability of it all. Duncan opened his mouth in protest then closed it, in hopes to find wiser words on his tongue. He had never laid with a woman before. And he didn‘t wish to humiliate himself before someone who does it for coin.
Without so much as another murmur, Ser Arlan advanced upon the entrance and strode toward the brightly lit dwelling. Well, it appeared bright amidst the veil of impossible nightfall. With unwilling feet did Duncan stagger after, his heart beset by mounting fear as the haze upon his mind faded.
His senses gained clarity. Beneath the shroud of eveningtide there stood the house as he approached. A house of ill renown and impropriety. Yet, it was garbed in such splendor that even a septon’s eye might linger upon it. The timbered walls were painted a deep crimson and wine-dark velvet hues, whilst lanterns of amber glass hung from iron hooks. It casted honeyed light upon the rain slick cobbles below. Silken banners stirred languidly from the upper balconies, and from within came the muffled strains of girlish squeals, soft laughter and the clink of silver goblets.
Before Duncan knew what was hell and what was his reality, Ser Arlan pushed the heavy oaken door, amplifying every sight and sound from outside. The ceilings were draped with silk, sheer as a maiden‘s sigh. The gold thread glimmered like the eyes of the temptresses watching from their alcoves. Sweet perfumes of myrrh, rose and spiced wine wafted through the chill night air, entwining themselves with all who enter.
The madame of the house was quick to greet the pair of them, yet she couldn‘t help to think it odd a father brings his son to such a place.
“Cheapest you have.“ Ser Arlan grunts, placing coin in the madame‘s palm. Before Duncan could ask how much he ought to spend, he has nowhere to be seen, already escorted to the ‘cheapest accomodation‘.
“I- sorry, M‘lady, I‘m new to these…dealings. What‘s the fee? And- where do I head?“
The madame was a mere stranger to men of gentle make and virtuous heart. At once she perceived what should be amended in him, and where he must be sent. Duncan handed her the appropriate coin with a trembling, clammy palm. The woman takes it as though it‘s life blood, nodding vaguely down the hall.
“Eighth door to your right. Don‘t stray.“ Duncan nodded at her gruff words as though they were orders in battle. With a gulp, he began his death procession down the narrow hall. His ears were met with a growing symphony of skin against skin and restless pants. With eyes widened like silver platters, he cast his gaze from the gauzy curtains, behind which lurked filth scarcely shielded.
“Three…four…five…six…“
He counted each curtain as his feet carried him closer to what he thought was his certain demise. After a rushed recounting, he found himself before the eighth curtain to the right. He needed to be certain it was the right one. He didn‘t want to end up with the “lowly lot“ Ser Arlan entertains. Without another moment to lose, he clears his throat, reluctantly ducking through the archway.
The gruff sound from his throat alerted from where you lounged on your bed, tucked behind the silken canopies that shielded the bed from the rest of the room. Like muscle memory, you adjust the jewelry that sits heavy atop your skin. You then make sure your satin garment, (only worn for the sake of being taken off), sits right. Then came your speech, which also flowed from your lips like you had rehearsed it for years.
“Right then, shed your breeches and leave your boots by th-“ Your unenthused instructions were interrupted by a sharp hitch of your breath. You finally assessed the man that stood before you, awaiting your service.
A towering man of broad shoulders and abundant frame, fashioned strong as an oak yet fair upon the eye. His strength sat plainly upon him in the swell of arm and chest, though softened somewhat by a pleasing fullness around his mid section. His countenance was comely and warm, bearing the easy humbleness of a man often admired in tavern and hall alike. Even though Duncan found that far from the truth.
“Seven‘s bones…look at the height on you. I ought to tell someone to fetch me a stool. Or perhaps a ladder.”
You remark as you giggle at your own joke. He nodded politely at your crude comment, at an utter loss for words. Any would fail him if he tried. Still, there he remained, rigid and motionless, as though wit and will alike had abandoned him.
Tense in limb and uncertain in purpose, he obeyed what you instructed prior (only the second step), by removing his boots and leaving them by the threshold.
“You're quite the timid sort aren‘t you? May I have your name, Ser?“ You stood closer, radiant doe-like eyes peering up at him. The sight only made his words feel more scarce on his tongue. He opens and closes his mouth, anticipating sound. How would anything he say compete with your melodic, sing-song voice?
“Dunk…My name is Dunk, M‘lady.“ A flattered beam finds your lips as you blush at his formality. No man had ever addressed you as such. Somedays you were fortunate to even be referred to as “woman“.
“Please, spare me your fine formalities, Dunk, I am no lady. Unless, you have a knack for pretending…“ Your words trailed as he nervously interjected you.
“No, I do not wish to pretend anythin‘, M‘lady. You are a lady, so I‘d like to speak to you as one.“ Dunk managed to nervously choke out, to which you nodded in somewhat understanding.
You stole a moment to gawk at the kindness he had already shown you, despite being in your room for nearly thirty seconds. As you beheld the man before you, he finally allowed himself to drink you in properly.
You were fair in visage, (certainly the most beautiful woman he could‘ve bought his time with), radiant in youth. Your beauty was something gentle and natural, neither overworked or vain, but softly striking in its ease. Dunk thought the embodiment of grace had taken a particular liking to your form. Eyes bared bright, attentive life to them, keen as the morning sky.
“So, Dunk, what would you have of me? Or shall I decide, since you don‘t seem forward sort?“
“Pardon my ignorance, but I am untried in these matters. Not certain what‘s…customary.“
“Well, these sorts of places don‘t demand practice. All the girls know plenty of their trade for the likes of you. So, just tell me what excites you.“
“I suppose I don’t quite know, M’lady.” He curtly replied with a chuckle on his lips. You shrug at his response, having a quiet debate in your head. What were you to do with him?
You hum, beginning to drag your nails and finger tips across his chest, spurring him on. The muscle stiffened beneath the touch, but he seemed to relish the sensation. Still, there was much more to be done.
The idea took root in your mind, slowly lowering yourself to your knees. He appeared even taller from where you kneeled, and you appeared far smaller in comparison to his stature. Something foreign stirred in the pit of Dunk‘s stomach at the sight.
A faint, knowing curve of your lips betrayed your feigned innocence, taking delight in his slow undoing. You shifted your attention to the hilt of the long sword that rested at his hip. It was an old iron thing, clearly worn with use and age. Your fist grasped the base of it as your face neared closer to the handle of his sword.
“Does this excite you, Ser?“ Your sultry voice is followed by the breath stalling in Dunk‘s lungs, faltering as you drag your tongue up the expanse of the hilt. Through half lidded vision, you watch his brows furrow in what appears to be a wounded frustration. The drag of your tongue is met with the old taste of sweat from his palm, the masculine flavour going straight to the throbbing between your thighs. As he watched the lewd act, he couldn‘t help but picture the hilt of his sword as something much more…localized.
You brought yourself back to standing, your body in closer proximity to his than before. With an audible gulp, his stare conveyed a captivated terror. As though something he had been dreaming for was coming true faster than he could make sense of it.
“Or perhaps, this?“ You sang, eyes transfixed to where his stare lingered. As you began to fiddle with the clasps of your gown, the fabric bunched at your feet in one fell swoop. Leaving you completely bare before him, aside from the lavish jewelry adorning your form.
Before he could reply, his rigid cock strained against his breeches as he practically drooled beholding you. You tilted your head in hopes of finding his gaze, but it proved to be futile. His eyes feasted upon the sight of your breasts, mind restless with image. How they‘d feel in his hands, how they‘d feel in his mouth.
You took his rough hands into your own, guiding them to caress the tender swell of your breasts. The column of his throat bobs as he kneads the flesh in his palms, a muffled groan escaping him. His thumbs run across the pebbled buds of your nipples causing you tot shudder under his touch.
As you noted his newfound pleasure, you took his hands back into yours, escorting him to your bed with an unyielding smile upon your lips. He complied, his eyes now enraptured by your own.
You pushed him back onto the bed, surprising you slightly due to his size. He was entirely powerless under your gaze, pliant putty in your hands. His eyes peered up at you as though he was witnessing divinity. As though you were to pardon him from all worldly anguish. Unlike other men, who seek haste and efficiency, Dunk would not be hurried. He would have every fragment of time, and hold it close as though it were treasure beyond reckoning.
You joined him amongst furs and silks in slow, calculated movements. What was once dread had now turned to fervent impatience, a yearning for only nearness. He would deem it a blessed passing to die with so much as your company, without having to lay a hand on you.
In one swift motion your legs bracketed his, straddling him where he laid. The position somehow made him appear more helpless beneath you, completely at your mercy. Mercy you had, as you were inclined to be gentle and slow with the blushing giant underneath you. Your nails found their rightful place a second time, mindlessly tracing lines into his tunic.
“Do you touch yourself, Ser?“ Your keen gaze flicks to him as your lip catches between your teeth. The filthy question was spoken so innocently, so softly, he began to think he had misheard you. The question was a handy way of allowing your inexperienced clients to open up. Dunk turns a crimson that matches the silks the pile of you lay on top of.
“Most men do, M‘lady.“ Dunk nervously chuckles beneath you, still unsure where to put his hands. For now, they would lay tensely beside him.
“And… that means you do as well?“ The tease brought another wave of flush to his neck and ears, only making your smile grow wider.
“Show me.“ Your order finds his ears in a silvery whisper, to which he begins to fumble with the laces of his breeches. To save him the embarrassment, you place his hand aside, shifting your attention to the tangled prison. As your fingers work the strings, his hips buck into your hand as he suppresses a whine.
“Eager are we?“ You giggle in amusement, pushing his breeches to his ankles. For a moment, you deem yourself disoriented, that your eyes have betrayed you. You gulp in astonishment, unsure what to make of his…length.
“Your knight, Ser Arlan, you‘re certain he is not your father?“
“No, M‘lady.“
“Right then.“
You deny yourself a witty remark like your cock would do a better job impaling me than that sword on your hip, or perhaps, so men can just carry lances however they please? You did not wish to subject him to further embarrassment, considering it was his first time in a brothel. You wanted to give him a reason to return, you thought.
Dunk kicks them off, instantly taking his cock in his fist. With eyes half-lidded in languor, he keeps you vigilantly in his sight, as his hand squeezed amidst his clumsy strokes. You shifted where you laid, positioning yourself to replace his hand. His breath came in sharp exhales through his nose, cheeks redder than a field stained by battle.
“Dunk,“ the name crawled off your tongue, “you‘re blushing in front of a whore.“ You remark with an amused tone, watching as he tries to shield his face from you. Gently, you grasp his wrist, pulling his hand away.
“Allow me, sweet boy.“ You purr into the shell of his ear, taking his length into your palm. His breath hitches in his throat at the feeling, head thrown back against the furrs. He‘s sensitive, you note mentally. You start working him in slow, languid movements, his mouth falling open into an ‘o‘ shape. He feels heavy in your hands, finger tips just barely touching due to his size.
“M‘not a boy.“ He grits through his teeth as you continue stroking him exactly how he showed you. To his comment, your hand hastened in speed only slightly, watching his heaving breaths grow more laborious. You remarked every twitch, every stiffening muscle. As he lost himself in the abyss of his own pleasure, he became far less mindful of his sounds. It was a pleasure to bear witness to his unraveling.
“Forgive me, Ser. It‘s a fair assumption to make, when you're so needy for me, like a good boy.“ Despite his best efforts, he seems to cherish the title, a needy groan escaping him. You buried yourself against the crook of his neck, leaving a lingering path of kisses upon his skin, as though you were marking him with the memory of your closeness. The dual sensations draw needy whines and groans deep from his chest. Your fist quickens at the sound.
“D-don‘t stop, M‘lady, mmph, feels so g…“ His words trail off as he loses himself in the sensation, pleading eyes finding your own.
“Does my hand feel better than yours, Dunk? Am I making you feel good? Such a big strong man…so handsome when he‘s begging.“
The pad of your thumb drags over his slit, his hips bucking at the feeling. He nods and agrees listlessly, so enraptured by your touch. You maneuver yourself down the bed, your hand still working Dunk through his pleasure. His eyes snapped open as he felt your breath on his tip, your face a dangerous proximity to his cock.
“You musn‘t- I‘ll s-spend too soon.“ His empty plea draws a breathy laugh from you. A lumbering giant who could surely break firewood with his palms, reduced to a writhing mess beneath your touch.
“I won‘t tell a soul.“ You whisper, swearing yourself to secrecy. To your assurement, Dunk nods vigorously, eager to feel your lips around his cock. You began by placing sloppy kisses on his reddened tip, gently licking ever so often. It was pure anguish for Dunk, growing even needier as you continued. The tip of your tongue dragged right along his slit, causing him to nearly cry out.
“Shhh, ‘gonna take such good care of you. Just relax for me, sweet boy.“ He nods again at your assurance, watching intently as your soft lips wrap around him. It was rather challenging to deny such an offer when faced with your tempting, darling eyes. His lips part as he feels the warmth of your mouth, smothering him so sweetly.
The feeling was intoxicating, a surge of bliss coursing through him. He whined at the sensation, carding his rough fingers through your hair. Not with the intent to force or push, solely to ground himself to the moment.
You peered up at him through your glossy eyes, meeting his gaze, clouded with pleasure. A wistful part of his mind wished he could be subjected to the view of you every day. His reasoning warned him that such fantasies were but folly. He thought of your sweet kindness as purchased, not something he had rightfully earned.
Through the chamber resounded the lewd strains of your mouth, rich with sinful delight, until Dunk felt his senses reel. It was wicked indulgence, yet incredibly tender.
You grew bolder in your efforts, taking him deeper into your throat. The act was followed by wet sounding gawks coming from the walls of your mouth. His cock twitched and pulsed against your tongue, signalling you he did not make his claim in falsehood. He really was about to spend too soon. You hummed against his length, a pleased purr from your throat as his breathing grew more erratic.
“I can‘t-fuck- I‘m gonna…Gods I‘m so sorry, M‘lady,” His pleas are followed by strained groans that rattled in his chest, earning him another content hum from you. The vibration of your voice, the wet eyes boring into his, the soft tousled hair tangled in his fist, was enough to send him over the edge. He came with a hoarse, whiny moan, hips involuntarily bucking further into your mouth. Dunk had never felt such invigorating bliss in all of his days.
As you swallowed each drop of his release, your eyes never dared to leave him. You watched as he convulsed with each spurt, his eyelids fluttering with a pleasure he didn‘t think achievable. His chest rose and fell with each quivering breath. There was something so enchanting about a man who has entirely surrendered. As his breathing slowed and stalled in his lungs, your bare form crawled up the furrs to run your fingers through his wayward hair.
“So good for me, Dunk. Such a good boy for me, hm?“ He nuzzled into your touch as you tenderly caressed his head. Your other hand finds his flushed cheek, stroking the feverish skin as he regains his bearings.
With one elbow propped on the mattress, you lean into his chest as you touch him. You feel the raw heat of his body as one of your bare tits press into his tunic. With a newfound courage, his palm kneads your exposed breast, groaning at the contact. A few gentle squeezes then turns into him maneuvering you on your back.
The angle grants him access to both, nuzzling his face between the swells of supple flesh. To Dunk, air was a trifling matter. He could suffocate between your tits without a single lament on the matter. Your fingers continue gently stroking his scalp as he explores the skin. Open mouth kisses and nudges with his nose sends a pleasurable hum through your veins.
“Want t‘please you, M‘lady. Wanna be so good for you.“ He murmured with a strangled voice still buried between your tits. You gently tug on his sandy hair in hopes he‘d speak clearer.
“That‘s sweet of you, Dunk, but I can fetch us wine in the meantime. It is not my intent to overwhel-“
Your words are cut off by a soft gasp as he begins to suckle on the tender peaks of your nipples. His tongue flicks and sucks the skin as you feel yourself writhing beneath him. Your fist tightens in his hair as he bathes them in wet heat, the suction of his lips sending blood straight to your throbbing clit. And to your astonishment, he‘s hard again. Hard as stale bread.
The slavering sounds of his mouth on your tits fill the room, accompanied by your gentle sighs of bliss. His mouth left your tit in a wet pop, eagerly latching to your other one. In the midst of his movement, you clasp your arms around his torso, flipping him onto his back quicker than a flea on a farm dog.
He makes a vexated, wounded sound as you find yourself straddling him again. Your tits gleamed with the slick of his mouth in candlelight, bestowing a delicious vision unto Duncan‘s eyes. You drag a finger over his lips, hushing his confused pleas.
“Y‘wanna make me feel good, Dunk? You want this brothel to hear me cry your name?“
Dunk keenly nodded at your words, partial to that last suggestion. You tugged at the hem of his tunic, implying you wished to see it on the floor. Drool pooled in your mouth as you watched him comply. His muscles bulged from his flesh with every movement.
Dunk writhes beneath you, his chest heaving as he stared at you intently. With your eyes fixed on his, you lean back slightly, your hands finding the mattress behind you. You bare your dripping cunt to his gaze, watching his pleased grin turn to a wounded pout. As he watches your slick pussy, you begin rubbing your slickness across your folds, displaying how wet he makes you.
“See what you do to me? Need you to fill me like a good boy. Need you to fuck me so good, Dunk. You can make me feel good, can‘t you, baby?“
“Uh-huh, I can please you, M‘lady. Please- let me be good for you.“
You nod, humming at his words. Your leaking pussy hovers above his eager cock, practically begging you to sink down on it. Who were you to deny it such pleasure?
In slow, deliberate movements, you lower yourself onto him, feeling your walls accommodate him in a delicious stretch. His mouth falls agape as you sink further, a low groan rattling his throat.
“Gods above…“ He loses the thought on his tongue as your bare hips meet his, feeling himself entirely buried inside you. A sweet moan leaves your throat as you feel him reach places none of your customers could. So thick and deep, you were completely full with him.
Your hands take hold of his wrists, pinning them beside his head. The act startled him, his eyes widening in sweet bewilderment. You were a hair‘s length from his face, his ragged pants fanning your cheeks. The grip on his wrists tightened as you rolled your hips, feeling his tip rub against the spot inside you that made your knees limp. Your lids fluttered shut as he bucked into, feeling deeper than you had before.
Your chamber rings with the sharp, wet slaps of skin against skin, and strangled moans. With aching knees you bounced atop him, one hand groping your tit, the other scraping its nails down the plane of Duncan‘s chest. You were pleased by the helpless groans that escaped him, hypnotized by the sight of before him. You were even more pleased by the new red marks marking his pec.
“Fuck- Dunk, it‘s so fucking big- filling me so perfect. Such a good boy for me.“ You choke out through the haze of your pleasure. Shameless moans left your lips as you bounced with a newfound vigor, taking him from tip to base every thrust. Dunk began to meet your hips each thrust, brushing your sweet spot each time. The mounting pleasure in your stomach began to coil, threatening to snap.
“Oh Dunk, I- I‘m…mm…“
You listlessly warned as your pleasure thrashed upon you, igniting every vein in your body. Your aching pussy clamped down on his length, a surge of wet slick coating his cock. You were slightly humiliated by how fast you managed to finish. The feeling lessened as you felt Dunk coat your insides with hot ropes of cum, a shudder racking his body. He came with a groan more strained than the last, surrendering to his pleasure.
Soon, the only sounds that remained were your uneven breaths and the muffled commotion from the other rooms. You gaze upon the man, so spent, yet so swallowed by pleasure.
In a rare, defiant act of your morals, you leaned down to claim his lips with your own, tenderly kissing him. His hands clasped your jaw and he clumsily reciprocated the kiss. Duncan‘s inexperience was clear, but his enthusiasm was a force of nature.
Perhaps you didn‘t need a stool or a ladder, to take such a man
another note: sorry for the rushed ending, I had a bit of a writers block at the end- hope u enjoyed !!
Summary: as a new maid at the red keep, you find yourself distracted by the lord of the house. when you begin to form a bond, he makes it his mission of rewarding you for being his most dutiful maid
Warnings: Fem!reader, reader has female anatomy, power imbalance, slightly ooc Baelor, smut, oral (f-receiving), vaginal fingering, little aftercare, slight angst if you squint, no use of y/n or name
WC: 4k
The Red Keep stood loftily, like a mountain wrought by giants. Walls of pale red granite veined with ivy, banners whipping proud against the morning wind, and gleaming windows that cast pools of ruby and sapphire light upon the halls.
You remembered the day you arrived as though it stalked the halls of your memory. The keep appeared daunting as you stood before its gate. A vast heap of stone, crawling with venerated royals, who deemed themselves Gods. Dragons, even. How ridiculous, you thought.
Despite its vile inhabitants, your labours became fairly simple as moons passed. Hauling steaming water in copper basins, beating dust from velvet draperies, polishing silver until it shone bright enough to mirror the faces of the Seven themselves. Your hands harbored an unrelenting ache, your back began to weary, and yet you held little resentment for the duties of your station.
At night, exhausted beyond measure, you would climb into your quaint servants’s bed beneath the rafters, where the wind sighed through the stone. Yet even there, wrapped in rough wool sheets, you often stare from the narrow window at the torchlit battlements and feel your soul overwhelmed by the grandeur of it all. Your upbringing was scarcely noble or opulent in any measure. No sovereign hand to guide you through youth, no monarch’s blood throbbing in your veins. Not even a lord’s, at that. You proclaim a humbler lineage, something that showed just how successful you were in your pursuits.
Though you were raised far from the reach of courtly refinement, you carried your burdens with such poise that even lords mistook you for one of their own. With discipline and gentle conduct, that is. You answered every duty through honor, decorum, earning the respect of an unkind world. It was unheard of, to serve the house that warmed the throne, being raised in the plagued alleys of Flea Bottom.
You attended to your station with utmost diligence, yet the King‘s eldest son unraveled the discipline you so carefully maintained. His stare tested your composure. His silvery voice compromised your restraint. His kindness surpassed those of his kin, he was a man who carried himself with a quiet intensity. It made your knees buckle beneath your own weight. The way in which he fiddled with his rings, how he‘d sigh into the embrace of his chair after a strenuous day of court.
No labor seemed burdensome if it meant avoiding services in his chambers, study, or wherever else he tends to linger. The notion of speaking with him, even if it was solely for the sake of duty, horrified you beyond words. The few times you have spoken, he treated you kindly, looked upon you fondly. It was enough to fuel the delusions you shook from your thoughts.
And now, to your utter dread, you were bound for his study. The maid who customarily tended to Prince Baelor‘s study had been struck by sickness. Every footstep rang as a silent plea to the heavens, each fall of your foot a burial bell. Your slow procession could be mistaken for a march toward certain death, or an early pyre. Though as your trek continued, your steps did not falter. Quivering breaths racked your chest as you envisioned him awaiting you in his study. Seven above, slay me now, you think.
You hear a gruff, “you may enter“, through the heavy oak door, beckoning your entrance. With a final huff, you gently push the door, making your way inside.
“My Prince,“ you manage, gulping nerves as he spares you a glance. He offers you a fleeting smile, returning to the work before him. Seems like he wished to leave you to your work as well.
You began your labours in earnest pursuit. Smoothing fine leather, arranging tomes and straightening parchment with a careful hand. Still, he taps his quill in a soft cadence, breaking your focus like a distant bell. The subtle clink reminded you of the company you found yourself in, as well as your surroundings.
“Forgive my boldness, but I don‘t recall I‘ve seen you before.“ You whip around at the velvet hush of his voice, trying hard to suppress the scolding red finding your cheeks. It is considered unseemly to banter with servants regarding topics not revolving of duty. Still, you decide to entertain his attempt of friendliness, perhaps even familiarity.
“There is no need for forgiveness, your Grace. The maid who often tends to your study has fallen ill, I‘m afraid. I can request another servant if it would pleas-“
“That won‘t be necessary, thank you.“ You nod, opening your mouth yet no sound escapes. As you begin to pivot on your heels, he speaks again.
“Might I inquire who you formerly served? I take it you are newly arrived, seeing that I cannot recognize you. Unless I have failed as a prince to know all who labour in my keep. A troubling thing for any prince who would claim diligence over his household.“
“I assure you, my Prince, you are faultless in such matters. I arrived here after serving House Mormont as a ladies maid.“
“I am sorry this keep is without any daughters, otherwise I‘m certain you would do an exceptional job as theirs“ You fight a breathy laugh at his words, as you quickly give the prince your name in a rushed manner. Baelor nods, allowing you to resume your duties.
“Surely you must long for cooler winds, yes? The heat in these lands can prove rather relentless.“ You turn to face him a second time, bewildered by his fascination. None of the maids had ever mentioned Baelor being so talkative.
“A small price to pay, your Grace. I hold this position in high esteem.“ The remark earns a small grin from him, eyes darting back to the quiet chaos of his desk.
“The honour is mine.“ He insisted, the words finding you like a hand between your legs. Your heart fluttered like a captive bird as your knees threatened to give way beneath you. Never had you been acquainted with such temptation. Unfamiliar, insidious and lingering upon your skin like fevered touch. Perhaps Baelor is the sickness that struck the first maid.
***
Weeks came and went since that fateful meeting in his study, and no longer did he make himself distant from you. He became a frequent presence throughout the keep, appearing where he thought he may earn but the briefest glance from you. You, well, you were bewitched beyond remedy. Beyond any maester‘s repair. Rendered weak every time your eyes snagged on his as you passed one another in the halls. You remained servicing his study intermittently through the week, earning you witty, frivolous exchanges with the prince. You cherished every moment like a popper covets gold in his pocket.
That was until, you received word from another servant as you scrubbed the flagstone. You‘re knobby knees throbbed beneath you as your rag dug into the surface of the stone floors. A mess of suds, grime and a disregard for being on the floor.
“Sorry to interrupt, but the Prince requests your services.“
“Mine? Whatever for?“
“Well, his Grace mentioned somethin‘ about the way you arrange his parchment.“
You scoff as you set your scrubbing aside, pausing to shake your head in disbelief.
“He‘s askin‘ for yo-“
“Aye, I got that, great, thank you.“
He withdraws himself, hands thrown aloft defensively. As he makes his trek down the corridor, you rise to your feet with a weary breath. It was the first time he had ever called for you specifically. Apprehension began to rack your body, yet it had been accompanied by a foreign warmth that coiled in your stomach. In bordered between pride and adoration for the man you call ‘prince‘.
Your steps carried with mounting haste, carrying you onward. A joy unfurled across your features, till your cheeks burned sore from grinning. There was a rare exhilaration in basking in the prince‘s company. You were to earn yet another treasured exchange with him. A volley of wit and hushed laughter.
The moment began the same as the last, a gentle knock to the oak door, and a grant of entry. To your dismay, your beaming smile had yet to subside.
“Ah, there you are, I began to think you had lost your way.“ He rose from his seat upon your entrance, reciprocating the smile upon your lips.
“Please excuse my punctuality, my Prince, I came the moment you requested me.“ You winced at the words in your mind hearing them leave your lips. Yes, you would cum if he asked you to.
“Pay it no mind, I insist. It was my intention you would aid me in arranging the parchment cluttering my desk. Seems I have a talent for misplacing them. And I was rather delighted by the work you carried out some days ago.“
“Thank you, your Grace, I‘d be happy to assist you.“ With faltering steps you approach where he stood, feeling the throbs of blood in your ears grow louder. He separates himself a good distance from the desk, allowing you to insert yourself in between. A nervous huff of laughter left your lips as you felt him tower behind you, making sense of the skew of papers.
“Just, tell me what to put where, my Prince. I‘ll arrange it in a way that will make it easier for you to find.“ He hums in approval from behind you. In truth, you had a vague idea of how this work was to be done. Scribbles upon parchment were merely illuminated by a flickering candle, the rest of the study shrouded by nightfall. You began by taking one in your grasp, raising it towards your face.
“That one is for-“
“Trading, I presume?“
He falters behind you, ashamed of himself he was under the impression you were incapable of reading. Especially the cry for help he calls handwriting. He makes a small affirmative sound, encouraging you to place it in a separate pile.
Baelor gave a silent thanks to the Seven that his visage was hidden from your sight. You had utterly undone him, reducing him to putty in your grasp. Before him stood a woman most dutiful, wise and fair, and in her presence he felt himself wholly powerless.
“I would not willingly encroach upon your privacy, your Grace. Rest assured, I will not read any contents.“
“Nonesense. All trifling matters, to be sure.“
You nod as you continue your pursuit. All the while, Baelor feels himself emboldened by the late hour and goblet of wine he drank prior to your arrival. He was the next in line, the crown prince, hand of the king. Yet, your softness tempted him like no gold or whore could.
“The court is in dire need of a smart woman like you. I‘d like to see you prove them all fools.“ Heat crept from your neck to your ears at his praise. Similar to Baelor, you also began thanking the Gods he was incapable of seeing your face. As moments wore on, you began to grow restless as you stood. The scent of wine upon his breath crept close to your nape. And the nearness of him— Gods. Watching, waiting, left you weak upon your knees. It was near enough to wrestle with all restraint, longing to whip yourself around, claiming his lips with your own.
“Hm. A smart prince isn‘t enough for them, I see? Or does he also happen to be a fool?“ You wished to flee from where you stood, profusely apologize for addressing him so improperly, yet the words that tumbled from your lips felt anything but shameful. Still, before you could apologize for forgetting your station, he spoke.
“In your company, yes. The biggest fool.“ He hushes the quip on your tongue as his hands begin to snake around your middle. A claiming, tender touch, moving in closeness, rather than lustful seduction.
“Your Grace, I-“
“Do you wish to leave? You have my sanction, if that is what you wish.“
All you could muster was a clumsy shake of your head, denying his claim. There was nowhere else you longed to be in all of Westeros, but the closing distance between the eldest prince and the desk of his study. As your mind grew clouded by wanton desire, you strove against the notion of yielding to such temptation. You were a maiden, yes, one with honor and steadfast virtue. You did not consort with the likes of princes, or entertain perilous engagements.
“I must continue, my Prince, your parchments-“ Your pleas fell upon deaf ears as he swept every paper from his desk in one swift motion. In the parchments' wake, he hoisted you onto the oak desk, your dangling legs brushing against his.
“Are you aware of your own goodness? Hm? So faithful, so true of heart. I cannot recall the last time these halls were graced by a maiden of such spirit.“
“My Prince, you are drunk.“ You manage, eyes darting around the study to avoid meeting his blown pupils. You were weary of him bearing witness to your own, making it clear just how much you want him.
“Only a glass. What you are seeing is not wine, it is how you affect me.“
“And how is it I affect you, your Grace?“
“Mm. Those eyes, when they look up at mine, eager to be of service. Your lips, and how they snag between your teeth when you are deep in focus. Or perhaps your neck, when your hair clings to it from the heat.“ You got the picture as his words trailed on, drawing nearer with each syllable. You did nothing to halt his advances, nothing to withdraw yourself.
“Just tell me to stop,“ He murmured, a hair‘s length from your ear. His breath was warm against your neck as you reveled in the quiet debate of restraint. Your knuckles grew whiter than a sailboat as you fought against the idea of touching him. Once again, you shook your head bashfully, earning a small chuckle from Baelor.
“Tell me with words. You‘re a smart girl, I'm certain you can.“
“Please, do not stop…please.“
Your words were a broken plea, a prayer against your better judgement. It was as though your restraint rang in your head like a cracked bell, and only would he relieve you of that sound.
“Good. Now…tell me how much you need it.“ His silvery, hushed tone nearly made a mockery of you. You whined at the question, too undone by pleasure that has yet to even find you. Baelor took note of your lack of response, spurring him further.
“Shy so soon, hm?“ He hummed, maintaining his closeness to your neck, his chest flush against your heaving one.
“Do you even know all the ways a lady can be seduced?“ The question came as a hot whisper against your ear, feeling slickness gathering between your thighs. His lips began to trace the expanse of your neck, not quite kissing, just lingering upon your skin with faint caress. The teasing wears your patience thinner than a beggar‘s purse after market day. You prevailed against your submission, and claimed his lips with yours with a fervor unbridled and dire. He groaned into your mouth as your hands made their way around his neck, beckoning him closer. It was as though a thousand unspoken vows gathered at once upon your lips, and spoken in a silence more thunderous than war drums.
The kiss was not merely touch, but a claiming and a yielding, like crown and kingdom finding their rightful union after exile. It was a dance between two unrestrained forces. Nipping, sucking, licking, devouring. A passionate act of devotion between two souls who lost the battle of restraint. Your breath grew short in your lungs, your lips swelling entangled with this.
You pull away panting, resting your forehead upon his. The study is a symphony of shallow breaths and the rustle of fabric.
“May I- may I reward you…for your service?“ He pleaded through quivering breaths, eyes shut as he reclaimed his bearings. It was a rarity from him to fumble the words on his tongue, yet here he stood. The request vexated you, making your flustered mind dissect every possible act he may speak of.
“Reward me how, your Grace,“ you paused to continue panting, “what do you wish for me to do?“ Your need for instruction draws a soft laugh from his chest. You amused him far more than he‘d care to profess.
“I wish for you to lean back,“ he whispered hoarsely, planting a gentle hand on your stomach to recline you against his desk, “and enjoy yourself.“ He finished his thought, positioning you how he pleased. Though he provided you with simple instructions, your confusion remained the same as it was. He did not reach for the laces of his breeches, or fumble with the waistband. Instead, tentative fingers began to trail themselves from your calves to your thighs, drawing your skirts closer to bunching at your waist. The procession of his touch was agonizingly slow, a maddening pursuit of unraveling you as he pleased. With the faintest force, he beckoned your legs apart. They spread before him as you complied. You grew red at the thought of being in nothing but small clothes, quivering thighs spread before your prince.
Before you could protest the closeness of his face to your core, he nipped at your plush thighs in gentle pinches. The mild bites drew stifled whimpers from your throat as you familiarize yourself with the foreign sensation. You were certain this act was a means of working you up, making you grow needy under his touch to prepare you. Your suspicion then worsened as he removed your small clothes, his teeth drawing the waistband down your thighs. They made a gentle sound as they became a drenched pile beside the desk.
He drew closer to where you laid bare before him, to where you could feel his breath against the sensitive skin. You squirmed at the feeling, and also the vulnerability of the compromising position. His movements did not falter, growing closer and closer. Baelor was a refined, poised, crown prince. The next in line for the throne. Surely he was not going to-
Yes, he did. He licked a stripe across your folds, earning him a startled gasp from you. He chuckled in response, sending vibrations down your spine. One lick turned to three, lapping at your pearl as your fingers carded themselves through his short dark hair. The feeling brought a warmth to the pit of your stomach, spreading your thighs further to his seeking. The lip between ur teeth had begun to bleed from your stifled moans. The pleasure was foreign, unbearable.
“Mm, that‘s it,“ he rasped against your folds, “be a good girl for me and tell me how good my tongue feels.“ The last bit of your restraint dissolved through your fingers as you gasped and whimpered at the feeling. You were a squirming, wanton minx with his tongue on you, licking as though it was the only thing he knew. The joints of your knee soon met the broad expanse of his shoulders, smothering your leaking pussy against his tongue.
“Please, Baelor…please—mmph, don‘t stop. Feels so good, baby, please.“ You listlessly pleaded into thin air as your words spurred him further. Fist tightening in his hair as his tongue worked your clit faster, you felt your eyes roll back in unadulterated bliss, unmindfully moaning at his reward. You paid no mind to how quiet you were, how you sounded.
Just as you nearly felt the warm tension in your stomach snap, he prodded a slender finger through your neglected core, curling right against your sweet spot. The sensation made you cry out, a shiver racking through you in a wave. One finger became two as he continued suckling your clit, working you through the pleasure. You felt his mismatched eyes on you, the sight making you squeeze his thighs against his head in pleasure.
“Your prince is good to you, isn‘t he?“ He murmured against your swollen clit as he worked his fingers with a new vigour. In response, you let out a needy, broken whimper, squirming in his hold.
“Mmph—ah, yes…so good, fuck- so fucking good to me.“ He let out a small chuckle into your folds, amused by your attempt at a coherent sentence. Without warning, his free hand reached up, dragging the linen fabric down your chest. He kneaded your tits as they bounced, bouncing from the motion of your hips bucking against his face. Your free hand placed itself over the one he had on your breast, anchoring yourself to him as the pleasure grew relentless.
“Bael- fuck, it‘s too much…“ Your words trailed off into needy whimpers. Baelor knew you were nearing the edge. His fingers burrowed themselves inside you at an unrelenting pace, brushing so sweetly against the spot that makes you cry. He groaned into your clit as his tongue lapped it, eager to feel your release coating his tongue.
“Let go for your prince, be a good girl and soak my tongue.“ His muffled commands shattered the tension in the pit of your stomach, sending your body into surreal ecstasy. You shook in his firm grasp, quivering through the pleasure that snapped inside you. Moans met the stone walls in desperate mewls. As he worked you through your high, there was a shared quiet of shallow panting and raspy throats.
You felt his calloused palms find your back from under you, scooping you flush against his chest. Not a whisper stirred through the study, the shared stillness grounding you from a lustful-driven high. Despite the realm‘s decree and all surrounding circumstances, there was no shame dwelling in your heart. You laid against him, spent in the afterglow of pleasure. Cradled deep in a gentle bliss, only he could provide.
“I hope I did not overwhelm you, pretty thing.“ He whispered against the shell of your ear, drawing a sweat-soaked strand of hair from your face. You couldn‘t suppress a blissful smile at his words, so engrossed in the endeavor of making you feel good. You shook your head in response, allowing your breathing to slow in his hold. As your arms entangled themselves around his neck, you placed lazy open-mouth kisses down the column of his throat, drawing pleased hums from deep in his chest.
“What are you planning to do with all that parchment?“ You jest against his neck, accompanied by his soft chuckle. You both glance at the heap of papers from askew, coating the stone floors. Then, your gaze meets one another‘s. A hitch of silence passes till you both share an exasperated laugh. It felt strangely domestic, for something so forbidden. For all he knows, you‘d arrange page, after page, if it meant a glimpse into the life you could‘ve had.
note: this is my first time ever writing smut so I hope it’s not too terrible!! thank u for reading
Summary: Modern AU boxer Dunk stumbles home after losing a fight, in need of mending from the worst person to ask (his squeamish girlfriend)
Warnings: Vague descriptions of wounds, stitching, bruises, vomiting (no one throws up) and boxing in general. No first name mentioned.
Word Count: 1.3k
note: first fic I hope u enjoy!! boxer dunk has me in a chokehold and I had do write a drabble on it- ALSO I have absolutely no experience with medical things whatsoever, so pls forgive my inaccuracy
Stumbling through the sleeping house like a bruised ghost, Dunk staggered through the entry with the slow sway of a fighter still hearing the crowd roar in his skull. Battered by invisible tides of ache, he made his way to your room, praying to himself that sleep had yet to take you. He needed you when his body felt like giving up. When he’s hair’s length away from crumbling beneath his own weight. You were the steady anchor he clung to, when he’s cast into troubled waters. Or in other words, the ring. Under the cold glare of arena lights, you remained etched behind his eyes, a reason to keep swinging when his body begged him to stop. The thumping in his ribs slows as you wrap his knuckles before each fight. Every cheer, every word of encouragement. You anchored him to reality whenever it threatened to dissolve between his battered hands. Except for when it involves the sight of blood.
Sleep took you in ephemeral phases, never finding the stasis of slumber. It was arduous to sleep without him. Sluggishly, you grabbed an extra pillow, draping your arms across the cushion. You sighed, disappointed in the lack of warmth the pillow provided you with. Shutting your eyes once more, you anticipate the release of sleep. Instead, your senses are met with a clumsy attempt at stealth. Heavy footsteps, things falling. The room was shrouded by nightfall, though you had no need for light. You stirred slightly, rubbing your eyes. Before you could call out his name into the void of blooming midnight, you felt a fleeting kiss on your brow.
“Dunk?”
”Go back to sleep, love. M‘alright.”
You pushed the heavy sheets askew, feet meeting the hard wood floor. You stand slowly, adjusting your slip. Your eyes soon adjusted to the thick, sightless dark, making out vague static images. You followed the light emitting from the bathroom, arms crossed tensely across your chest.
”I can’t go back to sleep. I wasn’t to begin with.” You quip, approaching the doorway’s threshold. You watched as he prepared alcohol, needles and sutures with his back turned. It bore a map of dried blood and blooming purple. The sight disheartened you, leaving a frown on your lips. He paused upon finishing, hesitant to turn around. Dunk hated inconveniencing you, especially when you‘re meant to be sleeping. He carried the conviction that you belonged to gentler hands than his own, and the thought of burdening you curdled something inside him. As your relationship progressed, he became more and more acquainted with your aversion to blood. More specifically his, when it‘s leaking from places it shouldn't.
”I’m not gonna throw up. Just turn around.”
He turns gradually, broad shoulders slumped, anticipating a lecture and maybe some dry heaving. Your gaze finds a gash above his brow, not bloody enough to lose dinner, but enough to draw a wince from you. With a shallow sigh, you shake your head.
°°°
Your legs bracketed the dense muscle of his thighs, a suture needle in one hand, the side of his head in the other. As you breathed through squeamish disgust, you stroked his cheek as you cradled his head. The act was more to comfort you than him, something he took note of as soon as you began.
“You really don‘t have to, love. I mean it. I can jus-“
“No no, I…I can do this. Can‘t have you putting a needle to your face with those hands.“ You gestured to where hands grasped your waist, feeling the beaten quiver in his palms. With a defeated sigh, he reclined slowly, yielding his battered skin to your *also* shaking touch, as he watched you drift nearer in the dim light.
“Just um…walk me through it. I’ll be careful.”
“Stick it in at the edge, then flip the needle through the skin, yeah? It should pop out the middle, and then you go through the other side.”
“Ok, right, yeah. I can do that.”
Through your terror, you comply, biting back sounds as you begin mending. You began to work the suture through the departed pieces of skin, engrossed in your pursuit. It was an added stressor you were fixing his face. Something you covet like heaven by the damned. Still, you couldn’t suppress a cringe every time the needle punctured the tender skin. But you’d take this over letting him bleed all over your sheets any day of the week. Your lip caught between your teeth, brows drawn together with something between repulsion and terror. Meanwhile, Duncan breathed through the agony with practiced grace, concealing every fraction of discomfort behind softened eyes. Any visible crack in his restraint would alarm you, in his eyes. As his hands rested on your waist, his fingers moved in small circles designed to calm your fear.
“Are you alright? How is it? Should I stop?“
“M‘fine, you‘re doing fine. Jus‘ breathe for me, love.“
The breath caught tight in your chest escaped, soft and trembling, as your shoulders slowly surrendered their tension. Your eyes bored into his swollen softened ones, and felt absurdly foolish to grieve pain he seemed to practiced at enduring. He loved being in the ring, cherished the feeling of gloves on his knuckles. And that was a pain you would have to endure alongside him.
“Did you win?“ You choke out through unwavering focus. He gives a small huff, accompanied by a wounded grimace. With a small huff, he shook his head.
“Came pretty close.“ His words came stained with disappointment, a bitterness that clung like ash on the tongue. You could see it in the way his shoulders dipped, in the subdued rhythm of his speech. He wore guilt strangely- rarely, but intensely.
“Rigged.“ You murmur, swallowing disgust as you continue the gentle assault on his brow. He lets out a breathy laugh, planting a clumsy kiss on the inside of your wrist. As you neared the end of your pursuit, his eyes fluttered shut with a quiet tide, overcome by fatigue. The final suture tightened as you pulled the string, the wound making a uniform line. You tie it off, fulfilling the self imposed task as you exhale a restrained breath. Your chest eases from unadulterated focus, pausing, allowing your posture to go slack. A mix of relaxation and sleep depravity plagues your eyes. They settle on him, through half lidded vision. He opens one eye, checking to see if you had finished, watching as you gaze upon his features in the comfort of his lap. You met in a tender, exhausted stare, suspended in weary silence. The world around you fell into a deliberate hush, as though it had paused to witness you. Then his coarse hands closed around your back, drawing you into his chest and settling you beneath the steady rise of his breath.
“Y‘take such good care of me, sweet girl.“
“I try. I‘ll be a surgeon by the time you retire.“ You mutter into his neck, still fighting the nausea from the last fifteen minutes. He chuckles, running his finger tips along your sides. You hummed at the feeling, nuzzling into the salty skin of his neck. There were scarcely any lives you would have chosen over this one, if any at all. In the shelter of his hold, it became easy to feel sorry for those who measured existence only in money, never in closeness. What you shared with Dunk was a tender knot of ache and devotion, binding you in something quietly unbreakable.
“Let‘s get you to bed, hm?“ He rasps, as you whine out of somewhere between protest and acknowledgement. Despite being beaten to a bloody pulp, you feel yourself being scooped in arms, draping yourself across him in dramatic fashion.
The two of you settled beneath the comforter as sleep drew you both under, you felt the quiet rhythm of each other‘s breath. Soft, steady, and entirely human. The relentless thrashing inside his skull faded into silence beneath your weight. The stadium's shrill cries and the echo of impact against his face went still. There was only you and him now, and in that small, still world, peace finally learned its name.