Can you hear me?

@jtwig119

I don't want my life anymore. The pain is becoming unbearable and it's all my fault.

Being lost sucks. Sometimes I feel like I try to feel and I try to think but I can't. I don't feel anything I don't know what is happening around me and it's strange. Once you lose the one thing though that makes your life have meaning and the one thing that truly makes you feel. Everything comes clear. You feel again you see again. It's not a good thing since you lose that person but it makes you realize you can love and you do love. I love her more than words can describe. I wasn't seeing anything even though she was right there. I know what I want I know what I feel. I love her, I want only her, I want a family, a purpose and I want her to be proud of me and for who I am. I want happiness not pain. I want compassion and love. I want to grow old with my best friend.