A Little Fine Mess

You have options. I promise you, you have options. Even if you blow up your whole life, change your name and train hop half way across the country- you still have options. So long as you are alive you have choices and chances. If you can’t see them, ask someone else. Ask a stranger or someone who loves you. Anyone not in your situation will have different a perspective. Stay safe and stay alive.

Your “best” won’t always be the same every day, quite like the temperatures of a weather forecast for the week, for example, it fluctuates. So please don’t beat yourself up if you were not able to do what you wanted to do for the day. You did what you could. So give yourself a pat on the back. I am proud of you.  Tomorrow will be a better day and there definitely will be better days ahead for you.

Romanticizing your life sounds so stupid but it will help you cope. Taking extra time to make a yummie coffee in the morning, sitting outide observing the wind in the trees, writing poems, going to old book stores, watching your childhood favourite movies, listening to romantic jazz, writing in a coffee shop, making sure you have moody lighting in your room, putting on asmr rooms as a background noise while you work. It's not a solution, but it makes things a bit better.

most of all i hope you all find a reason to wake up and love each day despite it all. i hope you hear the birds singing or you buy a new candle or use a new fabric softener and it inspires you to keep going. each day holds so many possibilities. live to see the different outcomes. i believe in you and I’m proud of you for existing despite it all. you were made to experience life, so let life’s experiences be the reason you continue on.

If you are starting to feel burnt-out, do not be afraid to cut some commitments out, you may argue that if you do - that means you are not productive but in truth the other commitments will really benefit from your improved focus which you have gained. As the saying goes “quality over quantity”, by doing this you are improving the quality of your work and you will get more satisfaction when you reap what you sow.

"your birthday doesnt even matter after you turn 25 nothing even happens-" WRONG. when you are 25 you will try and enjoy so many new foods. you will learn the importance of probiotics and a good ice pack. you will start understanding the meaning of 'im still watching i promise im just resting my eyes'. and. you will learn the importance of a reasonably priced piece of grocery store produce

all you’ve got to do is pick one activity to do tomorrow. One thing to look forward to. Find a new movie or tv show you want to watch. Check out if there are any local bands playing gigs nearby. Find a random new skill to teach yourself. Do your grocery shopping at a different supermarket. Play stardew valley with someone. Find a new recipe to learn how to cook. See what movies are in cinemas near you. Find a niche museum or community centre in your town. Explore a new park. Go to a thrift store. Go sit in the library for a few hours. Get coffee with a loved one. You can’t leave yet, you’ve got that activity to go do. Keep picking activities. I love you. Stay safe.

It’s normal to wish things were different. But it’s a waste of time to dwell on it, and we can miss out the most important things in our life. Remember what you have: your favorite songs, your bed, books, your best friends, pretty sunsets, cute unique features, your dreams and aspirations. Life will never be perfect, but there will always be good things to be happy about at every moment.

When your living space is a mess, don’t ever look around and think you should have managed better. Don’t look at the chaos as all the things you should have done. Look around and think, “Look how exhausted I’ve been. I have been saving my energy to save myself and that is right.” And then ask yourself what is one thing you could do that would make you feel more at home in your space–one thing you can manage right now. If that’s fluffing up your pillows, if that’s putting the cups back in the kitchen, if that’s writing a list of fruit you haven’t had in a while and going out to buy it, if it’s picking up your laundry from the floor and putting it on the chair, if it’s wiping the dust off your crystals–that’s enough. Do what would help you now. It’s okay to be tired. It’s okay to be a mess. It’s enough to do what would help and leave the rest.

For those of you interested, the youtube channel Ask A Mortician does a lot of videos on taboo death subjects, answers questions and is a huge advocate for natural burials and being present during the actual funeral process so you don’t get taken advantage of by the funeral industry. She’s one of my favourite youtubers and I highly recommend her videos.

Tell me about the love you've never received and let me fill the void

Tell me about the emptiness you feel and let me fill it with my love