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chat what does it mean when vulnerability makes me violent? chat what does it mean when intimacy activates a deep instinct to invoke pain across what’s meant to be pleasure?

how to stop feeling so boring all the time? no glue no borax

i was born a slut

peach redbull, half-dead nicotine, and the yart is what’ll mend my soul in the war of labor

i wish i spoke more in high school but being as scared as i was taught me the key to all doors is to see people as experiences rather than risks

its so unfair people get the fun, wild party mania while im stuck with the socially deconstructed, politically induced rage mania…. everything’s systemic and it scratches under my SKIN that it will not be changed

don’t ask me if I believe in god, ask me if I agree with the dude and the answer becomes clearer. Belief is immoral when the god to worship only watches through miracles. Found car keys equal to a starved slave. A lucky $20 bill to the child pleading under suffocating rubble. What makes prayer worthy then? I cannot pray to a god who punishes those for the actions he has planted within them nor a god who points blame to a devil he himself allows to reign free across the rat race that is our Earth. Call me childish for believing what isn’t humane is not for me. Call me prideful for refusing to place my bets to a god that cannot be explained but demands to be heard. A god who disconnects himself so much further that all he rations are left in the hands of men made shameless and rich in His excuse. God gives them money and children to feed on yet god remains pure from the stains we’re left to clean?

i have no discipline and i do not care to change that

oldest daughter responsibilities with the middle child recognition

no, actually I don’t have any interest in bettering the worst of my habits because yes, I do intend to ruin my life so I never have to live it

don’t call yourself sadistic if you don’t enjoy the bite of hot oil or the indents left from a hair tie bound too tight on your wrist. leave it to the real bitches.