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Also, just a reminder: As much as it's important to help Palestinian GFMs get attention, we should all beware of scammers that take advantage of the Palestinians' suffering. It only takes a littleee bit more effort than just blindly sharing them. I've recently fallen victim to asks from scammers and am now learning...

I recommend to also search the username or gfm/paypal/etc. name of the askers here on tumblr and you'll see if it's a part of a list of names that are used by scammers. These scammers only create unecessary noise and posts of those who ACTUALLY need help get buried. Please be careful.

drop dead

A perfect description of the euphoria of finding out your debilitatingly serious crush is requited.

stupid song

"I want you more than any stupid song could ever say" GAGGED. WHAT. This girl is so in love. The yearning song, ever. It's such a beautiful love letter. I would've married her after this song if I were the muse I'm so serious.

honeybee

Is this the song for weddings she was talking about??? Well, I'm getting married to this song anyway.

It's so beautiful. It perfectly portrays a steady, grounding love. Something you'd want to hold on to forever. And something that feels so secure it feels like it can hold you forever.

Conan's backing vocals are heavenly. I love these besties so much.

maggots for brains

Okay, yearnatron.

In all seriousness, it sounds like overdependence. Like, it sounds so concerning… Girl, are you okay? I don't think this is normal? 😭 Maybe I just don't understand it because I've never wanted someone that bad. Good song, though.

u + me = <3

Probably the cutest one! Hell yeah, fuck it, whatever!!

It sounds like a track to a coming-of-age movie too, so I had the sudden thought that the chorus can also apply to friends.

my way

I LOVE a psycholivia song. Also, when you're both such a catch that both your exes keep bothering you? What a couple.

Wait was this written around the time she was clutching Louis at an awards show like someone was gonna take her cookie away??? LMAO

purple

Bro. The anxiety this song gave me? The way it builds up? The way the instrumental slowly starts to sound like warning bells? Like when you're trying to keep thinking of only positive thoughts about a relationship until you can't ignore the emptiness of it all underneath anymore and have to face that it's actually been so, so fragile all along?

I understand the feeling. So. Much. Danlivia, you are such geniuses. Absolute cinema ✋✋ (me to any piece of media portraying anxiety, ever). Thank you. I hate it. Best song ever.

At the stage that this song represents, it sounds like they've reached a point of comfortable familiarity in the relationship, and the euphoric start has finally waned into something more quiet, leading to the voices becoming less ignorable.

What also helped the song nail the anxiety for me was how I was already anticipating the sad lyrics because Olivia already revealed the structure of the album being chronological to the events of her relationship, and she said that this song is kind of the transition song. So the listener already knows how it's gonna end even before listening to the album. Then, the giddyness and sweetness of the opening songs kind of made us forget about this fact. It's like you're experiencing the story too in real time, but you get this anxious anticipation that gets stronger up to the end of side A. It's exactly how some relationships feel. You know it's doomed from the start, but you keep avoiding it in your head until it reaches a breaking point.

And there's something poetic about finally having an album with a different color, a romantic shade of pink, a perfect relationship, just for purple to appear again, just for it to start feeling like something you've felt before. It says that it's not the perfect relationship she's convinced herself they had. Just like her past albums/relationships, the new rose tint she had in her world ended up becoming purple anyway.

the cure

The placement of purple and the cure in the album, respectively, is just so so good. I mean, it's obviously a chronological album, but just the storytelling embedded in the sound in this part, the way it transitions from something romantic to something sad as the memories go darker *wink wink* in her perspective is absolute cinema.

However, I can't separate the song from the music video lol so I always feel some kind of closure at the end of the song cuz the music video has told us what the cure is. I just think the visual story makes sense paired with what's going on in the instrumental, even if it's not explicitly described in the lyrics. I really love how the end feels like acceptance that you need to learn how to love yourself first. Even if you're not there yet and the mindset has such a strong grip on you that it hurts, there's still some kind of peace to be found in the realization that you're the cure to your own sickness. You're the antidote to the versions of your heart that got broken. No other kind of love can ever surpass being able to forgive and love oneself because it's such a hard feat to learn. And this song really is the thesis statement of the album.

begged

I just. When begged plays, i LISTEN. I always get so stunned by the weight of it.

I think this is when she realizes that it's not just her mind that's the problem. There's something about his actions too that is insufficient, which triggers her doubts. I think this is where she starts to see cracks from both sides of their relationship, not just on her side, which she previously realizes in the cure. Despite these painful bruises in their relationship and the hurt that it brings, she clings to the hope that they'll be able to fix it. And I think a big part of what's making her stay is she didn't want to "waste" the time and effort she's already given to the relationship for her to end it just because she doesn't feel like it's enough. This regret appears later on, although now in a different shape, in cigarette smoke.

what's wrong with me

God, I get this song so much. The part when you can't even admit to yourself that it's not what you want or what's good for you. So you let the dread consume you whole. The not wanting help from your friends because deep down, you already know what they're gonna say and it's the thing you are so scared of facing.

less

I cried so hard what the fuck. I'm not even joking, the tears would not stop streaming down my eyes.

This song is the breaking point of their relationship. And my tears.

People are saying that the one crying in LAX was her cuz he was leaving, but at first I thought it was him crying. It just made more sense grammatically. That made me cry harder because it implies that he's just as hurt as she is over the breakup. It proves that he really loved her.

I hate mutual breakups. Twice the hearts broken, twice the sadness.

expectations

WHY on EARTH would you follow less with an electronic song 😭😭😭😭 Is the title fucking wordplay about the jarring 180° switch-up?? Because that's funny as hell. I like the tune but girl, calm down. Let me dry these tears first.

I'm proud of her for the growth from doubting the validity of her own expectations in a relationship in All I Want, to emphasizing in this song that she does have expectations and they're big, as she has always deserved. From scared of my guitar's "I'd rather be tied to someone even if they're wrong" to expectation's "He seems so desperate for loving, but, baby, i'm not". Also, "I'm not kissing any boy that is passive//Their indecision is painfully unattractive" sounds like a call back to the guy in drop dead not making any move to show affection during their date cuz she was "dropping hints all night". It seems like she's been the initiator for a lot of things in her past relationships and I'm glad she's finally not accepting anyone unwilling to give back exactly what she provides.

Moreover! Maybe I am delusional, but it feels like it's also showing the expectations put on her to procure a guy within a few months like there's a deadline.

Anyway, I love this banger. And I like to imagine Dan singing "She's got real big expectations" like a proud, supportive dad. So fun.

cigarette smoke

When I catch you, Louis. WHEN I CATCH YOU, LOUIS.

Man, I resonate so very much with wanting honesty, wanting to know what the other person really thought about the relationship so that you can finally have closure. You know, like a final blow to finally push you off the cliff and stop lingering in a place that you don't belong to anymore.