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Phantom of the Opera: How Much Did Opera Actually Influence Erik's Understanding of the World?
So, I love monster lit. A lot of folks know this if you've been following the blog.
I'm also a huge fan of opera. Like literal opera.
And, operas are really interesting because they're kind of, stylistically, marked by a couple of different things - style, forms, and whether they're tragic or comedic. However, you don't often get like ... blends? You can. Kinda. But, generally, like Shakespearean tragedies or comedies everyone's either gonna end up dead or married.
And, that made me think about Erik.
We have no darn clue how old he was per Leroux's timeline (because he was a prodigy and a genius) when he ended up under the opera house.
So, how many social experiences did Erik really have?
How much of his entire social world was filtered through the tragedy and comedy of opera?
Part of the reason I say this is because if you look at his relationship with The Persian it takes on flares of the sort of combative nature of operetic friendship. They fight. There's drama. They're rivals. Then, they're buddies. There's no stability. It's all drama, mostly put there by Erik.
But, again. That's what he knows! It's all he knows.
Even his relationship with Christine fascinates me.
If you look at his dialogue, he wants a friend.
He wants someone to hold his arm and take walks with him because he doesn't want to be alone. He wants someone to end his solitude. He wants to keep coaching her in music. He wants her to be the prima donna of the opera.
That's all he *really* says he wants.
Yet, he says he wants to marry her.
Why?
In comedic operas, everyone gets married in the end. That's how the happily ever after *works.* It doesn't matter if that's not what he actually wants, or if that's what she wants. It only matters that that's how the plot of the opera is supposed to work. In order to have stability, in order for the tragedy to stop, the marriage has to happen.
Erik fundamentally lacks the language of friendship.
He doesn't understand what it looks like, what it's supposed to feel like, what living is like, because he has no lived experiences of his own to draw from.
So, instead, he draws from the beautiful lyrical poetry of opera. He draws from what he knows and loves most to understand the world around him because it's all he HAS.
He uses the word "wife" because it's the only word he has to understand the complex intimate feelings he has for "best friend." He uses the word "wife" because marriage is the "fix-it" in almost all operatic comedies across all forms of comedy operas whether it's a Buffa (Think Barber of Seville) or Comique (This is probably what Webber was referencing with opera the chandelier crashes in although it could also have been an Operetta, as that incorporates dance, or perhaps it may have been a form of Grand Opera set in the current period, though that is less likely. It was likely a Comique because those were often about relatable characters in the current French culture of the 19th century. But, I'm getting in the weeds.)
Anyway, as soon as the world is brought to Erik, as soon as Christine recognizes his humanity, he is able to understand it.
One of my favorite, and perhaps the most important details in the Leroux text, is that Christine kisses Erik's *forehead.* She does not kiss his lips at any point in the story that I can remember?
In fact, Leroux seems to very intentionally make Erik and Christine's relationship quite asexual in nature. I never really noticed that as a young person, but I *did* very much notice it when I re-read the story as an adult. It's something I appreciate a lot about what Leroux seems to be doing and his commentary on human beings in general.
However, as soon as Christine recognizes Erik as a person, as soon as she kisses his forehead, he lets her go. He no longer wishes to marry her. It's like something is released in him, and he lets everyone he has been holding captive go. He no longer threatens to blow up the opera house and himself and everyone with it.
Christine and Raoul (who were childhood besties) run off together, and Erik dies of a broken heart.
But, if you look at his dialogue carefully, I don't think he dies because he wanted Christine romantically and didn't get to marry her. Instead, he compares her tears mingling with his to that of an angel's tears, and he goes on to talk about his *mother.* He talks about how his own mother never touched his face or kissed him. Yet, this girl looked at him, touched his face, and didn't die.
He fully expected anyone who kissed his face to die.
Yet, this perfect and pure angelic girl did not die when she kissed his forehead.
The way Erik talks in this is oddly paternal?
It's very different than the way he has spoken in past chapters of the novel.
In recognizing Erik's humanity, in bringing the world outside of operatic comedies or tragedies, Christine helped Erik make *sense* of the world, his feelings, and emotions. Marrying this girl is never what Erik really wanted.
He wanted a companion. He wanted a best friend. He wanted someone to walk with him when the world was too frightening after all the abandonment he had experienced.
And, his heart is broken knowing that he will never get to have that. He lost it in his own madness.
And, in that way, Leroux is right. We should pity Erik because if he had only been born a "normal" man he would have been a genius. But, things being what they were, he ended up lonely, confused, and broken hearted.
And, I would *love* to see an actor play Webber's Phantom in this way. Start him HUGE as though the only way he knows how to behave is in grandeur and, as the show progresses, make him more intimate. Take the energy from a 6 when we first meet him, up to a 10+ as Red Death, but then afterwards? Back down.
As he's losing it, he's softer. He's smaller. He's more intimate in his fury. He's scared.
So, at the very end, all is quiet. That final "Christine, I love you." And, he finally understands what that really means to him. So, it's just lightly sung. That exchange of rings is more pleasant. Nods are cordial. Maybe even a little hand clasp. There's understanding. It's soft. So, soft.
Even that last "It's over now, the music of the night?" So, stealthy. Don't belt. Just ... light. So light.
Like he's talking to himself and calling himself "Poor unhappy Erik."
As an autistic transmasc-nonbinary contralto. I would love to play this role. I can hit the notes enough to "pants" it in the original key too. I know. I've practiced.
So, anyway, thank you for coming to my TED-talk about why I think opera influenced Erik's understanding of relationship and how human kindness helped him to understand what he actually wanted for his real life.
Erik/Christine had potential to be an amazing couple actually. They're both talented musicians who experienced grief and loneliness and are capable to see the world throught unique views, see the beauty where everyone else considers lost and abominable.
Erik if you weren't such a self destructive asshole Erik
That’s why I love reading fics where they give Erik room for growing and acknowledging his previous behaviour and actually become a better man

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Another important fact cut from the original Phantom of the Opera translation:
Christine explicitly says that despite her basically giving him every opportunity to assault her, Erik never as much as touched her in all the time they spent together and completely respected her. She goes as far as saying that his behaviour towards her at times made her see him as angelic again.
Not-so-dear Raoul,
I hope this letter does not find you well.
I find myself grieving once again for my dear Christine, my angel. Would you let her return to me?
If not, disastrous consequences await.
Do not take my threats lightly,
O. G.
[Instead of receiving an answer to his letter, there is nothing. Raoul, upon finding the letter, had gone white with fear and anger, and tossed the letter into the fire.]
That... that monster dares...?
[He also did not tell Christine.]
”You’re way too obsessed with Erik.” 💀💀💀
Well, yes. That is reason one million why we belong together, because I am admittedly just as bad as he is. If the opportunity presented itself, I would absolutely create a life sized statue of Monsieur as my groom and follow him around the opera house as I sing his praises. I already sob over him, think of him, and dedicate anything beautiful I create for him. Forget the fact that there’d be two terrorizing the opera house, we would be competing over who is more obsessed and insane about each other. We would sob and scream about how we finally found each other and huddle like two terrified but lovesick mice. It would be a beautiful thing and I yearn for such heaven. 🎀🎹🎶
Move over Marga HIMMLER IS MINE NOW! >:)
I read somewhere that the Nazis banned some music in the Reich.
That being any artist that wasn’t German, or was Jewish.
I forgot the rest but something that stood out to me was the fact that they banned swing and jazz music, and as I was reading that I was like “I hate both„ 😭
Like I HATE jazz and swing so much. To the point where if someone plays it I get so annoyed 😭

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Obersturmbannführer Karl Ruprecht Kroenen (Ladislav Beran), one of many no-goodniks from Hellboy (2004).
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A sketch of a vision I had!! Punk Doomslayer!!
I can't help but hear it 😭
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I really like to go through cutscenes to read the Doom Slayer’s body language. It’s the only way I can see his brain processing. (Also really why I love helmetless mods)
It’s the small things that count for me. Especially because hes a silent protagonist, so reading him through body language is super important to me. I also LOVE his man cave in the Fortress of Doom, because it shows a glimpse of his personality. I really hate it when people only characterize him as a big ball of rage with no brain. HES SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT!!!!! It’s like majority of his fans like the idea of an angry character, but they don’t like the complexities and the emotional baggage it carries. He means so much to me :((
Doom 2016 appreciation :)
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I can't speak for other people who were there for the first Doom 1993 game, but I can speak for myself when I say that Doom 2016 is such an important game for both me and the fandom.
If I were able to go back in time to play Doom 2016 for the first time, I would love to do so. There is just something about Doom 2016 that has an amazing beauty to it. You can tell that the game developers took the Doom revival seriously.
In the intro, it's about going into the elevator and listening to Dr. Samuel Hayden talk, then seeing Doom Slayer punching the elevator screen, and it immediately cuts to the Doom title with such beautiful music. If it weren't for the beauty of Doom 2016, I wouldn't have gotten into shooter games. The first EVER first person shooter game I have ever played was Doom 2016. This game has reminded me that there is a certain effort and art that goes into any video game. It's supposed to let the player be immersed.
I can't ever put my finger on it, but I get a feeling similar to nostalgia when I think about Doom 2016. I feel it in my heart: a sense of warmth and pride in being part of the fandom. This game has seen me happy, angry, and sad. When I lost to a demon or a boss fight, it somehow made me want to come back and do more. Like the actual line, "rip and tear until it is done," truly echoed in my head.
I always find myself replaying the demo over and over again just to get the feeling of my admiration when I first played this game
It's hard to put into words how special this game is to me, so this is the best I can do. Thank you for listening (or reading, in this case) :))