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You moved into this place with bricks and a wall,

Another person came by, you gave love your all.

You decided to build a castle, forever the call,

Then love faded, trust died, and the castle did fall.

Scrambling bricks everywhere, the whole place is a mess,

Life’s stuck like a car that stalled, going nowhere, distressed.

Then one day a stranger comes by, “Let me help you build the castle.”

You said, what’s the harm if we try? There’s nothing to hassle.

The castle rose again, not the same as before,

A little more guarded, a little more sure.

You thought this was it, the final restore,

To this soul you felt tied, emotionally in debt once more.

You gave it your all, went beyond every line,

Stayed happy a while, thought the timing aligned.

Then love faded again, trust died in its time,

And the castle cracked open, brick by brick, line by line.

The castle is broken again,

The halls that once reeked of love,

The halls that echoed with laughter and happiness, go silent again.

Alone in the ruins, you start to question God,

Why every castle you build ends up broken and flawed.

So you decide to build it again, this time without any help,

Brick by brick, lesson by lesson, relying on yourself.

You realize you never knew anyone who could build it strong,

Because the castle was never meant to be built by someone else all along.

The walls don’t need hands but yours to stand tall,

This castle doesn’t need anyone

Months passed and things are different now

your problems are my problems,

My problems are a burden how?

The insecurities that made me human

Are the ones making me a monster now.

Then one day the feelings started to fade,

Proving love would never leave someone afraid.

Because real love,

Real love would’ve stayed.

I hate the way you make me wait,

The half-read texts, the silent bait.

I hate how you’re so close, yet far,

Like wishing on a burned-out star.

I hate the way you pull away,

But never far enough to free me,

You leave the door just barely open,

A whisper of maybe.

I hate the way I still care,

Even when you’re not around,

How you’re the silence in the noise,

The calm I never found.

I hate the way I was too naive,

But I learned from every bruise and fall,

Even if it took losing you

To finally see through it all.

I hate the way I don’t hate you,

Not even close, not even a little,

You were brutal,

You were beautiful,

You were cold,

You were everything at once.

I mistook your familiar corners

for a sanctuary of connection,

but each step revealed a distance,

a silent reminder that even in a city that never sleeps,

the space between us could never shrink

to the closeness I craved.

Now I leave, not with fond memories,

but with lessons I never asked to learn.

London, you were unkind to me,

but maybe that’s what I needed to see.

Maybe I expected too much

Maybe you never had anything to give

Maybe sometimes, no matter how hard you reach,

what you long for remains just out of grasp.

Goodbye London.

You won’t miss me,

But I wont forget you.

-Yellow by Coldplay