A lot of random stuff...

I love Steve Rodgers, I love Sam Wilson, I love Bucky Barnes

...I get so extremely pissed whenever I think about Avengers Doomsday bringing back Steve..

Genuinely, when the leaks of the Steve teaser came out all those months ago, I was SEETHING.

Im my mind, first thing, is "What about Sam?" Now I am aware that Steve and Sam have already been Captain America together in the comics and I quite enjoyed that, and the thing is we don't even know if Steve will be Captain America in Doomsday. No, no what upsets me really is the audience reception to this.

It's such obvious nostalgia bait. The MCU, despite having so many new stories and heroes to explore and properly develop (Kate Bishop, Shuri, Shang Chi, Kamala, Ironheart, ect) and what do they do?? They bring in Chris and Robert again despite the fact that their time at marvel has BEEN over (what if doesn't count). The MCU does this KNOWING that bringing back Steve will give people even more of an excuse to hate on Sam, who already has an uphill struggle in canon for the same fucking reasons as real life.

And im sorry, but Doomsday is already cluttered with bringing back the X-Men and F4 to have all the inevitable plot drama Steve will bring about with Sam and Bucky alike, because again, his story has BEEN done with, (which I know a lot of people didn't like his ending in Endgame, but either way it was very final), with both Sam and Bucky having already moved on from Steve.

Genuinely, I love Steve so fucking much, but I just hate how he's being brought back for Doomsday ://

…sambucky 🤭

So, what did I get out of this experience compared to other fics of mine? Shirley's very different from other protagonists I've written; she's been married, she's got kids. I enjoyed writing somebody with more of these adult experiences and concerns. She also has a very different approach to sexuality and gender compared to some of my blorbos, but I found that surprisingly easy to work with.

I've still got no clue how I'd write from Jeff's POV, but I had fun writing about him and not just when it came to describing his tits. Jeff it is my solemn pledge to you that you will experience nipple play in every fic I write you in (unless it's Hanahaki and you're too busy administering CPR).

I also rarely write pure romance over so many words. I've had plenty of ideas for fics that were romances (ask me about my Xicheng high school Frog AU or my Qingya coworkers BDSM AU) but I just generally find I don't quite have the interest to get them written. I feel like romance is a rambling rose: it can in fact be the main feature of a story, but it needs a plot-trellis to grow up. So when I'm new to a fandom I usually start off with a few romantic and/or smutty oneshots, THEN end up thwacking out a long fic for my favourite ship that also has some kind of adventure plot. But the JeffShirley is a romance from beginning to end, with a romance plot. Maybe because I deadass did not expect it to be anything like this length. I thought we were talking beefy oneshot. Maybe because the other fandoms I'm talking about are adventure fandoms, whereas Community (high-concept episodes not withstanding) is mostly focussed on interpersonal drama, so I'm just sticking to the source material?

Anyway!

Canon version here