Feel Me?

one of the posters in toms trailer (or also a blown up banner in the stunt tent in the extended ver) is a boxing movie.

so whoever, manages to get some of fight choreographer or a consultant or smth

and low and behold one of the consultants just so happens to be julian, a guy he met while they were shooting in thailand.

now (this would mean canon divergence and julian lives, which is actually a fic im also scheming) what julian would be doing, idk. He could be taking over the mother side of business or he could be trying to go on the straight and narrow.

but yea. Brainworms.

Also I interpreted the end of Only God Forgives as a(nother) dream sequence of Julian's. In my head he's alive and well (maybe not mentally well but when was that ever the case for our boy) and maybe he's trying to get out of the whole organized drug- and sex-trafficking businesses.

Maybe he's running a boxing gym or maybe he took off out of Thailand entirely and ended up in LA or Sydney. Maybe he's involved in film because action movies need mooks to beat up and he knows how to train people to take a hit or two (or at least pretend to take a hit, which he thinks is pretty stupid because somehow pretending to fight is humiliating whereas actually fighting is something he can respect).

Maybe he's on some set where he's bored and thinking of Thailand and how much he wishes he could do something with his hands other than hurt things. Maybe he sees some dumb guy with highlights in his hair and the kind of breezy arrogance that makes Julian want to stop and squint like he's caught a glimpse of something lovely when he didn't expect it, like a perfect sunset seen from a grocery store parking lot.

And Julian has always been something shameful and secretive and nefarious which is why he knows this gorgeous slice of summer wouldn't want anything to do with him, but Julian still wants to pull on that blonde hair. Cuteness aggression. Or just plain aggression. Or even desire. He's not sure which one. Maybe all of them. Definitely the last one.

But he knows it's impossible, which is why it's such a shock when he catches the guy looking at him in the reflection of a trailer. And when Julian looks over and their eyes meet it's like the sun light he sees there is scorching away all the ugly neon and blood of the past few years. It's a disinfectant, after all. The best one. If Julian had any doubts about that, he has none now.

But now he definitely, definitely wants to fight this guy.

So he puts up his fists. Looks back. Tries not to hope or think what could happen or even breathe too hard in case this moment collapses like a soap bubble.

"Wanna fight?" he asks. But what he's really asking is, "Do you see what I see when I look at you?"

Holy shit biscuits.

Adding fuel to the flame… yes.

in my head the two interpretations i got for the ending was that a) he died and b) it was a dream, both of where he just kinda gave up/surrendered some aspect of his life (but my dumbass casually forgot that i coulda made it into a dream sequence and instead focused on angst😭)

but oughhhhhh i love this.

…brainworm.

him and colt lightly sparring to show that ‘hey while you know how to cause pain, you also know how to control it’ or smth.

but colt knowing how to speak/listen without using words

They spar a bit. At first Julian is nervous because he's used to looking at opponents like targets and not, you know, with admiration. He's normally into feminine guys. But Colt is beautiful in a way that blends Julian's brain into mush. Julian thinks his eyelashes are really beautiful, the way his eyes crease is arresting, and he's struck by the physicality of Colt's comfort in his own body in how he keeps his shoulders down but his fists up when they throw a few jabs at the other.

So they scrap a few times. Develop a physical language. Colt is bigger and broader but Julian can grapple and one time they end up on the ground in a heap and they take just a few seconds longer to pull apart than is strictly, professionally necessary. They don't look at each other. But an hour later they're scrapping again, but this time there's more purpose in it. Before they were testing to see how the other man dealt with a fight but now they're testing to see if there's any open space they can slide a hand into or hook an ankle around.

And they get such a reputation for horsing around there are some side eyes and murmurs. And Julian rolls his eyes at that or just stares until the whispers stop because they're both tough guys and Colt has a certain reputation with anything in a skirt(to put it mildly).

And then the shoot concludes and it's last night on set. A wrap party. And here they are, maybe never going to see each other again.

So Julian takes a swig of vodka and lifts his fists.

"Wanna fight?"

Now and every night?

Julian Thompson x Colt Seavers

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