symptom of the universe

"El weird-O maś strange, that you cant possibly imagine" aka: Gods lonely man Ædrian, 38, from So Cal (introvert) I'm into the macabre,morbid,kitschy,weird,surreal,occult,obscure, horro,sci-fi, video games,history and everything in between. All I have to give is a love that never dies🤘🏼 !Disclaimer! I live in what I can only begin to describe as a brief states/bouts of loneliness, self hate, disassociation, melancholy and ennui about my existence add on top of that a severe anxiety disorder/severe social anxiety. so i can come off as rude from time to time and just awkward. I understand and I do apologize for this. I'm simply putting this here to State that this is a personal blog only and will never be used for monetization. this is my life and personal thoughts,rants and raves. I'm only human and very flawed. so sorry if I fuck something up. let me know how to make up for it. all I know is that I know nothing and i am always willing to listen,learn and I'm not ashamed to admit that. im a mess. I only want to belong to somebody and be loved.