Weed, Cats, and Bad habits

You tell me you're gonna change and prove me wrong and we would get back together and be happy but as time goes on your words are empty you profess your love to me then when it comes time to show it it's not there I never professed my love but when it came time to show it I always did.

I need to find a valentine after today the person I wanted to ask I don't wanna ask anymore.

You block me or u friended me on Snapchat and Facebook, blow me off the day I wake up early to see you and not to mention it's a day before my birthday and I won't get to see you on it. You say you love me and wanna be with me. But you do nothing to show that you actually want it besides spewing meaningless words.

Idk why I keep thinking we can work things out but I can't stop. Idk why I keep trying to keep you in my life but I can't stop. Idk why I have steel to my skin but I can't stop. I can't stop thinking about 5 years together. Now on this day that you told me we would still share you ditch me. Left alone to cry, sob, and hurt. I keep wanting things to work out somehow but I know after today they never can again.

My thoughts are fucking me up big time.

I love you but I hate you. You say all this great stuff to my face then behind my back talk a bunch crap. You never stand up for me but always expected me to do it for you. You'd be mad when I went to hang with my friends without inviting you sometimes but I never receive and invite when you go out with yours. You tell me constantly you wanted to go out and do things but when out you say your embarrassed by be. I don't like not having you, I miss you everyday, but you have gotten even worse sense you left me. I gave everything for you my time, my money, my heart, my soul and I barely got any in return. Then you wondered why I stopped doing so much for you before you left me it's cause I didn't feel the love anymore and saw something like this coming. Granted I didn't think it would happen till March but what can ya do. I gave up everything for you, and it still wasn't enough. Either it's you or me and by that I mean either you got something to work out or I need to be able to make a big check every week so we never fight again cause I could always keep you happy by buying you things

Today showed me you don't love me cause once I start struggling you bail and dump me with a note that says maybe we can try again in the future ( when I'm better ) and in the mean time ask my friends to watch me like you bail on me and put my burden on them. You don't fucking love me, and everytime it came from your mouth all it was was words just empty words cause when it came time to show it you walk away