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I can't believe I haven't written a post since January! I'm here on Tumblr every week, I go through quite a lot of posts…

I have reconciled with my family since the New Year. I haven't met them for a while, it was hard to be around them, but since I'm learning to ride a motorcycle and I'm at the training course in the morning, I need their help. I spend 1 or 2 nights a week with them, so we see each other more, but not for so long that it spoils anything.

The fact that in a few weeks I came to the decision that I want to change jobs is almost as significant a change. Recently, I had to change positions because the management made a spontaneous decision about the layout of our online newspaper. I no longer deal with photos, but I am a graphic designer, I create infographics to the newspaper articles. Many people left the workplace due to inappropriate circumstances (for example, due to incompetent management, unreasonable and stressful decisions, lack of money, extra tasks and burdens, etc.).

One of my managers, L., who, after all, I can say is close to me (who also rides motorcycles, we are talking about a man around 45 years old anyway) was completely burnt out last month. I see it on his face, I hear it in his words. He was one of the key people with whose help this newspaper was built, and now he sees how the current management is ruining the whole thing with its thoughtless decisions. I can see how disillusioned he is and how much he has lost because of it. I'm so sorry he has to go through this and I feel for him.

For about a month now, I have been thinking about leaving the company. I can fill a similar position anywhere and no one will pay me less than the current one, that is, I can only earn more and do better. I really love the atmosphere of the office and my colleagues and I always remind myself of the progress I've gone through in the past 3 years, and I can thank them for that. But I've reached a point where it doesn't matter anymore...

L is my manager, who was the second reason I stayed. I remember the first days and his encouragement and jokes, and I can't believe that I've known him for 3 years already! L whispered to me this week that he was so burned out that he was sure he was going to leave. He works very, very hard and is not appreciated at all. I understand him completely… and with this decision he confirmed in me that I have to quit too. If he leaves, I won't have a link with the management, there won't be anyone responsible for the visual content at the management level, there won't be a face I'd like to join for a coffee, with whom we stand in the sun on the balcony every morning, he smokes and we talk about where he's going on a motorcycle trip on the season, and when will I finally get my driver's license, while we laugh at the little things in life…