hunger of the pines

over the last 3 weeks, a lot has happened and i'm not really in the right state of mind to spend time on here for awhile. 

this is your last chance to turn back before reading something long and personal and boring so i warned you, broski. lots of trigger warnings ahead.

i've lived with depression and anxiety for most of my life as have a lot of awesome people on this website and in my life. three weeks ago i was admitted to the ER for suicidal ideations. i had been in therapy and voiced some dangerous thoughts. i wasn't kept or admitted to the hospital or anything but put on medication. a couple days ago my grandmother died. it was a really tough and still is. it's been kind of a downhill slope. my depression and long term anxiety meds aren't working and until i go to a psychiatrist my mood won't really stabilize.

i do not have any motivation for a lot of things including continuing to post on Tumblr. i don't know when i will be back. i'll continue to answer messages and check in when needed or i can. i'm sorry to have to do this. i'll miss you guys while im gone. thank you for following me and reading all of this if you did.