levii

I'm sitting here and I'm just thinking like, has anyone actually ever liked me? I feel like people just use me for a period of time until they find someone way better and then I just get left. I don't think anyone feels excited to talk to me or that I'm anyones first choice. I'm just the background character in everyone's life

Homesick but I have a home

Everyone’s been hurting my feelings recently

My body allows me to cry for about 5 full minutes before I literally feel the emotional shutdown wash over.

When you spend your whole life caring about how you affect others and caring about others feelings only for them to not give a fuck in return, there reaches a point at which you just don’t care anymore about other people

bpd culture is sneaking in one of your insecurities in a rant and getting so upset when your fp doesn’t acknowledge it bc it feels like they’re validating the insecurity

there is no cure for the illness inside this brain

cluster b culture is adding fictional characters to your identity not because you think you have a past life or whatever, but because you genuinely have no identity and this character who is so much like you could still explain who you are at least and it's less confusing than wondering wtf you even are and what you have going on

I watched the light slowly die out in my own eyes. Do you know how much a person has to go through for that to happen?

love how bpd basically is a remix of the worst symptoms psychiatrists could come up with

the bpd urge to disappear on everyone and start my life over where I refuse to become attached to anybody or anything & remain the sexy mysterious stranger for the rest of my life

the feminine urge to self-sabotage everything good in your life bc you feel like you don’t deserve it