Live Free

I have made a new tumblr blog. I like this one, but it's not my primary blog on here. I haven't used the primary blog in years and I get annoyed that I can't remove it since this has become my primary. So I've decided to make a new one. If you follow me here and would like to continue, I'd love to have you! If you get a follow from "unfitalpaca" that is me. Eventually I will change my name back to "dreadedmoose" because I like that better. Actually I think I might just do that right now to avoid even more confusion.

I’ve decided that if I’m not pregnant with a healthy baby by the time I’m 30 (so 2 years) we are taking out a loan for ivf/icis. I’m OK with only one child. I’m also expecting we create one in that time frame. I have no idea on the ins and outs of getting a loan for something like that or for the amount but I'm sure that's what some people do to afford it? I previously thought it'd never be an option due to cost, but if I only have one child by that it's worth all the monies. I just hope I'd be approved for it (my credit is fair right now and only going to go up, husband's is poor and he's going to be filing bankruptcy this year so we can legally marry).

Update on my locks. They are just over two months old. Except the ones in the back on the crown of my head. I undid 8 poorly sectioned dreads that I hayed and created 13 new ones. That was just two weeks ago. Most of those 13 I like, but there are one or two that I am not fond Of. The section is more rectangular, but either I did that or would have had a dread far too tiny and that could cause future problems.

I've recently found my self and couldn't be more pleased. I used to waste my time trying to please everyone and society. This translated to blonde highlighted hair, fake tans, and lots of makeup. My husband is an amazing man and nurtured my spirit enough that I reconnected with my inner (true) self. When I was a child I'd spend countless hours singing made up songs to Mother Nature, making gifts for the Earth, and just being a free soul. I'm sorry I ever lost touch with that child, and I'm so glad to be me again.

I love that I'm weird. People call me weird and unique constantly, but they always say it with a smile or a chuckle. I'm not entirely sure how I come off as weird most of the time, but I'm OK with it and even love that characteristic. If you watch New Girl, my husband compares me to Winston (the best character of the show! haha).

I have so many interests and hobbies. Really, I have severe ADHD (actually went through a rigorous diagnostic evaluation as a young'n) and I tend to jump from one thing to the next. While I get frustrated with myself at times and my inability to seemingly complete anything, I love that I always have a project of some sort going on. Be it painting, crafting a gift for someone, or making something for my garden.

I don't have many true best friends, but I am willing to give up the shirt on my back for those that have earned a spot in my heart. I will do almost anything for those that I love, and that is not limited to human companions.