"Never let fear decide your fate."

The choice (on Wattpad) http://my.w.tt/UiNb/WHVrRBgkMz "Sometimes in life you make choices, and sometimes choices make you."

I loved Jeremy, didn’t I?

I love that pairing!!! 😀😀😀😀

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Hey guys, since I've had such a great reaction from my Calum Hood "Little Secret" series, I decided on making another one, yay! BUT, I need your guys help. I need each of you to send me a 5SOS SONG and THE NAME OF ONE OF THE BOYS and I will pick one and use it as my inspiration for my new series. So pleaaaaase please please don't be shy! I can't wait to hear your suggestions. I'm hoping to start writing it tonight so the sooner the better. Again, thanks for all your guys support. I love you all! Xoxo -San

Yay so glad you liked it :)

Hi guys! Here it is, part 4 of the Little secret series! I'm SO sorry it took so long to write, but it's here now so I hope you all enjoy. I'm gonna be starting another 5sos mini series soon, so send me which boy you would like it to be about. Thanks so much for all the support. As always, personal imagines are welcome. Love you all! -San :) 2 days, 14 hours and 37 excruciating minutes since Calum told me the words that kept burning in my brain. He couldn't forgive me, and while I understood that, it didn't make this any easier. I had absolutely no right to his forgiveness, but deep down, I still hoped he would give it to me. The moment I seen him look at luna for the first time, I knew I made a terrible terrible mistake. Now it's far too late for me to fix it, even though I would do anything in my power to make it all right. I've been trying to keep myself busy with school, and working extra hours, but if I thought luna reminded me of Calum before, it was nothing compared to what I seen when I looked at her now. Seeing the similarities between the two of them was all I could do anymore, and it was driving me borderline crazy. I even called the boys to take Luna for awhile so I can try and sleep, something I haven't done in almost 72 hours. Not that it helped at all. I just tossed and turned, my mind not turning off. I finally decided to take a walk to my favorite coffee shop for a pick me up and to get a some fresh air. The weather was perfect as it was the time the seasons were starting to change from summer to fall. The once muggy air was now brisk and chilly. I force a polite smile at the older couple at the table near the entrance when I walk in. After waiting a few minutes in line I ordered and shifted my way down the counter and waited for my vanilla latte. "Large? You know that's gonna hurt your stomach if you drink it all." I look up from my phone and see Calum standing next to me, putting his wallet away. I was surprised he remembered that coffee made me sick if I drank too much of it. "I haven't been sleeping much, I need it." I mumble. "Yeah, me either." He replies, fidgeting in with his car keys. We both stand there awkwardly and wait for our drinks, neither of us knowing what we should do. It amazed me how two people could share so much history, and have such an unbreakable bond, yet not be able to speak at all. I sigh in relief when I hear the barista call my name, moving to make a quick exist. "Wait..." I stop when I hear Calum yell as he races to catch up with me. "Yeah?" I give him a questionable look. "I've been thinking..." "About?" I raise my eyebrow, wondering what the meaning of all this was. "Luna, the band, how I was going to work this all into my schedule...you." He bites his lip. "Me?" My chest tightens. "Yeah, believe it or not, I haven't been able to stop thinking about you...listen, I'm pissed at you for keeping something so huge from me, but I'm more hurt." The frown on his face feels like someone taking knives to my heart. "I know..." An ashamed look coming across my sullen face. "I don't think you do. I should have been there for you, I should have been the first one you told the news to. I should have been holding your hair and rubbing your back when you had morning sickness. I should have been out at 3 am getting your ridiculous cravings. I should have been holding you while you cried when the hormones got the better of you. I should have been the one putting the crib together even though you would have insisted I call someone. I should have been there when your water broke. I should have been freaking out about getting to the hospital in time. I should have been holding your hand and whispering in your ear it would all be okay. God damn it, I should have been there." Tears were now streaming down his face and that was enough for me to lose it myself. "I didn't want you to have any regrets, Cal." I sniffle. "The only regret I have is not being able to experience the best thing of our lives with you." He steps closer a interlocks out hands. "I love you, and no matter how pissed off or hurt I am, nothing will ever change that. I may not have like what you did but I know you had good intentions and did it all for me, and that makes me love you even more. I already missed out on too much in your guys lives, don't make me miss anymore." His eyes plead with me. "Calum, I would- oh just kiss me you fool." And he did just that.

Coming soon I promise!

Sooooooon babe :)

Thank you so much! Part 4 will be up super soon :)

Tomorrow :)

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Alright guys! Here it is. Part 3 of the Little Secret. mini series. I hope you enjoy it. Let me know if you guys would like a Part 4 or if you want to keep the ending to your imagination! Love you all. Xoxo -San 2 hours, 46 minutes, 10 seconds since my world was shattered, again. Except this time it was the other way around, Calum walked out on me. He just left. Gone without any kind of response. Not that I can blame him at all. I totally and completely deserve everything thrown my way. I deserve ever bit of anger he has for me. I didn't have the strength to move, I just kind of sat there. Looking at the wall blankly. I cried so much the past few hours since everything happened, I didn't even have it in me to do that anymore. I was so far gone into my head that i didn't even hear the door open. "Mommy, we're home." I recognize Luke's playful voice as he and the other guys walk into the room, Luna snuggled up into Michael's chest, fast asleep. "Hey, sorry I didn't even realize it was so late already." I get up from my seat and carefully take her into my arms. "What's wrong?" Ashton asks, his voice filled with concern when he sees my red puffy face. "Calum came over." I bite my lip. "Shit." Mikey curses under his breath. "How did he take it?" Luke looks over at me like he was afraid to hear my answer. "How do you think?" Nobody answered. "He didn't go absolutely ballistic did he?" Ashton asks. "No. He left. He said he had to go and walked out." I shake my head. "He'll come around. You remember how he gets. He just needs some time to let it sink it." Luke reassures me. "I know." I force a smile. "How was today? Was she good?" "She was great. We had so much fun." Ashton informs me ruffling her dark curly hair. Making her stir a little. "Yeah, I mean I almost beat up this 2 year old little boy for looking at our princess but it was fun." Michael grins. "Shut up." I giggle at how protective they were already. I definitely wasn't going to have to worry about guys when she was a teenager if these dorks have anything to do about it. "Is...is that-" All four of our heads snap to the doorway when we heard a deep voice. Calum. Eyes fixed on the little girl still curled up in my arms. "Yes." My voice is shaky and uneven but I owe this to him. "She's beautiful, bro." Ashton walks over and pats him on the back. Giving him some encouragement. "What's her...does she have a name?" His eyes move to mine. "Nope, she's nameless." Michael jokes trying to lighten the mood but we all just turn and glare at him. "Her name is Luna." I answer him, the tension easing but it still felt like a dark cloud was surrounding us. "I like that." He mumbles softly, a tear falling from his eyes. I've only ever seen Calum cry one time in the 4 years we were together. That was when his dog died. Other than that he is the self proclaimed tough guy of the group. He hardly ever shows emotion. If he's upset or sad, he locks up his feelings, throwing away the key to anyone who tries to see him vulnerable. That's just how he is, or perceives himself to be at least. But if you strip back his tough guy exterior, he's the sweetest guy in the world. I mean, this is the guy that calls his mom almost everyday just to tell her he misses her, The guy that has his big sisters name tattooed on him. The guy that used to bring me flowers every single Tuesday because was that was the day we met on. See Calum is a big softie. He just doesn't let anyone see it. "Would it be okay if I held her?" He asks me timidly. "Of course." I smile, surprised that he even asked. I was so sure that he wouldn't want anything to do with her. She moans softly when I transfer her over to Calum, her tiny eyes fluttering open and melting into his. "Oh my god. She looks like me." He laughs, like music filling the room. "Ya think?" Michael chuckles. "She's so tiny. I feel like I'm gonna drop her." He says holding her closer in his arms. "It'll take time but you'll get used to it." I tell him, a genuine smile forming on my lips for the first time today. "We're gonna go. Thanks for letting us spend time with Lu today, we'll be back for her again soon." Ashton gives me quick hug as he and the guys shuffle out the apartment, leaving just Calum, Luna and I together for the very first time. "So am I going to be able to see her or..." "You really think I would keep her away from you, Cal?" I was offended that he even asked me that. "Well for some reason you decided to keep her form me for this long so I didn't know." He says sarcastically. "If I'm not mistaken, you always told me you didn't want kids." I remind him. "That's before I knew I was a father. This may not have been in my plans and it may have come as a complete shock but that doesn't mean I'm not happy about it. I want to be apart of her life." "Her life?" I was a little hurt he left me out of the equation "Listen, I love you. I've always loved you but I don't know if I can get over this. Its not like you kept a dog from me. I missed the first year of my daughters life because of you." I don't think he meant his words to sound as harsh and bitter as they came out. "I can't take that back, believe me I wish I could but I didn't want you to miss out on all the amazing opportunities you had going for you. So I'm sorry, if I could go back in time and change it I would but that's life. We make choices and we have to deal with them." I don't know if things will ever be the same between us, but I know without a shadow of a doubt that I will always love Calum. I just have to wait and hope he can realize that himself.

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Soon my love! 😘😘😘