I refuse to just 'survive'

At times, life gives you a sudden jerk. You feel so disarrayed and static at the same time. Everything is moving in coloured blurs. Sadness and happiness rush through you. You don't realize when your laughter changes into tears, to the extent that you laugh and cry at the same time. You want to know what's wrong, even when you know there's nothing wrong. You're content with your self but not satisfied. The world is a bubble. Translucent and rising. You feel as if you're free Falling and as if your feet are stuck in cement. Changing the song after hearing it for a minute because you've become that indecisive. There's a dull feeling lulling you in. But you want to feel alive, even when everything around couldn't have been better. You just want to lie down and stare into space, you also want to find something new. Satisfaction is a long lost memory. Because this is what if feels like to me  

So i wanted to type “dying of cuteness” and this happened. I honestly love everyone on this site gives a shit about everyone, whether they’re a blogger, follower and especially the people who created this website

300th time talking to internet friend: YO HOE. GET CHO GAY ASS ONLINE. BRUH. I FUCKING LOVE U.