Neurodivergent Artist

thinking the over thinking

overally social

talking with too many people

cant even brain dump on paper dont eveen know whats in my mind

I am doing amazing and great I do not need to worry the future is not predictable and cannot be changed right now

I rested because my body needed it , its non negotiable

I am so amazing to take good care of myself while I was sick, I was so positive and optimistic that I will get through it while everyone else was panicking and worried.

I carried myself up and this is also working

Keeping myself alive is good enough why do I need to be working and stuff and call that productive?

Everything will be okay I am loved and supported by other and by myself too

I do not need to worry or hurry for anything right now *deep breaths*

I have been struggle to find energy and wash my hair past 3days but today I found movementum and DID IT ! Yayyyy🎉🎉

Consciousnely changing the direction of that voice in our head which tells I am such a bad person, I am not able to do this what will I do in life blah blahhh .... and making it into its okay one task doesn't define me The world will not collapse and I could do it when I have energy

So the whole day I just took care of having food, water, and any bodily requirements

I have been understimulated and I want to do something but at the same time I am overwhelmed and exhausted by everything so I can't do any tasks and forcing anything might further push me into a paralysis

its like my brain is offline since Yesterday

I played with kinetic sand, moulding clay and did a drawing and this was the best thing I did for myself

the next day was so much better with more creativity and initially I started slow with a podcast, coloring book , then a drawing, tried to study didn't worked, watched a amazing Nature documentary it was so nice gave me so much energy that I could do the " business work tasks " after this.

I forget my tasks, my skills, my art, my business things like I just completely forget the existence of it too .....