JUNE 6,2023 π΅π±πͺπΊπ«π·
Exactly 2 years since I left home and my comfort zone. π₯Ή
I'll never forget the sadness I had that day.
Ginawa ko yung sabi nila na "donβt try to look back because you might change your mindβ. Pero ewan ko nag-RELAPSE ako malala nung lumipad na yung eroplano, daming realization at lungkot na hindi ko maipaliwanag. It's like one moment you're fine and then the uncontrollable wave of sadness just hits. π
I know, many people ask me why I left the Europe for Dubai?
Yes, I left Paris, France and Poland not because ayoko lang. Itβs true na maganda yung mga places sa Europe at yung opportunity na meron dun. I know you will judge me, I agree to be judged, pero minsan kasi you have to do what is good for you, not kung ano ang sa tingin ng iba is mas ok sayo or if sayang ba na l give up ung isang bagay.
Believe me, I hit the lowest point in my life, I had no one by my side I faced it all alone. Mixed emotions yung naramdaman ko that time. Alam nyo yung feeling na maganda yung mga tanawin at lugar na pinupuntahan namin pero hindi sya maganda sa paningin ko. Hindi ko maexpain yung sarili ko that time at pakiramdam ko parang nawawala ako sa sarili..dahil siguro hindi ko nakikita ang sarili ko? Ilang beses akong humingi ng sign kay God at pilit kong hiniling yung mga sign na imposibleng manyari pero nangyari. Kaya naiisip ko noon is umalis at magisip ng paraan.
Iβm so thankful na sobra yung support ng family ko nung time na sinabi ko at nag-decide ako na lumipat ng Dubai. Isa din yun sa nagpalakas ng loob ko na gawin yung mga bagay na gusto ko dahil alam kong anjan sila at kasama ko sila sa mga plano ko sa buhay.
Welcome Habibi, Is not my dream country but my destiny brought me here. To be honest, hindi rin naging madali yung buhay ko dito sa Dubai. Iβve disconnected people, not responding to any messages and calls from PH. To disappear for a while, maybe too many things are running in my head (pressure, career, homesick and family). I need some time alone to think at ayusin yung buhay ko dito sa Dubai. Thinking how i have ruined my life by my own wrong decisions. Dumating ako sa point na nagsawa nako humiling kay God ng mga gusto ko, but instead pinag-pray ko na tulungan nya ako harapin ang lahat ng pagsubok.
Hindi ko masasabi na totally stable na ako at matatag pero naniniwala ako na βTake risksβthat's how I grow.β
Sometimes it feels safer to stay where we are, but taking risks helps us grow. When we try new things, we learn and become stronger, even if it's hard or scary. Every step outside our comfort zone helps us become a better version of ourselves.
βTime flies so fast, sooner or later I will leave this country.β and will say βThank you God for making me the bravest version of myself.β
Sa mga tumulong sakin dito sa Dubai, walang sawang pasasalamat po. π«°π»
To my family, thank you so much for all your unconditional love and understanding. Mahal na mahal ko kayo and kasama kayo sa mga pangarap ko. ππ«°π»
Happy 2 years self πͺπ»
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