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“…In some small ways?”

I rolled my eyes, smiling and chuckling, trying to understand what she was intending.

“…Your words reminds me the ones of my lord. You… you are similar to him, to be honest.” Rhadamanthys was grateful to Hades. And nothing mattered to him more than serving the emperor. He was ready to do anything for Hades and the specters, and wanted nothing in return, he only wished to serve the cause. To the point of killing those he loved even.

“He thinks that feelings needs to be pushed away and ignored. I… watch him in every awakening giving them up and becoming more cold and brutal and detached. Even if I know that he does that only… because he fears that the heart will take advantage of the reason. I suppose-no… I know… he’s right on that. I proved this to pretty much everyone I think, with my actions…”

I chuckled. Forgetting that episode was not possible. And I knew very good that the other specters were using it as example to their advantage as it was the most convenient, sometimes supporting it and sometimes laughing at it.

“…but why? Without feelings we become empty. Hollow. We… already are, in a way… should we not try to make good use of and remain loyal to what’s in our heart, with all the infinite time that we got offered?” In that moment, I remembered something. Violate… was speaking like Rhadamanthys now… but I knew that in the end, in the previous life… she gave up to her feelings as much as I did when she cried for lord Aiacos. So… feelings mattered to her more than she was trying to say.

“…Oh Violate, i know too good what means to want serve someone at the best you can. It’s all that I tried to do since centuries. And many many things happened, as a human and as a specter. I saw too much… I saw specters disappearing and other born… I used to dream of that. The fairytail you know?”

I stopped, laughing a little and blushing before continuing.

“I was brought to him to be at his side. To serve him. In my very first life. And things have been like that more or less in all the others that followed. But then… i learned that it will never be possible for that fairytail to become real. Because lord Rhadamanthys made a choice. And so I had to make mine too and give up something. And I don’t regret it at all: I am fine with sacrificing my frivolous dreams if it means that I can remain at his side and make sure that I can keep him safe. You can say that we are not very similar, but from my point of view, we really are. We actually all are... lord Rhadamanthys is following his loyalty, you are following your gratitude... are they not feelings from our heart?”

I tilted my head and walked closer to Violate, smiling at her.

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@celestialsolitudestar

“…In some small ways?”

I rolled my eyes, smiling and chuckling, trying to understand what she was intending.

“EH?! NO! ... Yes? Well... no. I mean...”

I sighed while pushing back my hair, away from my shoulder. She was as loyal as me I was sure of it but... are we so loyal for the same reasons?

“...There is a lot more than that. I... can’t deny things I feel... or things happened... but... I admire him. So much, you see, Violate? He’s really so pure. So noble! When he’s near you, you feel safe and strong... his devotion, his will, his obsession in becoming like those heroes in the novels... is fascinating. He makes you feel like a defenseless princess meanwhile him, the great knight, slays the evil dragon just with his sword and then you get married and live happ...!”

I stopped and blushed, scratching my cheek. That sounded a very bad example... but I hoped the concept passed anyway.

“But... I am not pushed to do what I do and believe what I believe because I want to have his heart for me. He’s a man worth every effort that you can do. Believe me, I know that for sure and Sylphid and Queen and everyone in our division knows it too!

However, you can say that mine is a very personal case... what I want the most is to see him safe. I want him to be good. I... i was always with him and I watched Rhadamanthys giving up a big part of him, life after life, for this cause.... I can’t make him change mind... so what pushes me is to want to protect him... from evil and pain.”

I sighed again, looking the floor, fascinated almost as if i could see my judge’s reflection inside, with a tiny smile on my lips. I remained silent for probably minutes in thinking of him...