Void Weaver

i cannot hate myself into a version of me i will love.

i cannot punish myself in any way that will unmake the past.

they hate me for my flat facial expressions and inability to contribute to conversations

ever since i was a little girl i knew there was no hope for me

what doesnt kill you makes you sit on your floor wondering why you’re doing all this

Being overstimulated is such a weird thing to explain to people. Like "hey sorry, I'm not mad at you and this is nobody's fault and I'm not blaming anyone for it happening, I am aware this is a part of regular everyday life but I am mentally crumbling because There Have Been Things Happening nonstop for 5 hours straight back to back with no breaks, and I really need to sit down in complete silence for like 15-25 minutes, after which I will be completely fine and can proceed as normal. But if I'm not allowed to have that, I will resort to violence."

Imagine the level of whimsy I could reach if I just had $5M in my bank account rn

[very clearly indulging the urge] im fighting the urge

built my walls so well so no one can get in but now i can’t get out either

i have to feel weird and unsure of everything forever #thecurse