Void Weaver

i cannot hate myself into a version of me i will love.

i cannot punish myself in any way that will unmake the past.

something important to remember is that there's always time. if you lost many years to abuse or mental illness, you will get a chance to live life on your terms. there is no limit on the age you have to be to achieve goals. you can go back to school at 30, or switch careers at 40. you can start new hobbies at any age. there is no cut off age for being happy and content. if you're trapped right now, you will get the opportunity to become who you want to be.

they hate me for my flat facial expressions and inability to contribute to conversations

ever since i was a little girl i knew there was no hope for me

what doesnt kill you makes you sit on your floor wondering why you’re doing all this

Being overstimulated is such a weird thing to explain to people. Like "hey sorry, I'm not mad at you and this is nobody's fault and I'm not blaming anyone for it happening, I am aware this is a part of regular everyday life but I am mentally crumbling because There Have Been Things Happening nonstop for 5 hours straight back to back with no breaks, and I really need to sit down in complete silence for like 15-25 minutes, after which I will be completely fine and can proceed as normal. But if I'm not allowed to have that, I will resort to violence."

Imagine the level of whimsy I could reach if I just had $5M in my bank account rn

[very clearly indulging the urge] im fighting the urge

built my walls so well so no one can get in but now i can’t get out either

i have to feel weird and unsure of everything forever #thecurse